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    I guess this is my last post on EP.

    Never thought this day would come, but here it is. No more ranting and raving about what's happened, nothing will change that now. I am grateful to have been a part of this journey for several years. I have made good friends and shared my heart with some of you; something i...
    hardbargain hardbargain
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 21

    Why is EP so nasty this last days?

    I tried to download my files here and the most important and the top reason why I want to download is because I want a copy of the conversations/messages from one of the members here that is now my best friend and it's not even there. I'm so annoyed and sad. Why is EP being...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Apr 20

    My hair has gotten rather long,

    it gets in the way now. I need to feel your hand brush it back, as I gaze down at you. My thighs straddling your hips. Brush it back, then lace your fingers tightly through it. Pull me down to your mouth. Let me taste you. Angle my head to bite and suck my neck, as I maneuver...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    The road ahead.... She stood there.

    . Unable to see the road ahead.. Fears, doubts came running from behind and pushed her hard. She fell down.. but slowly stood up again with all her strength.. Yet she was unable to see the road ahead.. Was it bcoz of the thick fog or her own tears clouding her eyes.. She wanted...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

    Yes, to my core, I need sex.

    It is not just a craving, not just a desire. It has been and possibly will be a lifelong need, since I was young...but there are days when I would settle to just feel Your flesh against Mine. Skin to skin not being naughty, just being together. Searing the memory of how we feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    We look for people we've lost in a sea of

    unknown faces We hear them in the voices of strangers We look at everyday objects and remember the memories The ones we've loved The ones we've lost They will never leave your heart, because that is how strongly you have loved them. They will remain, forever imprinted.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 8

    Her thoughts raced like rain drops down a

    window clashing together. He was everywhere. His aquamarine eyes dancing in her mind. She saw him in the sunrise. Vibrant colors conflating as they danced across the early morning sky. He was her elysian paradise. An escape from the harsh winds of reality.
    littlerayofsunshine666 littlerayofsunshine666
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 16

    If you could be the opposite gender

    for just one day, what would be the first thing you'd do, or want to do? And what else would you want to do before your time was up?
    hardbargain hardbargain
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 19

    I feel the breath of a whisper from your lips

    upon my skin Though you are a thousand miles away I hear your voice solid and strong echoing in my mind Even when I am surrounded by silence I taste your skin as I kiss my way to your lips While alone in my bed My fingers curl through the air Remembering the texture of your...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    "Loves true torture" My mind is never quiet,

    while my thoughts create a major riot. Pondering things unknown and never seen, always wishing for loves glittering gleem. For whom do I seek, and why to her can i not speak. Around the masses i must sneak, simply to kiss her upon the cheek. Hold her in my sweet embrace, to this...
    LovablePoetLee LovablePoetLee
    36-40, M
    12 Responses Jul 29, 2015

    I trust. I feel. I love.

    Somewhere along the way I learn about doubts. Inconsistency and some discrepancy triggers it. Even the slightest simplest of things that don't add up can push me to back off and turns into the most negative of thoughts and feelings. I miss those times that I have my full...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 13

    For My Fellow Man

    Like so many of you, I am trying to sell myself like a ***** to a company that will discard me like the ***** I am when they’re done with me. I will function in the hive complex, aspiring to achieve a meaningless title in a company..so that I can live a life of comfort. This is...
    SilenceEvermore SilenceEvermore
    22-25
    15 Responses Feb 28, 2013

    It's easy to make everyone laugh

    and smile and all that, but I wish I had someone to do the same towards me. I know my family and friends love me, but it seems that when I'm down no one's around to make me smile. No one even knows that I'm dying on the inside. No one knows I even have problems.
    fsu157 fsu157
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 21

    I don't run first sign of trouble.

    I've been trough hell back and again to walk with enough finesse and hold hands with the grim reaper. The eyes of darkness have stared right into my soul but I refuse to blink first and lower my own searing gaze. I am the mother of hardened heart and darkened grace. I am my own...
    itsinmydna itsinmydna
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 6

    This time of year makes me wish,

    Of a person that I don't yet know. This one will make the pain go away, Love me for the one true person I am. My flaws, insecurities and all the great things too, Someone to make me feel complete. For those of you that have that already, Be thankful that you have someone...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 23, 2015

    certain of uncertainty getting fkd by the

    disease i deny but love secretly waking up and preaching myself to stay away from the end wrapped around in disappointment how insane to betray myself each day and embracing death slowly and so joyful about it this cursed cage created for myself to play and delude...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 20

    A few weeks ago my wife

    and I had the unexpected opportunity to have dinner alone. At the last moment our kids had made last minute plans and would be away for the night. We usually can't agree on much but we can always agree on this one particular restaurant. It's a little mom & pop hole in the...
    SirLaughalots SirLaughalots
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    It's been almost 2 years

    since I started my journal, and I'm so glad I did it! It's my main way to let out emotions, get things straight for myself. I'm terrified someone might read it haha because it contains some pretty deep stories
    Losimia Losimia
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 16, 2015

    truth awaits you in silence for you to

    communicate through isolation takes it's toll the twisted realization about the ghosts your past's eulogies to you repeating the deaths, neverending show guilty of running, chasing distractions to fool and pretend that we have some control mental scars, wounded souls...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 18

    Sad inspirations to know some beautiful souls

    go wandering through their homes, untouched, unknown in all their glory, unseen by eyes closed by time. Once we were all sought after and enjoyed in delicious splendor, now so many, too many with gorgeous needs unmet by ones who say, "I love you." Oh, that I could save us all...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2015

    Soul-Mates! ……you are singing i can hear

    you relaxing you are, as i’m doing too i’m simply human you are eternity your waves describe the meaning of life, with it’s ups and downs & the ones in between… poly shaped, strong , tempting , intense …. our essence is the same though we both want freedom we both...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 27, 2015

    too focused on past's deaths no wonder the

    dreams of being alive searching for our souls in the jaded crypts of life should hide from all the suffocating, absurd noise away from daily rituals of nothingness emulating some fckng life this living is making us dead inside afraid of death, afraid of life cursed...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 9

    I dreamed you messaged me Like you used to

    do The chime of the messenger Seeped right through I reached for my phone There was nothing there Just a blank screen Why did I care?
    squizz5 squizz5
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Sep 18, 2015

    I drive him crazy. He loves me.

    I make him mad. He loves me. I make him worry. He loves me. He drives me crazy. I love him. He makes me mad. I love him. He makes me worry. I love him. This is far from perfect, but no one ever said love was perfect.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    the danger of feelings.

    the basic problem... share them and make others miserable with the "unreasonableness" of it all. be told that your feelings are simply wrong or that they are selfish. that you just see things wrong. the listeners get frustrated and the sharer feels like hell because now...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Apr 6

    A Scene From The Twilight Zone

    Today was a special day, my first day on a new job. Doing something that would be rewarding and please me. Lets call her Alice, my new boss. One of the "must-do" was never to smoke while I was there for any reason. No problem, I don't smoke that much to worry. Then it was do not...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    20 Responses Mar 21, 2013

    I didn't start out looking

    for you but I'm glad I found you. I walked into the store and there you were over in the corner. You were hot and looked incredible. You didn't see me but I saw you. I knew right then I had to have you so I made the first move. The closer I got to you the faster my heart...
    SirLaughalots SirLaughalots
    36-40, M
    7 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    My Forgotten Passion

    I had lost it somewhere, between here and there.  The words no longer came like they once had. Maybe I was lacking the passions I once had. I missed writing and the passion it brought out in me for my love, my life, and my existence. My whole existence numbed and became merely a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    15 Responses Dec 15, 2011

    A few weeks ago I was talking with a friend

    and she made a statement that made me think about some hard times in my life. I'm not sure what we were texting about or why but she said, "I'm glad for the tough times in my past because it's made me who I am today". It also reminded me of a story I read many years ago. I...
    SirLaughalots SirLaughalots
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jul 6, 2014

    Don't be sad my lady Let me make you smile Move

    over next to me I'll distract you for awhile
    squizz5 squizz5
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 28, 2015

    no more green dot... the only way I was able to

    tell when you woke up... since you often ignore me. At least I could see your stupid green dot and know you were alive. no more green dot... messages being whispered behind my back...secrets exchanged under the guise of "words on a screen" no more green dot... no more of my...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1
    36-40, F
    Apr 20

    About Myself Hi. I want to tell you about

    myself . I got many mail who were asking me whether i am a female or man or fake etc etc . This is for them. My real name is Riya sharma and i am 28 year old now ok. I am from calcutta , India. I am married and i am housewife. My husband is bussiness man who works in howrah. I...
    riyaasharma riyaasharma
    36-40, F
    17 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    this guy is japanese,

    she is chinese,they met Shanghai,he had a dark past and trouma(his ex gf fell in love with his best friend and they got car accident,his ex died.his best friend got bad damage, but still alive.since that day, he can't have passion for anything,he used to love his work, he design...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8

    I'm a petite girl at a height of barely 5 ft.

    Sometimes I'd have trouble reaching for stuff. I remember the time I was with a couple of friends and was trying to reach for something that was placed too high. On my tiptoes, I strained, trying in futility to reach for what I wanted. My friends laughed, watching me attempt...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 28

    Words fail again, cannot express in words,

    cannot even name the feeling.. Trying to reach out to the words, yet nothing.. Seems to have taken off somewhere, disappeared.. Like the dismay in a child's eyes who doesn't know how to utter a word, who expresses either in laughter or tears, i stare at the feeling then at the...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 22

    EP Trolls

    I don't mean to be rude with what I am about to say, but I think I have to say it. I apologise if someone gets offended in advance. I am quite sick of people judging my and others' stories and questions. I joined this website because I felt a certain freedom in expressing my...
    cherrytomatoes cherrytomatoes
    26-30, F
    11 Responses Jun 2, 2013

    I heard that the real reason

    why EP is closing down is found here http://adf.ly/cnCXg
    genuine123 genuine123
    36-40, F
    Apr 21

    Some grasp at straws,

    hoping that one would give them an answer They despair every time they still find themselves lost But you can't expect the answers to be written there clearly All you can do is gather all those straws and figure out for yourself, what they spell out.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    Apr 6

    behind my back there is a monster reveals

    itself on dark silent nights preaching sinful fantasies back of my mind my beating heart and restless soul testifies, my condition my secret tendencies i have kept hidden inside blood in my eyes, sinking in the fire burning away, making me forget this hunger to faint and...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 17

    My tears and the rain dance together.

    No one can see my pain inside the clouds.
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1
    36-40, F
    Apr 21

    I love artistic people,

    and knowing what i don't know always stimulate my brain. People say Life is short,don't take it seriously.and travel the world. well i am the one who can not afford to travel the world for some personal reasons,but i believe journey is..Life journey is.. not only about going to...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    Apr 5

    I am torn, between the desire to forget because

    of the pain and the desire to cling, because I don't want to let you go.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 14

    is it possible to fall

    for someone online? many says, I love you or I have fallen for you after quite some time talking online but.. is it really possible to fall for someone whom you haven't met? If it's just pure chatteing/messaging. No voice or video calls. Would it be possible? Have you fallen...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 11

    Tonight in solitude I sit.

    Desiring a touch that only a true lover can bring to me. Someone's who's touch drives me wild with unbridled desire. A breath on my neck a subtle kiss then a bite. Hmm this is what I want to feel... Bring it to me like only you know how. I'd love to collapse under your touch...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 29

    You know what your problem is?

    You're smart. Too smart. You over think, because your mind moves at a million miles a minute.. You're sad, because you're not fooled by the world like everyone else. You don't get along with most people, because they just don't look at things the way yo do. You think you're dumb...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2015

    feed on good moments and live the rest in

    misery thinking about those days when we were away from questioning and judging everything in our minds having some joy, even just by looking at the sky run and get consumed by the idea of a perfect life dream and suffocate yourself and call it life is it this race to...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 12

    He who befriends distance

    and silence shall never be lonely again.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    Hearing of Prince's death today made me

    thinking. Life is Too Short. If you have a dream, Go for It! If you love someone, Tell them. If you want to do something, Do It Life is too short my friends and throughout my experiences in the last 15 years I have noticed that if you don't do something about it you may regret...
    poetz13 poetz13
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 21

    I am a naturally strong person.

    I have always been physically, mentally, and emotionally so when things fall apart I used to put on a face so no on would see my weakness. I would laugh through it and pretend it's no big deal or simply say that it doesn't bother me. I don't think I was trying to hide my...
    SirLaughalots SirLaughalots
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    My muse for writing is sometimes a man.

    The one that I love. The one that meets my needs, Without holding my hand. I think of him and passionately write. Considering the ideas Our minds put into play, Measuring pleasure throughout the night. More often though my muse is my body. Speaking its needs in my mind...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 30, 2015

    To feel your warmth surrounding me To trace

    your lips with mine Whispered words, in my ears Soft kisses, on my neck To feel the heat from your body, Enveloping mine Imagining the different sensations All that I will never feel on my skin
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    Apr 11

    violent whispers burning what's left of

    me telling me to witness my naivety my wish to dream and sleeping in a fantasy open my eyes and watch myself consumed by my precious disease behind the curtains my enemy smiling at me i knew the outcome but i still kept running obscure masochism to run and delude...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    Apr 11

    I Like My Work.

    Someone asked me what I do for a living. The following is a letter I wrote telling him a little about my work history. He told me it is a  great story and would make a good movie. I laughed and said that it would gross fifteen cents at the box office. I said I could prove it. I...
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    32 Responses Jan 7, 2012

    Another original story

    that I have written. :) How to Become A succubus: Chapter 1: The Deal “Pale fingers traced the curve of her lips, beastly golden orbs gazed directly into her innocent violet eyes, breathing heavily she was in a trance the man-like beast before her smirked at her innocent...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen
    22-25, F
    Apr 3

    Smile Don’t be scared of new beginnings,

    Everything’s replaced in another form Even if everything is washed away There’s always regrowth after a storm.
    squizz5 squizz5
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 21

    have you ever been to the bar of broken

    dreams surrounded by the ones with fckng broken hearts how can you understand and feel their pain when you're lucky enough not to have a hole in your heart ones who sacrifice their sanity, without any shame reviving death everyday just to feel alive even when they smile...
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 6

    Angry tears burn in a way

    that anguished tears don't. Leaving acidic track marks as a sign you have been truly broken. Fury emanates from every fiber of the being...eating you up, scorching and destroying until the humanity you had is consumed with hateful rage. You try to suppress it; align the outer...
    Saintlysinner Saintlysinner
    31-35, F
    18 Responses Feb 2, 2015

    I'm losing interest..

    . in almost everything. It's like, it doesn't matter anymore. I don't know if it's just my mood today but I feel like I'm not going anywhere. I'm not moving forward nor backwards or sideways (lol). I'm just staying at the same place, not moving. It's like I'm lost and...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    Woody6 Woody6
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 6

    AWOL

    I always have a story in me. I wake up with stories and I go to sleep with stories rattling around up there. But maybe they aren’t stories so much as they are emotions that are trapped, have nowhere to go, banging against the confines of whatever constitutes our imagination and...
    Quintesse Quintesse
    51-55, F
    13 Responses Jul 13, 2013
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