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I Failed At Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 186 People

    After leaving a job I was unhappy at I got a job

    as a case manager at a mental health agency I had always wanted to work for. However it wasn't all it was cracked up to be all my co workers were petty and backstabbing and my boss was overly critical and would call me into her office everyday to hen peck me over the silliest...
    mamahanna2011 mamahanna2011
    26-30, F
    Jan 11, 2014

    This day, 3 years ago I made the decision

    that I wanted to die. I have been in therapy for 3 years, and nothing has changed. I have been on medication for 3 years, and all it has done is make me emotionless. I failed at doing what I wanted the most; to die.
    abernesskraek abernesskraek
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2015

    Two days ago I just decided to end it all.

    I was so exhausted with life and always having to be the one who was always ok and always there even though Noone was ever there for me. Even when I had a 'bad' day everyone always tells me to get over it and be happy. without even asking what was wrong. So I took 2 bottles of...
    BlackRowan BlackRowan
    22-25, T
    Nov 10, 2015

    I Failed. Then I Got Cancer.

    My only attempts at suicide were cutting my wrists. Cutting your wrists, to the point where it can actually kill you, takes some guts. Petty cutting won't do much except gain attention from others, or an infection if you're lucky. I enjoyed cutting. I cut deep. I knew I was in...
    imageek2013 imageek2013
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 14, 2013

    Why Is Life So Hopeless

    i being feel like cant live since i was 14 i tried so many times i nearlt tied on couple occasations last one i was in coma for 7 weeks and my family told if i was found 1 hr later i would be dead how unlucky i wih i was dead i feel hopeless like no point to carry on everyone in...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 29, 2011

    I've failed at suicide

    so many times it's unreal. My depression keeps coming back and lately I've had more and more urges to do something about it. I've ran in front of cars, tied a noose, tried suffocating myself, cutting my wrists, etc yet nothing has worked. Every morning for the past few days I've...
    chrisbolackawana chrisbolackawana
    22-25, M
    Mar 9, 2016

    So Scared

    Of course I failed. Who would guess that a direct shot to the heart would deflect off a rib and tear up my insides? My doctors are still amazed I survived the damage and blood loss. I was never suicidal until that day. I swear it. Never thought of pulling a gun on myself...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2012

    Celexa Is An Awesome Anti Depressant!

    I attempted suicide at 18 by swallowing a bottle of aspirin.  It was impulsive after losing a job.  Since it was impulsive, I just spent the 48 hours in the hospital then the mandatory 72 in psych ward and then was released.  I don't ever remember being given meds...
    Celexalover Celexalover
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2009

    Nearly Hanged Myself

    Immigrated to USA, everything was good until we moved in our mother in law's house on her requested. after few months I got so depressed because I'm stuck at my mother in law's house - not because we can't move out but because my wife want to stay there. her mother kept drinking...
    almost2013 almost2013
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 14, 2013

    Sleeping Pills

    I was 19 years old and didnt get into the college my family hoped for didnt get in the line of my brothers and sisters.....the pressure was so much ... my girlfriend for 5 years dumped me that didnt get into ivy league as she did get in.My cousins ignored me my siblings avoided...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 7, 2011

    Almost A Year Later.

    On Valentine's Day of 2012. I had made several attempts from the month previous to the evening/morning of Feb 14th. I was finally taken into police custody on behalf of my university. I was taken off campus to be evaluated at a general emergency room then put into restraints and...
    juneauxmoon juneauxmoon
    26-30, M
    Feb 10, 2013

    Failed And Glad

    I have a lot of health issues and just stopped taking the antidepressants when my mom had surgery. I just lost it and couldn't take the pain and hurt from my sister. I took 75 vicodin and 25 sleeping pills and alcohol went to sleep. I woke up 16 hours later and couldn't believe I...
    glad1392 glad1392
    51-55, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2012

    My Head Feels Like Its Gonna Explode......

    Having been abused as a child in numerous ways both mental and physical.......I can no longer cope with the flashbacks and memories of such a time. A couple of months ago it all got too much and I (attempted!!!) to take my life....I failed. When I woke up the following evening...
    l303 l303
    22-25, F
    Mar 30, 2013

    I Attempted Today 11/12/2012

    I attempted to end my life today. Reason? I'm just exhausted being me. I've been dealing with off and on depression for the longest now. And today, I just wanted it over. I took a bath and tried to drown myself. I resurfaced, three times. Then I started to cry. Not because I was...
    AceMoni18 AceMoni18
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 12, 2012


    what happens if I take sleeping pills in a large enough quantity but still wake up? I heard it can result in organ failure which would suck balls. or if you only pass out from strangulation? would u wake u with brain or body imparement? if I did take my own life, I am looking...
    damonclarkej damonclarkej
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 10, 2012

    I Tried. Im Glad To Be Here.

    It's been a hot summer, even worse at work. I work at a store that makes sandwiches and the ovens are always way too hot, it makes you dizzy. We had also been on high alert because we were due for inspection and wanted to pass. I have only been working there 6 months but I had a...
    sarahbrown7219 sarahbrown7219
    26-30, F
    Aug 4, 2013

    Daily Thoughts Of Suicide

    We all have a past, some worse than others. But it's all about that individual and how they perceive how to handle what is going on around them and how they want to overcome their struggles. Some branch out and become independent and find themselves. Others feel victimized...
    QuietGirl24 QuietGirl24
    Dec 23, 2012

    I tried to kill myself through means of a

    vehicle twice. I once tried to jump out of a moving car while I lived in Santa Barbara. I was saved by my cousin who grabbed me before I tried jumping out. I also tried to walk in front of a moving car that was speeding in front of my house. My brother saved me that time. Both...
    RuthAnnLopez RuthAnnLopez
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2014

    I Keep Waiting For The Suicidal Thoughts To Leave

    Let's see, today is February 4, so I'm two months and two days away from the third anniversary of my(first) attempt. When I talk about suicide I almost never talk about the two times I have tried since. I suppose it's because with that first one I really did die. My body's still...
    briscoe briscoe
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2012

    On September 3 this year I intentionally

    overdosed. I was found too quickly and forced to survive. Now I'm stuck trying to figure out WTF to do with my completely destroyed life. I have nothing left. I feel hollow. My friends are already sick of me I guess...they've all vanished. They want to distract me from all...
    amberdark amberdark
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    I Didn't Know What I Was Doing

    I'm 27, and I can't seem to get my feet of the ground in my chosen field. I work in the film industry but I'm not good at networking which is a huge disadvantage. I've done several successful projects but not enough to support myself. When I'm not working I fall in depression...
    BreakofDay BreakofDay
    31-35, F
    Jul 30, 2013

    Sleeping Pills, Painkillers, And A Razor Blade

    I don't know what's more annoying: wanting to die, or actually trying to die only to wake up not dead and having to deal with the consequences of a failed suicide attempt. I don't know why I suddenly decided to kill myself, I just did. I've tried to kill myself before, but I...
    zqxqx zqxqx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2012

    Hunting For A Shark

    I slit my left thigh and arm open with a razor blade as deep as I could. I then began to swim into the ocean near my home hoping for a shark to end my misery. This happened around 2 a.m. a couple nights ago. I swam out as far as I could hoping I'd at least drowned myself. Before...
    xanax4fr33 xanax4fr33
    Nov 25, 2012

    A Blurred Intent

    It’s difficult to pick a beginning point. I had been in my third year of university, and was taking on a difficult major (it fits my personality type to challenge myself). During this particular year, I began getting panic attacks from the pressure. I began self medicating...
    jfer1382 jfer1382
    31-35, M
    Jul 28, 2013

    ...been going at it for.

    ..awhile. this is the first time i've actually admitted that they've been attempts. i usually just say...oops! i swear it was an accident!...most folks like some recognition for their failed attempts...i've tried my very best to hide them since i was very young. now its been ten...
    FindingLight FindingLight
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2014


    March 13 I felt the lowest I ever have I had been sick and tired feeling really week for about 2 weeks I wanted to talk one of my best Ep friends but it felt like she was pushing me away lately so I felt there was know one who would want to listen to me moan about how I am so I...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn
    22-25, M
    15 Responses Mar 16, 2011

    I Think I Will Do It !

    I had many atempts in the past but didn't succeded.I gues I didn't want hard enough and hope was still in my mind.The most near to succes atempt was when I took 38 sleeping pills, I slept one day and a half and when my parents woke me up I was shocked I could not believe I was...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Dec 15, 2008

    Suicide Failure

     Hi  I tried to take my life three years ago,  things were going very wrong with the partner at the time and I lost my best friend.  I felt I had no-one to turn to and I could not see the point of living. I was on the anti-depressant Lustral (Zoloft in the...
    LondonCalling LondonCalling
    26-30, M
    8 Responses Apr 24, 2008

    I Stole My Mom's Euthanasia Drugs

    I'm not gonna go in depth, but the last two years after I've developed schizophrenia i've been through hell. The feeling of emotional flatness was just too much. The only thing I feel apart from that is anxiety. So I had come with the perfect way to end my life. I would go into...
    anotherdot anotherdot
    18-21, M
    Jan 19, 2013

    It Has Now Been 10 Years Since I Tried To Kill Myself.

    I have since been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder resulting from what could be classified as an 'adverse childhood experience' that lasted until I was 19 years old. At the age of 19 with nowhere to go, I joined the U.S. Air Force hoping to make a start to a better...
    Supposed2Bhere Supposed2Bhere
    31-35, F
    Dec 3, 2011

    It Was Annoying

    I am not sure what is more annoying...wanting to die or trying to die only to wake up not dead and dealing with those consequences. What really got to me was the itching. The maddening itching! And my face was numb for two weeks. And then they told me I shouldn't have done...
    Allergic Allergic
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Mar 16, 2011


    i had a really ****** day well year but i carried on in the last 6 months i had been drinking on my own and each time i self harmed but i made the cuts worse each time now i dont drink on my own. but friday i got pushed over the edge with everything going on, i felt worthless...
    shellprewett shellprewett
    22-25, F
    Jan 14, 2013

    I Failed

    about a year ago i tried to commit suicide. it happened when my dad moved back in with us after awhile of him and mum being broken up and i just kept getting lower and lower and one day i took some pills, i guess i didn't take enough and my mum found me and i had to go to...
    TwistedAngel TwistedAngel
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2007

    I Failed, I Want To Try Again... Japan Fml

    I met a boy, we both had others in Japan, he was an exchange student. We became f*** buddies, he said he wanted more, I said okay, we cheated on our others, then we broke up with them, we spent every day together, I became pregnant, he admitted to trying to get me pregnant, he...
    JapanhasFML JapanhasFML
    1 Response Jun 5, 2012

    I've realized just how much of a messed up

    person I am,I attempted again with sleeping pills yesterday night and wasn't successful,I'm just so unhappy with myself and life and I don't feel it will improve, I don't want to be alone and struggle for the rest of my life I spent the majority of my day sleeping and my...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Nov 28, 2015


    I failed, a few times, but why???
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12
    Oct 15, 2011

    Sleeping Pills

    Hi all. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety since high school. 2013 has not been very good to me, I was failing out of half of my college courses, was dealing with a lot of emotional stress from failed relationships, and was working 60+ hours a week at my jobs...
    lunatrixxx lunatrixxx
    26-30, F
    May 14, 2013

    Everyday I Think About How Much I Wished I Wasn't Here..

    One year ago i tried to kill myself, i failed obviously, and since then im living in hell. i have a depression and anxiety disorder, i self-medicate using marijuana. i am lonely and angry. I feel like everyday is a struggle. i am so desperate. help me.
    ronnie08 ronnie08
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2011

    Just Like I Failed At Everythng Else

    I failed my suicide attempt just like i fail at everything else i do.  It was April 13, 2011, just shy of one full year ago and i decided that night would be the night.  I already had the rope tied in a noose and tied it around an old beam in my parents garage.  I wanted to...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2012

    Feeling Guilt

    What I have done to wife and children by attempting suicide has left me lost and lonely and am trying hard to fix broken relationships with my family. Don't know who to turn to and I'm feeling a bit down and out .
    dean1007 dean1007
    51-55, M
    Jan 28, 2013
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