I Fake A Smile And Pretend Everything Is Okay

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2016

    I pretend to be happy a lot.

    I'm not. Inside, i'm really ****** up
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    Everyone thinks I m a very positive person

    but in fact I think of killing myself very often. I think I m a good person , look good, have a nice job ( investment banker) but I can never keep a guy. At least the guys I want don't feel the same for me. I feel that life has no meaning or hope - why someone like me is so...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Jun 30, 2015

    To Whom it may concern: I am sorry

    that I have been online, but distant. I have been trying to be able to breathe easier and not be in so much pain. I look away in shame when I'm alone and hide myself. I am sorry to those I have hurt, and those who care. All I am trying to say is that I know I mess up, but we...
    ToukaKirishima ToukaKirishima
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2016

    The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets

    The brightest eyes have cried the most tears The kindest hearts have felt the most pain
    angela9817 angela9817
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 7, 2015

    I do this a lot ever

    since I was a teenager and I will never find happiness
    Emotionalgirl1012 Emotionalgirl1012
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    at school i always smile

    and laugh and stuff but i'm actually really sad and depressed and i just want someone to like me and be their selfs with me and let me be myself with them.
    morgancoppage morgancoppage
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2014

    I have been painting a smile on my face to show

    family and friends that everything is okay for years now. It's a daily routine to laugh and smile on the outside but to cry and die on the inside. I desperately want to tell my family how lonely, depressed and pathetic I feel. I want to tell them that it's so hard for me to get...
    AngelCakes37 AngelCakes37
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 14, 2015

    but deep inside I have no emotions no control

    over the horrible thoughts that circle in my head no feelings.
    NothingsForever NothingsForever
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2015

    I become so good at faking a smile,

    my parents actually believe I'm "okay".
    saigebeck101 saigebeck101
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Dec 4, 2015

    I try to come off as this strong independent

    girl but deep down i hurt EVERYDAY
    livewhilewereeyoung livewhilewereeyoung
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

    I've just been to busy to get out

    that good old all day and night cry so I can move forward. I've been faking a smile and tell everybody, him included, that everything is fine. But it's a lie. A big lie! I'm going to explode if I don't soon find a release. I'm literally exhausted from holding on to all this crap...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 5, 2014
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2016

    Just found EP and so I will fake a smile

    and pretend that everything is okay until I feel safe enough to say more. Hi everyone! :)
    ShadeDoctor ShadeDoctor
    51-55, M
    Nov 15, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 24, 2015

    I'm not generally depressed

    or saying that this is all I ever do but it is something that happens. Anytime I get angry or upset at school I'll normally have an initial blow up before running off to a bathroom or something to calm down where no one can see me. I'll practice in the mirror faking a smile...
    StrawberryPix StrawberryPix
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    Everyone tend to asked me am i okay

    and i said that im just fine dont worry 😌
    Izabxllx Izabxllx
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    Faking a smile to someone you love

    and who loves you is the worst. You know they would want to know but you can't face burdening them :(
    User1039 User1039
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2016

    I smile to make other people happier,

    because even if I can't be, they might as well enjoy it.
    MeganeChan MeganeChan
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2015

    I am like a living barbie.

    So fake, I wanna slap myself left and right. Punch myself right to the face. I always pretend that I'm okay which I'm not. I always crept a smile in my face but its just so hard to make it real because I know that deep inside me, I am not okay. I feel like I'm the worst. Some...
    ThisDame ThisDame
    13-15, F
    Dec 4, 2015

    The truth of the matter is no matter how much i

    pretend, its not going to change a thing. I am 19 years old and i have been through more than most people have in a whole lifetime. It all started in 2008, i was in my second year of high school when i developed an eating disorder. from then on ive been thrown from pillar to...
    Lottiedee Lottiedee
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 22, 2014

    This is me every day everyone thinks I am the

    happiest person in the world but they don't know what is be hide the laughs ,giggles or smiles
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 9, 2015

    I always put peoples happiness,

    wants and needs before mine even though I know every time it bites me in the butt. I end up having a break down and I realize that I need to put my happiness first but I just can't. I guess I feel selfish if I do and I am not quite sure why.
    ijexsi94 ijexsi94
    22-25, F
    Feb 26, 2016

    Honestly, pretending to be happy is

    so hard and it takes all of my energy. My problem though is I can't be sad around friends and family because I don't want to have to explain why I'm sad. It's too much to explain, and a lot to listen to.
    margaretlutheringshausen margaretlutheringshausen
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

    Ppl don't know the real me

    and I won't let them in bc I don't trust them
    Legend1boyy Legend1boyy
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I'm upset Depressed And lonely I feel cold to

    everything right now I'm trying to keep super busy so I don't have to think about what's bothering me I feel like I'm trapped in my own skin My skin is a prison Expectations of others Expectations of life This is what it means to be a Woman, adult, teacher Expectations of...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    **** this im done with it im tired of

    pretending everything ok from now on if ya pîss me off imma let y nkw real quickly
    1LilLefty 1LilLefty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2014
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    Jan 3, 2016

    People always think I'm not serious about my

    depression because I'm pretty & look as if I'm okay. But I'm not, & it hurts knowing you don't have support, just because people rather ASSUME that your up for the attention. >.<" #thathurts
    Shaiunique Shaiunique
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 19, 2015

    Not always but sometimes.

    only way to survive
    allychef allychef
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    I pretend to be oky but I'm just hurt in the

    other side of me.... everything I do or anyone I trust will soon turn back on me... they will start to leave me.... but I'm just pretending that im oky just to be alone in the shadows of everyone.......
    nuryuriana20 nuryuriana20
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2016

    But its notI'm good at pretending to smileMy

    life kinda needs me to smileFor othersThe sad ones smile the brightest
    raptordelta raptordelta
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Jun 20, 2015

    It's amazing what can happen

    when you fake a smile and keep your emotions inside. People think you're the most helpful and happy person in the world..
    Barbarablue7241 Barbarablue7241
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

    So I have a question.

    .. I think j might be depressed but idk here r my symptoms... I feel lonely even tho I know I actually have good friends... I either feel like I have no mood or in sad or mad.... I hate thinks about school and I'm always distracted... I need to motivate myself to do anything and...
    ajoer ajoer
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    I've been sick for add long

    as I can remember, I slept, literally, every moment I could, but everyone thought I was faking it, except for my parents. I don't really blame anyone, back then there was no reason for me to sleep so much, but I was. Since people said I was trying to get out of work, others...
    Youngandsarcastic Youngandsarcastic
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2016

    Like the saying, smile it's easier

    than explain why you're sad.
    exprouser14 exprouser14
    26-30, F
    Aug 2, 2014
    Theamazingroschelle Theamazingroschelle
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    i hate my self... i smile

    and show happiness. But deep down in a ticking bomb
    omgitsmeariel omgitsmeariel
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 23, 2015

    I tell everyone im fine

    and put on a fake smile even tho deep down im slowly breaking down and falling apart
    nevergoodenough98 nevergoodenough98
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 17, 2014

    When life has you down,

    and you feel like nobody understands or relates, you just smile through the tears. Whys do you think we do this as human beings? I think it's because we don't want anybody to know we're hurting whatever the reason may be. It's a coping mechanism. What do you think?
    N8tvcali N8tvcali
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    I went to school like every week

    and I had a rough night. and I had lost a friend so um I was pretty depressed but my classmates/friends didn't know that and they all think I'm this happy person and I'm getting tired of putting a fake smile so that all think I'm ok. I just want to be hugged by someone and...
    march0101 march0101
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    Everyday I soldier on sometimes I manage to

    find things that are special inevitably I screw it up one way or another I'm so used to being hurt abused and ****** over that I more or less self destruct when I have something good proving yet again to myself that I'm a fool and stupid to think someone can make a difference...
    dragoncub dragoncub
    31-35, M
    Nov 15, 2015

    Trust me, when you do,

    it can make someone else who has problems like you feel better.
    Jayscar67 Jayscar67
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Dec 17, 2015

    Its amazing what a fake smile

    and long sleeves can hide...
    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2014

    is right in my world.

    From a very young age I was "programmed" to not show the world what was really going on or to tell the "family secrets". A nuclear bomb will be going off so to speak when the book is written and published!
    youngnoldsoul youngnoldsoul
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2016

    Just because I smile doesn't mean I'm happy.

    I have things in my life that make me happy but I wish I was 18 already. I'm sick of living in this house, I have my friends and extended family who is always there for me and an amazing girlfriend but I'm independent and people don't understand that. People depend on me and...
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    All I am is a bomb waiting to explode.

    My body is digging a grave of emotion that I can't seem to escape.
    APerfectImperfection APerfectImperfection
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2015

    I do this because most people

    that I know only want to make sure you can do your job. They don't want to know your problems.
    Gambler715 Gambler715
    51-55, M
    Jan 3, 2016

    i have been faking smiles

    for the last 8 years (long story) but For the last 3 months, I have been faking a smile so much now just so I dont have to talk about anything. The worst thing is the more I fake the smiles the worse I feel. I'm balling my eyes 90% of the time to the point I dont even leave the...
    Incontiman Incontiman
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 11, 2015

    I have faked a smile every day

    for years. I've got so many secrets that are too painful to deal with. The bad memories over shadow the good ones. Sometimes I do think what if. Life can be cruel but sometimes you have to stay strong for someone else closet to you because they can't be strong for themselves.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    Yes, I can fake a smile.

    ..am good at it. I can be pretentious. I'd been doing it in my real life for years. But I cannot fake myself. (laughs) I am not here to create a bogus persona but I don't hate fake people. I respect that some wanna wear masks. They have reasons and I don't care about it. So if...
    0nOpalsMind 0nOpalsMind
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2014

    I can fake a smile, when behind my sun glasses

    the tears are swelling up in my eyes. I can force a laugh, and pretend to be happy. I can lie and tell myself over and over that I have no more fuuccckks to give, but the one thing I can't do, is pretend that I don't love you....
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 4, 2015
    lovetosee12 lovetosee12
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    I smile...As I listen to other coworkers talk

    about how strong I am.... while inside I'm frantically trying to keep myself together I am at the cross roads of self hatred numbness anger and forgiveness yes I have let go of past hurt but I only asked do you love me....without sex you said yes but sex is a big part of it...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987
    26-30, F
    Nov 20, 2015

    I'm fine are key words

    for I need a hug
    Lilwillbe Lilwillbe
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 30, 2014

    I smile so I can just make people shut up.

    I smile because I'm tired of crying. That's why people don't take me seriously. They see me and HATE me because they think i am so insensitive because im smiling at the world while the world is in ruins. At the same time im suffering from a broken family, not knowing i had an...
    justdontleaveme justdontleaveme
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 18, 2015

    When im sad.... I put on a happy smile When im

    upset.... I chuckle or simply laugh When i get caught crying.... i simply make up a stupid reason why i am crying. but still no one knows how much pain im in... behind a simply smile I also learned to see throught behind people's smile (::(
    V1rus V1rus
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2014
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