I Fake Smile To Hide My Sadness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 30,969 People

    Lots of people here are telling you to learn

    more about yourself. Sure, that's great, but sometimes being lonely really starts to take over the happiness of your life. Plus, it's really hard to trust the websites that set you up with chatting with someone (sometimes we get unwanted pictures. Yay ((enter sarcasm here))). If...
    sahou sahou
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    Each te.ar worse than the next But it never

    stops Every cry bre.aks me even more But it never ends Every fake smile hu.rts even more People say it'll get better but it's only gotten wo.rse
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 11, 2016

    I hate the questions

    so I smile and say I'm just tired cause I know they'll never understand why I find comfort in sadness even though I try break away sadness is always home.
    TomorrowsDreams3 TomorrowsDreams3
    18-21, F
    Aug 22, 2015

    It's sad when your friends can't

    even tell that something's wrong. I just want someone to care.
    JamesCarter20 JamesCarter20
    18-21, T
    4 Responses May 5, 2015

    everyone says I should talk more,

    when I talk I get interupted, ignored, and talked over. People call me quiet, stupid, and a lost cause. A lot of people call me ugly too. They say I'll never get into college. I have straight A's
    soccergamerbv soccergamerbv
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    This is me to a T.I feel like a actress.

    I smile and laugh but on the inside I am weeping and crying manically on the inside
    Enveed Enveed
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    for anyone in this group.

    .. the time is coming near that EP will be frozen.... if anyone and I mean anyone ever needs someone to chat with for what ever reason I will be an ear for you. I don't care what it is about. I will not call you weird or anything no matter what your issues, hobbies, habits...
    joker364 joker364
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 18, 2016

    Here's my story....I got bullied

    for 5 years and I had suicied thoughts so I had to go to a hospitalđź’‰Now bc I got bullied I have to take depredation pills every day I have to take 9 pills that the doctor have međź’ŠI got beat up and a girl pump my inhaler into my mouth 12 times and I passed out and had to go...
    lildragon123 lildragon123
    16-17, F
    11 Responses Jun 15, 2015

    Smiling is always easier

    than explaining why you're sad.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody
    26-30, M
    7 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    All everybody else wants you to do is change

    or be perfect for other people. What have i done and what have i become?!
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    Nothing special. I prefer doing this

    rather than giving bad vibes to people around me.
    BittersweetRose BittersweetRose
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    i like to be around other people

    but people dont want to be around me. they ignore me. they make me feel lonely. ive learned to walk my own path. a path of solitude. life is like a game to me. an mmorpg. i choose to be a soloplayer. a soloplayer until people start to except me for whome i am.
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2016
    roseannacarvey roseannacarvey
    66-70, F
    19 Responses May 3, 2015

    Dear Future Husband, I haven't written to you

    in a while, I'm sorry. Well, the thing is, Christmas is coming up. I can't help but feel sad, you know? It's the season where family come together and we're supposed to be happy and all that stuff. Oh gosh, I'm crying. I'm all alone here on the other side of the world. I still...
    AlexisOwO AlexisOwO
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    But then the dark night comes

    and the sadness keeps me awake and I just wish I knew how to stop my feelings... I wish I could turn off every feeling that make me sad and I could just sleep.. Like normal people.. I wish I could talk to someone without feeling like I bothered them.. And I wish someone would...
    Coreyboy01 Coreyboy01
    16-17, M
    6 Responses Mar 16, 2015
    saaddgirl saaddgirl
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Mar 10, 2016

    When I go out in public,

    I basically have to put on this smiling mask of fakeness everytime. Hence my dislike for public places. I hate being in public not only because of this faked friendliness, but also because I'm kinda afraid of people. I can't even halfway explain why and how and so on, I just am...
    crackedwriter crackedwriter
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2015
    Ttlicious1 Ttlicious1
    51-55, F
    Apr 12, 2016

    I wish I could tell my friends how I truly feel

    but I don't like them to see me as this depressed boy
    willazrael willazrael
    22-25, M
    8 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    I can smile all I want

    but your eyes speak for you
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 11, 2016

    Guys only care about me

    when they can have sex with me,nobody care what's on my mind,what makes me smile or cry
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    I'm breaking apart, the pressure of my mom is

    affecting me too. I don't want my depression to come back, It took me many years to get rid of it... I don't want to go back where I started.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2016

    Who else hides there emotions with a smile?

    I do it all the time...life is hard
    livelaughlovechild livelaughlovechild
    18-21, F
    9 Responses May 2, 2015

    I am in pain... Alone.

    .. I talk to hundreds a day. Smile, keep smiling, but no one knows my solitude. I am a nice person, I do for others, keep doing for others. The more I do for others the pain stays away and the numbness kick in. Help here and there, but when the day is done I have no one.
    runrun77 runrun77
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    Hi there, I am in need of some advice.

    I am in a very new relationship with a man that suffers from depression. I knew this going into the relationship. I can see the amazing person he is hiding under this terrible illness He is always saying things like "I'm not good at this" and I'm sick or broken". I feel...
    shmenny392 shmenny392
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Mar 19, 2016

    forever being put second by the person

    that means everything to you, you give them your all but they just don't appreciate what you do for them. they think you're lying and that you don't love them but the truth is they're your life and you don't know where you'd be without them. they're your rock and what makes you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    fake smile which can remove tension of another

    person regarding fake smile person
    Anjalibhasin Anjalibhasin
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2016

    why do people cry. why do i cry?

    i dont understand. even if i smile at people they dont pay attention to me. they ignore me. my very existence. thats the scream of my heart and soul. why do think i chose the username i did. sorry if im rude right now. im freaking tired.
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    Mar 11, 2016

    Me: 'I miss you' The other person: 'Ok' .

    .. Oh I'm sorry for missing you
    UnusualFrosch UnusualFrosch
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    This is what I have done

    for more than 20 yrs now. I am the best at faking my pain and sadness. I will put on that fake smile and make fake conversation just to try to feel as normal as the others around me. It's an extremely lonely world and the feeling of being misunderstood is sometimes overwhelming...
    LisaRenee1969 LisaRenee1969
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2016
    youngadult25 youngadult25
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2016

    Have you ever felt so lonely?

    Even though I'm surrounded by people every day - at work, at the gym, at the store....I feel so lonely. Like no one in the world gets me, & no one ever will. How many times have I heard, "you're such a great person, you'll find a great guy soon". If I'm so great, then why am I...
    ohgirl5 ohgirl5
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Sep 21, 2015

    everyday of my life..

    . I'm everyone's friend and everyone sees me as the Happy person that I am... but deep inside I'm Lonely. I listen to music so I can escape and I talk to myself to clear my thoughts...
    Nobody1415215425 Nobody1415215425
    16-17, M
    Apr 9, 2016

    Today in my health and social class I did

    nothing I felt like just ending everything right there and then and walking out and just crying self to prices but I still tried to put my smile on my face until my teacher kept me behind and I just cried and cried talking to her about everything.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Roses are red Violets are blue Sugar is

    sweet And perhaps so are you. But the roses have wilted The violets are dead The sugar bowl's empty Your wrists are stained red The sun isn't shining The sky isn't clear There's no silver lining For you're no longer here Rain keeps on pouring There's no end in sight You're...
    chancieisawesome chancieisawesome
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Sep 4, 2015

    Today has been really rough.

    I keep almost breaking down. A part of me is worried that I can't do this anymore. I don't know what to do
    Blurryface5936 Blurryface5936
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Apr 15, 2016

    LOST THE KEYS INTO THE WOODS .

    We start walking with golden light into the woods With all the hope on that green road . Full of grass and shiny way and into that crowed I am walking too . It's crowded still u have place to dance its so busy still u feel alone I lost the keys into the woods I have to...
    romeowacco romeowacco
    22-25, M
    Mar 14, 2016

    easier to fake a smile

    than explaining why you are sad.
    minnieandyou minnieandyou
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    Hi everyone. I'm a young mother of a 3 year old

    boy. I'm with his dad for almost 5 years. we love each other but things aren't that great. I'm depressive. my life sucks, we're really far from having what we need, we usually yell at each other, then we have that thing we call reconciliation. but nothing's better. i live in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016
    weonfire weonfire
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 23, 2015

    /um for those of you

    who dont know, Kim Jung Eun is the current supreme leader of north korea. I live in South Korea, thank God, yet someone made an instagram account pretending to be kim jong eun and the bio says 'Hi there it is me Kimg Jung Eun supreme leader. Go follow me second account...
    dealingwithlife2016 dealingwithlife2016
    18-21, F
    Apr 17, 2016

    Need advise/ am i doing the right thing?

    Ive been giving my friend the cold sholder because she forgot my birthday BUT thats not it i cant but help feel invisible with her shes nice and brings me with her cause she KNOWS i have no friends but idk right now as im typing i realized im being a loser. Shes the only friend...
    pinkitten18 pinkitten18
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 9, 2016

    I hate my mother because she's always hated me.

    She's a petite 5'0" woman. Maybe 120lbs with an ugly mouth as big and loud as the planet. She's 2 of 7 out of her siblings. Married my dad young in college, and 2yrs later, had me, their first child. Who she's hated since day 1. It's amazing looking back at my life dealing with...
    mlogical mlogical
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Apr 2, 2016

    I don't think that smile can hold much longer.

    The facade will come crumbling down soon enough.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2016

    I can't help but notice how the pain goes

    slowly away. I am so happy for it. Now I know it makes no difference whether a pain is physical or emotional - it does the same trick: the minute it feels a bit better I get happy to feel the difference. When the time passes and I am used to feel no headache, stomachache or...
    lk2015 lk2015
    31-35, F
    Nov 29, 2015

    Yeah, I do that everyday.

    People don't know that I have depression, only a few that I trust. My smiling convinces people that I am a-okay, happy and that everything is fine. But. I always think to myself, yeah if you only knew... It's all fake...*people pass by*. Me: "Hiiii!!! :'D :')". People in my...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2016
    LunaKruna LunaKruna
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 7, 2016

    I have just come back

    and I find this site is closing down very soon.. I'm sadden by this because I need a place to share my thoughts and feelings. I'm tired of pretending to be happy.. Wish me luck, I'll look elsewhere.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2016

    I don't know what to do anymore.

    The last time I asked for therapy or some sort of help my dad thought it was a joke. Probably because I fake my happiness. I think I like it better this way though. Like where no one knows how you feel.
    xxAlexBridgerxx xxAlexBridgerxx
    16-17, T
    4 Responses Mar 30, 2016

    I used to do that...but I can't

    even fake it anymore.
    biancaxxb biancaxxb
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2015

    smiling is useless use ur emotions show them to

    the world. who cares if people see u cry. it seems like pain and heart aches are the only thing im suitible for. just need someone to get me back on my feet. someone worth getting back on my feet for. someone who would stand at my side.
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    1 Response Mar 11, 2016
    newlife1122 newlife1122
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Apr 12, 2016

    because it's easier to fake a smile

    than explaining why you're sad.....
    lovabledoll lovabledoll
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 8, 2014

    Feeling sad and miserable.

    ....i just go away from everyone else
    yayatee12 yayatee12
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 26, 2015
    Lounessa Lounessa
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    The first impression people always say

    when they meet is I am a lovely,accomodating good woman,always smiling and fun to be with.What they dont know is I hide my pain for so long that I learn to mask it it with a smile automatically every time it treathens to resurface. That is what I am good at.Yet,sometimes I wish...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2015

    Sometimes my fake smile comes

    so easily to me that I believe it myself. Until I'm alone and my smile fades away.. then I remember. Or other days I smile while I'm inwardly screaming. I beg with my eyes for someone to see, but everyone looks right through me. Never into me, where a weak girl is trapped...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 15, 2014

    I always wanted things other people were able

    to get so easily (girlfriends, cars, money, millions of friends) but I found myself to be the opposite. One day I realized those people wanted what I was able to achieve most easily (education, career, musical talent, respect, loyal friends, etc) and after those people would...
    mlogical mlogical
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 3, 2016

    20/03/2016 - A lot of people do this

    and I know I'm guilty of doing it. I find that even though I am hurting and sad inside it's so much easier just to fake a smile and say you're okay rather than having to actually talk about what's going on for fear of rejection. Opening up isn't easy for me and past...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2016
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