I Fear a Relapse

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    so i've been sober for 3 months

    and 3 weeks next tuesday that's the longest i have been sober since i started drinking which was when i was 14 and i am almost 22 now. after many attempts of being sober i have never been sober this long..but i don't feel good at all , i'm suicidal everyday, i am curled up in my...
    sabbracaddabraa sabbracaddabraa
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2014

    I can feel it coming again.

    I'm almost back to being 6 months clean. I don't know what else to do. I'm surrounded by people who love me, but it still hunts me. The pain still exists. I carry it everywhere I go everyday.
    NoWordsToSpeak NoWordsToSpeak
    18-21, F
    Apr 23, 2014

    Or Not

    I don't know if I fear it or want it more. Is it really a relapse if I recognize it though? Is it all my own damn fault if I recognize it and do nothing about it? Thing is, I'm convinced this'll all blow over in maximum a few weeks. Not a real relapse, just dipping my toe in the...
    newmurderer newmurderer
    1 Response Jan 15, 2011

    So I've had my share of stupid decisions

    when I was younger. Granted I am only 18, luckily all my charges where when I was a minor. And I'm blessed that I was smart enough to get my head on strait before I became an adult. My drugs of choice are marijuana and alcohol. I figured since I was smarter and more matured that...
    Beano17 Beano17
    18-21, M
    Apr 5, 2014

    Last year I had a 7-8 months period of

    depression. During these months, all I would do is sleep. I rejected all my friends and family. I started taking different pills, anything I could get my hand on.Times where I would literally blank out at a wall for hours, which I would only think were minutes. It's nearing a...
    deepmaroon deepmaroon
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    I Am Currently At "high Risk,"

    Of either.A.) cutting myself. (though I've gone 7 good months.)B.) Cutting the cord of my life. (though I've gone about two years since I last attempted.)C.) Blowing up. (that' right there might be a storm in my house tonight.)D.) Screaming, BLOODY MURDER (because that's what it...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2011

    Haven't been on experience

    for a few months and reading what I used to write and they way I used to see life makes me realise I'm slowly falling back into my old isolated ways📏😔😔
    herebutinvisible herebutinvisible
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 28, 2014

    I'm having one of those days.

    I passed by several liquor stores and that thinking just one time is coming to me. I know I'm testing myself but I'm thinking about getting a shot and drinking it if I go inside the house and someone ****** me off. I know that my home suppose to be my sanctuary but it's very...
    IloveLife14 IloveLife14
    31-35, F
    Feb 23, 2014
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