I Fear Being Fat

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 375 People

    I Can't Be

    i'm terrifide of being fat. i count my calories, eat like 700 calories a day, i'm a real health freak. i want the perfect skinny body. i don't want to be like everyone else.
    enemyinthemirror enemyinthemirror
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2011

    Undereating

    I come from one of those rare families that are actually stable and functional [for the most part]. You don’t know how many times I wished I had a more chaotic family….i was never faced with any kind of hardship. My mom was extremely maternal and sheltered me a lot...
    yoshiesque yoshiesque
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 11, 2010

    Hmmm....

    No-one likes a fat kid..... That's all that's running threw my head at the moment, there are a few issues with the statement though, 1. im not fat. 2. i was never a fat kid, always to skinny. an 3. i'm not a kid?! what's wrong with me? why does it start every time i'm having...
    LillMinx LillMinx
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 1, 2013

    One Meal A Day...

    Sometimes none....Its not that Im anorexic or anything...I just dont like the fact that I eat sooo much, and then get a little belly. I want a flat stomach is all. I really enjoy being tiny. Im 110 pounds and lovin it. And honestly Im not underweight or overweight. Im where im...
    BehindClosedDoors BehindClosedDoors
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 9, 2011

    Fear Is My Lifeline

    I am so scared of being fat...again...I used to be. I was very big. And then so many people told me I was fat. Including my doctor. And something snapped. I have been anorexic for 2 years. When I told my parents and they took me to a doctor, the doctors put me on a meal plan. I...
    allofth3abov3 allofth3abov3
    13-15, F
    Feb 2, 2013

    I Weigh 138 Pounds And I'm 5;2 Does That Say Anything?

    I'm not the thinnest pencil in the box..and people say I'm pretty? I don't see it I'm so scared I'm gonna go over 140 lbs. Again and I never want to I hate myself and I'm scared to wear a bikini in the summer I absolutely hate myself and I'm tired of it! my parents freak out...
    Mbs7682 Mbs7682
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2012

    Diet Frustration

    Why is it so hard to find the right balance? I am wondering this and while doing so I am feeling guilty, as I have just eaten yet another of those 'bad' biscuits. Today I am certainly having a 'bad' day, starting from the morning when I woke up, and had breakfast- the most...
    rose333 rose333
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2009

    Since I Was 13 I Have Lived In Fear Of Getting Fat...

    I remember the day It started. I was helping my mom clean up after a party. I was 13. There were bowl's of junk food. Chip's, candy, chocolate's....normally I would snack on the junk while I would help clean up. I went to grab a hand full of M&M's and then I heard it. A voice and...
    conversegurl75 conversegurl75
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 16, 2011

    The All Mighty Scale

    I fear that I will become fat like everyone else in my family. I am 129 lbs and I barely eat. I am Anorexic and I hate it. I hate knowing that their are people out there who always eat and barely gain weight and I have to try so hard to be just like them!
    schellystarstruckk schellystarstruckk
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 27, 2013

    Keep Smiling

    Trust its in the genes, the quality of food, exercise and check on lipids. At least water therapy, as clearly explained in the experiences here in EP stories by experts, and daily routine of exercises, yoga, swimming and walking certainly wards off unnecessary fat. Most...
    Elitevenkat8kashyap Elitevenkat8kashyap
    41-45, M
    Oct 21, 2013

    One of the Biggest Fears

    I was never fat. but definitely never thin. I was the toughest of my three other sisters. I was the tom-Boy.. the one to take the pain from my dad.. it was just my job.. when  I got older.. I wanted to be better. I wanted to be appreciated. I was anorexic for 6 months and...
    sindayla sindayla
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2009

    My Outlook On Weight

    While I am not overweight, most of the women in my family are very obese. It is something I dread so much I sometimes half starve myself and go on random exercise binges. I have never hit the point where I purge or refuse to eat, but I worry sometimes, especially since where I...
    JustMeXieLi JustMeXieLi
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2013

    Overweight

    I'm middle age and whould like to hear from other women over 50 that are also stuggling with the weight battle.I'm over 150lbs/f,5"7 tall.I'm also on facebook as robynclark with a dancing pig icon
    mrsclark mrsclark
    51-55, F
    1 Response Dec 20, 2011

    Advice After Weight Gain Please

    The last over a year I've struggled with my weight- last year I lost a stone but have slowly put It back on- I am not over weight at all and my measurements have stayed the same, I've gained muscle and become more healthy but I still only eat about 800 calories a day and have...
    Ciarasjen Ciarasjen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2013

    Indeed

    I don't fear it..I feel it.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    Jul 17, 2010

    88lbs .. 40kg

    Invading my brain Like some sort of sick creature Wish I had the strenth To just stop eating completely. To resist the food To lie I try, I really do. I'll last half a day, then will give in to a small snack. I feel horrible when I do that Horrible when Im full Wonderful when I...
    Illlusion Illlusion
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 26, 2011

    And I Fear Fat People

    I would hate to be fat. Point blank. I never, ever want to be fat. On the same note, fat people scare me. Not the fat people themselves, but the thought that I could someday end up like them. I find fatness gross, and it terrifies me. I don't want to be fat. I have fatness in...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

    Never...

    I will never go over 90 pounds even if it meant I will die.I want to be skinny even if it means losing every thing I am sorry but I might as well kill my self if that happens because I would never want to lose you so it means I will never go over 90 I look in the mirror and think...
    rainbowskittlezz rainbowskittlezz
    16-17, F
    Apr 30, 2013

    I Love Math. It Helps Me Count Calories...

    ...and bites. And meal portions... and weight lost. =) Plus, math is related to numbers, and numbers are closely related to money! =) so, yeah, woot woot!
    sodancewithme sodancewithme
    26-30, F
    Feb 22, 2010

    My Fear Of "becomeing" Fat.

    I have always feared of becoming fat. It started when I was 9 years old and frecked out when I was 55 lbs and my friend was 50 lbs. And she was a year younger than me but that did not make a difference. When I was 10 I people were saying how small my friend Bryanna was and I said...
    Punchinginadream Punchinginadream
    18-21, F
    Jul 29, 2011

    Afraid

    My mother has always been overweight. Ever since I can remember.  Not to the point of morbidly obese, although in the recent years she's put on more than she would have liked.  My mom has always been my role model, through everything, she has been there for me, thick and thin...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage
    18-21, F
    Nov 18, 2012

    My Story.

    It all started when i decided i wanted to lose weight i tryed diets but they were hopeless for me then the idea for being anorexic came to my head and ever since thats what i've been trying to do i find it hard to stay in control and not to give in to cravings, i need support, so...
    SkinniWannbe SkinniWannbe
    13-15, F
    Jul 17, 2010

    I Am Fat, But I Still Fear It

    I'm overweight right now, but I fear getting any bigger. Any time my clothes start to be even a little snug, I will cut my food intake and up my exercise. It's morbid, and I get a lot of shocked and disgusted reactions about this, but for motivation I watch obesity documentaires...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 19, 2011

    Every Time

    every time i look in the mirror i see a ugly fat gir who needs to lose some weight. i feel im geting fat and i know im getting fat (my friends dont beleive me)i hate eating i mean i know i need to eat and stuff but its like every time i eat i feel guilty and gross. and i just...
    apml apml
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2012

    I Want To Lose Weight

    i have tried loseing weight but cant i dont no why
    tater1981 tater1981
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 12, 2012

    Alcholic, Overexerciser, What Do I Do

    hey. im 19, in school, and an alcholic. i run everyday for the past couple years and my weight is essentially all that im concerned about. i am so bored with my life that nothing excites me except for drinking. now even with my running everyday i have begun to "cave" more often...
    gmailaccount gmailaccount
    18-21, M
    Sep 25, 2010

    So Scared!!!

    Sometimes I feel like I'm putting on weight.. even though I'm not. Sometimes though I eat so much junk in one day.. it's crazy. I used to weigh myself every week and every time I put on even a bit of weight I got upset.. I still do weigh myself sometimes and it still is...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2010

    I Don't Eat.

    i am 115 pounds. I'm am so terrified, because i really feel fat. i don't feel well at all. i have suffered with anorexia before and i know it has never ended completely or ever will. i know it's bad, but i no longer eat.
    gothicromantic gothicromantic
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 12, 2009

    This is a problem I've always had,

    ever since I was a little kid. Back then it was because I didn't want to disappoint or be an embarrassment to my parents. Don't get me wrong, they never fat shamed me or whatever, it was just how I felt. Now it still bothers me and I'm not totally sure why. A couple...
    Brimmless Brimmless
    18-21, F
    Feb 23, 2015

    They Say.

    They always say "Oh, you're so skinny" or "Oh my god you're skinny" or "You must be the skinniest girl out of us" ... and i fear that if im not skinny any more they wont have that image of me... and it scares me. I dont even know why. I pride myself on being thinner than all my...
    Illlusion Illlusion
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 29, 2011

    Doctors

    i want to the doctor because i got sick . they checked my weight i was 130 . and the doctor tells me to lose 10 pounds because im 5'1 and i was 14 when he told me this and he tells me that my weight should be 105 .. and i tell my girlfriend and my mom  and they  say...
    itsjusthard itsjusthard
    13-15, F
    Feb 20, 2010

    A Big Fear

    i Dont eat much if i do ill throw up and exersice loads im terribley feard of being fat like my family.ive been ana for 5 years its pain ful..but my voice in my heads wants it
    alucardx alucardx
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 10, 2010

    Scared Of Getting An Eating Disorder...

    ...Well its scaring the hell out of me because i use to be perfectly healthy and i freak out literally every time i eat sometimes to the point where i could actually cry at the fact i just ate, even if its just a buscuit. I always try and skip meals..and if i cant..if im alone in...
    TinkerbellaMay TinkerbellaMay
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 28, 2011

    I Fear Being More Fat.

    I'm already sorta chubby... 5'2, 186 pounds, 14 years old, and with next to no muscle mass. I just fear becoming fatter now, yet my gain never slows. I've gained about two pounds a month for the last two years, mostly to my belly, thighs and butt. I wish I could stop, but I just...
    lucydowning101 lucydowning101
    16-17
    Jun 22, 2013

    Advocare 24 Day Challenge(Its Time For A Change!)

    My name is Alan, and I have witnessed many people around me struggled to lose weight and stay in shape. Many good friends of mine are depressed of their weight and i decided to help not only them but everyone else i can reach. One of my good friends ,her name is Daysha and she is...
    AdvocareAlanP7 AdvocareAlanP7
    26-30, M
    Sep 4, 2013

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    pandasfatty pandasfatty
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