I Fear Closeness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3 People

    Too Shy!

    When people come to close, I feel uncomfortable and I close up... And something else happens because the person moves backwards... I believe it's my eye contact or gesture that makes them back away... When I am really just fearful of closeness... I don't want to be...
    jerkina jerkina
    36-40, F
    Sep 27, 2010

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