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I Fear Death

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    Bad Habits, Bad Health.

    I fear death... and yet it's like I'm welcoming it.I'm fat... I go on diets when I'm happy and fine, which is most of the time.I diet I exercise and I become healthy for a while.And then It all comes crashing down on me and I eat again. Diabetes runs on both sides of family...
    ClairLowry ClairLowry 18-21, F Oct 27, 2011

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    Scared

    I have always had a fear of death-- I don't really understand it, but it causes me severe anxiety. I just start to over think things, and then suddenly reality hits me hard. Lately it's been consuming me a lot. Now, it's always there, and bits of anxiety come up during school and...
    ninth29 ninth29 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2013

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    Why Am I the First to Say This?

    I am so afraid of death. . . I have recently become overwhelmingly fearfull of death. Of death alone, but also a fobia of open water to include olimpic sized pools, lakes, and the ocean. I fear flying more than ever and recently began to hyperventilate after rough turbulance over...
    LOST27 LOST27 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 25, 2007

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    It's Ok Now...

    Serious panic attacks and anxiety from a general fear of mortality triggered by a couple of major life events that happened close to each other. Three years of CBT therapy and SSRI meds, I'm able to talk and think about it without any anxiety. Am off the meds, still in therapy...
    rechdxs rechdxs 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Who Isn't!?

    Who isnt scared of death! It is a pretty scary thing to think about, thats why i choose to not think about it so much. I try not to because i will simply be wasting my life away worrying about dying. We will never know, and in some ways it is will be quite exciting...
    sheshigh sheshigh 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2009

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    Hi.. I can't get death off of my mind.

    I am scared all the time. I just know my time will come and fear not existing anymore. When I really think about it I get into almost an out of body experience. It sends a chill down my spine. I also think of my loved ones dying and what those times will be like. Sometimes I am...
    roccette roccette 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 30

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    I Fear Death, But I Fear Hell More.

    Because there's no going back, and because you may have led a life of good and at the last second, had you sinned, I think it all goes down. Now, I was raised as a christian. Right now, in my teens, I firmly believe in God, but I do not follow church "discipline'; meaning I drink...
    Narlovenar Narlovenar 18-21, F 1 Response May 24, 2010

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    The Last Goodbye

    I have nightmares about death......I see myself lying in a coffin and hate the thought of being enclosed in a small box, buried six feet under.  I actually fear losing someone close to me more than I fear dying.  I never had anyone close to me die until I was...
    Jorjy Jorjy 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2008

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    I'm terrified of dying.

    I dwell on it when I'm not keeping my mind busy. It's this crushing overwhelming feeling that feels like it's compressing my chest making it hard to breathe. I cry silently thinking about what it will be like not to have air passing through my nose or mouth. I think about how I...
    Lynzee13 Lynzee13 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    Why Fear the Innevitable

    Death.. Died... Die....Dead..... Why be afraid of something that we will all have to go through...? Is it the fear of the unknown..? or the question's of afterlife..? reincarnation..? spirits..? heaven..?  hell..? What is that that makes it so..? Many of us spend our lives...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 19-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2007

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    I am terrified of death !

    It consumes me everyday !! I wish I could get over this, I hate being alone because I feel that if something happens no one will be able to help me :-/
    aaarnold aaarnold 31-35, F Jan 13

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    Death

    When I was little I never really cared until I really thought about what would happen after I die is their a god or nothing like before I was born I don't know or have proof of what will happen it caused me to fear death of not knowing what will happen
    Heridia Heridia 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2012

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    The Unknown

    The other day while we were having a class discussion, my teacher asked, "Who here is seriously concerned of dying?" I thought a lot of people in the class would rais their hands, but it was only myself and two others. One idiotic girl started going off on this story how "This...
    forgottenangel38 forgottenangel38 18-21 2 Responses Jun 5, 2011

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    Death Oh Terror Of Death

    last night i had a recurring shock that i used to get when i was younger. the thought of sudden death. Just the thought that at any single moment without anything knowing i could be dead, dropped into that nothingness, zero , zilch. i can totally see why people can cling to...
    Johnny88 Johnny88 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    I Am More Afraid of

    what happens afterwards.   Ok, so I was raised a Roman Catholic. When you die, depending on how good you've been, you go to Heaven, Purgatory or Hell. After years of studying my Religion in school I started to have problems with it. Now that I'm not so sure what I believe...
    beebopINblue beebopINblue 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2008

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    I Want to Live Forever

    I have feared death since I was Five.You see thats when my father died.No matter how many times people tell me if I repent I will be saved I still don't find any comfort in it.I want to live forever even if means to walk the world alone.Death is my enemy
    vlad1462 vlad1462 31-35, M Aug 24, 2007

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    Why Is It Inevitable?

    Just having the thought of me dying ends up, tears falling right through my eyes. What I'm puzzled is how will my life end will it be a peaceful death, killed, shot and etc thinking of it drives me nuts. The last thing I wanna feel when I die is the tender love of my love ones...
    Dumstey Dumstey 18-21, F Apr 24, 2010

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    The Manner In Which It Comes

    I believe I am going to Heaven...due to knowing Christ as my Savior. But I fear the manner in which death will occur: Do you suffocate as the breath leaves your body? Will it be drowning? Dismemberment due to a terrible accident? Torture? Falling? A long, hideous death from a...
    Stahl Stahl 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 6, 2010

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    I'm Vulnerable Again

    When I was younger, I was fearless. I felt invincible.  Then I fell in love.  And I knew what it was like to be afraid of death. Love makes one vulnerable.  I remember so well the first time my new husband went off to work.  I was in our home, a wonderful old farmhouse in...
    milkynips milkynips 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    The Next Day

    You're dead. Where would people be the next day? What would they be doing? How would your absense affect society? Were you a sinner? Were you a saint? Did you deserve to live? Did you deserve to die? What about the next year, the next decade, the next million years. Where will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 8, 2009

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    You Simply Cease to Exist......

    ....which is WHY it is so F*cking scary. Then again.......... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UBQFXQUqxE
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2009

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    It's the Word I Hate

    I'm so petrified of there not being a life after this, even just that will keep me obsessing over it..i fear the crushing darkness and hopeless ness.....it freaks me out~~! i am either obsessing over it all day, or it makes me have panic attacks at night!!
    anotherlostdreamer anotherlostdreamer 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2007

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    Feels Like I Cant Fuction Right

    I have a huge problem with panic attacks.  I get these rushes all over my chest and i think im going to have a heart attack or just pass out.  i always think something is wrong with me physically.  I know its in my head and your body deals with stress and things...
    nevaehsent nevaehsent 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Sometimes I've Thought To Myself...

    One day I'm going to die. Why should I think these thoughts? I'm only 15 years old for god's sake! Yet there I times when I think to myself, one day I'm going to be the poor sucker in the coffin who everyone's sorry for, and crying around. What will become of the family I will...
    alvaro17 alvaro17 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 18, 2012

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    It's Always There

    I always have that thought, always, Everyday, it crosses my mind and sometimes it makes me very depressed. I don't feel like doing anything, I feel like being alone, I don't answer my calls and ignore everybody else. Growing up, we feel a sense of being "Different" from the...
    coldinter coldinter 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 15, 2011

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    Who Likes It?

    Lately I've had visions of me dying on the way to my girlfriends house, this kinda freaks me out cause it seems that things I've seen before have happened, but I just don't know when. I just want to enjoy my short time I have here on this planet. I'm tired of just being here, I...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 20, 2008

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    Am Scared......

    Ok, so that's what this group is about, so I'll say it. I am deathly afraid of...   death. I am an atheist, so that sucks, because I don't believe in any afterlife whatsoever. No heaven, hell, purgatory, limbo, reincarnation, enlightenment, nothing. You die, and that's...
    jlb13085 jlb13085 22-25, M May 26, 2008

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    I don't understand why this is a group.

    It only one thing in life that's truly promised to you is death. You can be scared all day long but it's gonna happen. Something's you can avoid by being scared. Others, such as death, is gonna happen. I guess I'm saying I'm not scared to die. I rather it not happen but im not...
    ConfidentLee ConfidentLee 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Fear

    Not the actual act of death, just the aftermath. The gaping abyss of darkness, no, not even darkness, nothingness, no dreams, no comforts, not even a memory to take you through until the end of time, that is what I fear. If I stop and think for a while, my thoughts will...
    CleoShilu CleoShilu 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2008

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    In a life, just some bodies growing old No fear

    of the end, of anything But I'm afraid to die... I want to die, but death is something I fear.
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 Mar 20

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    I'm Not Sure If I'm A Necrophobic.

    I'm just not sure anymore. I don't think I can be if I watch things like "A 1000 Ways to Die" or Edgar Allen Poe. Or may be it plays into it? I don't know anymore.
    toohonestforowngood toohonestforowngood 18-21, F Nov 5, 2010

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    What Is the Beauty of Creation?

    freud has this weird idea that 'we are created to die'...is this really the purpose of our being? i've been wondering long enough and cross-referenced this to religion.  i was raised as a roman catholic and the doctrine says, 'i am here because of God's love...' but if that...
    wheretonext wheretonext 26-30 2 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    I Fear a Lot

    I fear the dark,graveyards,wakes,funerals,darkwater,enclosed spacess,ocean ,lakes,ponds,boats,airplanes, being high up,and storms they scare me to the highest level when lightning or thunder strikes i call my neighbor and she comes ove i also fear being trapped one time i...
    SilencedFearther SilencedFearther 18-21, F Jul 11, 2009

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    When Will This End

    I like most people fear death,however I have to say that in the last few years I am totally perenoid.Every day is a strugle for me. It all  started when I was 19 I had a boyfriend who was killed in a very violent way and I thought that for the most part I moved on pretty...
    dianebrody dianebrody 36-40 1 Response Apr 18, 2008

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    I Fear Death

    I Fear Death because i am afarid that I might go to hell when i die.
    meekgirl meekgirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    DON'T Say the "D-word!!!"

    I have terrible problems with death, too...sometimes, i consciously obsess over it...  sometimes, without warning, i'll suddenly become MORBIDLY afraid that something bad will happen to the people I love. Like, two summers ago...My son was giving someone a ride home (he'd...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2007

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    Every night I just breakdown thinking about my

    grandfather.. Ever since he passed away I've been worried about how I'm going to lose everyone around me I think of how I'll lose me mom brother sister dad just everyone that I love! I even cry for them because they'll lose me.. It's sad because I know a lot of people but me...
    zy7a zy7a 18-21, F Mar 31

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    Long Sleepq

    I am not afraid of where I am going when I die. I am afraid of the death part in general. What exactly happens when you die? There is no way your mind stops. How long before you rise again? Will you realize the time differents and the wait? I just dont know I dont wanna die any...
    firestarterfairy firestarterfairy 22-25, F Mar 4, 2008

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    "The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at anytime." - Mark Twain I don't fear death because you can't do much about it. Sure...
    makenap makenap 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Death is a simple concept that people tend to make it out to be something it's not. They say it's a new beginning and there's more to it. But this is simply not true all death...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    I can honestly say that I do not fear death - mainly because I had to confront my own mortality a number of times and have even been clinically dead more than once. When I was 21...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 4 Responses Nov 5

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    I'm not sure many people realize that there's a difference between wishing for death, and simply being unafraid. Persistence of suicidal thoughts doesn't equate to fearlessness...
    Socialized Socialized 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    I remember crying in my mothers arms at the age of 7 when I finally realized that death existed. I was scared and lost with delusions that crying my eyes out would change my...
    Tomorrowsday Tomorrowsday 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    A long time ago I came face to face with a couple of situations that could have killed me, some probably should have it I hadn't run away from them. I guess I have never really...
    djjak djjak 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 16

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    It sounds cool to say, but I actually do fear death. I'm afraid of dying for nothing. My death absolutely must mean something. I can't die without leaving some mark upon the world...
    herewegothen herewegothen 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 26

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    i don't fear death yes the death clock in our life can stop at anytime but what's to be afraid of why be afraid when your times up its up no second chances so o say try and make...
    Phoenix2014 Phoenix2014 13-15, M 3 Responses Nov 10

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    I used to fear death and would get really upset just thinking about it. But as I grew older and phased in and out of religious preferences I finally started accepting death is part...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Oct 26

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    This doesnt mean i want to die, but i will give my life for someone else in a second. Death is always the end, it's what you do to get there that matters. Remember that, dont...
    Grant821 Grant821 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 30

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    I don't fear death at all, I actually envy it. But it makes sense though because I'm suicidal so yeah, I'm obsessed with the thought of death.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 5 Responses