I Fear My Disorders Will Forever Consume My Life

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    It Isn't What I Envisioned This Group Was About.

    The disorder from which I suffer is Mastoconcupiscence. It means I have an unnatural fixation on the female bosom. (or something like that) When I am alone, anywhere, anytime, everywhere, everytime, I think about breasts. I think about them standing in line at the supermarket...
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    Sep 4, 2011

    They Already Have.

    I don't know how to describe it, but whatever is wrong with me, that refuses to be fixed, its already ruining my life.I don't know...I'm so ****** up, damn.
    CrazyHappySad CrazyHappySad
    26-30, F
    Jun 12, 2012

    Extreme Sexual Deviances.

    I'm worried that I'll disturb the person I'm with by having extreme sexual deviances and that will stop them from loving me. There is, I suppose, the option of keeping quiet about what my main turn-ons are; but I fear I will never be able to "perform" in a satisfactory way...
    demonizd demonizd
    31-35, M
    8 Responses Jul 1, 2010

    But It Is To Late

    My sicknesses control my life in almost every aspect, they are parts of what makes me, me. They effect what I do, what I say, what I feel, what I think, what I see... Everything they effect and not just slightly... I feel as if I am a product of what people have carved me and...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 23, 2012

    There Was Never A "Life" To Begin With

    It would be more appropriate for me to say: "I am my disorders." I have no personality. I am the sum of everything bad anyone ever did to me. That's it. When everyone takes a **** on the same spot, it's not randomly going to turn into something deep and profound. It'll just...
    flowerlesswall flowerlesswall
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Feb 14, 2013

    How Can I Make My Life Muy Own?

    All my life, there has always been something or someone that made the majority of my choices for me. As a child, of course, it was my parents. But, I have also had to make many decisions, based on my health. Because of my disorder, I have lost out on many things most only take...
    snowlady snowlady
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2009
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