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I Fear That I Will Never Be Happy

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    Hate Aging!

    As a small child, all I wanted to do was have Fun. I got spanked and yelled at. I was so scared, I couldn't do/say anything. Now I'm older, and while there's shows on TV I Love, there's lots of News Media stories that: 1) Make Medina This order: Sick, Sad, & Scared. 2) I wish...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 26-30, F Jan 25, 2013

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    Sad Realisation

    It's really strange and its very hard for me to tell other people. From the outside looking in my life seems great. At my age, 26, people think I'm confident and that I am relatively successful. What they don't see is me in my room alone crying for no reason at all. And it's been...
    RickGrae RickGrae 26-30 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    What To Do ?

    I'm not happy , I don't feel well and my psychological state is bad.there Is many things I can't let it out of my mind. First of all , there is him I don't know what's wrong with him ! He don't open his heart for me he just keep act so mystery , I wish if he just could...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I used to be afraid that no one would ever fall

    in love with me, but now I'm afraid I ll never fall in love with someone who loves me back.
    itsallii itsallii 18-21, F Jan 3

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    Blah

    i'm always negitive about things, i'm not really the person who likes to show emotion, i hate crying infront of people and i hate getting my hopes up because they always seem to come crashing down on me. i'm only happy about one person in my life, other than that i feel depressed...
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Aug 17, 2009

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    Justwants

    I just want to be happy loved I feel like since I been diagonsed I am more alone then ever before I just want to be able to date the hardest part is telling the person I am dating I HIV positive. I feel they will run the other way start spreading the word around our city. tobehap...
    whowouldofknown whowouldofknown 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2011

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    Who Am I?

    All my life I've been abused by a pair of western nobodies who believe: "It's Our way or NO way, NOT even the Highway" Coupled with a number of terrible stories I read in the news, I find myself wondering who I really am, where I come from, & what is my Destiny?? Please help an...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 26-30, F Jan 21, 2013

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    Tired of Waiting

    I am so tired of trying to patiently wait for a little happiness to come my way! It's not like i haven't tried to look for it either. I though the day I married I would live happily ever after. Well, I knew I would still have problems and stuff but I just didn't know that it...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2007

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    Hopeless

    I feel like I will never be truly happy with anyone.  Every time a guy approaches me, he's either very nice or a huge *******.  And what do I choose every single time?  The *******, of course.  I don't deserve a nice guy.  I wouldn't appreciate him...
    5H18L20 5H18L20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    Shackeled to My Past

    I don't think I will ever be happy because I still love my first ex boyfriend. I am in a relationship now and I am lying to my current boyfriend when I say that I love him. and another reason why I will never be happy is because I have tried to get out of my current relationship...
    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2008

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    I'm scared . I hang out with only one friend an

    then even when we hang out I'm a very non happy person . Sometimes I fear I won't find someone to make me happy
    DentalNexus DentalNexus 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I love my wife but she does not enjoy having

    sex at all. She has told me that she finds it dirty and has a hard time performing the most basic of sexual intercourse. She will only do one position and that's it. I have never received a b***j** or anything basic in the 10 years ive been married to her. Thinking of looking...
    royalfg1 royalfg1 31-35 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Just Want a Chance to Be Happy.

    I feel, deep down, that I'll never be happy. Or, I should say, that I'll never be the happy that I want to be. I've been told all my life that I'll never have the things I want. Never experience the things I want. Never be who I want to be. I used to try and tell myself that they...
    Cursedboy Cursedboy 36-40, M 11 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    I understand that everything we do

    or feel is a result of our thought process. nothing is real. we can make it real in our own minds but even then it is only real in our heads. but in that case, I can never truly be happy. happiness is a state of mind entirely, and we can choose it or not. dopamine is a chemical...
    motherearth227 motherearth227 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    Why Does She Do This to Me Mentally and Emotionally

    Well here is my story: I have known this woman for 17 years now since I was a teenager.... I was always a shy kid but when I met her I really fell in love.... I finally got the nerve up to ask her out and then when I was about to do it I ...
    bearsfannumero1 bearsfannumero1 31-35 Aug 17, 2009

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    Some Things That My Parents Hate...

    ok I really like this guy and were dating but he smokes... and my parents don't know and he wants to meet them and if he meets them and they ask if he does drugs or smokes he is going to be like I don't do drugs but I smoke and then I wont be able to see him again i tried to have...
    heartbroken15 heartbroken15 16-17, F May 22, 2013

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    I'm Nineteen.

    I think life has a lot to do with your perspective, your outlook on ****. I have really bad days and yet sometimes, I feel like my life is so great. I constantly disappoint myself though. I fail over and over again. Right now, school isn't going so well, I've told my parents I'm...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Because every other day I'm lonely,

    my close friends may have a clue and sometimes ask me and I just brush it off.but deep down,I fear I may be alone forever.though I meet boys every other day there's always something missing not on their side but mine,I somehow feel I'm inadequate and call things off before it...
    dreamsNscreams dreamsNscreams 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Not In My Experience

    I sometimes think that fate put me here as a bit of a joke, just to see me suffer and cry and I'm not sure what I did to **** off karma but I feel like I'm being punished for something really, really terrible. I always used to think life was balanced, you get good times and bad...
    sezziy sezziy 22-25, F 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    All my life I've had

    that weighted feeling in me and never really felt happiness. Bad relationships meant I never achieved my personal goals. Now at 40 I am in the 3rd yr of running my own business but I feel like I am slowly drowning in a sea of disappointment and failure. I was brought up to keep...
    genevieve34 genevieve34 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Related Experiences

    I find cheating to be the most vile and disgusting thing someone can do to another when it comes to relationships. I have no experience in this field, but I know for one that...
    ForeverIsOver ForeverIsOver 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I always tell myself that it will be okay one day, and that I will be happy someday.. But a little voice always whispers to me that I'm lying to myself, and I know it's not true. I...
    capnrhe capnrhe 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    when you really love someone ,,,really love them all you can do don't seem enough they always deserve more ,,, after years ,,you have not come to a place that you want a break...
    rckt148 rckt148 51-55, M 3 Responses Dec 5

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    Once upon a time ago once a shy, timid weak little person......years of hurt and pain, hid in the corner, afraid...hearing the harsh words being thrown like daggers....soon a...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Dec 2

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    I will never give up... I will never give up... I will never give up... looking for you and I know I will find you somewhere, someday
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M Dec 10

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    I WILL NEVER BE BOND AGAIN! Depression can't have me, Stress can't have me, Life can't take me. I have the Victory. I am free! I love GOD. I say again I WILL NEVER BE BOND AGAIN...
    yannie17 yannie17 18-21, M Dec 6

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    I will never ever remarry ever again. I am not scared of relationships but never again will a marriage license be involved. it will be a miracle if a guy could convince me to...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 16

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    The birth of my two girl's. They will always be the first women that I love with all of my heart. They will never ever break me and will keep making me strong.
    Encontrados Encontrados 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 14

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    I looked at her and said hi, I thought she was single then she walked up to a guy and kissed him......then I was heartbroken. in my mind I was like I will never find love EVER
    jstaples534 jstaples534 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 19

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    I will never post another story on Ep because they removed several, so I removed the rest. This way they have no reason to site me for any stories.
    Smellyjeans Smellyjeans 46-50, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    No matter how hard I try, I can never be fully happy. I tell myself I am happy but the actual inside of me knows I'm not.
    vannahkilla vannahkilla 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Seriously. what's the point with lying about things on this website? I'm completely honest with my thoughts and opinions, not only on here, but everywhere I go. Over the Internet...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    every anniversary,birthday,valentines,mothers,And christmas day i never get a gift or even a happy . . . day. from my husband. I never show up empty handed on any of those days...
    uniquemarie uniquemarie 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Whenever I'm with friends I'm feeling happy but i can feel really deep within me I'm not happy.. I just can't help it. I always try to be happy but it doesn't seem to work.
    Danzcho Danzcho 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Hi all, THERE'S NOTHING LIKE THE FIRST LOVE ! We all will definitely agree to the fact that , our first love or say a crush who turns into someone special , will always here...
    ProjectXPune ProjectXPune 18-21, M Dec 3

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    I've been in bed all day... I've been crying for hours and I can't seem to stop. I have a hole in my chest and I feel like I'll never be happy again. I haven't eaten anything at...
    MimiRainbow MimiRainbow 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    To me: Never expect. It's better to be surprised than to be disapppointed. Stay happy and don't let BS ruin your day.
    LamPake LamPake 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I went to treatment in a foreign state for nine months away from my family.. My only motivation was the happiness of Others, followed by my own happiness. Now that I've been home...
    capnrhe capnrhe 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I can't as I walked in on my Dad with my Mum the day he was meant to be homing home after having 2 weeks apart "to short out there issues" and there he was spooning a woman who...
    RonSims RonSims 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    i just feel like i make things worse cause i know what goes wrong but i don't always do something about it and i think i just don't care cause i have no will to do it
    Jin777 Jin777 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Since my last boyfriend died I thought a lot about if I was really in love or if he really loved me and I don't know. He wasn't always nice to me and he made me cry all the time. I...
    hiddenjem hiddenjem 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    carecc13 carecc13 26-30, F Dec 14

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    alinacc12 alinacc12 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    To those who don't know, the best way to win a mans heart is too get him to trust you so much, he feels more comfortable around you than himself. A good way to ruin this is to...
    Faelanthewulf Faelanthewulf 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 15

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    I said this my last divorce, and of course I really did mean it. I was doing very well on my own. Mania kicked in I started overwhelming myself school, kids, I took in a friend w...
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I met him in the beginning of the school year. He looked like someone I'd been looking for for some time, and I never expected to find someone like him at a place like that. I felt...
    bruhchan bruhchan 13-15, F Dec 18

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    Never. Never. Never. Never. Never.
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    zoecc11 zoecc11 26-30, F