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I Fear That I Will Never Be Happy

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    i'm always negitive about things, i'm not really the person who likes to show emotion, i hate crying infront of people and i hate getting my hopes up because they always seem to come crashing down on me. i'm only happy about one person in my life, other than that i feel depressed...
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Aug 17, 2009

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    Not In My Experience

    I sometimes think that fate put me here as a bit of a joke, just to see me suffer and cry and I'm not sure what I did to **** off karma but I feel like I'm being punished for something really, really terrible. I always used to think life was balanced, you get good times and bad...
    sezziy sezziy 22-25, F May 15, 2010

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    Justwants

    I just want to be happy loved I feel like since I been diagonsed I am more alone then ever before I just want to be able to date the hardest part is telling the person I am dating I HIV positive. I feel they will run the other way start spreading the word around our city. tobehap...
    whowouldofknown whowouldofknown 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2011

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    Hate Aging!

    As a small child, all I wanted to do was have Fun. I got spanked and yelled at. I was so scared, I couldn't do/say anything. Now I'm older, and while there's shows on TV I Love, there's lots of News Media stories that: 1) Make Medina This order: Sick, Sad, & Scared. 2) I wish...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 13-15, F Jan 25, 2013

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    Because every other day I'm lonely,

    my close friends may have a clue and sometimes ask me and I just brush it off.but deep down,I fear I may be alone forever.though I meet boys every other day there's always something missing not on their side but mine,I somehow feel I'm inadequate and call things off before it...
    dreamsNscreams dreamsNscreams 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    I used to be afraid that no one would ever fall

    in love with me, but now I'm afraid I ll never fall in love with someone who loves me back.
    itsallii itsallii 18-21, F Jan 3, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    All my life I've been abused by a pair of western nobodies who believe: "It's Our way or NO way, NOT even the Highway" Coupled with a number of terrible stories I read in the news, I find myself wondering who I really am, where I come from, & what is my Destiny?? Please help an...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 13-15, F Jan 21, 2013

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    I love my wife but she does not enjoy having

    sex at all. She has told me that she finds it dirty and has a hard time performing the most basic of sexual intercourse. She will only do one position and that's it. I have never received a b***j** or anything basic in the 10 years ive been married to her. Thinking of looking...
    royalfg1 royalfg1 31-35 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm Nineteen.

    I think life has a lot to do with your perspective, your outlook on ****. I have really bad days and yet sometimes, I feel like my life is so great. I constantly disappoint myself though. I fail over and over again. Right now, school isn't going so well, I've told my parents I'm...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 5 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    What To Do ?

    I'm not happy , I don't feel well and my psychological state is bad.there Is many things I can't let it out of my mind. First of all , there is him I don't know what's wrong with him ! He don't open his heart for me he just keep act so mystery , I wish if he just could...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Tired of Waiting

    I am so tired of trying to patiently wait for a little happiness to come my way! It's not like i haven't tried to look for it either. I though the day I married I would live happily ever after. Well, I knew I would still have problems and stuff but I just didn't know that it...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2007

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    Shackeled to My Past

    I don't think I will ever be happy because I still love my first ex boyfriend. I am in a relationship now and I am lying to my current boyfriend when I say that I love him. and another reason why I will never be happy is because I have tried to get out of my current relationship...
    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2008

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    Why Does She Do This to Me Mentally and Emotionally

    Well here is my story: I have known this woman for 17 years now since I was a teenager.... I was always a shy kid but when I met her I really fell in love.... I finally got the nerve up to ask her out and then when I was about to do it I ...
    bearsfannumero1 bearsfannumero1 31-35 Aug 17, 2009

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    Some Things That My Parents Hate...

    ok I really like this guy and were dating but he smokes... and my parents don't know and he wants to meet them and if he meets them and they ask if he does drugs or smokes he is going to be like I don't do drugs but I smoke and then I wont be able to see him again i tried to have...
    heartbroken15 heartbroken15 16-17, F May 22, 2013

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    I'm scared . I hang out with only one friend an

    then even when we hang out I'm a very non happy person . Sometimes I fear I won't find someone to make me happy
    DentalNexus DentalNexus 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    Sad Realisation

    It's really strange and its very hard for me to tell other people. From the outside looking in my life seems great. At my age, 26, people think I'm confident and that I am relatively successful. What they don't see is me in my room alone crying for no reason at all. And it's been...
    RickGrae RickGrae 26-30 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    Just Want a Chance to Be Happy.

    I feel, deep down, that I'll never be happy. Or, I should say, that I'll never be the happy that I want to be. I've been told all my life that I'll never have the things I want. Never experience the things I want. Never be who I want to be. I used to try and tell myself that they...
    Cursedboy Cursedboy 36-40, M 11 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    I understand that everything we do

    or feel is a result of our thought process. nothing is real. we can make it real in our own minds but even then it is only real in our heads. but in that case, I can never truly be happy. happiness is a state of mind entirely, and we can choose it or not. dopamine is a chemical...
    motherearth227 motherearth227 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

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    All my life I've had

    that weighted feeling in me and never really felt happiness. Bad relationships meant I never achieved my personal goals. Now at 40 I am in the 3rd yr of running my own business but I feel like I am slowly drowning in a sea of disappointment and failure. I was brought up to keep...
    genevieve34 genevieve34 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    Hopeless

    I feel like I will never be truly happy with anyone.  Every time a guy approaches me, he's either very nice or a huge *******.  And what do I choose every single time?  The *******, of course.  I don't deserve a nice guy.  I wouldn't appreciate him...
    5H18L20 5H18L20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    listen, im already a giant putrid pile of ****, alright. whatever makes people even come to the conclusion that i would ever feel the need to add even more putrid piles of **** to...
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    I know it love wasnt made for me i happy for them who did doesnt mean no one should be happy just cuz i not
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