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I Fear That I Will Never Be Happy

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    All my life I've had

    that weighted feeling in me and never really felt happiness. Bad relationships meant I never achieved my personal goals. Now at 40 I am in the 3rd yr of running my own business but I feel like I am slowly drowning in a sea of disappointment and failure. I was brought up to keep...
    genevieve34 genevieve34 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    Blah

    i'm always negitive about things, i'm not really the person who likes to show emotion, i hate crying infront of people and i hate getting my hopes up because they always seem to come crashing down on me. i'm only happy about one person in my life, other than that i feel depressed...
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Aug 17, 2009

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    Some Things That My Parents Hate...

    ok I really like this guy and were dating but he smokes... and my parents don't know and he wants to meet them and if he meets them and they ask if he does drugs or smokes he is going to be like I don't do drugs but I smoke and then I wont be able to see him again i tried to have...
    heartbroken15 heartbroken15 16-17, F May 22, 2013

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    Hate Aging!

    As a small child, all I wanted to do was have Fun. I got spanked and yelled at. I was so scared, I couldn't do/say anything. Now I'm older, and while there's shows on TV I Love, there's lots of News Media stories that: 1) Make Medina This order: Sick, Sad, & Scared. 2) I wish...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 26-30, F Jan 25, 2013

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    Shackeled to My Past

    I don't think I will ever be happy because I still love my first ex boyfriend. I am in a relationship now and I am lying to my current boyfriend when I say that I love him. and another reason why I will never be happy is because I have tried to get out of my current relationship...
    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2008

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    Who Am I?

    All my life I've been abused by a pair of western nobodies who believe: "It's Our way or NO way, NOT even the Highway" Coupled with a number of terrible stories I read in the news, I find myself wondering who I really am, where I come from, & what is my Destiny?? Please help an...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 26-30, F Jan 21, 2013

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    Just Want a Chance to Be Happy.

    I feel, deep down, that I'll never be happy. Or, I should say, that I'll never be the happy that I want to be. I've been told all my life that I'll never have the things I want. Never experience the things I want. Never be who I want to be. I used to try and tell myself that they...
    Cursedboy Cursedboy 36-40, M 11 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    I used to be afraid that no one would ever fall

    in love with me, but now I'm afraid I ll never fall in love with someone who loves me back.
    itsallii itsallii 18-21, F Jan 3, 2014

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    I'm scared . I hang out with only one friend an

    then even when we hang out I'm a very non happy person . Sometimes I fear I won't find someone to make me happy
    DentalNexus DentalNexus 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    I'm Nineteen.

    I think life has a lot to do with your perspective, your outlook on ****. I have really bad days and yet sometimes, I feel like my life is so great. I constantly disappoint myself though. I fail over and over again. Right now, school isn't going so well, I've told my parents I'm...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 5 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Sad Realisation

    It's really strange and its very hard for me to tell other people. From the outside looking in my life seems great. At my age, 26, people think I'm confident and that I am relatively successful. What they don't see is me in my room alone crying for no reason at all. And it's been...
    RickGrae RickGrae 26-30 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    Hopeless

    I feel like I will never be truly happy with anyone.  Every time a guy approaches me, he's either very nice or a huge *******.  And what do I choose every single time?  The *******, of course.  I don't deserve a nice guy.  I wouldn't appreciate him...
    5H18L20 5H18L20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    Why Does She Do This to Me Mentally and Emotionally

    Well here is my story: I have known this woman for 17 years now since I was a teenager.... I was always a shy kid but when I met her I really fell in love.... I finally got the nerve up to ask her out and then when I was about to do it I ...
    bearsfannumero1 bearsfannumero1 31-35 Aug 17, 2009

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    Justwants

    I just want to be happy loved I feel like since I been diagonsed I am more alone then ever before I just want to be able to date the hardest part is telling the person I am dating I HIV positive. I feel they will run the other way start spreading the word around our city. tobehap...
    whowouldofknown whowouldofknown 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2011

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    Tired of Waiting

    I am so tired of trying to patiently wait for a little happiness to come my way! It's not like i haven't tried to look for it either. I though the day I married I would live happily ever after. Well, I knew I would still have problems and stuff but I just didn't know that it...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2007

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    Not In My Experience

    I sometimes think that fate put me here as a bit of a joke, just to see me suffer and cry and I'm not sure what I did to **** off karma but I feel like I'm being punished for something really, really terrible. I always used to think life was balanced, you get good times and bad...
    sezziy sezziy 22-25, F May 15, 2010

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    I understand that everything we do

    or feel is a result of our thought process. nothing is real. we can make it real in our own minds but even then it is only real in our heads. but in that case, I can never truly be happy. happiness is a state of mind entirely, and we can choose it or not. dopamine is a chemical...
    motherearth227 motherearth227 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

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    Because every other day I'm lonely,

    my close friends may have a clue and sometimes ask me and I just brush it off.but deep down,I fear I may be alone forever.though I meet boys every other day there's always something missing not on their side but mine,I somehow feel I'm inadequate and call things off before it...
    dreamsNscreams dreamsNscreams 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    I love my wife but she does not enjoy having

    sex at all. She has told me that she finds it dirty and has a hard time performing the most basic of sexual intercourse. She will only do one position and that's it. I have never received a b***j** or anything basic in the 10 years ive been married to her. Thinking of looking...
    royalfg1 royalfg1 31-35 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    What To Do ?

    I'm not happy , I don't feel well and my psychological state is bad.there Is many things I can't let it out of my mind. First of all , there is him I don't know what's wrong with him ! He don't open his heart for me he just keep act so mystery , I wish if he just could...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I know i'm kina young, but I fear that I will never get a boyfriend or be loved. I mean I have been in relationships and all but they have been pathetic middle school relationships...
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    I know i'm kina young, but I fear that I will never get a boyfriend or be loved. I mean I have been in relationships and all but they have been pathetic middle school relationships...
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    There's so many things I want to tell you. I wish I had the courage to just say it and not make this note that only I will see. I'm not OK. I never will be OK. I've been damaged...
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    No onw who reaches the level of higher awareness and has a chill and happy relationship with cigarettes like me and people like me have, we love smoking as much as we want and know...
    smokingrocks1 smokingrocks1 56-60, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    tonight I realised I will never amount to anything. I have been doing a college course for 18months on theatrical lighting and I've been getting good grades, I know almost...
    forgottenluna forgottenluna 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 18

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    you were the one that kept me going... I was gathering the strength to leave this country because of you, and try to fight for a "us". But that will never happen... and you will...
    DiamondArmada DiamondArmada 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I will never be perfect and I don't want to be
    Etherealrose Etherealrose 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Will never locate sanctuary. Or a caring society. Or a true mentor. Sigh.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 9

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    I don't wear seatbelts, never have, never will. Real men don't need seatbelts because they don't live their lives in fear. I find them uncomfortable, and I hate having my range...
    jakethegreat90 jakethegreat90 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 18

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    That real wholehearted kind of love. The kind where you are best friends. Respected at all times, even when arguing. I have never had that kind of love before. It was always...
    Happinessismine Happinessismine 31-35, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Well yeah I thought to write it in here cause I don't think I will ever work up the nerve to ever tell him. But yeah so I've known him for a year and a half now. Different...
    limitedless limitedless 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Stuck inside myself these days. It's tense, grumpy, and fearful. T minus 8 days...
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 9

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    I remember during graduation we all hated each other so much and we all kept saying under our breaths how ready we were to leave. Now even when I bump into my classmates randomly...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I really never understands why do I always like someone who I can never be good enough. I am not being too depressed or wanting sympathy. But I never had anyone telling me that he...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F Apr 4

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    I’ll never know (by breadcrumbscu) I’ll never know what I’d do, Without the kind of friends like you. I’ll never know how to love, Until it is given from above. I...
    breadcrumbscu breadcrumbscu 56-60, M 1 day ago

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    I am not a pessimist so much as a realist, there are so many things that I want in life that most say isnt much to ask for. But in my gut I know it will not come to pass. A place...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    It's funny how people share their deeper secrets on this app. But since I came here for a reason I guess I should do the same (I'm glad I didn't put my name here). Let's see, how...
    noneofyourbussines noneofyourbussines 16-17, F Mar 31

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    I went to a kem concert I'll never forget. What i enjoyed the most was him thanking God for where he's at in life.
    zakkiyyia8 zakkiyyia8 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I think that' sometimes and it gives me a really sad feeling , at times and all one can do is *sigh* , it's one of those things were when you first sit across from the dinner table...
    Prettibrowngirl Prettibrowngirl 70+, F Apr 2

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    thats exactly. whats going on with me. i am patiently waiting for my emotions to come back. i thought theyd be back by now but i guess thats to much to ask for. im waiting to get a...
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    To be in-love is to walk into the darkness knowing full well that when you return you'll never be the same.
    SocialRomance SocialRomance 18-21, M Apr 10