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I Fear That I Will Never Survive Motherhood

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    I Don't Know If I'd Be a Good Mom

    Sometimes I freak myself out when I think about what it would be like to raise children. I think about how stressed and anxious and depressed I already am right now, and I can't even imagine what it might be like with children in my life. I get scared that I wouldn't be able to...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 17, 2008

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    A Famous Quote, "motherhood Is The Lonliest Place A Woman Can Ever Face."

    I heard that quote once and it never really sunk in until I had my own child.  He's 2 and a half now.  As far as toddlers go I guess he's pretty good.  He's not the problem.  He's 2.  He's suppose to be needy, hyper, bad, and good all in the same five...
    Penguinfriends Penguinfriends 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Cirque De Me

    this morning i had to practically do a circus act to get my daughter up for school.  she stayed up way too late last night (against my admonitions) and then couldnt get up for nothin. my kids do this all the time--especially when i've got a deadline or assignments to do...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    New Mommy

    I last gave birth May of 1998 but I am just now getting to really know and love my kids. I am falling in love with them. I am going back and remembering their little faces and and their little eyes because when I first met t5hem I didn't feel or I didn't allow myself to feel. I...
    cutiesagi cutiesagi 70+ 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    Failure To Launch

    I have never written anything on any boards before, but I think I must need to vent. My son has just turned 16, and I really think he will never get his act together. He is very handsome, physically fit, average intelligence, is fluent in 4 languages, but....he is SO LAZY!! He...
    GrabbingLifeByTheHorns GrabbingLifeByTheHorns 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    My daughter is my clean slate.

    I am no longer a *****, insert any derogatory statement. I am clean of my past sins because of her. I am in a relationship but we fight often; I believe in commitment but I can honestly say I am terrified of the idea of having to be a single mother if this doesn't work out and...
    thegirlinthegreencar thegirlinthegreencar 22-25, F Apr 17, 2014

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    Oh God I Want to Run Away and Never Come Back

    my entire life is my kids.  and yet there's no reward at the end of the day.  well, i can't say that cuz my angel of a daughter does everything in her power to please me, but the level of neediness, the level of responsibility required, the neverendingness of it...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    Where's the Kleenex?!

    my son was so mean to me last night on the way to his basketball game that i was practically in tears the whole way.  if it hadn't been for the fact that my neighbor was in the car with us, i probably would have had a nervous breakdown (thank goodness for small miracles...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 7, 2008

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    My Version Of Motherhood.

    There are those that say that being a mom is the greatest thing that they hae ever experienced, that being home with their kids 24/7 is the most rewarding thing that they have ever done. In a way I envy those woman, in a way I wish that I could have that same feeling about being...
    scarrlettfever scarrlettfever 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2013

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    Im Struggling With My Son's Behaviour Problems

    I struggling to cope with my son's aggessive behavouir s . He does have autism , but not severe with it for hes high funtioning . I tried to get him to clean hes bedroom but he refused to do it and told me to do it , I said to him I wont play anymore games with him then . I then...
    mishy40 mishy40 36-40 Jan 3, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I'll never forget when my cousin Katie's now ex boyfriend beat me from ages 6 to 8. I'll never forget how my cousin Kayla, once my best friend, got pregnant at fourteen then hit me...
    BrokenGlassDoll BrokenGlassDoll 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I will never forget the look on their faces. I will never forget the pain. I will never forget the words coming out of their mouths. I will never forget the things they did. I will...
    hxlils hxlils 18-21, F Jan 13

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    I am a person who will never be loved. I do things that make people upset with me and I make people feel sorry for me. I hate myself for that. All I am is a dumb mewling quim who...
    Cgyan Cgyan 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    When I get angry or frustrated I feel like giving up on myself but in reality I would never do that because when you give up on yourself you give up on God and I will never give up...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I will never be a human, because being human is very boring... I am not a human & will never be... I tell myself this because i see the world grey, & when i see people doing...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M Jan 13

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    The time when me and my love was standing in line waiting to order burritos and we started going back an fourth joking about how much we were going to beat each other up lol we got...
    Knightt15 Knightt15 18-21, F Jan 15

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    A friend of mine left EP today, and left no traces behind. Her stories are gone, all our correspondence is gone... it's like she was never part of EP. You might even think she was...
    publius503 publius503 41-45, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    when i'm at the top,and people will all of a sudden be nice 2 me,i am gonna remember how they treat me now while i'm at the bottom and will give them a taste of their own medicine...
    AndeleAndele AndeleAndele 18-21, M Jan 13

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    I just will never be good enough for anyone personality or look wise. It'll always be the same things that will happen... I guess I cam just meant to be forever alone in life...
    imgivingupnow imgivingupnow 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    my life has always been a disaster terrible teenager had children young and was in a abusive relationship in the end i lost my children my abusive partner and my dignaty i wanted...
    lauralou89 lauralou89 22-25, F Jan 15

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    when everything be in my way ..... and whatever I do to make it easier ... it get more harder and harder ....i have much to worry about .... but i will never give up ... i will...
    Jackk1992 Jackk1992 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I always forget things that I'm doing. Simple things like when I make a coffee, most of the time I always forget to drink it when I'm doing something or when I'm rushing to go to...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Yes it is. The most amazing thing I have ever felt. You will come to learn many things dearest. Among them, that no one will ever love you as I do, and that our connection is...
    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I've been married for 2 years now, together for 5. We have two boys, luke who is almost 4 and hunter who is just shy of 6 months. When we first were together everything was perfect...
    abjerke abjerke 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    My letters to you Flow I need you today more than on the regular days. Today I'm falling to pieces. Too many things are hitting me all at once and I can't do it. I miss you and I...
    QueenGeisha QueenGeisha 22-25, F a week ago

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    Homophobia is not a Phobia. Phobia means an irrational fear, people that are homophobic arent scared of gay people they are simply being ********... Kay thats all
    xXannabethXx xXannabethXx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    The journey might be difficult, so what? The shore might be fogged, so what? Lonely this heart maybe, so what? This courage would never fall, This Desire would never stop. I may...
    dreamchaser23 dreamchaser23 26-30, M Jan 7

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    I can't wait to see what my stalker's psychologist says about me. It would be wonderful to see it posted. The verdict is in. It's my fault I have had a stalker. "I know you were...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jan 4

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    Dear Asa, I'm sorry I didn't make it to 18. I'm sorry I couldn't hold out 236 days. I need you to how much it means that your cared enough to delay the inevitable, how much...
    Ebbal Ebbal 16-17, T Dec 29, 2014

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    Dear Shane, I never knew my father, my older brothers are kinda losers and my uncles are never around. I never really had a positive male role model around. I get this...
    Ebbal Ebbal 16-17, T Dec 29, 2014

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    I've always allowed everyone to open up to me about anything. I've never been intolerant or judgmental. But Oh boy, somebody finally done it! They took advantage of that. Now I'm...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Jan 4

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    There will always be some reason to quit. There will always be some reason to let go. There will always be a reason to give up. The true question is what will you leave behind. Not...
    AnarchyOfAthena AnarchyOfAthena 16-17, F Jan 18

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    I was that weird kid who never had any friends in school. People made fun of me and hurt me and thought the worst of me because I was different. I was a little behind socially--I...
    whisperedthing whisperedthing 16-17, F Jan 18

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    Being loved is an ongoing battle for me. My family never loved me while I was growing up. I never had friends who truely cared about me. Heck most of them vanished on me... My...
    itsul itsul 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I love my little wolf demon so much I never want to let him go or be away from me. I never let him out of my sight. We are always talking and having fun together. Sigh love.
    Wolfy14 Wolfy14 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    It's always there, creeping around the corner... threatening me, trying to take hold. it closes in slowly, on my home sweet home. it creeps, it crawls, infecting my mind with...
    HakuZail HakuZail 18-21, M Jan 1

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    Last year was a game changer for me..i left my boyfriend of five years last February. It was difficult to do but I don't regret it. It took me over a year to work up the courage...
    lambkin lambkin 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    I had a friend that said everyone forgets her after awhile. Well I told her I would never forget her and I sill haven't, obviously
    Lollipop948 Lollipop948 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    Back in the day the phrase "i love you" was used only when a person meant it, but now it is just thrown around like it's nothing. How can people just throw that phrase around like...
    lolawolf lolawolf 16-17, F Jan 12

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    My letters to you Flow I will write to you here because I don't want to talk to you anymore. Because I can't tell you how I feel. Because until I can stop thinking about you, I'll...
    QueenGeisha QueenGeisha 22-25, F Jan 14

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    never!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Mongyy Mongyy 18-21, M Jan 14

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    I wanna be a billionaire so ******' bad. Buy all of the things I never had. I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine, Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen. Oh every time I close...
    RebeccaMontero RebeccaMontero 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    I won't. Just, no. In fact, the sentiment I have for being white can be likened to pride. GFY. EDIT: I am not intolerant of any other ethnicity/culture--I simply choose to be...
    seelensauger seelensauger 22-25, F 20 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    i feel like love will just tease me then leave me
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 3 Responses Jan 1

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    If he doesn't respect his parents; what makes you feel he will respect you?
    txlimx txlimx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Even more so now as I no we are meant to be everything is perfect things will work out for us x
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 8

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