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I Feel Anxious About Close Relationships

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 121 People

    3 Years

    It's like a magical border I cannot cross. After three years, my friendships start slowly but steadily falling apart. Soon we will be no more than strangers to each other, and I wonder if anyone of those people remembers me anymore. I sure do, I miss them and dream about them...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2010

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    Don't Stand So Close To Me

    I come from a pretty horrific background ripe with poverty, abuse, violence, and drug use. It's no wonder why I can't get close to people. My family is highly dysfunctional. They're all alcoholics, junkies, thieves, liars, and violent. We aren't close. Any time we try to get...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 17, 2013

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    I don't know if I'm scared to get hurt,

    or if I'm cautious about hurting the other person...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    I have a wonderful girlfriend

    that I have a great relationship with. I have always had a bit of anxiety but recently I have had anxiety surrounding a particular issue with her. I consistently worry that I will not be able to get an erection to have sex with her. She is a virgin, so I have built up this whole...
    AnxiousLion AnxiousLion 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    First One

    I've never been particuarly close to any one in my life, I've had a few great friends but I wouldn't ever call them close. I was a little anxious to say the least when we (girlfriend and I) first started to get close and open up, I'd tell her stories from my past that I...
    Cnbrrn Cnbrrn 16-17, M Nov 2, 2007

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    After a Long Time I Realized

    after a long time i realized how important it is to accept oneself no matter what. finally it is me who is there and who has to face what ever it is. weather it is good or bad. even though it feel terrible looking at urself sometime but its worth it. there are so many thoughts...
    delicate delicate 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2008

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    Yeah I do,I have lots of fears,

    which I guess relationships tend to magnify more.One of those fears is losing people I'm close to,feeling they'll leave me and I'll be alone again a feeling I guess I hate a lot.I'm also afraid of getting hurt of caring more about a person than they do about me.I'm afraid I'll...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    I'm Just Afraid...

    Afraid of what, you ask? Well, it's just that I fear that if I fall in love with one of my best friends and something happens, then I'll lose our friendship (and her). I've gone through that ordeal before, and I don't want to go through that again.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Dec 21, 2011

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    Back!!!!

    I've never done really well with close relationships. Not family, not friends, definitely not romance. I always kept people at a distance. It was easier for me to cmopartmentalize everything into little boxes that way. If people got too close I started feeling ... anxious. But...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2008

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    It's the thought of what could have been that causes us to think about past relationships. The fantasy is always better though!
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