I Feel Bad When I Eat

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    It's Not About Calories For Me

    I could care less about my weight. But i have noticed lately that when things get bad it is VERY hard for em to even think of putting a morsel fo food in my mouth. I just can't eat. i feel like crap when I do. It becomes this heavy weight inside of me, adding to whatever...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 31, 2009

    I Feel Bad After I Cannibalize My Lovers

    Well, all you weight conscious people feel like eating is both pleasurable yet you're overwhelmed with guilt. Therefore, perhaps you can understand the adrenaline rush during my killing and cannibalizing spree and how it's then followed by tremendous remorse. For I only...
    jeffreydahmerhere jeffreydahmerhere
    31-35, M
    Jul 14, 2013

    Fat

    I do feel bad any time I eat. It doesn't matter what I'm eating, I just feel like I shouldn't be eating it. I'm actually quite a healthy eater- mostly fresh vegetables and fruit, and of course, carbs, since I'm a vegetarian, and I do get plenty of protein from nuts and soy...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2009

    Had It For A While

    i Always feel Bad when i eat When im chewing and Spitting or even acatul Eating.I purge if i do scratch my self i CANT stand eating.
    alucardx alucardx
    18-21, M
    Dec 1, 2010

    Everytime I Eat

    Even if it just a bite of something, I feel horrible and guilty.  I think of all the calories in what I just ate.  I do LOVE to eat, though.  But, I try not to be around food much even though I like to cook, because I do not want to be tempted.  Too...
    haydenrules haydenrules
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Feb 2, 2009

    Me Too

    You knwo what`s likeyou come to the kitchen and without realise..2-3 days pf starvingg and losing weight are goingg lost..because you just do it be instict.. you eat..:(..and then.. after.. you realise.. you.l get fatt *****!:|FAT~.and nobody will like you...and i start crying...
    angeleyes97 angeleyes97
    13-15, F
    Jun 27, 2011

    Help Me!

    I feel bad when i eat but i don't have anorexia. I practise gymnastic and if i starve myself i can't do anything i have no energy on practise. My mom and dad force me to eat. I LOVE to eat and bake but i'm trying to cut down on calories and don't eat any sweets. I'm 15 years old...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 14, 2012

    All The Time...

    Sometimes I eat so much in one day.. even if i'm not hungry at all I'll just eat and eat. I feel like a greedy pig but I can't stop eating. I don't know why I eat so much really.. I haven't been able to taste nearly anything I eat for ages now and I have no idea why. That doesn...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    Mar 14, 2010
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Aug 3, 2011

    I Feel Like Eating Is Wrong.

    It all stems from my self-esteem and being teased and rejected when I was young for my weight. Now, it doesn't matter how much I exercise or how healthy the food is, it always feels like I'm doing something wrong by eating. Like I'm doing something I shouldn't be. It'll get so...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    More often than not I can eat all I want

    and not feel bad, but lately I've felt more compelled to give in to an old middle school habit of mine. My eating disorder, though mild, was a huge part of my identity in eighth grade. Sometimes I worry that people won't believe that a 13 year old could develop a disorder like...
    TeaspoonEm TeaspoonEm
    18-21, F
    Jul 12, 2014

    I Feel That If I Eat Then I Take Away From Someone Else

    I often feel guilty for eating. I hate to eat in front of anyone now days. It makes me depressed to eat. I feel that when I eat that I am taking away food from my kids and family that they could have. I think it started many years ago when I started to cook. I always make...
    dawneubanks2005 dawneubanks2005
    31-35, F
    Mar 24, 2013

    I feel bad wasting food cause every time I dump

    water that I don't drink into a faucet or don't eat something and throw it away a child that is starving pops in my head and I feel like crying
    awkwardgiraffeoh awkwardgiraffeoh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2015

    I Feel Bad When I Eat

    I have a love/hate relationship with food! I love to eat, I love pizza and speghetti, cheese enchaladas and caramel! French fries are amazing, but I started counting calories in order to live a healthier life and now I am obsessed. I get overwhelmed and I cry if I get hungry or...
    Lahrlett2010 Lahrlett2010
    18-21
    Apr 6, 2011

    I Ate Really Healthy Today And I Feel Proud

    Ok. So my own gift/wish for my birthday is to become healthy and fit. Today I ate really good. I did exercise in the am and a bike class in the pm. YAY! Im dedicating 4 months of my life to a better me....Can you give me some motivationa! I would appreciate that. 
    moralesl moralesl
    16-17, F
    Jul 27, 2011

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