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    I Feel So Dead Inside

    I Feel so Dead Inside   It took everything I had to come back to life after you left. Everything I was I shared with you, the tears the laughter and the silence. But everything I was that I trusted you with, You slowly turned around and now tell all. I feel...
    Kymberlee Kymberlee 46-50 Oct 24, 2010

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    Whoa, right? This chick's crazy,

    right? At least on EP I can say these things knowing they're going to land on a thousand different eyes yet soon be forgotten, to disappear in the Interweb and dissipate into a thousand little pieces which might be again stumbled upon, but inevitably... Meaningless. Why? Because...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 8 Responses Mar 31

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    Stages

    The word 'dead' is strong. It represents the final passing of anything living, anything alive, even the ashes which once held life are now passed beyond the living. They are dead. And that is how it is. This understanding has taught me so much. It's when you reflect on...
    SkinOfTheNight SkinOfTheNight 16-17 2 Responses Aug 4, 2009

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    i feel dead im empty inside no love left my

    life has died im just a body now going from day to day making the motions nothing to say my lungs breathe air blood flows thru my veins whats left of my hearts still beats thats all that remains i cannot live life without love life without love i cannot be part of...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M May 18

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    I'm so exhausted of faking like I'm okay

    when I'm not. Whether I'm at work, or around my friends and family . They say reach out to someone but like how? Why would anyone want to be around somebody who seems to have clinical depression , when they can surround them selves with happy - positive people?
    romi777 romi777 31-35, F 1 Response May 15, 2014

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    Life, Now Fueled By Mountain Dew

    All I ever do and feel and think about....all that I have ever been is work.  I work all day, I work all night.  I do all of this work knowing it will amount to nothing.  I still work.  The hope is killing me; the hope for something better.  I feel dead inside.  I am a...
    rehnadair rehnadair 18-21 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    i feel dead inside and i feel

    that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get pissed about stuff but i don't feel it, for example my dog died a week ago and i love my dogs more than anything i'm really...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F Dec 19, 2014

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    Lost Interest In Life

    Well for the start I'd like to say that it's not like I started feeling dead inside just recently because of some kind of event. I don't think I even remember when I began to feel like this. I was always told since I was a child that I was a weird kid but I didn't mind that. I...
    NotSoSpecial NotSoSpecial 18-21, M 6 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I was living in.. a fake world.

    . with my fantasies and all.. Now I made my own world.. With the help of God's call.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I feel sad and angry.

    It's like all my emotions are trapped inside and can't get out.I just wanna feel happy and alive again,but there's nothing that makes me happy anymore.It's hard to explain how I'm feeling.
    shygirlaquamarine shygirlaquamarine 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2014

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    I don't know if it's exactly "dead inside",

    that's extremely macabre. I would say barren & empty. I feel like a shell sometimes that completely lacks purpose.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    5 hours of sleep a night yeah I'm dying slowly.

    But I'm loving it or is that the pretty dolphin talking. I love that dolphin he is so friendly. But the bunny keeps hitting me. I'd hit him back. But then he calls the police something about animal abuse.
    johnny811 johnny811 18-21, M Oct 8, 2014

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    I feel like i'm not here.

    ..nothing is fun...nothing is really worth it...i'm just a dead body walking everyday from my house to school and then back to the house...i want to die...i want to die so much...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 23

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M Jun 7

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    I keep remembering my dad .

    .. I dont want to because of the horrible things he did to me but i've had dreams of him this week and every sound reminds me of him . These memories cause so much pain i feel dead inside i just want to be dead sometimes ....
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F Sep 17, 2014

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 5, 2014

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    The feeling getting worse

    and I don't know how to explain why I feel this way it comes and goes but it's an empty feeling a feeling of pain and ?????? God knows I can't explain it but I hate it
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    ohne dich bin ich so traurig und leer.

    die Sonne nicht mehr scheint und Ich lebe allein mit nur meine Gedanken. Es tut mir leid. The birds stopped singing and the wind stopped blowing. I hate my life.
    IchBinDeutsch IchBinDeutsch 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    i went to get help for myself

    but in the end it destroyed me. i hate feeling like this. i am dead inside and so sick of it.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    No Connection

      Its not so much that I feel dead inside, as I feel as though I should be dead, not that Im suicidal, or that I want to die, but as though my existence is a mistake.    Going through life, never having a connection with people, never touching someones life, or...
    MoonShade MoonShade 36-40 6 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Life Isn't A Blessing, It's A Curse.

    I've come to refer to many aspects of my life in the past tense. I was a good person, I was a likable person and so on. I've been battling depression for several months now. It's taken so many things from me. For each thing that it takes from me a part of me dies inside. Just to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 15, 2012

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    Plain and simple: I failed.

    Now can you all just hate me. I will feel better knowing I am not causing any pain. Don't worry about me. I will be fine. Promise.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    im a sensitive person

    but i just hate most people and hope they die i can count on one hand good people i know the rest let em rot i dont like being nice anymore it gets me nowwhere so ill be an empty shell i always was anyway
    Beutifulman1970 Beutifulman1970 41-45, M Apr 22

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    Trying To Get On Top...

    I know that there are millions of people out there who walk around the streets with smiles to their faces, appearing to be either pretty happy with their lives...or simply quite satisfied. I can't help but think how many of those people live their lives like myself. To my friends...
    Johannnna Johannnna 18-21 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    It Get's Me Through

    It's a bit sad when you just feel completely empty inside, no enjoyment, happiness or laughter. Sometimes i try to act happy and chipper, make jokes and try to make other's laugh. Most times i do, strangely a lot of people think im just one of those shiny happy people.In reality...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Christymaybe Christymaybe 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I haven't felt happy

    for so long...I fake it...I die a little more every day...it's hard to keep hope when everything feels empty and joyless.
    dragonflybluerules dragonflybluerules 31-35 1 Response Jan 9

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    I never smile, if I do it's forced.

    . I don't feel any pain I've inflicted to myself, I almost never feel anything but empty inside. The only time I feel anything is when I finally cry for 30 seconds
    theHuntedOne14 theHuntedOne14 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 7, 2014

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    I feel no empathy. People tell me sad stories -

    I shrug my shoulders. I won't cry after hearing of a person's passing. I love to rain on someone's parade by giving them a reality check. Man I need to get laid.
    waiting4forever waiting4forever 26-30, F Sep 15, 2014

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    I feel dead physically

    and emotionally.
    Tiwollen Tiwollen 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    KenzieKenzBoo KenzieKenzBoo 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    I started crying for no reason.

    I just became overwhelming depressed. It's as if a wave of sadness splashed over me, flooding the beaches of my mind with its ever-present blueness. Now, I just feel numb. Isn't it odd how being numb, which is supposedly feeling nothing, has a feeling? Isn't it funny how I feel...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Tin Man

    It happened gradually, like waves eroding a sandy shore.  I remember hope, and purpose.  There was meaning in this world and I was going to take my share of it.  I felt human. Today I can barely hear the beat of my heart in the hollow rusted tin of my body...
    DuosAnimus DuosAnimus 26-30 1 Response Apr 17, 2010

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    Where Am I????

    I look in the mirror and have no idea who looks back... 2 years ago I was happy, I think...was it all a dream? Was it someone else that I was watching??? I have nothing... My husband up and left me all alone. I find out nothing is in my name except the upside down mortgage... I...
    julesfantasy julesfantasy 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    I felt dead at the exact moment I came to the

    realization that it's only me, myself, and I.. And no one else.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 24

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    Replacement

    I'm not her. I'm not me. I am dead. Souless. Gone. I was born dead. She was the one who got to live. The one who was loved. But she got hurt, the pain nearly killed her. Nearly. I suppose you're wondering where exactly she is now, hmm? Simple. I killed her. She wanted to die. So...
    manaamamaya manaamamaya 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2013

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    The titel already said it,

    I feel completely dead inside.
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    I feel very uncomfortable being in my own body.

    I know it doesn't make any sense, but this is what I feel. I feel awkward moving around, functioning. Just like only body is moving. Because I feel dead inside. Literally dead. I've lost my feelings except hurt and anger. I feel like I am a burden to my beautiful family and...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I'm in love with a guy

    for almost 4 years, he was never mine but I did gave to him my heart. I can do nothing. I can't have him back I can't get over him and nothing matters without him. So I guess I'm dead inside... It's sad that I can love only him.
    EleniHaru EleniHaru 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 1

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    This isn't how it's always been.

    My world is wrapped in a hundred layers of cellophane. Sounds are muffled, sights are skewed, emotions are dulled, time is blurry. I don't know when this will end, and I don't know if I have the energy to care.
    JustMeOkay JustMeOkay 26-30 May 1, 2014

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    So lifeless and blank

    but this is probably. My overly tired brain talking since its like 2:33 am
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I've been hurt by so many people,

    humiliated, I've always been wrong, weird or not worth it, that I decided it is better to just be emotionless. Emotions get in the way of everything. They keep me up at night, they make me feel alone, I procrastinate with emotions and so on. So, right now, I am dead inside. I...
    muzii muzii 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Its so depressing when people get close then

    rip my heart out. My girlfriend txted me a few minutes ago. We started talking and she wants to stop dating but wants to stay "friends with benefits". I feel like ****. Im not sure if i should tell her how i feel with words or just stop texting back. Im laying here in bed and I...
    IamD3ATHincarnate IamD3ATHincarnate 16-17, M Jul 6

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    It's Easier This Way

    I thought I had finally got a grip on my daughters cancer returning.  But every time I say Good-Bye to her, I never know if it's the last time.  The last one I can say while she's still my Angie, the daughter I know today.  This may sound unhealthy and the...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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