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I Feel Dead Inside

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    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I don't know if it's exactly "dead inside",

    that's extremely macabre. I would say barren & empty. I feel like a shell sometimes that completely lacks purpose.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I feel no empathy. People tell me sad stories -

    I shrug my shoulders. I won't cry after hearing of a person's passing. I love to rain on someone's parade by giving them a reality check. Man I need to get laid.
    waiting4forever waiting4forever 26-30, F Sep 15, 2014

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    The past few years have been really rough

    for me. For years, I've walked around, feeling numb and isolated. I started therapy a few years and it's as if the flood gate of emotions has been opened. More often than not, I feel all the unpleasant emotions. Anger, rage, resentment, sadness, deep despair and hopelessness...
    tffan839 tffan839 26-30, M Aug 20, 2014

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    I'm so exhausted of faking like I'm okay

    when I'm not. Whether I'm at work, or around my friends and family . They say reach out to someone but like how? Why would anyone want to be around somebody who seems to have clinical depression , when they can surround them selves with happy - positive people?
    romi777 romi777 31-35, F 1 Response May 15, 2014

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    I always try to do what other people want me to

    do. I will be attending college in the fall. I am going to drivers Ed right now. What the hell else do you people want me to do?
    quietgirl1995 quietgirl1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    I Feel Dead Inside...

    I have never felt so tired in my life before. I wish i didn't have to wake up anymore, its another day of this emptiness this craving to give up. Not one thing is good in my life. I kept waiting for it to get better but it seems to be taking forever.I just wanna be free from here...
    ScarletVisions ScarletVisions 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    Christymaybe Christymaybe 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    Replacement

    I'm not her. I'm not me. I am dead. Souless. Gone. I was born dead. She was the one who got to live. The one who was loved. But she got hurt, the pain nearly killed her. Nearly. I suppose you're wondering where exactly she is now, hmm? Simple. I killed her. She wanted to die. So...
    manaamamaya manaamamaya 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2013

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    Lost Interest In Life

    Well for the start I'd like to say that it's not like I started feeling dead inside just recently because of some kind of event. I don't think I even remember when I began to feel like this. I was always told since I was a child that I was a weird kid but I didn't mind that. I...
    NotSoSpecial NotSoSpecial 18-21, M 6 Responses May 13, 2009

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    The feeling getting worse

    and I don't know how to explain why I feel this way it comes and goes but it's an empty feeling a feeling of pain and ?????? God knows I can't explain it but I hate it
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    Darlinghton Darlinghton 18-21, M Oct 25, 2014

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    I keep remembering my dad .

    .. I dont want to because of the horrible things he did to me but i've had dreams of him this week and every sound reminds me of him . These memories cause so much pain i feel dead inside i just want to be dead sometimes ....
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F Sep 17, 2014

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    Life Isn't A Blessing, It's A Curse.

    I've come to refer to many aspects of my life in the past tense. I was a good person, I was a likable person and so on. I've been battling depression for several months now. It's taken so many things from me. For each thing that it takes from me a part of me dies inside. Just to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 15, 2012

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    Tin Man

    It happened gradually, like waves eroding a sandy shore.  I remember hope, and purpose.  There was meaning in this world and I was going to take my share of it.  I felt human. Today I can barely hear the beat of my heart in the hollow rusted tin of my body...
    DuosAnimus DuosAnimus 26-30 1 Response Apr 17, 2010

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    The titel already said it,

    I feel completely dead inside.
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    I feel dead physically

    and emotionally.
    Tiwollen Tiwollen 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    So lifeless and blank

    but this is probably. My overly tired brain talking since its like 2:33 am
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F Sep 14, 2014

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    It Get's Me Through

    It's a bit sad when you just feel completely empty inside, no enjoyment, happiness or laughter. Sometimes i try to act happy and chipper, make jokes and try to make other's laugh. Most times i do, strangely a lot of people think im just one of those shiny happy people.In reality...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    You. You disgust me. You hurt me.

    You ripped me open. You broke me. You lied to me. You used me. You said you cared, you said you loved me. You left me. For her. You only stayed around for as long as you did because you felt sorry for me. Well let me tell you something, I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. God will punish you...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    This isn't how it's always been.

    My world is wrapped in a hundred layers of cellophane. Sounds are muffled, sights are skewed, emotions are dulled, time is blurry. I don't know when this will end, and I don't know if I have the energy to care.
    JustMeOkay JustMeOkay 26-30 May 1, 2014

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    I was living in.. a fake world.

    . with my fantasies and all.. Now I made my own world.. With the help of God's call.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I felt dead at the exact moment I came to the

    realization that it's only me, myself, and I.. And no one else.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 24

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    5 hours of sleep a night yeah I'm dying slowly.

    But I'm loving it or is that the pretty dolphin talking. I love that dolphin he is so friendly. But the bunny keeps hitting me. I'd hit him back. But then he calls the police something about animal abuse.
    johnny811 johnny811 18-21, M Oct 8, 2014

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    It's Easier This Way

    I thought I had finally got a grip on my daughters cancer returning.  But every time I say Good-Bye to her, I never know if it's the last time.  The last one I can say while she's still my Angie, the daughter I know today.  This may sound unhealthy and the...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    I feel very uncomfortable being in my own body.

    I know it doesn't make any sense, but this is what I feel. I feel awkward moving around, functioning. Just like only body is moving. Because I feel dead inside. Literally dead. I've lost my feelings except hurt and anger. I feel like I am a burden to my beautiful family and...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M Jun 7

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    Stages

    The word 'dead' is strong. It represents the final passing of anything living, anything alive, even the ashes which once held life are now passed beyond the living. They are dead. And that is how it is. This understanding has taught me so much. It's when you reflect on...
    SkinOfTheNight SkinOfTheNight 16-17 2 Responses Aug 4, 2009

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    Oh I feel so gone inside.

    .. This anal room with its oh so many staring eyes. Like knives for the kill. Let..me... Go! I'm done with these foolish mindless games. I want to return to the living. I want the excitement that once filled my body. I wish for no pity or apologies. I long for my soul to be...
    pitabready pitabready 18-21, M Apr 27, 2014

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    I haven't felt happy

    for so long...I fake it...I die a little more every day...it's hard to keep hope when everything feels empty and joyless.
    dragonflybluerules dragonflybluerules 31-35 1 Response Jan 9

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    Life, Now Fueled By Mountain Dew

    All I ever do and feel and think about....all that I have ever been is work.  I work all day, I work all night.  I do all of this work knowing it will amount to nothing.  I still work.  The hope is killing me; the hope for something better.  I feel dead inside.  I am a...
    rehnadair rehnadair 18-21 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    i went to get help for myself

    but in the end it destroyed me. i hate feeling like this. i am dead inside and so sick of it.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I never smile, if I do it's forced.

    . I don't feel any pain I've inflicted to myself, I almost never feel anything but empty inside. The only time I feel anything is when I finally cry for 30 seconds
    theHuntedOne14 theHuntedOne14 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 7, 2014

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    Whoa, right? This chick's crazy,

    right? At least on EP I can say these things knowing they're going to land on a thousand different eyes yet soon be forgotten, to disappear in the Interweb and dissipate into a thousand little pieces which might be again stumbled upon, but inevitably... Meaningless. Why? Because...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 31

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    I Feel So Dead Inside

    I Feel so Dead Inside   It took everything I had to come back to life after you left. Everything I was I shared with you, the tears the laughter and the silence. But everything I was that I trusted you with, You slowly turned around and now tell all. I feel...
    Kymberlee Kymberlee 46-50 Oct 24, 2010

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    Not totally, I mean I do have feelings

    for some things, but I'm finding out more and more that the things I use to love and enjoy and encourage others to do still to this day I don't seem to care about at all. Tonight for example. It's New Years officially here. All night I was at my best friend's house for the...
    JustMe5600 JustMe5600 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 1

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    I'm so numb I can't feel anything.

    When I cut usually it hurts but it didn't this time. I have no idea what's going on
    metalneverdies metalneverdies 16-17, F Aug 21, 2014

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    Where Am I????

    I look in the mirror and have no idea who looks back... 2 years ago I was happy, I think...was it all a dream? Was it someone else that I was watching??? I have nothing... My husband up and left me all alone. I find out nothing is in my name except the upside down mortgage... I...
    julesfantasy julesfantasy 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    I feel like i'm not here.

    ..nothing is fun...nothing is really worth it...i'm just a dead body walking everyday from my house to school and then back to the house...i want to die...i want to die so much...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 23

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    im a sensitive person

    but i just hate most people and hope they die i can count on one hand good people i know the rest let em rot i dont like being nice anymore it gets me nowwhere so ill be an empty shell i always was anyway
    Beutifulman1970 Beutifulman1970 41-45, M Apr 22

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 5, 2014

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    Trying To Get On Top...

    I know that there are millions of people out there who walk around the streets with smiles to their faces, appearing to be either pretty happy with their lives...or simply quite satisfied. I can't help but think how many of those people live their lives like myself. To my friends...
    Johannnna Johannnna 18-21 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    i feel dead inside and i feel

    that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get pissed about stuff but i don't feel it, for example my dog died a week ago and i love my dogs more than anything i'm really...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F Dec 19, 2014

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    Plain and simple: I failed.

    Now can you all just hate me. I will feel better knowing I am not causing any pain. Don't worry about me. I will be fine. Promise.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    KenzieKenzBoo KenzieKenzBoo 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    Dad

    I feel empty. I feel on the verge of oblivion. I need to say something. I need to dedicate this to someone special. Dad.If anything should ever happen to me, you need to know this. You are the reason I've kept going. Every memory I have of you makes me feel content. You've always...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    No Connection

      Its not so much that I feel dead inside, as I feel as though I should be dead, not that Im suicidal, or that I want to die, but as though my existence is a mistake.    Going through life, never having a connection with people, never touching someones life, or...