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I Feel Dead Inside

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    I feel like i'm not here.

    ..nothing is fun...nothing is really worth it...i'm just a dead body walking everyday from my house to school and then back to the house...i want to die...i want to die so much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 23, 2015

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    Life, Now Fueled By Mountain Dew

    All I ever do and feel and think about....all that I have ever been is work.  I work all day, I work all night.  I do all of this work knowing it will amount to nothing.  I still work.  The hope is killing me; the hope for something better.  I feel dead inside.  I am a...
    rehnadair rehnadair 18-21 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    My brain is so far gone,

    I don't know how I've let myself get this bad. I know I probably should've talked to someone about my issues and its biting me in the *** now that everything has gotten worse. I've been delusional and I know I have some sort of mental disorder but I don't know what. I just know...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    My emotions... They're stuck inside me.

    They cause confusion when attempted to be shared. They are mine. They may stay inside permanently. I try to express them. It's still difficult. I feel misunderstood. I've stuffed them down for many years. That may be best. One person knows them in depth. My therapist. She tried...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 26, 2015

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    I Feel Dead Inside...

    I have never felt so tired in my life before. I wish i didn't have to wake up anymore, its another day of this emptiness this craving to give up. Not one thing is good in my life. I kept waiting for it to get better but it seems to be taking forever.I just wanna be free from here...
    ScarletVisions ScarletVisions 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    i went to get help for myself

    but in the end it destroyed me. i hate feeling like this. i am dead inside and so sick of it.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2015

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 5, 2014

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    The feeling getting worse

    and I don't know how to explain why I feel this way it comes and goes but it's an empty feeling a feeling of pain and ?????? God knows I can't explain it but I hate it
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 26, 2015

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    Where Am I????

    I look in the mirror and have no idea who looks back... 2 years ago I was happy, I think...was it all a dream? Was it someone else that I was watching??? I have nothing... My husband up and left me all alone. I find out nothing is in my name except the upside down mortgage... I...
    julesfantasy julesfantasy 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    KenzieKenzBoo KenzieKenzBoo 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    I haven't felt happy

    for so long...I fake it...I die a little more every day...it's hard to keep hope when everything feels empty and joyless.
    dragonflybluerules dragonflybluerules 31-35 Jan 9, 2015

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    ohne dich bin ich so traurig und leer.

    die Sonne nicht mehr scheint und Ich lebe allein mit nur meine Gedanken. Es tut mir leid. The birds stopped singing and the wind stopped blowing. I hate my life.
    IchBinDeutsch IchBinDeutsch 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2015

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    im a sensitive person

    but i just hate most people and hope they die i can count on one hand good people i know the rest let em rot i dont like being nice anymore it gets me nowwhere so ill be an empty shell i always was anyway
    Beutifulman1970 Beutifulman1970 41-45, M Apr 22, 2015

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    No Connection

      Its not so much that I feel dead inside, as I feel as though I should be dead, not that Im suicidal, or that I want to die, but as though my existence is a mistake.    Going through life, never having a connection with people, never touching someones life, or...
    MoonShade MoonShade 36-40 7 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Dead Inside, Alive Outside.

    Not necessarily that empty inside. I can feel the emotions within me, but I'm exhausted. I feel as if all of this was for naught, that my future isn't evident. I must be in the clouds, thinking that I'd vanish with them, but clouds...they don't bring you along. I feel that I don...
    Rushio Rushio 18-21, M Nov 24, 2013

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    Alive On The Outside, Dead On The Inside.

    I may look alive and breathing on the outside, but on the inside, i feel hollow, empty and dead.There is a void and hole inside me that can't be fill and be satisfy. I just don't feel any emotions and feeling inside me anymore. I haven't been crying for 3 years and i feel like a...
    StephanieloveJenniferBeals StephanieloveJenniferBeals 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    When growing up in my house my mom would sneak

    treats. She would hide in her bedroom enjoy a cookie or candy bar and I almost always cough her. And if she cough me she would give me some and told me to hide and eat it to keep me quite from my 4 younger sisters. Well I bought myslef a pack of cookies and I just went to pull...
    Eloradanan98 Eloradanan98 16-17, F Oct 19, 2015

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    I Feel Dead Inside

    I have been fighting for most of my life not to let the bad things in my life to keep me down and now that I have come so far its like my insides are done fighting... I dont know whats going to happen to me at this point. I cant cry anymore or keep telling my story. I dont know...
    FightingChance24 FightingChance24 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2013

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    Christymaybe Christymaybe 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2015

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    I'm in love with a guy

    for almost 4 years, he was never mine but I did gave to him my heart. I can do nothing. I can't have him back I can't get over him and nothing matters without him. So I guess I'm dead inside... It's sad that I can love only him.
    EleniHaru EleniHaru 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    I started crying for no reason.

    I just became overwhelming depressed. It's as if a wave of sadness splashed over me, flooding the beaches of my mind with its ever-present blueness. Now, I just feel numb. Isn't it odd how being numb, which is supposedly feeling nothing, has a feeling? Isn't it funny how I feel...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    I keep remembering my dad .

    .. I dont want to because of the horrible things he did to me but i've had dreams of him this week and every sound reminds me of him . These memories cause so much pain i feel dead inside i just want to be dead sometimes ....
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F Sep 17, 2014

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    Trying To Get On Top...

    I know that there are millions of people out there who walk around the streets with smiles to their faces, appearing to be either pretty happy with their lives...or simply quite satisfied. I can't help but think how many of those people live their lives like myself. To my friends...
    Johannnna Johannnna 18-21 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    Dad

    I feel empty. I feel on the verge of oblivion. I need to say something. I need to dedicate this to someone special. Dad.If anything should ever happen to me, you need to know this. You are the reason I've kept going. Every memory I have of you makes me feel content. You've always...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Lost Interest In Life

    Well for the start I'd like to say that it's not like I started feeling dead inside just recently because of some kind of event. I don't think I even remember when I began to feel like this. I was always told since I was a child that I was a weird kid but I didn't mind that. I...
    NotSoSpecial NotSoSpecial 18-21, M 6 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Oh I feel so gone inside.

    .. This anal room with its oh so many staring eyes. Like knives for the kill. Let..me... Go! I'm done with these foolish mindless games. I want to return to the living. I want the excitement that once filled my body. I wish for no pity or apologies. I long for my soul to be...
    pitabready pitabready 18-21, M Apr 27, 2014

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    It's worse today than it's ever been in

    so close to adding a permanent scare again maybe I won't come from this one
    GothicPrinceXXX GothicPrinceXXX 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 28, 2015

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    I feel very uncomfortable being in my own body.

    I know it doesn't make any sense, but this is what I feel. I feel awkward moving around, functioning. Just like only body is moving. Because I feel dead inside. Literally dead. I've lost my feelings except hurt and anger. I feel like I am a burden to my beautiful family and...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    You. You disgust me. You hurt me.

    You ripped me open. You broke me. You lied to me. You used me. You said you cared, you said you loved me. You left me. For her. You only stayed around for as long as you did because you felt sorry for me. Well let me tell you something, I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. God will punish you...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    I feel dead inside, like I'm breathing

    but I'm not alive. I'm touching but I'm not feeling. I just carry that empty feeling inside me, it's like I'm not sad not happy not anything, emotionless kind of want to cry, only I can't, before I would cry myself to sleep, I would cry a lot but now not even watery eyes.
    martianchild2 martianchild2 18-21, F Dec 28, 2013

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    I felt dead at the exact moment I came to the

    realization that it's only me, myself, and I.. And no one else.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 24, 2015

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    i feel dead inside and i feel

    that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get pissed about stuff but i don't feel it, for example my dog died a week ago and i love my dogs more than anything i'm really...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F Dec 19, 2014

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    Darlinghton Darlinghton 18-21, M Oct 25, 2014

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    I feel no empathy. People tell me sad stories -

    I shrug my shoulders. I won't cry after hearing of a person's passing. I love to rain on someone's parade by giving them a reality check. Man I need to get laid.
    waiting4forever waiting4forever 26-30, F Sep 15, 2014

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    I feel that on one plain,

    I have already failed and died. That part of me I will never gain back. Everytime I get hurt, I break a little, and the more broken I am, the more I break when I get hurt. I have lost the battle :( I never show my emotions to people and I live in my head because of it, I've...
    PigMonkeyHybrid PigMonkeyHybrid 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    Extreme Numbness..

    Would you remember me when all my memories will be buried underneath all surface.. Were I wrong in every step,in every deed? These questions and numerous others tease me.. I see life all around me but inside me its destruction only ruins of self confidence, destruction of self...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Feb 9, 2013

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    I was living in.. a fake world.

    . with my fantasies and all.. Now I made my own world.. With the help of God's call.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 11, 2015

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M Jun 7, 2015

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    I feel spiritually dead.

    I didn't choose this... I was pushed over my limits.
    Elsi3 Elsi3 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Whoa, right? This chick's crazy,

    right? At least on EP I can say these things knowing they're going to land on a thousand different eyes yet soon be forgotten, to disappear in the Interweb and dissipate into a thousand little pieces which might be again stumbled upon, but inevitably... Meaningless. Why? Because...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 31, 2015

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    This isn't how it's always been.

    My world is wrapped in a hundred layers of cellophane. Sounds are muffled, sights are skewed, emotions are dulled, time is blurry. I don't know when this will end, and I don't know if I have the energy to care.
    JustMeOkay JustMeOkay 26-30 May 1, 2014

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    I don't know if it's exactly "dead inside",

    that's extremely macabre. I would say barren & empty. I feel like a shell sometimes that completely lacks purpose.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I've been hurt by so many people,

    humiliated, I've always been wrong, weird or not worth it, that I decided it is better to just be emotionless. Emotions get in the way of everything. They keep me up at night, they make me feel alone, I procrastinate with emotions and so on. So, right now, I am dead inside. I...
    muzii muzii 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2015

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    I feel sad and angry.

    It's like all my emotions are trapped inside and can't get out.I just wanna feel happy and alive again,but there's nothing that makes me happy anymore.It's hard to explain how I'm feeling.
    shygirlaquamarine shygirlaquamarine 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2014

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