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I Feel Dead Inside

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    I never smile, if I do it's forced.

    . I don't feel any pain I've inflicted to myself, I almost never feel anything but empty inside. The only time I feel anything is when I finally cry for 30 seconds
    theHuntedOne14 theHuntedOne14 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I don't know if it's exactly "dead inside",

    that's extremely macabre. I would say barren & empty. I feel like a shell sometimes that completely lacks purpose.
    Plutonianbabe Plutonianbabe 18-21, F 2 Responses May 30

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    I always try to do what other people want me to

    do. I will be attending college in the fall. I am going to drivers Ed right now. What the hell else do you people want me to do?
    quietgirl1995 quietgirl1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I feel no empathy. People tell me sad stories -

    I shrug my shoulders. I won't cry after hearing of a person's passing. I love to rain on someone's parade by giving them a reality check. Man I need to get laid.
    waiting4forever waiting4forever 26-30, F Sep 15

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    I think of her all the time,

    no matter what I do, where I am, when I am or who I'm with. Just can't get her out of my mind. Just can't. I remember only the good times, I can't think of anything bad about her even if I try. If I could, it would be easier, I think. Love You ♥
    brobraken brobraken 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 11

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    This Is Not Me

    Like who am I? I don`t recognize myself anymore.I`m not like this.I don`t know what I like anymore, everything I used to enjoy means nothing to me now, I`m isolated, more and more every day. I feel so cold inside, like I can`t relate with people around me, like I don`t really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 20, 2012

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    The titel already said it,

    I feel completely dead inside.
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Stages

    The word 'dead' is strong. It represents the final passing of anything living, anything alive, even the ashes which once held life are now passed beyond the living. They are dead. And that is how it is. This understanding has taught me so much. It's when you reflect on...
    SkinOfTheNight SkinOfTheNight 16-17 2 Responses Aug 4, 2009

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    Dad

    I feel empty. I feel on the verge of oblivion. I need to say something. I need to dedicate this to someone special. Dad.If anything should ever happen to me, you need to know this. You are the reason I've kept going. Every memory I have of you makes me feel content. You've always...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    You. You disgust me. You hurt me.

    You ripped me open. You broke me. You lied to me. You used me. You said you cared, you said you loved me. You left me. For her. You only stayed around for as long as you did because you felt sorry for me. Well let me tell you something, I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. God will punish you...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    5 hours of sleep a night yeah I'm dying slowly.

    But I'm loving it or is that the pretty dolphin talking. I love that dolphin he is so friendly. But the bunny keeps hitting me. I'd hit him back. But then he calls the police something about animal abuse.
    johnny811 johnny811 18-21, M Oct 8

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    It's Easier This Way

    I thought I had finally got a grip on my daughters cancer returning.  But every time I say Good-Bye to her, I never know if it's the last time.  The last one I can say while she's still my Angie, the daughter I know today.  This may sound unhealthy and the...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2008

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    Trying To Get On Top...

    I know that there are millions of people out there who walk around the streets with smiles to their faces, appearing to be either pretty happy with their lives...or simply quite satisfied. I can't help but think how many of those people live their lives like myself. To my friends...
    Johannnna Johannnna 18-21 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    Sometimes I just sit back

    and wonder why am I still alive? Why can't I just die? But then I thought to my self if Jesus died for us then we should live for him.
    HeartlessT HeartlessT 13-15, F 1 Response May 1

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    nicckyoung nicckyoung 18-21, M May 17

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    I keep remembering my dad .

    .. I dont want to because of the horrible things he did to me but i've had dreams of him this week and every sound reminds me of him . These memories cause so much pain i feel dead inside i just want to be dead sometimes ....
    Cuttingismyescape Cuttingismyescape 13-15, F Sep 17

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    I feel dead physically

    and emotionally.
    Tiwollen Tiwollen 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 27

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    dead. what a word. so final

    and concrete. Dead. I do feel it inside my brain, i feel very dead. I relate more to robots than humans at this point, i guess that could qualify as somewhat dead? ThankGod there isnt much too worry about in my life, i was able to come out of my struggles and fix it all up but...
    Unmasked Unmasked 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Dec 14, 2013

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    Asystole

    After making so many mistakes in my life, I've reached a point where I don't feel anymore. I've taken a look back on the life I've lived and realised that I don't know if I have ever been truly happy. Were there moments when I was actually alive and excited about living, or was...
    PreZombie PreZombie 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2012

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    Darlinghton Darlinghton 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 25

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    I Feel Dead Inside...

    I have never felt so tired in my life before. I wish i didn't have to wake up anymore, its another day of this emptiness this craving to give up. Not one thing is good in my life. I kept waiting for it to get better but it seems to be taking forever.I just wanna be free from here...
    ScarletVisions ScarletVisions 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    Okay so it all started

    when I was about 8 years old. We went to kings island and I rode this roller-coaster with my dad and I didn’t like it so I curled up into a ball and had my neck kind of kinked, I went home and ever since then I’ve been getting nauseous at night to the point where I would...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 12

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    So lifeless and blank

    but this is probably. My overly tired brain talking since its like 2:33 am
    Cuttingismyescape Cuttingismyescape 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    Over the past two years my life has been trauma

    after trauma, from a divorce from an affair to the stroke of my brother, attempted suicides by those around me, and many more. I don't know how to deal with all of this anymore. At first I could experience the normal emotions, sadness, anger, whatever, but now I feel nothing. I...
    siena1 siena1 16-17, F 1 Response May 15

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    Life, Now Fueled By Mountain Dew

    All I ever do and feel and think about....all that I have ever been is work.  I work all day, I work all night.  I do all of this work knowing it will amount to nothing.  I still work.  The hope is killing me; the hope for something better.  I feel dead inside.  I am a...
    rehnadair rehnadair 18-21 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    I feel sad and angry.

    It's like all my emotions are trapped inside and can't get out.I just wanna feel happy and alive again,but there's nothing that makes me happy anymore.It's hard to explain how I'm feeling.
    shygirlaquamarine shygirlaquamarine 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    Emptiness

    Not about God, bad relationships, lack of friends, persons to love and respect or lack of a good life. It's about pure and simple emptiness. Born this way, lived this way. Can barely remind last time I've noticed a true smile in my face. Sometimes I feel like I'm giving a new...
    livingfleshdeadspirit livingfleshdeadspirit 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    Lost Interest In Life

    Well for the start I'd like to say that it's not like I started feeling dead inside just recently because of some kind of event. I don't think I even remember when I began to feel like this. I was always told since I was a child that I was a weird kid but I didn't mind that. I...
    NotSoSpecial NotSoSpecial 18-21, M 5 Responses May 13, 2009

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    KenzieKenzBoo KenzieKenzBoo 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 20

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    For a while i havent able to feel emotion

    connection to things like i normally would, and i dont know what to do about it.
    TwisterTy TwisterTy 22-25, M Apr 25

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    All the time now not

    even the things that used to help make it better work anymore.
    absten1 absten1 16-17, F 2 Responses May 11

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    It would be wonderful to hear a kind word

    after being told to kill myself because I'm worthless. Why am I not worth caring about or loving?! I should kill myself.
    TalesOfAKlondyke TalesOfAKlondyke 22-25, F May 2

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    I Need You

    It's remarkable, really.. One person can have such an incredible hold over you that it's impossible to let them go. There are so many people in this world, so it seems almost impossible to be with just one person. But that's what I want. Thats what I need. I need you.. It's been...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    This isn't how it's always been.

    My world is wrapped in a hundred layers of cellophane. Sounds are muffled, sights are skewed, emotions are dulled, time is blurry. I don't know when this will end, and I don't know if I have the energy to care.
    JustMeOkay JustMeOkay 22-25 May 1

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    Lonely Soul

    I am not sure if I am the only way that feel this way, but I am very lonely. Been married for seven years now, but still lonely. My souls feels dead within. Is it just me?
    greengogreen greengogreen 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2012

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    I'm so numb I can't feel anything.

    When I cut usually it hurts but it didn't this time. I have no idea what's going on
    metalneverdies metalneverdies 16-17, F Aug 21

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    It Get's Me Through

    It's a bit sad when you just feel completely empty inside, no enjoyment, happiness or laughter. Sometimes i try to act happy and chipper, make jokes and try to make other's laugh. Most times i do, strangely a lot of people think im just one of those shiny happy people.In reality...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Tin Man

    It happened gradually, like waves eroding a sandy shore.  I remember hope, and purpose.  There was meaning in this world and I was going to take my share of it.  I felt human. Today I can barely hear the beat of my heart in the hollow rusted tin of my body...
    DuosAnimus DuosAnimus 26-30 1 Response Apr 17, 2010

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    I am holding on with a death grip.

    Holding, holding, holding. I have to hold on for Iris and Arthur and my wife and grands. Holding on.... but why? Why why why why why why why why? It is all gone and over and done with. I have never been hated so much in my life. The hatred for me almost matches my own, or that...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Mar 31

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    Replacement

    I'm not her. I'm not me. I am dead. Souless. Gone. I was born dead. She was the one who got to live. The one who was loved. But she got hurt, the pain nearly killed her. Nearly. I suppose you're wondering where exactly she is now, hmm? Simple. I killed her. She wanted to die. So...
    manaamamaya manaamamaya 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2013

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    Everyday Is More Pain....more Misery

    so here i am just lying in my bed alone like always but today feels worse then ever i feel like if i get out of bed im just going to continue to hurt myself... nothing i do matter anymore i work a job that i hate i dont goto school anymore im headed no where and im tierd of...
    thamanski thamanski 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    I Just Feel So Empty

    I've tried to explain it hundreds of times but I still am unable to articulate exactly how I feel. Basically, I feel dead. I feel empty. A shell of what was once a girl so full of life and happiness. Everyday I feel like I'm just going through the motions. Nothing ever happens. I...
    GiveMeTherapy92 GiveMeTherapy92 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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    The past few years have been really rough

    for me. For years, I've walked around, feeling numb and isolated. I started therapy a few years and it's as if the flood gate of emotions has been opened. More often than not, I feel all the unpleasant emotions. Anger, rage, resentment, sadness, deep despair and hopelessness...
    tffan839 tffan839 26-30, M Aug 20

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    No Connection

      Its not so much that I feel dead inside, as I feel as though I should be dead, not that Im suicidal, or that I want to die, but as though my existence is a mistake.    Going through life, never having a connection with people, never touching someones life, or...
    MoonShade MoonShade 36-40 6 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 16-17, M Oct 5

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    I Have No Soul

    i use to be so happy and smiling all the time every since i moved down here to this boring dead beat place in the woods its been boring and sad i met so many boring people who arn't doing nothing with there lives i don't have a car or any great role models so it feels like im...
    123unhappyrefrian 123unhappyrefrian 18-21, F Aug 8, 2012

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    In The Maze Of Self Misconceptions..........!!!!!

    yes very clearly i see the waves of heavy anger rising inside me and then turning into the avalanches of destructive thoughts..................i can not hold all of this inside so i am writing it out. i don't know what to say and have no idea why the hell i am even trying to...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2012

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    Oh I feel so gone inside.

    .. This anal room with its oh so many staring eyes. Like knives for the kill. Let..me... Go! I'm done with these foolish mindless games. I want to return to the living. I want the excitement that once filled my body. I wish for no pity or apologies. I long for my soul to be...
    pitabready pitabready 18-21, M Apr 27

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    I'm so exhausted of faking like I'm okay

    when I'm not. Whether I'm at work, or around my friends and family . They say reach out to someone but like how? Why would anyone want to be around somebody who seems to have clinical depression , when they can surround them selves with happy - positive people?
    romi777 romi777 31-35, F 1 Response May 15

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    Life Isn't A Blessing, It's A Curse.

    I've come to refer to many aspects of my life in the past tense. I was a good person, I was a likable person and so on. I've been battling depression for several months now. It's taken so many things from me. For each thing that it takes from me a part of me dies inside. Just to...