I Feel Disposable

Yeah, my name is Christina. I don't give it out normally, but I'm rebelling against the norm. Sue me.

If I left this earth today, right now, very few people would notice.

Of my 7 flatmates, 2 don't talk to me, 3 barely notice me, and...

That guy who's just around when he's around.

I've never been aggressively outcast, just not really invited. If I'd been aggressively forced out of social circles, I'd have enough to complain about that others who can complain about...

I'm a built in babysitter. I'm number two. Never been number one to him. I'm the mother of his children but he treats me like a live in nanny. He acts like a bachelor and when he finds a new male friend I'd swear I become last on the...

I don't think I've ever been important to anyone, I mean... my mum shows concern about me moving away, but only because it's my choice, when I mention I feel suicidal, she takes it like a personal attack and reacts like so, saying...

I definitely feel disposable... It is a truly awful feeling that weighs me down greatly sometimes... People tend to leave me a lot and as a result i almost have a complex about it.... When i think someone is leaving i typically start...

Since I was 12 boys have ignored me. When I got married my husband divorced me. We are trying to work things out after he broke my heart. Since he was the one asking for forgiveness there are issues that need to be addressed because...

I'm so miserable that I make everyone around me miserable too. I feel bad for everyone that knows me and has to deal with me and all my shit. Even though a lot of people that have been in my life treated me like shit. My friends and...

Growing up I had a psycho for a step-dad. When other kids heard bed time stories of princes and far away lands, He would be telling me about how miserable and wretched I was. How the person who killed me would be a hero for putting me...

You've probably been reading a lot of these when you follow me. It's true. My friend said it right in my face. "To tell you the truth...." Yep my coach didn't even notice I was missing today in training. It's either he trusts that I won...

we were friends so i thought. you were seperated from your wife and i am seperated from my husband.we both enjoyed each others company laughing and drinking .forgetting the world.watching movies.we had a connection.i was scared you...

I feel as though because I have such a kind/caring personality, that people take advantage of that. They keep me around as long as they need me to take advantage of my generosity and then, once they've taken all they can- I'm disposed...

All my life, if I was partnered with a friend in class and they saw another friend, they would always leave me to be with that friend. At first, I thought it would end, but at 16, I see now that it has gotten to the point that I wonder...