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    Every day I wake up. Every weekday I wake up at

    6am to go to school. Every Saturday I wake up at 8am to go to martial arts. Every Sunday I sleep in until 9-10am, and go to VietAid to be taught Vietnamese. Every time I start my homework, I sit there with a blank face and stare at nothing. I don't want to do any of this. I want...
    vulfae vulfae 13-15, F Dec 9, 2015

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    It's walking home everyday

    and feeling like I haven't really gone anywhere or done anything, though I was out the whole time. Doing something. Or, I suppose, realizing I haven't said a word at all for the whole day. Not hating anything, not really. Not despising anything, except for the noise. Finding...
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2014

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    I'm eating breakfast in a small shop,

    somewhere on 34th street. I didn't go to class today. It's back. This feeling. I just want to go home and sleep. What am I going to do? Am I going to keep pretending that everything is fine, like always? It has never been this bad. I have no motivation to go to class or do...
    life14 life14 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2015

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    I am looking fervently

    for something to fill the empty spaces: I live alone, I don't have friends here, I don't know my community, where did everyone go? Searching feels like my new religion, looking for better that I don't deserve. I'd just hoard it and wait for someone to walk by. Let me tell you...
    Itekimasu Itekimasu 18-21, F Jun 2, 2015

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    sometimes i suppose i am happy.

    like when i am with my friends, throwing my head back and covering my mouth as i shake with laughter at a joke someone just made but then day turns to night and my carefree grin turns into an unexplainable sadness, etched on my face like a tattoo. and i lay in bed, thinking...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 5, 2014

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    This is something I've been trying to talk

    myself out of ... idk where to really begin. It's something that has gotten worse after I started living alone. And gets worse and worse when I either get back home from going out somewhere (store or something, no parties for me) and this mostly because of the things I have. I...
    Ichki Ichki 22-25, M Jan 28

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    I just realized that i have consistently chosen

    a man that never truly chose me.
    NevurEnuff NevurEnuff 31-35, F Feb 17, 2014

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    I don't know why but I don't seem to feel any

    emotions anymore. I have no idea why. Maybe I'm depressed? I don't really know. It makes me want to self harm because then at least I'd be feeling something, but I've been clean for about 3-4 months and I don't want to break that. I've had friends try too cheer me up, but it...
    Ohshewayoutt Ohshewayoutt 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2015

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    I don't really know. I guess I just feel sad

    and pointless. In the long run, I don't matter at all. None of us do. And that's such a sad thought. That everything everyone ever does or goes through, is all for nothing. And a completely different thing altogether, my mind is so messed up. And although it doesnt matter in...
    skeletoncliquetop skeletoncliquetop 13-15, F a week ago

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    Meh...I've always felt this way from time to

    time. People around me says I don't have REAL problem in life because no financial problems and I'm just idle, sloth, unmotivated. I thought love could save me and then I figured out not long ago if I'm not happy with myself even if I've changed places with someone else who has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 13, 2015

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    I don't feel happy. Or sad.

    Or anything. Not depressed. Just emptiness I just want everything to go away. The world, to go away. Of course, this doesn't make me suicidal. Suicide has too many consequences. *sigh* until something changes, in the world and me, im still keeping in my headphones, and Still...
    StillBlockingOutTheWorld StillBlockingOutTheWorld 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    So. X texts me for the second time

    since June. She asks me the same question: "Hey ______ how's everything going? I hope everything is going well but I have something I need to ask you." The first time, in June when she asked me this, my mind instantly went to the pics... the pics I sent her boyfriend maybe two...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19 18-21, F Jan 3, 2015

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    Eversince the relationship of my ex weeks ago

    and everything fine. Now that i could really relax on life now but i struggled to bare that i would even find love. Everyday i wish i was dead and it would have might have been better. I dont know but why am i here? I mean i explored and cared many but they left me. But im gonna...
    MichaelLife MichaelLife 13-15, M Nov 27, 2015

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    My heart's an open door,

    not a doormat.....
    ilovepie12345 ilovepie12345 16-17, M Nov 23, 2015

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    There is a void somewhere in my being

    and I do not know how to fill it, or what to fill it with. I have everything and more to make someone happy, but I still struggle. I feel that I am taking for granted all the good things in my life because I'm not happy with what I have. The worst part is I have no idea what I...
    John992 John992 22-25, M Jan 26, 2014

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    I do not think I am suffering from the common

    ailment many here speak of. My affliction (if it could be called so) is a complete cessation of movement as if a beast once given to stirring and howling all through the night has fallen silent, and left in its absence a feeling of trepidation. Undeniably parts of my humanity...
    Arcadeus Arcadeus 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23, 2014

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    Void of Feeling

       No thats not right, I have to many feelings sometimes, My life is empty, my heart is empty, I dont feel the things I should.  I care about people and things, but I never know if its because I care, or because I tell myself I should.  Its so easy for me to...
    MoonShade MoonShade 36-40 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    I used to think the worst thing in life was to

    end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel alone... (Robin Williams) R.I.P.
    Charmeeee Charmeeee 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    Arya098 Arya098 22-25, F Jul 3, 2015

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    I used to be spiritual rich.

    The loss of this caused a lot to my psychology. So depressed.
    EleniHaru EleniHaru 18-21, F Sep 28, 2015

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    I don't feel anything anymore.

    I've discarded my emotions long ago especially the negative ones, such as anger and disgust. I don't need them. Even happiness is expendable so I no longer long for it. There's one thing that remained though...... loneliness.
    ChrisDreaminIt ChrisDreaminIt 18-21, M Dec 13, 2015

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    Dust To Dust.

    Silently my mood redress, tangled thoughts seem in a mess, the mind unkind tries to tease, mixed emotions like to squeeze, light fades from gold to grey, particles of dust float and sway, along a beam of hazy view, tears of rust slipping through, beyond the echoes feel...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    I needed to be able to control the situation

    somehow. So I deactivated my Facebook. He needs to learn what it feels like to be scared to lose someone. I don't want to inflict the same pain, but I have to look out for myself in a way. I feel weird & empty that I can't check fb to see when he was last on or to see anything...
    taminglife taminglife 22-25, F Jul 19, 2015

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    I woke up to a cloudy Sunday morning,

    a soft, pale light leaked through my black curtains. I could hear the sound of the leaves as the wind blew.. And a car passed by every now and then, but inside my apartment, it was static and motionless. The more I spent here listening to the sound of the leaves, the emptier...
    Violens Violens 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 4, 2015

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    I am not really sure what is going on with me.

    I was the type that used others to validate myself and I always knew that was kind of bad, because I should have the power to make myself feel like someone, but suddenly my thoughts of others vanished. A very good friend left for another country, may not see him for around 5...
    JustaSketch JustaSketch 22-25, M Sep 3, 2015

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    I gave all the wrong people the right pieces of

    me, and now I stand here with nothing left to give.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 2 Responses May 4, 2015

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    I Don't Feel Anything....

    I never really knew what people meant when they said that they had an empty feeling inside them until I had it myself. I didn't know that it was possible even to be so incredibly un-emotional.. I can cry, and laugh and smile and frown whatever but I truly don't feel a thing...
    meXtrano meXtrano 18-21, F 25 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Sometimes i lose completely the sense of the

    reality,its like not being alive for a couple of minutes feels like you are just observing everything but you cant feel anything,you cant say anything,all you can do is watch the seconds pass fast and quietly.I call it morphine effect,the way you feel when pain can no longer...
    AnabellaWW AnabellaWW 16-17, F 2 Responses May 7, 2014

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    Last night felt the coldest I’ve ever felt in

    awhile. I felt empty and broken. I knew this was coming but I always thought it would get better. I am lost for words cuz it’s really hard to explain what my head and heart is feeling. One of the hardest decision is whether to walk away or try harder. You’ve given me no...
    norcalkaylala norcalkaylala 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    lesliechen lesliechen 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    I'm finding myself empty again.

    I am scrambling for something, even if it's temporary, even if it's the only reason to talk. I wake up and slowly find myself succumbing to it, gently lulling me into a feeling which envelops all of me. Even if it makes me question what I am anymore, what I was before and who I...
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F Jun 7, 2015

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    I don't know how much longer I can go on for,

    everything I love has been taken from me, and I'm sick of living in this world of hatred and violence. It's unforgiving and cruel, and I am far too weak to survive it. It's best I end it now so that I don't live to see the worst.
    Dragonforce7 Dragonforce7 16-17, M Aug 25, 2015

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    I know my partner is up to their old ways again.

    .. I shut up and put up yet he knows what good for him is good for me.....should I?
    serenitylspirit serenitylspirit 41-45, F Jul 23, 2015

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    I want to be loved and accepted.

    Why am I so different? Will I ever be happy? Will I have to settle? I need a change, but do I want it? I want something else. I don't like the not-knowing, being young. I want respect and wisdom and power and confidence. I'm tired of ******* up, but I don't want to change...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I feel like i don't even have a heart to care

    for or even get broken any more. its already dead.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 10, 2015

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    Often I find myself laying in my bed just

    waiting. I don't ever want to get dressed or leave my room, but I have to. I watch sad movies to pass the time and I always cry. Frankly, I'm always on the verge of tears. I don't know what's wrong with me, I have nothing to be sad about. I guess I just feel alone.
    thebebambop thebebambop 18-21, F Jun 4, 2015

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    This sucks. It has recently dawned on me

    that my life is empty as ****. I think I had sufficiently repressed these thoughts for the last couple of years and suddenly the pandoras box of despair has been opened. As I evaluate the current state of my existence, I realize (a) that I am not happy with the state of my toxic...
    contrarian86 contrarian86 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2015

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    Yes, I feel a mixup between anger,

    sadness, self pity, emptiness, meaningless. I know most people have it worse than me, but that doesn't help. When I was a kid, life had a meaning, even if I was an outcast amongst my peers, I didn't know how to play, how to behave, and how to act as a kid. Still, I leveled the...
    PeterPalmer PeterPalmer 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    lonelytwilite lonelytwilite 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2015

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    I haven't had this feeling in years.

    I'm so empty right now its killing me! I need that feeling and I need to be fighting to keep control.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 23, 2015

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    Empty

     I feel empty.  Something is missing.  I've always felt empty.  From my childhood...during my teenage years...through my marriage...and now even with the end of my marriage.  A strong belief in God up until last year did not banish away the emptiness...
    Corvina Corvina 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2008

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    Its exactly what I feel today,

    without the emotional drama, just feeling nothing.. didn't know its even possible.
    gwenllian gwenllian 26-30, F 2 Responses May 23, 2014

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    Day was been a hard day!

    The empty feeling is almost to much to handle! I need that full feeling inside me again. It was a slow day at work and the weather stopped me from going out and picking cars! I always plan to be out on days like this. The rain wasn't stopped so I've searched the inner wed most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 17, 2015

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    When you feel so hollow.

    You don't have strength for anything, anyone. You want it all to end. It's like a dark, suffocating abyss. You want to get out, but don't know how. No one will help pull you out of it. And sometimes, no matter how hard you try to be strong for yourself, your own strength and...
    MargoRothSpiegelman MargoRothSpiegelman 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 3, 2015

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    Sometimes you have to forget how you feel

    and remember what you deserve.
    Charmeeee Charmeeee 36-40, F Aug 19, 2014

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