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I Feel Fortunate to Be Alive

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    It's Been Hell, But I'm Grateful.

    I have wasted much time, energy, and resources in my life. Some would say: "You're a waste." They might be right. Typically, I have been an ungrateful *****. Never enjoying all the small things. Never taking a moment to say "thank you" to whoever or...
    EricS EricS 31-35, M 2 Responses May 27, 2009

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    What Ifs and Near Misses

    When I'm feeling positive and i think about it... i mean _really_ think about it, i am reminded on how lucky i am to still have a pulse. When my mom was pregnant (not with me- but with my older sibling) she was Given an Anti-miscarriage Drug called DES (yeah, I'm not gonna even...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Jun 3, 2009

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    I Am

    I feel like I've been writing a lot of silly stories recently and it's been nice to exercise my sense of humor but I think I'm getting away from what is most important in my life.  Not only here on EP but in my personal life.  I think it's really great that I'm no...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 2 Responses May 27, 2009

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    -- Glimpse -- a very brief, passing look, sight, or view. a momentary or slight appearance. a vague idea; inkling. I get this during the day. Maybe just after having woken up in...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Apr 13

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    I put faith in my beliefs and feel this elevated existence once I accept my faith and that it is a part of me, my faith goes straight into my heart, like the best high you ever...
    seikofontay seikofontay 18-21, M Apr 28

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    LIES........(some words have been changed around a little by me to fit a little better)Bound at every limb by shackles of darknesssealed with lies through so many unseen tearslost...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 16 hrs ago

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    Everyday I feel like I am dead. I don't know how long I've felt this way. All I know is the person I was or could have been seems to have died a long time ago. I carry this...
    Noology19 Noology19 26-30 Apr 23

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    There's a difference between living and being alive. Everyone that's not dead... Is alive. People walk and wander through life being alive. They will never have that edge, take...
    hunterw0lf hunterw0lf 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    I want to meet new friends and have fun and feel alive again. I've been in a loveless passionless marriage for too long now. Lead separate lives and I've been stagnant for too long...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26

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    See i feel there has to come a point soon enough when I’ll feel "ok". Although I’m no longer sure what that should feel like anymore, adding to my idea that well it won’t...
    maxbg23 maxbg23 22-25, M Apr 24

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    I want to die. Im not getting anywhere with my life... My parents never encourage me, they always tell me to "just deal with it". Well i cant anymore. Im 18 and I cant get a job, I...
    ShizukaiOkami ShizukaiOkami 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    It feels so good to live in a world full of color. I used to be really depressed but I feel alive finally. I thank god everyday I'm out of my hole. Life is beautiful. Nature is...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    For the second time as an adult, I've experienced what my Dad once referred to as a "Turn Key Life". However this most recent shift has been far more difficult to face and as the...
    FatoProfugus FatoProfugus 36-40, M 19 hrs ago

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    The year 2010 was the turning point of my life. I went back to UK in October 2010 with my dad. I met my old classmates there, whom I didnt know that well but we became good friends...
    cloud0connected cloud0connected 26-30, F Apr 11

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    SKRILLEX! Who ever participated a Skrillex live concert? I watched him three times live . There were the best three days of my life. I felt so alive. I thought: it worth it living...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 19

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    for longer then I can remember I am and have been tired of being alive I have always thought of killing myself but I can't jump off the cliff I sit at the edge feet hanging off the...
    Tempzero Tempzero 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 21

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    Cause Ive been where you are before, And I have felt the pain of losing who you are, And I have died so many times but I am still alive. This is not the end of me, This is the...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F Apr 26

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    I want to have fun, dance crazy and laugh and enjoy being alive
    missynona missynona 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I just want to be told how great it is to be alive. To be with someone that is happy to be alive
    insensitiveone insensitiveone 31-35, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    It's hating my family for abandoning me, despising my friends for always leaving me, having to endure real loneliness, just being completely on my own through life and I'm so sick...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Apr 22

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    That guy makes me alive Who makes me laugh whenever possible Makes me think insane whenever he's out of my reach Who makes me feel so emotional whenever he gets mad Makes me feel...
    Msorpheus20 Msorpheus20 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I'm sure I'm not the brightest mom in the world, but I can tell you what I know from experience. I still remember what it was like to be your age. Pretty scary for me, too. I've...
    ArtLover01 ArtLover01 66-70, F Apr 28

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    First time There's a first time for everything; your first crush, first kiss, but nothing is as traumatizing at your first heartbreak. Imagine this, you become friends, then...
    Ryker91 Ryker91 22-25, M a week ago

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    Here's some poetry: Who Are You Really? (poetry about being confused about if someone actually cares) Who Are You Really? I wish we could talk about our feelings Sometimes I...
    SeeingAuras SeeingAuras 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I want to feel your gaze as I walk in the room. I want to feel your body quiver as my hand runs across your cheek. Know that you are my pleasure, my shinning star, my burning...
    Hm3454 Hm3454 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I just found out JESUS predestined my friend for HEAVEN and me for hell. What really cuts me is that she thinks JUST LIKE ME I know cause if i put myself in the same life as her...
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    Here i am, i guess i cant run of ep Nobody Will read this, is better like that. Is a cold night, about to finish my turn... The cold wind plays with my hair, Cuz Im alone here. I...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I have pleaded a million time to my family to live with them coz I'm not safe at Webb house and the next door neighbour and my support worker are humiliating me and violating me...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I don't feel alive or real unless I'm doing something dangerous or stupid and then I just feel worse after the experience. I do suffer from dissociation but I think it goes deeper...
    buffalobilll buffalobilll 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    A stroll through the park on a beautiful sunny day. Spring is in the air and blossoms swim around in the breeze. The air is clean and alive. I'm walking because I'm onto something...
    iShined iShined 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    This is one of my biggest fantasies, actually. I love imagining myself being eaten alive by a big beautiful woman--sometimes someone I know, sometimes a celebrity, sometimes just...
    tastymeatboy tastymeatboy 18-21, M Apr 14

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    Prologue Onyx Pond At a distance it was a large onyx oval nestled in the woods. After midnight, the pond shimmered under the watchful moon. To me, it was a perfect picture of yin...
    MidnightScribe MidnightScribe 36-40, M 7 Responses Apr 15

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    It hurts when the one you care about, have feelings for, and love. Just drops off the face of the earth and you don't know if their alive or not. Going on a week now and it hurts...
    humpdawg humpdawg 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Lucky. Grateful? Sometimes. Lonely, all the time. I have only my dog and what broken pieces of my family remain. Friends I see and chill with? Chilling as it is, I have only one...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm keeping to myself more than normal. All my best friends were worried they all told me how much they cared and that they were all so happy that that man saved me.A girl on ep...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    All our lives we are judged by the way look. There seems to be this picture perfect image of a perfectly tanned, slim, dark haired, light eyed woman, with perfectly straightened...
    SecretAngel6 SecretAngel6 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    So there's this hole inside me that can't be filled. It's void and needs to be filled up. I'm beginning to see maybe I need crisis to fill this void. I'm attracted to people who...
    AlricVirgil AlricVirgil 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    lol. So far when have i ever been this way ?! huh !?!?!?!?! no . I am depressed to deeply. I feel so so unimaginably bad. Leave me alone let me cry ok. I am sick about all that is...
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    😢 feel like the world is giving up on me. In a way, I kinda want a boyfriend to know that I will always be loved by somebody. Sometimes I wonder how I am still alive...
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F Apr 22

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    I absolutely hated myself on Wednesday, i cried so much i couldn't see, screamed so much i couldn't speak and punched so much i couldn't feel...Today....today has been a day that i...
    dannilou dannilou 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    NEW WAY TO BLEED...... (I altered a few of the lyrics to suit better) Serve your twisted enemy you just may earn forgiveness keep doing your dirty little secrets you know...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 15 hrs ago

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    Every time I ask my parents to live with them they refuse and they oppress me and they even threatened of putting me in psychiatric hospital ... I just feel so helpless and...