I Feel Fortunate to Be Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 91 People

    What Ifs and Near Misses

    When I'm feeling positive and i think about it... i mean _really_ think about it, i am reminded on how lucky i am to still have a pulse. When my mom was pregnant (not with me- but with my older sibling) she was Given an Anti-miscarriage Drug called DES (yeah, I'm not gonna even...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Jun 3, 2009

    I Am

    I feel like I've been writing a lot of silly stories recently and it's been nice to exercise my sense of humor but I think I'm getting away from what is most important in my life.  Not only here on EP but in my personal life.  I think it's really great that I'm no...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
    36-40, M
    2 Responses May 27, 2009

    It's Been Hell, But I'm Grateful.

    I have wasted much time, energy, and resources in my life. Some would say: "You're a waste." They might be right. Typically, I have been an ungrateful *****. Never enjoying all the small things. Never taking a moment to say "thank you" to whoever or...
    EricS EricS
    31-35, M
    2 Responses May 27, 2009

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    So, I'm thinking this might be my last experience to write on EP. I made my account after deleting Facebook. I just wanted that outlet. When I look back to the day I first made...
    ExploreroftheUnknown ExploreroftheUnknown
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    I am no longer good enough for my boyfriend. I have gained alot of weight. He apparently loves everything about me but when it comes to time in bed and I am on top he becomes...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby
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    3 Responses Apr 18
    Usually I don't feel defective. Even if I am jealous for my friends after some period it passes and I am genuinely happy for them. Also I feel different with different friends. For...
    Memonster Memonster
    26-30
    Apr 18
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    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
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    Loneliness is eating me alive... I don't know what I have done to drive women away from me... But now I must learn to accept I will always alone.
    Foenix Foenix
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    Apr 17
    Try to win the war over depression n suicide.Everyone in life has a purpose. A reason for being alive on this earth. And their unique story needs to be heard ,to help someone else...
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    Apr 16
    I turning 14 in 8 days. (I act and look older than I am I could pass for a 18 year old) This is my problem. I have problems and sometimes I can be insecure and I think I'm...
    lifeproblems lifeproblems
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    2 Responses Apr 16
    I feel so alone .. I feel so unloved you can say 😔 sometimes you know I feel like there's no point in living anymore My life is barely starting and I already wanna give up ..
    unperfectchild unperfectchild
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    3 Responses Apr 16
    If you make me feel that way (or alternatively, if I *let* you make me feel that way) AFTER you have led me to believe otherwise, you have successively made an enemy out of me...
    thisisnotagame thisisnotagame
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    okay where to start where to start when I was about 25 years old I lost a whole bunch of weight I believe it was a hundred and eighty seven pounds made me feel really good about...
    sonnycapallero85 sonnycapallero85
    31-35, M
    Apr 15
    Right now I suppose the only way to describe how I'm feeling is empty. I can't really put my finger on how I'm feeling now, I sort of want to cry but nothing is coming out. I'm...
    SilentNight23 SilentNight23
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    Apr 15
    Sometimes i feel ugly because i've never been in a relationship. through force of circumstance and a health dose of free will. i feel like no one has ever found me good looking...
    nightchill nightchill
    22-25, M
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    My life can't get any worse at the minute every thing I say or do just ***** up I'm the most unluckiest person alive. Finding it hard not to cry all the time every thing that can...
    Kitty79 Kitty79
    36-40
    3 Responses Apr 15
    I feel like I have never been mentally here on Earth. Ever since I began to comprehend language and think critically I have never felt like I was meant to be on this Earth. This...
    MillennialStarSon MillennialStarSon
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 14
    I trust. I feel. I love. Somewhere along the way I learn about doubts. Inconsistency and some discrepancy triggers it. Even the slightest simplest of things that don't add up can...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
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    1 Response Apr 13
    best as i can describe it today. emotionless :/ last night i felt as if i were getting better, but today just doesn't feel right. i no longer feel much pain at least, but at the...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 13
    I read an article in a newspaper many years ago that if you're lonely and miserable then you will die young. I remember to this day, yet here I am, at 28, still alive for what? Don...
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    Apr 13
    My wife and I have been married for 14 years. We have a beautiful daughter who is about to be 12 years old. . We had our share of fights the last couple of years, some fights were...
    WhimsicalWill WhimsicalWill
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 13
    I have no motivation, feel completely indifferent and apathetic. I feel completely drained right now. Chronic depression has worn me down to the point where I am incapable of...
    Pleiotropic Pleiotropic
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    2 Responses Apr 13
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    marchingelephant marchingelephant
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    Apr 13
    With words of a poet, he speaks to my soul. He makes the butterflies in my stomach come alive. He makes me blush, and makes parts if me tingle. I'm a falling star, but he helps me...
    lovesthenightsky lovesthenightsky
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 12
    at my house, nobody really gets along, my day consists of getting insulted, and made fun of. im never aloud to share my opinion and i get shut down alot by family. i feel like...
    alyssapenn32 alyssapenn32
    13-15, F
    Apr 11
    Each day I feel like I cause trouble. I feel like I make everyone's day worse. I don't feel happy. I've been constantly sad. I never goes away, and if it does it always comes back...
    silentsimp silentsimp
    16-17, F
    Apr 10
    I want to talk to him but i feel like he shouldn't forgive me for treating him ******. I feel like he thinks I take him for granted. I feel bad.
    silentsimp silentsimp
    16-17, F
    Apr 10
    I do feel like I bother people. I'm usually always the first to message people. But I feel like if they truly want to talk to me they will message me first. But at the same time I...
    lovesthenightsky lovesthenightsky
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 10
    I'm 20, I live in Shetland, its an island just of the coast of Scotland. Ever since I was 15 years old, I have always thought about moving down south, to England or Scotland to...
    st0oie st0oie
    18-21, F
    Apr 10
    god I miss that feeling. when you just feel it radiate off of them, see it shine through their eyes, feel it in the way they cling to you in a hug.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 10
    I am very lucky to know my dad, but our relationship has never really been more than a friendship. He and my mum split when I was around 6 and just remember not being that bothered...
    nedh1996 nedh1996
    18-21, M
    Apr 10
    My father died when I was 7 my mom did the best she could but always favored my brother, I married young and had 2 beautiful kids when I divorced my kids left and never really...
    MissyBlack64 MissyBlack64
    51-55, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    The feeling that I'm utterly alone. Even when there are people surrounding me but I feel so left out. I go to school have "friends," there, but sit at home on the weekends and have...
    Kperr14 Kperr14
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    Why talk about others, I think I don't even know myself lately its like nobody gets me my significant other to the most It's like I have made his life hell he's not that happy as...
    Floz Floz
    18-21, F
    Apr 9
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    Iamwhatswrongwithme Iamwhatswrongwithme
    18-21, M
    Apr 9
    It is not a strange feeling to feel this way. I feel like that odd girl in a small village in the middle of nowhere. Except my entire country is that small village.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9
    Just before the rains, the earth cracks, everything's dried up.. The heat.. Dryness and dead leaves.. Nature looks all shriveled and tired.. And then the rains.. Greenness...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 9
    I am a person who suffers from loneliness on a daily basis for some years now. To add to my suffering as a lonely individual, I also suffer from OCD, depression, and anxiety, which...
    mindpnda1 mindpnda1
    22-25
    Apr 9
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    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 8
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    maverika maverika
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    I love my life and my friend and family. But I hide my feelings behind a mask. I show them what they want to see and what I want to see. I feel as though my friends don't actually...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly
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    Mariam69141 Mariam69141
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    Selina923 Selina923
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Apr 7
    Unfortunately I learned from this lesson, not that I still don't help the less fortunate. I just had an experience from the past when I had such low self esteem.. N this woman that...
    DanaMonroe DanaMonroe
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    I'm a newie to this and honestly wasnt sure which group to write in....I supposed this was best as it is abit of everything...all random thoughts and feelings in my head. Dont even...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 7
    I'm so tired. Tired of feeling so alone and empty inside. I feel like a constant third wheel to everyone. Up until this point in my life I never thought the world would be better...
    xpxlologi xpxlologi
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    7 Responses Apr 6
    There goes everything... All the feelings, All the hope, All gone... But to this I know there is something good coming from it. Something I will have to wait and find out...
    inquisitiveDamen17 inquisitiveDamen17
    16-17, M
    Apr 6
    I ******* hate feeling like this I hate feeling stupid I hate feeling like I can never do anything right. All I do is ******* fail at everything I can never do One simple thing...
    carazami carazami
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    Infinyte Infinyte
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 6
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
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    lifehack lifehack
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    Airin1987 Airin1987
    26-30, M
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    Why does it feel like no matter how good natured you are, how kind you are, how many good deeds you do it feels like ****** people always find happiness before you?
    callmekhaleesi callmekhaleesi
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    It's an unexplainable void that's always been there and nothing I try will fill it. Feeling like you're the only one who feels this way and you can't tell anyone because they won't...
    callmekhaleesi callmekhaleesi
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    It shatters my world each time I want to make love to him and he gets upset with me and says things like "all you want to do is have sex!" It's been 3 days. We've done all this...
    InnienOutie InnienOutie
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 4
    well, after all those weeks riding in a huge emotional roller coaster thinking that i was wrong first and later feeling used and manipulated later feeling sad and lonely and others...
    kinskibu kinskibu
    31-35
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    To be honest i wasnt the most social girl in my school and im still not. I dont want to be either but i just cannot understand why people are always so rude and sardonic to me. I...
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