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I Feel Fortunate to Be Alive

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    I Am

    I feel like I've been writing a lot of silly stories recently and it's been nice to exercise my sense of humor but I think I'm getting away from what is most important in my life.  Not only here on EP but in my personal life.  I think it's really great that I'm no...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 2 Responses May 27, 2009

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    What Ifs and Near Misses

    When I'm feeling positive and i think about it... i mean _really_ think about it, i am reminded on how lucky i am to still have a pulse. When my mom was pregnant (not with me- but with my older sibling) she was Given an Anti-miscarriage Drug called DES (yeah, I'm not gonna even...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Jun 3, 2009

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    It's Been Hell, But I'm Grateful.

    I have wasted much time, energy, and resources in my life. Some would say: "You're a waste." They might be right. Typically, I have been an ungrateful *****. Never enjoying all the small things. Never taking a moment to say "thank you" to whoever or...
    EricS EricS 26-30, M 2 Responses May 27, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    "No Jesus Christ" Before you hedge those bets you placed against me Be reticent of fortunes they foretell Your verbal defecation i can't wash away despite myself Your vanity, it...
    K3022 K3022 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Something.. like... I want to be out there, somewhere. Fresh, new, ... Like when on vacation and you step into a new house, or shop you havent been in. Maybe it is the same as...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 14

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    2 years ago I tried to commit suicide and failed... I am still alive yet after all this time... I really only regret staying alive. That's it really, I regret not dying all that...
    SinisterShadow SinisterShadow 18-21, M Jun 30

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    Scratch the crust – blood, Pick your nose – blood, Brush your teeth – blood, Sew the sock – blood, Every 28 days – blood, Are we alive? Since rubbing rusty iron makes the...
    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    I feel it in my existence. As a human and for being on this planet and even living or existing. Endless pain. Nothing make sense and everything makes me unhappy, I could never even...
    DrowninginFear DrowninginFear 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I am incredibly lucky to be alive I was born premature 2 months before I was supposes to be born I was born 19 days after my parents got married on November 1st 1997 So I was born...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am a 29 years old single woman who is struggling to identify my desire in life. There are so many things going on in my mind that I am just so glad I have discovered this...
    zeilek zeilek 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I've been walking through a fog for too long. I can't remember the last time I felt this alive. Quiet 7am Sunday morning, cold fresh air, bright sun poking its head over the...
    Diabo1ique Diabo1ique 70+ Jul 5

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    I work with the elderly and everyday after listening to their stories I am more grateful to be alive and well. I strive to utilize my time wisely to maximize my existence.
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    For a lot of reasons I have been up and down like a yo yo. I've let life's events get the best of me. I'm normally the stronger on. The pillar, but the pillar has been falling...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F Jul 7

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    Well, this is my first tine posting in ep and i'll like to express how fortunate am i to have a loving girlfriend. ^^ It had been about 5 months since we're together, and our...
    gufha gufha 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    I gave a hopeless man 3 bucks the other day. I mean it is not that great but I feel like he could get a soda or something.
    LovelyGamer LovelyGamer 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Do you believe in soulmates? If so ever wondered where your one was? On a remote island maybe? At your work or school? maybe they your best friend Or maybe they weren't even born...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 11

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    I feel sad and angry.It's like all my emotions are trapped inside and can't get out.I just wanna feel happy and alive again,but there's nothing that makes me happy anymore.It's...
    shygirlaquamarine shygirlaquamarine 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    OK so its my turn, gotta say, this one is even more accurate than the last test I saw, it describes me perfectly..... except for the dancing part, I cant dance to save my life...
    GoodMan1988 GoodMan1988 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    When I was a kid I always wanted a family like the ones that I would watch on the television. My mother had 2 jobs during the time. My father well let's say........ Poppa was a...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Hi hello wow, this is weird. For starters I doubt anyone will read this. My name is Valerie I am 15. I'm a relapsing self harmer, I don't look or act like what people think is a...
    valerieisabelle valerieisabelle 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I mean people without depression don't know how it is to live with it I hate how my mother comes up to me and says "I know how you feel" and then I say to her "do you have...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Still alive and kicking and now roaming around EP to let all people know how crazy and AWESOME I am! You doubting? Don't care! :P (haters gonna hate!) giggles* JK ;) I'm AWESOME...
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    i am not depressed ,i know that,but these days i feel like i dont need to be alive,i have no carrier,i'm not good at any thing,i'm not interesting in any thing special,i'm not...
    aryanm828 aryanm828 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm a night owl. I've always been since I've been a young child . I feel more energized. I only wish more places were open at that time. IHOP is open but I don't feel like hoppin...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    he makes me feel so special sometimes like he would do anything for me but then he gets me off guard and hurts me a lot and he doesnt care, i told him that i cutted and he just...
    CallmeShaneyney CallmeShaneyney 13-15, F Jun 29

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    Today I woke up feeling hopeless about everything. I woke up and asked myself, why am I alive ? and went back to bed but then I woke up again and asked myself the exact same thing...
    WarriorLEHP WarriorLEHP 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I know this sounds stupid, and I am not ever going to commit suicide so dont think that, but I got to thinking the other day, why are we alive? Why are we here? Whats the purpose...
    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I'm tired and so sick of being alive I want to end up this sadness ****.
    jumanachan jumanachan 16-17, F Jul 12

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    Honestly, I don't even know if I should go on. Everyone is here for a reason but I feel that I don't comply to that at all. I just don't think I belong here. It sounds harsh but it...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    If I say “it’s a great day to be alive,” it’s because those are literally my only plans.
    PinkP0werRanger PinkP0werRanger 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    there are no words to describe this lack of feeling. its just there. & im struggling to find ways to know that im alive. i've been cut-free for almost a whole year now, and i dont...
    KATarinatillinghast KATarinatillinghast 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Even though my life is in shambles I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for those moments that cause you to stop and think "wow, this is amazing!" I am grateful for the...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    It hurts me so bad. But i still manage to smile even if its kills me inside. I know i regret the day that i let you go. But believe me i have no choice. I need to stay away from...
    siriusthestar siriusthestar 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Been separated for the past 10 months from my wife. I felt betrayed and was angry when she first left. My heart was slowly healing, I tried dating but something just didn't feel...
    Jar92380 Jar92380 31-35, M Jun 24

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    I can't go on living this way But I can't go back the way I came Chained to this fear that I will never find A way to heal my soul And I will wander 'til the end of time Half alive...
    xenia29 xenia29 26-30, F Jun 24

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    So do cats. And I love cats. I would lay with her in the sun as I did my homework. I would feel her comforting purr against my hands. But I refer to her in the past tense because...
    TheSmartestManOnEarth TheSmartestManOnEarth 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    I can't help it, it's like I feel worthless and I have a million things going on in my mind. Then I cut and I can breathe again and I never noticed I couldn't till I could again...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Sometimes, I get tired. I am always looking for a surrogate family. Both my parents are alive and live within relatively close proximity to me and we could not be more distant. My...
    nightkrawla nightkrawla 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Take the time to break down. If it burns then burn it to the ground and remember that the roots are good. I've rebuilt myself from the ashes. I feel good, strong, and powerful...
    LastofmyKind LastofmyKind 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    She was the purest beauty But not the common kind She had a way about her That made you feel alive
    ubintangoed ubintangoed 41-45, F Jul 11

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    Lately our generation has been taking for granted all the small details in life.. We look down at our phones instead of looking around. I want to take a moment of your day to say...
    KellsThr13 KellsThr13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Here in this darkness alone I stand Alien light burns my eyes and I shield with my hand In the warm light I see children playing Mothers laughing, couples laying Atop blankets on...
    WhatBecomesOfBrokenDolls WhatBecomesOfBrokenDolls 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    It's like as soon as you get use to something, it changes. I talk to him everyday. I can't talk to him right now and it's eating me alive. I miss him so so bad.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 3 Responses