I Feel Guilty When Im Unproductive

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    Even The Meds Don't Help

     I get up, take my meds (including ritalin) and i'm still too freaking lethargic and depressed to do anything, so I go back to sleep.  I usually wake back up after lunch, take my 2nd ritalin and about an hour later shower, get dressed, etc.  then go back to bed...
    nightismycompanion nightismycompanion
    26-30, F
    Jan 24, 2010

    Lazy Mom?

    I worry when I'm unproductive. I'm unproductive when I worry! Aaagh! I am tired alot. And it may not always be because of physical exhaustion. Hey! I've never been a mother before! I worry about everything! And when money is tight I worry even more. I feel guilty and get...
    FellidayaFiresong FellidayaFiresong
    31-35, F
    Sep 2, 2012

    Guilty Of Procrastination, I Will Admit It!

    I believe this is one of my hardest challenges I have, I really feel guilty when I make a list to do and I am unable to finish it. I feel that I could have done more or done it better. I am too hard on myself I know So I have to work extra hard to tell myself it is okay not to do...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 26, 2013

    Ex Catholic

    I'm an ex-sangiuated catholic. I feel my guilt comes from my childhood and my mum's and dad's religious views. I'm spiritual and prefer eastern spirituality. Guilt the gift that always gives lol
    sammy500 sammy500
    41-45, F
    Jul 24, 2010

    He Is A Girl....

    -Dont you think his hair are too long? i asked my coulligue. she was looking silent. -what happened mam? you are not answering. -no sir,i really feel that. but what can i do i dont have so much money that- -to cut his hair? i was looking surprise. i tried to controll my pallu...
    ExUser007 ExUser007
    18-21, F
    Aug 28, 2011

    I Am a Loser

    I have a story to share with people who may have the same issue as me.  I am and have been a small time drug dealer my whole life.  One will probably paint this horrible picture about me.  However my drug of choice is Marijuana.  I come from a loving family...
    fam6236 fam6236
    36-40, M
    2 Responses May 24, 2009

    Thanks Dear Old Dad

    In my house we weren't even allowed to enjoy summer vacation when my dad was drinking. He always had us picking rocks out of his precious garden and splitting and stacking firewood. Here's the thing...we didn't have a fireplace or a wood stove! Granted, we were clearing out a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    I Love The People I Work For

    but what my _own kind_ has done to me has ripped me into shards _a while ago_. And I bet those idiots are so stupid they have no idea why I'd be angry at them... If I knew that the only people who actually had anything in common with me were such psychopaths I'd simply have...
    ILoveMarie ILoveMarie
    36-40
    1 Response Jul 24, 2010

    Unproductive

    Unproductive,not my style,I like to produce,Work away,There's nothin' worse,Wasting time,Being unproductive.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Dec 17, 2011

    Too Much For My Own Good

    Well, you could say I'm obssessive...but I just like to keep myself busy...and it is obvious cause it gets me distracted of those dark thoughts about the things that are wrong in my life...which are many...I get nervous, stressed and annoying when I have nothing to do...and it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2010

    Today has been a really lazy Monday.

    I was depressed all weekend because I wasn't working when I felt like I should be. Now it's Monday and I really should be and I still can't. I got up at 8.30 and did 3 loads of washing and 5 episodes of new girl while playing on my ipad. Then I ate some biscuits. Then I sat at...
    msborealis msborealis
    31-35, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    My Brain Punishes Me For Working

    And it rewards me for escaping. At my job, I don't WANT to screw my employers over, they've been good to me. But I sit at my desk with this headache called depression and look at everything I have to do, I don't know how to do half of it, the other half is already overdue so I...
    Receuvium Receuvium
    22-25, M
    Jan 29, 2013

    I Lose Sleep At Night

    This is awful. I end up taking hours to fall asleep at night because my brain goes through everything I need to do for the next day, week, year...lifetime. It's RIDICULOUS. I wake up groggy and my mind has already hit the ground running, going over mental checklists and to-do's...
    MichiDesu MichiDesu
    18-21
    May 19, 2013

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    st0oie st0oie
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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 10
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