I Feel Guilty

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    I feel guilty because my depression

    and anxiety makes me hate my life, lash out at other people, and get immersed in this "oh woe is me" cycle of self hatred. And yet I know there are people out there who suffer way more than I do, and I should be thankful of what I already have otherwise see myself in an awful...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 7, 2015

    Why do I let myself get roped into losing

    battles on both bends? No one leaves happy. I need to learn how to stop trying to change, help, and fix people who don't want it or see it as that. They want to be a miserable asshat then let them be. Learn from the Beatles. "Let it be."
    AmusedBunny AmusedBunny
    26-30
    Oct 6, 2015

    I have been neglecting my orchid plants

    for a long time, and some did not make it. I am now down to 21 plants, and I really have no excuse to not water them regularly from now on. Hopefully the survivors will start to do better if I provide better care again. I used to be obsessed with orchids, and ten years ago I had...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Feb 20

    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2012

    As a child money has always effected me to the

    point it'd eat me alive. My parents always expressed it as a bad thing taking money from anyone even grandparents. When people pay for me or do something involving money it made me feel sick and made me feel like I had to do something for them since I payed for them. Seeing my...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013
    18-21, F
    Mar 8

    Uhm... Last year a restaurant opened up

    and I have reasons to believe they're hiring immigrants. Strong reasons have lead me to believe this. So I went on crime stoppers website and reported it, also suggesting them reasons. I k now I know... "Sazzio, you know they're ain't gonna do anything" or "Do not expect a...
    Sazzio Sazzio
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 15

    My best friend died a little over a month ago

    just before her eighteenth birthday. I see her parents often and I can't shake the guilt. The guilt of the times I've attempted to kill myself when she didn't have a choice. And most of all the guilt that I still feel that way.
    annie221 annie221
    18-21, F
    Dec 24, 2015

    How can one tell when they've gone too far?

    Is it the way the knife feels in their hand, is it the pooling blood. Is it the fact that none of this was worth a thing? Why must we suffer for the ones who are really at fault? The ones invisible to anyone but those who have felt them, heard them. They live on the inside...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 3, 2015

    I feel guilty for many things

    that have occurred in my life. I feel guilty for my kidnapping, I feel guilty for my rapes, I feel guilty for making my mother crazy. I feel so sad and ashamed as the world found out my deepest darkest secrets and fantasies. I feel guilty for so much, every time I have talked...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    I was abused by a man

    for over 10 years between the age of 6 and 16. When I was about 19 I finally told someone. It wasn't until after that I found out he had abused another person. I feel guilty that if I had said something before she might not have been abused... I never knew her name... But almost...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989
    26-30
    Dec 1, 2015

    I wrote an experience here on my old account.

    My account got deleted so im writing it again. It burns remebering what i have done, and it was very recent as well. I still think i deserve to be punished
    Hgaood Hgaood
    16-17, M
    Aug 4, 2015

    ... After I ******. Because I am a virgin,

    I've only ever orgasmed while touching myself and since I was a child as soon as I'm finished I am overcome with profound guilt and a feeling of embarrassment and disgust. Why is that? Someone I speak with here recently suggested it was because the act is a sin. Is it wrong? Is...
    PrettiestPirate PrettiestPirate
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 30, 2015

    Today at school, I was standing

    and talking to a friend. Then this little kid came running and he tripped on my foot. No one thought it was me and it was unintentional. But he was hurt really bad. There was a rock stuck in his cut and the nurse couldn't get it out. He'd have to pull it out at home. And of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 24, 2015

    After my assault I can't stop feeling guilty.

    I know it's my fault and there's nothing I can do about it. Ugh I'm so emotionally drained lately.
    vonnegut1 vonnegut1
    16-17, F
    Jan 7

    I have ruined everything.

    . My own life, my family's, and every good thing I ever had.. I miss my freedom, and carefree fun. I used to think nothing bad could ever happen to me, and I played with fire.. And I am still being burned by it to this day. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to be...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 21, 2015

    I Feel Guilty

    And all the more since i joined ep. i would live to vent and feel sorry for myself and probably wallow in a pool of self pity. But then i see all these people here with their problems and how much more they are going through annd feel ungrateful for venting. I wish i didnt feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 8, 2013

    I always feel guilty

    for not doing enough work. No matter how many things I've done during that day, the minute I begin to rest I start to feel as if I need to get back to work again.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    a couple months ago I was in a car accident.

    one of my friends died, the other was in a coma, and I was just lucky. today my friend died. the accident was my fault, and they're dead because of me. her death is hitting me hard. why was I spared ? just so I could live everyday with the guilt of their death ?
    brown2306 brown2306
    18-21, F
    Nov 10, 2015

    I actually cant stop crying!

    Me and Lewis had an argument with my mate the other day because he was telling Lewis to die and stuff! I have always forgave him every time I have had an argument with him because I know what he's been through with his sister dying and other stuff but I couldn't forgive him this...
    james3950 james3950
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 12, 2014

    Last night I pressured my friend into agreeing

    to have s.ex with me.. I feel kind of guilty about it, but.. He can say no, right? He's his own person. But he's also a virgin, which I'd be taking from him. I just feel bad because he said no and i just kept pushing and pushing until he said ok. I need this to happen, so...
    carry1love carry1love
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 3, 2014

    I work on a research team studying disordered

    eating, fat talk, and body image acceptance. I have a thigh gap and I love it, I see it as some sort of achievement. It feels vain. Who am I to tell those who harm themselves striving for a thigh gap that it is unimportant, if I don't believe it to be unimportant for myself...
    marchingelephant marchingelephant
    22-25, F
    Apr 13

    My best friend knows

    that I've killed an anima in the past and she keeps putting on Twitter about how anyone who hurts an animal is a disgusting piece of **** and how despicable they are and I just feel like she secretly despises me and hates my guts for what I did
    DespicableMind DespicableMind
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2015

    I Am An Ignorant Lil Brat

    My best friends husband lost his job about 6 months ago due to the ression he has not found a new job. My husbands job was not effected by the ression. I had her over today so she could meet my new puppy and I (joking) made a comment about how bad her roots were. I was...
    HisLady HisLady
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 13, 2009

    I AM REALLY SORRY FOR HURTING MANY PEOPLE.

    I feel guilty because I blocked many people,even when they didn't want to harm me.I felt so threatened due to anxiety,I felt that they want to harm me.And out of sheer discomfort ,no matter how much I wanted not to block them...I did.I can't undo my act.But I have changed now and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 29

    When i was younger I was raped.

    I'm writing this randomly, haven't been on this site in a while but just had to talk to someone and no one is there right now. I don't normally have breaks like this, I guess it's the stress lately. I'm 24 years old. I was raped, I can't remember how old I was but ballpark 13...
    DavesDaughter DavesDaughter
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 21, 2015

    I am too vulnerable on this site

    and I don't want to explain my story to the public. But I do feel an overwhelming guilt for something that I know I wasn't directly at fault for. Still, from time to time it consumes me and I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I imagine how much happier everyone would be if that...
    Cheer5699 Cheer5699
    18-21, F
    Oct 6, 2015

    I feel horribly guilty

    for some things I did and some others had no control over. What nasty feeling. God help me pls
    NenisMon NenisMon
    31-35, F
    Sep 26, 2015

    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 8, 2009

    Ok I'm with this great guy

    but lately he hasn't been able to keep my attention if you know what I mean. We used to go out a lot. have sex everywhere anytime and talk about random interesting things all night. We have been together strong for almost 4 years next month. But lately there's no fun no interest...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 22

      Would you believe E.

    T.  did it?...
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    I am a 24 year old stay at home mom of two.

    Last year we moved into our own apartment. It was the best year of my entire life, But it only lasted a year. This year we are back at the house my in laws are renting; trying to pay off credit cards used for the apartment and to save money to get a place of our own. The problem...
    Rcze2223 Rcze2223
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt
    31-35, M
    9 Responses Sep 17, 2014

    I just blocked my best friend hoping he will

    get the message. I was resistant to block him when the moment I blocked the person I care about allot and thousands of flash backs poured down my mind. I hope he will ask why on my other social medias and stalk me down. I hope he won't take it as a dead end to not message me...
    ErbiumbInTheEr ErbiumbInTheEr
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

    Today the guy who's been bullying me

    since yr 8 was sitting all alone in class and I felt so bad for him his friends ditched him and It was so horrible because I recently went through it and I know how it feels. The thing is I know he hates me and all well not as much anymore but if I see him like that again what...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24
    16-17, F
    Aug 26, 2015

    Since I started high school I've had this

    really close friend and were still friends now that we've finished high school , at 14 I started hooking up with her 21 year old brother , it went for a long long time without her finding out. I feel really horrible about it and very guilty whenever I see her.. It went until I...
    abby816 abby816
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 3, 2015
    japanbis japanbis
    18-21, F
    22 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    My sweet little brother Andy survived a three

    week long kidnapping at the age of 8 and I've been dying of guilt ever since. No, what happened wasn't my fault and nobody would ever say that it was, but that doesn't lessen the guilt any for me. In fact, the guilt used to eat me up so much that I self-harmed throughout most of...
    lauren71 lauren71
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 31

    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson
    22-25
    Aug 5, 2013

    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2015

    I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt

    and I can't stop thinking about it. I think about all the wrong decisions I have made and how that affects me today. I feel like I let people down and I let myself down.
    Cheer5699 Cheer5699
    18-21, F
    Mar 1

    I don't get why though like there's this guy

    who we like each other but he's not the full package at first we started talking i lost his number so we kinda lost contact then he saw me again like a year or so after then we exchanged numbers took him a while to convince me to go again he eventually did and we started again...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 13

    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 20, 2014

    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    I started taking pregnancy pills lately,

    and there's few side effects which are very common like: nausea, mood swings, headaches, shortness of breath, blurred vision and one which most would like breast enlargement as well as tenderness ( I would say I experienced the later rather than the enlargement) they said it's...
    DarknessDepth DarknessDepth
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30

    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Apr 26, 2014
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy
    36-40, M
    Jul 18, 2015

    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes
    18-21, M
    Dec 9, 2012
    janedisaster janedisaster
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Jun 28, 2015

    This dirty bird has seen some sh*t

    and has done some things not too pg-13. I got blood on these talons.. blood stained talons. I killed a man..
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    Oct 9, 2015

    I've said before that generally,

    I really don't put a lot of stock into gossip. It's one of those things that I think everyone does at some point and those who deny it are lying or they gossip without realizing it. But to me, there's gossip, and then there's bullying. We all vent or brag about someone to...
    SpilledSecrets SpilledSecrets
    26-30, F
    Mar 21
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