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    I have ruined everything.

    . My own life, my family's, and every good thing I ever had.. I miss my freedom, and carefree fun. I used to think nothing bad could ever happen to me, and I played with fire.. And I am still being burned by it to this day. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to be...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel guilty for leaving my heroin addict

    boyfriend and falling in love with someone who is healthy. I feel as if i could've been there for him to help him through his hard time of struggle instead of leaving him. I constantly wonder about how things would be if i didn't leave him and didn't make him feel worse about...
    justwanttobehappy1 justwanttobehappy1 18-21 4 Responses Feb 5

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    How can one tell when they've gone too far?

    Is it the way the knife feels in their hand, is it the pooling blood. Is it the fact that none of this was worth a thing? Why must we suffer for the ones who are really at fault? The ones invisible to anyone but those who have felt them, heard them. They live on the inside...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 3

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    ....thats all i gotta say.

    i can even begin to explain
    kitkat2797 kitkat2797 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I just had a big fight with my mom

    and to be honest i think it's my fault I'm so irresponsible i don't do enough house work i said things which i didn't mean to her i think she was really hurt i tried to apologize i really love my mom she has been through hell for our family specially for me she fought for my...
    nina1195 nina1195 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    My grandfather is 78 years old.

    His wife died at age 46, they had four sons. He was always an alcoholic and didn't treat her the best but loved her. She never lived to see any grandchildren. He has felt guilty about everything since she died and I've seen him cry over her when he was drinking, which apparently...
    Milly2012 Milly2012 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Ok so basically theres this girl in my class.

    She doesnt have many friends and if she does, they sometimes make fun of her in a mean way and they dont really involve her in things they do together. Im new here at this school but im always seeing her get left out of her clique/group. Personally i think she is really nice...
    alliixxxx alliixxxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt 31-35, M 9 Responses Sep 17, 2014

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    I often feel guilty when the truth is

    that I'm such a push over, and the guilt isn't warranted. I battle codependency, so I let people walk all over me then feel guilty for standing up for myself. It's such a warped, crazy way of thinking. I started helping out a coworker two and a half years ago because she had...
    beachlover81 beachlover81 31-35, F Mar 12

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    Just did a 50 minute lower body

    and speed workout!
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Apr 6

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    I am 18 years old and today I got in my first

    car accident. It was icy and slippery out and I approached a red light and somehow went through it.I tried to stop but it was so fast and seems like a blur. I don't know how I could be so stupid. I hit a truck who then hit another car. No one was hurt but my car is ruined and I...
    corajustine corajustine 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    i accidentally droped hot water on my

    roommate's legs which caused first degree burns....she went through so much pain 'cause of me :/ i'm totally aweful at everything ...i really don't deserve her friendship!!! :'( she said that she forgives me and it wasn't my fault and all but still can't shake the feeling that...
    emiisouma emiisouma 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    babyllove21 babyllove21 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 14

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    I feel guilty sometimes

    when I do certain mistakes in my life. A year back I broke up with my girl friend because she use to think that I was not a trustworthy person. Even tho I didn't do anything WORNG. Explaining her all the times it use to turn out with fights over & over. Sometimes I wonder...
    Lostmyselfinpain Lostmyselfinpain 26-30, M Feb 22

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    Effed up again. I think I hurt someone,

    but they swear I didn't. I just can't keep my trap shut.
    notthis78 notthis78 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    My first love and I are talking again,

    still gives me butterflies. Last night we admitted our undying bullet proof love for each other but we are best friends. I feel guilty because everytime we reconnect and talk I feel like we are together again then I push every person around me away I also feel guilty because I...
    alexis0glover alexis0glover 18-21, F Mar 1

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    i accidentally droped hot water on my

    roommate's legs which caused first degree burns....she went through so much pain 'cause of me :/ i'm totally aweful at everything ...i really don't deserve her friendship!!! :'( she said that she forgives me and it wasn't my fault and all but still can't shake the feeling that...
    emiisouma emiisouma 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    I Feel Guilty

    Hello, I live in Mexico and I'm a 31 y.o. single woman. I feel, guilty, confused and sad very often and that is making me that I don't know what I want anymore. I've been in and out of relationships but most of them haven't last very long. I spent couple of years alone...
    clavel clavel 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    slimvince slimvince 18-21, M Mar 15

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    Today at school, I was standing

    and talking to a friend. Then this little kid came running and he tripped on my foot. No one thought it was me and it was unintentional. But he was hurt really bad. There was a rock stuck in his cut and the nurse couldn't get it out. He'd have to pull it out at home. And of...
    lunarsolar36 lunarsolar36 13-15, T 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    And I don't know why.

    . This feeling sucks
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2014

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    Me and my best friend were hanging out today

    and she invited over this other guy who is a good friend of ours but she secretly really likes and he knows that too. And anyway we were all in her bedroom watching something and eating and messing about when halfway through shed left to go downstairs toilet, and we'd got into...
    Mariyah22 Mariyah22 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    Hallo, anyone...This is my first post

    and i do really need your help... I have too much to say but i don't know how to say.There is a nice couple that i know one of them is my friend. Yes, we ever be a very close friend 4 years ago. Now he found a nice pretty girl and he loves her so much. I am happy with his...
    mariavita mariavita 36-40, F Feb 28

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    Cheater, Liar, Fake

    I feel like a cheater, liar, and fake. I sneak behind my AMAZING boyfriends back to talk to guy friends. He doesnt like me talking to guys and I admit I dont like him talking to girls. Thats the fake. I tell him I am just watching a movie, when really a guy is over and we are...
    iamurb3stsecret iamurb3stsecret 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2010

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    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    My husband has been paying insurance

    for almost a year on a business that he hasn't gotten off the ground yet just like any other business and talk well that is about all he does is talk and absolutely no action I've been wanting to leave him but have no place to go and I have debt under my name because of his...
    Bella70 Bella70 41-45, F Mar 17

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 18-21 Aug 5, 2013

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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    About my older sister.

    ..I deleted her from facebook. She annoys me THE MOST IN THE WORLD and is full of stress and doesn't understand or wants to understand a thing I say to her. She gives me NO FREEDOM. I let her manipulate with me. But now I finally changed it. Maybe I didn't choose a perfect way...
    dzordze dzordze 18-21, M Jan 23

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    PartyPat2336 PartyPat2336 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    I Am An Ignorant Lil Brat

    My best friends husband lost his job about 6 months ago due to the ression he has not found a new job. My husbands job was not effected by the ression. I had her over today so she could meet my new puppy and I (joking) made a comment about how bad her roots were. I was...
    HisLady HisLady 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    Covering For a Friend

    Guilt is NOT an emotion I usually feel, ever.  But right now I am feeling guilty. Two years ago, my best friend started having some troubles in her marriage (I can relate to that!).  Anyway, she began a friendship with a man from her work.  It was...
    childoftheland childoftheland 46-50, F 4 Responses May 2, 2009

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    Should I have told? Well let me give a back

    story. It was way back in high school when I think was a sophomore my friend was dating a guy. My other friend who was that girls best friend ended up sleeping with that girls boyfriend. I feel like that guy is just very manipulative to girls just so he can git what he wants...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F Jan 13

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    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    Territowel Territowel 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    I've had to miss so much work lately

    and I like my job in the lab a lot. I caught a virus late December that stayed with me into January, and as it was fading away into a cold I suddenly got a bacterial infection.....infection was very bad, my throat was in more pain than I've ever had...I mean pain so bad I had to...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Jan 25

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    I Feel Guilty

    And all the more since i joined ep. i would live to vent and feel sorry for myself and probably wallow in a pool of self pity. But then i see all these people here with their problems and how much more they are going through annd feel ungrateful for venting. I wish i didnt feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 8, 2013

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    When I was 7, I had a couple of underlings,

    or servants, or minions that follow me around all day for me to boss around and torment. But there was a third kid. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. Laughing would be horrible, but I can't cry either, because apparently I don't have a heart, so to speak. You'll see what I...
    OgaTatsumi OgaTatsumi 26-30 1 Response Apr 2

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    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman 31-35, F 3 Responses