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    I visited him this afternoon.

    When we got there, my CPS officer was waiting, and we got searched. It was unreal, and really high security. It was like they had no freedom. We got shown to this small office type room, and my aunt and I sat down and just waited for 5-10 minutes, really nervous. Well I was...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response May 3

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    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Apr 14

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 8, 2009

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 18-21 Aug 5, 2013

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I kind of unintentionally baited my fiance into

    a fight then, he lost his temper punching doors and such I videotaped him and I don't actually yell when I argue, I more so smirk and make snide comments. Anyways that being said he became so upset he started to cry which honestly ripped me to the core because he never ever...
    Fuzzybear79 Fuzzybear79 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am generally very optimistic

    because i realize how good i have it and am very grateful for the life i have and family and friends etc. But whenever i feel sad bc of something stupid i immediately feel so guilty, i feel like im not allowed to be sad even though i know its ridiculous. Its like feelings of...
    Falloutsos Falloutsos 16-17, F a week ago

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    I'm a monster, I was on the bust stop,

    waiting for the bus of the 7:10 to go to my cell called home after a night shift, when this guy comes and try to steal my bag, I hit him on the face and he fall to the ground, I just start to hit him, without stopping, I feel the blood on my hands and cry a little without...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    And I don't know why.

    . This feeling sucks
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2014

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    I feel guilty for many things

    that have occurred in my life. I feel guilty for my kidnapping, I feel guilty for my rapes, I feel guilty for making my mother crazy. I feel so sad and ashamed as the world found out my deepest darkest secrets and fantasies. I feel guilty for so much, every time I have talked...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I feel guilty because my depression

    and anxiety makes me hate my life, lash out at other people, and get immersed in this "oh woe is me" cycle of self hatred. And yet I know there are people out there who suffer way more than I do, and I should be thankful of what I already have otherwise see myself in an awful...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    At a horse stable, I fed a horse sugar.

    However, there was a sign by the horses stable that said the horse had an upset stomach and to not feed it treats. I only gave it about a pinch of sugar, maybe even less than that. It was not a lot. The point is that I was wondering how badly this would affect the horse. I feel...
    Remedmlp Remedmlp 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 2

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    janedisaster janedisaster 31-35, F 5 Responses Jun 28

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    I just bought a gift

    for one of my closest friend's birthday. I don't know why, but I feel i little guilty inside, sure I spent $2 over my budget, but I don't normally feel guilty after getting someone a gift. After giving it some thought, I kinda have an idea of why I feel guilty. I don't think...
    SugarDoughnut SugarDoughnut 13-15, M Jun 12

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy 36-40, M Jul 18

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    The guy I said I was going on date with in my

    last post, well, it didn't go too good. On the way back from home to Southampton, where I currently live, one of my trains got cancelled and the station I got stuck in just so happened to be my date's hometown, funny right? He offers to let me come stay at his for the night...
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 19

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    I always feel bad for being happy

    because I remember all the people that aren't, I wish I could help everyone.
    nocturnallyfucked nocturnallyfucked 13-15, F May 28

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    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt 31-35, M 9 Responses Sep 17, 2014

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    Orzame921 Orzame921 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    It's just that... I don't.

    Would do it again in a heartbeat.
    SilverTonguedTricksterGod SilverTonguedTricksterGod 70+, M Jul 16

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    I feel guilty because my aunt is pregnant

    and the baby is going to be a girl. I was really hoping it was going to be a boy, because they already have a girl, but it turns out they're having another girl. I feel guilty for being disappointed, and I'm afraid they'll notice and feel sad that I'm not happy about it.
    fablikemkat fablikemkat 18-21, F Jun 6

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    I made a promise few years back,

    and I broke it due to several reasons. I wasn't proud of myself. I really want to apologize to her and fix things up. But we've lost contact and now the guilt is killing me ...
    redDya91 redDya91 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    Have a song playing on repeat.

    "Runaway train never going back. Wrong way on a one way track. Seems like I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there." Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile. How on earth did I get so jaded. Life's mysteries seem so...
    PotatoKid PotatoKid 18-21, F Jun 23

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    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    Hello. Very embarrassed here.

    I have a very guilty conscience all the time. I can't help it. I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds. I have a question. I was 11 years old while my cousin was 5, I remember it because I was wearing a cartoonist underwear and he put his hand on the front of my underwear...
    Worried12345 Worried12345 26-30, F Jun 23

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    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I'm a very secretive person.

    I love my family and friends very much, yet there are things that I just don't share that I feel I should. But we all have the right to privacy, right? However, this week...something life changing is happening. Something really big, that I've had planned for a long time but...
    Linasey Linasey 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I feel guilty and I hope

    that feeling goes away. :'(
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    Guilt is a powerful thing.

    The things we get ourselves into. Smh
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart 22-25, F May 29

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    Sooo... I met a random,

    gorgeous, awesome girl and we both got hurt because of me. I don't even know if she's alright. I mean, I don't know her last name or where she's from or if she's got anyone to keep her from going insane (like I am right now) and she probably wants me dead so there's nothing I...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F May 25

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    I was having sex with this girl's boyfriend

    for just about the entire time they were together & now she's dead & I didn't even get to apologize...
    QMKJ QMKJ 18-21, F May 5

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    I've been purposefully not getting enough sleep

    because my life is more exciting when my symptoms are active. Also because it helps me get away from the world. Bad me, bad.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses May 28

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    I've wound up in kinda a hard place.

    Just living a life that wears on me I never thought I'd have to live, but looking back I see why I've wound up here and all the things I could of done to fix it that were so seemingly tiny and meaningless at the time. I'm fixing everything even though it's really hard having...
    Peanut300 Peanut300 22-25, F May 14

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    How can one tell when they've gone too far?

    Is it the way the knife feels in their hand, is it the pooling blood. Is it the fact that none of this was worth a thing? Why must we suffer for the ones who are really at fault? The ones invisible to anyone but those who have felt them, heard them. They live on the inside...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 3

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    When my brother is driving me insane,

    I call him ugly and a bunch of similar ego-crushing things in the heat of the moment that I don't mean. I want to get to him when I'm upset, but immediately after I'm full of regret because I do care for my brother. I've brought up things I know he's self-conscious about and I...
    astateofdisarray astateofdisarray 18-21, F May 11

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    I believe I have ruined my life.

    I was in a car accident years ago. It was my fault. I rear ended someone after passing out from drinking. Thankfully the other people were not hurt. I shattered my foot so badly the Dr. in the ER said he had never seen an injury that bad to a foot. I should expect to have...
    FreshStart1969 FreshStart1969 41-45, F May 18

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    I Feel Guilty

    And all the more since i joined ep. i would live to vent and feel sorry for myself and probably wallow in a pool of self pity. But then i see all these people here with their problems and how much more they are going through annd feel ungrateful for venting. I wish i didnt feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 8, 2013

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    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    Territowel Territowel 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    I have always felt guilty

    for doing things for myself, I’ve been on social media for years but barely post anything because it feels wrong to post about my problems when others have worse and my thoughts when no one gives a damn. But I feel that I need to post because I need to express myself and...
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F Jun 30

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    I feel guilty for not letting my son's dad see

    him. I was letting him watch our son on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays when I work 2nd shift but I'm not anymore. He's an alcoholic. He has been flip-flopping back and forth between drinking and sobriety for the past year or so. When he stops drinking he goes through severe...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    There is some guilt in me

    that I couldn't explain...Or couldn't express, I felt so bad. I felt I'm not free anymore....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 24

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