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    I feel guilty because my depression

    and anxiety makes me hate my life, lash out at other people, and get immersed in this "oh woe is me" cycle of self hatred. And yet I know there are people out there who suffer way more than I do, and I should be thankful of what I already have otherwise see myself in an awful...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    Just did a 50 minute lower body

    and speed workout!
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Apr 6

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    Today at school, I was standing

    and talking to a friend. Then this little kid came running and he tripped on my foot. No one thought it was me and it was unintentional. But he was hurt really bad. There was a rock stuck in his cut and the nurse couldn't get it out. He'd have to pull it out at home. And of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I made a promise few years back,

    and I broke it due to several reasons. I wasn't proud of myself. I really want to apologize to her and fix things up. But we've lost contact and now the guilt is killing me ...
    redDya91 redDya91 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I was having sex with this girl's boyfriend

    for just about the entire time they were together & now she's dead & I didn't even get to apologize...
    QMKJ QMKJ 18-21, F May 5

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    I visited him this afternoon.

    When we got there, my CPS officer was waiting, and we got searched. It was unreal, and really high security. It was like they had no freedom. We got shown to this small office type room, and my aunt and I sat down and just waited for 5-10 minutes, really nervous. Well I was...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response May 3

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    janedisaster janedisaster 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    I have ruined everything.

    . My own life, my family's, and every good thing I ever had.. I miss my freedom, and carefree fun. I used to think nothing bad could ever happen to me, and I played with fire.. And I am still being burned by it to this day. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to be...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 21

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    I actually cant stop crying!

    Me and Lewis had an argument with my mate the other day because he was telling Lewis to die and stuff! I have always forgave him every time I have had an argument with him because I know what he's been through with his sister dying and other stuff but I couldn't forgive him this...
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    i accidentally droped hot water on my

    roommate's legs which caused first degree burns....she went through so much pain 'cause of me :/ i'm totally aweful at everything ...i really don't deserve her friendship!!! :'( she said that she forgives me and it wasn't my fault and all but still can't shake the feeling that...
    emiisouma emiisouma 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Apr 14

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 18-21 Aug 5, 2013

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    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I feel guilty for not letting my son's dad see

    him. I was letting him watch our son on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays when I work 2nd shift but I'm not anymore. He's an alcoholic. He has been flip-flopping back and forth between drinking and sobriety for the past year or so. When he stops drinking he goes through severe...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    PartyPat2336 PartyPat2336 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    I'm a very secretive person.

    I love my family and friends very much, yet there are things that I just don't share that I feel I should. But we all have the right to privacy, right? However, this week...something life changing is happening. Something really big, that I've had planned for a long time but...
    Linasey Linasey 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 8, 2009

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    And I don't know why.

    . This feeling sucks
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2014

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    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    Territowel Territowel 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I was absent from my paternal grandmother

    for most of her life. A big misunderstanding and distance separated us for 35 years. She died at 101 years old and I did not attend her funeral. My brother is an alcoholic and tonight is in the hospital. I talked to his doctor but I did not want to talk to him. I care for both...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 3

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    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    godsgift90 godsgift90 22-25, F 2 Responses May 19

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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    When my brother is driving me insane,

    I call him ugly and a bunch of similar ego-crushing things in the heat of the moment that I don't mean. I want to get to him when I'm upset, but immediately after I'm full of regret because I do care for my brother. I've brought up things I know he's self-conscious about and I...
    astateofdisarray astateofdisarray 18-21, F May 11

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    Give me any other feeling

    but not guilt. I know self inflicted but we all make mistakes right? What good can come out of my lesson learned that sleeping with another man behind my partners back can come of this.?
    someonesjuliet someonesjuliet 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel guilty because my aunt is pregnant

    and the baby is going to be a girl. I was really hoping it was going to be a boy, because they already have a girl, but it turns out they're having another girl. I feel guilty for being disappointed, and I'm afraid they'll notice and feel sad that I'm not happy about it.
    fablikemkat fablikemkat 18-21, F Jun 6

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    I Am An Ignorant Lil Brat

    My best friends husband lost his job about 6 months ago due to the ression he has not found a new job. My husbands job was not effected by the ression. I had her over today so she could meet my new puppy and I (joking) made a comment about how bad her roots were. I was...
    HisLady HisLady 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    Have a song playing on repeat.

    "Runaway train never going back. Wrong way on a one way track. Seems like I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there." Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile. How on earth did I get so jaded. Life's mysteries seem so...
    PotatoKid PotatoKid 18-21, F Jun 23

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    The guy I said I was going on date with in my

    last post, well, it didn't go too good. On the way back from home to Southampton, where I currently live, one of my trains got cancelled and the station I got stuck in just so happened to be my date's hometown, funny right? He offers to let me come stay at his for the night...
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 19

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    I always feel bad for being happy

    because I remember all the people that aren't, I wish I could help everyone.
    nocturnallyfucked nocturnallyfucked 13-15, F May 28

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    Guilt is a powerful thing.

    The things we get ourselves into. Smh
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart 22-25, F May 29

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    I've been purposefully not getting enough sleep

    because my life is more exciting when my symptoms are active. Also because it helps me get away from the world. Bad me, bad.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses May 28

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    I have always felt guilty

    for doing things for myself, I’ve been on social media for years but barely post anything because it feels wrong to post about my problems when others have worse and my thoughts when no one gives a damn. But I feel that I need to post because I need to express myself and...
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F a week ago

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    Hello. Very embarrassed here.

    I have a very guilty conscience all the time. I can't help it. I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds. I have a question. I was 11 years old while my cousin was 5, I remember it because I was wearing a cartoonist underwear and he put his hand on the front of my underwear...
    Worried12345 Worried12345 26-30, F Jun 23

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    I don't want to hang out with one of my friends

    anymore.. I just got out of a huge relationship and i finally got to spend sometime alone.. And it turns out that I love being alone. But my friend is always asking me to hang out with her and she makes me feel so guilty whenever I tell her no. I've been putting it off for 2...
    nycgirl19 nycgirl19 18-21, F Jun 17

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    I believe I have ruined my life.

    I was in a car accident years ago. It was my fault. I rear ended someone after passing out from drinking. Thankfully the other people were not hurt. I shattered my foot so badly the Dr. in the ER said he had never seen an injury that bad to a foot. I should expect to have...
    FreshStart1969 FreshStart1969 41-45, F May 18

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    I've wound up in kinda a hard place.

    Just living a life that wears on me I never thought I'd have to live, but looking back I see why I've wound up here and all the things I could of done to fix it that were so seemingly tiny and meaningless at the time. I'm fixing everything even though it's really hard having...
    Peanut300 Peanut300 22-25, F May 14

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    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt 31-35, M 9 Responses Sep 17, 2014

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    I feel bad that sometimes I complain about my

    body when most people see nothing to complain about. I'm skinny, short and pretty ( According to others) but I still find a problem in my appearance about everything. I feel guilty for complaining about clothes not fitting because I can truthfully only fit children's clothes, I...
    Catariean Catariean 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 9

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