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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    a couple months ago I was in a car accident.

    one of my friends died, the other was in a coma, and I was just lucky. today my friend died. the accident was my fault, and they're dead because of me. her death is hitting me hard. why was I spared ? just so I could live everyday with the guilt of their death ?
    brown2306 brown2306 18-21, F Nov 10, 2015

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    I don't get why though like there's this guy

    who we like each other but he's not the full package at first we started talking i lost his number so we kinda lost contact then he saw me again like a year or so after then we exchanged numbers took him a while to convince me to go again he eventually did and we started again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 13

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    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy 36-40, M Jul 18, 2015

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    My best friend died a little over a month ago

    just before her eighteenth birthday. I see her parents often and I can't shake the guilt. The guilt of the times I've attempted to kill myself when she didn't have a choice. And most of all the guilt that I still feel that way.
    annie221 annie221 18-21, F Dec 24, 2015

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    How can one tell when they've gone too far?

    Is it the way the knife feels in their hand, is it the pooling blood. Is it the fact that none of this was worth a thing? Why must we suffer for the ones who are really at fault? The ones invisible to anyone but those who have felt them, heard them. They live on the inside...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    Why do I let myself get roped into losing

    battles on both bends? No one leaves happy. I need to learn how to stop trying to change, help, and fix people who don't want it or see it as that. They want to be a miserable asshat then let them be. Learn from the Beatles. "Let it be."
    AmusedBunny AmusedBunny 26-30 Oct 6, 2015

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    My best friend knows

    that I've killed an anima in the past and she keeps putting on Twitter about how anyone who hurts an animal is a disgusting piece of **** and how despicable they are and I just feel like she secretly despises me and hates my guts for what I did
    DespicableMind DespicableMind 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2015

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    Being guilty is a very annoying,

    stressful, and pestering feeling. That's why I don't do anything that would make me feel guilty anyways. In the situation im in, I feel guilty when I shouldn't. I feel paranoid and I can't stop thinking about it. It just will not leave my mind. I hope it goes away eventually.
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 3, 2015

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    Last night I pressured my friend into agreeing

    to have s.ex with me.. I feel kind of guilty about it, but.. He can say no, right? He's his own person. But he's also a virgin, which I'd be taking from him. I just feel bad because he said no and i just kept pushing and pushing until he said ok. I need this to happen, so...
    carry1love carry1love 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    I was absent from my paternal grandmother

    for most of her life. A big misunderstanding and distance separated us for 35 years. She died at 101 years old and I did not attend her funeral. My brother is an alcoholic and tonight is in the hospital. I talked to his doctor but I did not want to talk to him. I care for both...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

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    This dirty bird has seen some sh*t

    and has done some things not too pg-13. I got blood on these talons.. blood stained talons. I killed a man..
    Cocrispy Cocrispy 22-25, M Oct 9, 2015

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    When i was younger I was raped.

    I'm writing this randomly, haven't been on this site in a while but just had to talk to someone and no one is there right now. I don't normally have breaks like this, I guess it's the stress lately. I'm 24 years old. I was raped, I can't remember how old I was but ballpark 13...
    DavesDaughter DavesDaughter 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

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    I am a 24 year old stay at home mom of two.

    Last year we moved into our own apartment. It was the best year of my entire life, But it only lasted a year. This year we are back at the house my in laws are renting; trying to pay off credit cards used for the apartment and to save money to get a place of our own. The problem...
    Rcze2223 Rcze2223 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2015

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    I kind of unintentionally baited my fiance into

    a fight then, he lost his temper punching doors and such I videotaped him and I don't actually yell when I argue, I more so smirk and make snide comments. Anyways that being said he became so upset he started to cry which honestly ripped me to the core because he never ever...
    Fuzzybear79 Fuzzybear79 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2015

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    japanbis japanbis 18-21, F 27 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 22-25 Aug 5, 2013

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    I feel horribly guilty

    for some things I did and some others had no control over. What nasty feeling. God help me pls
    NenisMon NenisMon 31-35, F Sep 26, 2015

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    I Am An Ignorant Lil Brat

    My best friends husband lost his job about 6 months ago due to the ression he has not found a new job. My husbands job was not effected by the ression. I had her over today so she could meet my new puppy and I (joking) made a comment about how bad her roots were. I was...
    HisLady HisLady 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Apr 14, 2015

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    "So full of artless jealousy is guilt it spills

    itself in fearing to be spilt"
    DesiredUserNameandStuff DesiredUserNameandStuff 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2015

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      Would you believe E.

    T.  did it?...
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2015

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    because i am guilty. The sins i commited are

    really bad and idk how anyone can forgive me. I deserve to be punished
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 3, 2015

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    I am generally very optimistic

    because i realize how good i have it and am very grateful for the life i have and family and friends etc. But whenever i feel sad bc of something stupid i immediately feel so guilty, i feel like im not allowed to be sad even though i know its ridiculous. Its like feelings of...
    Falloutsos Falloutsos 18-21, F Jul 22, 2015

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    ... After I ******. Because I am a virgin,

    I've only ever orgasmed while touching myself and since I was a child as soon as I'm finished I am overcome with profound guilt and a feeling of embarrassment and disgust. Why is that? Someone I speak with here recently suggested it was because the act is a sin. Is it wrong? Is...
    PrettiestPirate PrettiestPirate 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    I feel guilty and I hope

    that feeling goes away. :'(
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2015

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    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR 46-50, F 4 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I always feel guilty

    for not doing enough work. No matter how many things I've done during that day, the minute I begin to rest I start to feel as if I need to get back to work again.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response Sep 2, 2015

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    I feel guilty because my depression

    and anxiety makes me hate my life, lash out at other people, and get immersed in this "oh woe is me" cycle of self hatred. And yet I know there are people out there who suffer way more than I do, and I should be thankful of what I already have otherwise see myself in an awful...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2015

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    I have ruined everything.

    . My own life, my family's, and every good thing I ever had.. I miss my freedom, and carefree fun. I used to think nothing bad could ever happen to me, and I played with fire.. And I am still being burned by it to this day. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to be...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 8 Responses Apr 21, 2015

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    I feel guilty for many things

    that have occurred in my life. I feel guilty for my kidnapping, I feel guilty for my rapes, I feel guilty for making my mother crazy. I feel so sad and ashamed as the world found out my deepest darkest secrets and fantasies. I feel guilty for so much, every time I have talked...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2015

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 8, 2009

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    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    Territowel Territowel 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Today the guy who's been bullying me

    since yr 8 was sitting all alone in class and I felt so bad for him his friends ditched him and It was so horrible because I recently went through it and I know how it feels. The thing is I know he hates me and all well not as much anymore but if I see him like that again what...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24 13-15, F Aug 26, 2015

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    I was abused by a man

    for over 10 years between the age of 6 and 16. When I was about 19 I finally told someone. It wasn't until after that I found out he had abused another person. I feel guilty that if I had said something before she might not have been abused... I never knew her name... But almost...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989 26-30 1 Response Dec 1, 2015

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    I wrote an experience here on my old account.

    My account got deleted so im writing it again. It burns remebering what i have done, and it was very recent as well. I still think i deserve to be punished
    Hgaood Hgaood 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 4, 2015

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    I just blocked my best friend hoping he will

    get the message. I was resistant to block him when the moment I blocked the person I care about allot and thousands of flash backs poured down my mind. I hope he will ask why on my other social medias and stalk me down. I hope he won't take it as a dead end to not message me...
    ErbiumbInTheEr ErbiumbInTheEr 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

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    Today at school, I was standing

    and talking to a friend. Then this little kid came running and he tripped on my foot. No one thought it was me and it was unintentional. But he was hurt really bad. There was a rock stuck in his cut and the nurse couldn't get it out. He'd have to pull it out at home. And of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 24, 2015

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    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 24, 2015

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