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    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12

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    I was suppose to come home from school

    and give My dog a certain pill. The pill was all chopped up and so I gave the dog two parts of the pill. I didn't call and ask. My dad called hours later and I told him I gave the dog two of the smaller parts. He was all mad and yelled at me, now I feel guilty.
    sbarry5 sbarry5 22-25, F Nov 3

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    I've given the book 'I hate you,

    don't leave me' about BPD to my friend because I think her husband has it too alike to me and he just sent a message thanking be about the book while I thought she'll read it and understand him more...damn he thanked me :/
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    I feel really bad, I don't like

    when my parents spend huge amounts of money on me. I feel like that because when I go out and eat, there are always those people who walk in to restaurants and sell home made cookies or pens or belts, etc. when I see them, I imagine that they can't finish selling them and have...
    jonho10 jonho10 13-15, M Sep 23

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    Now.

    Sick of circling the same road, Sick of bearing the guilt, So open the windows to cool off, And heat pours in, instead Perfect in weakness, All my efforts to clean me Leave me putrid and filthy And how can you look at me When I can't stand myself I tried to kill you. You tried...
    ashlynnx ashlynnx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5, 2010

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    Why did I have to open my mouth

    and hurt you...I should've kept it shut but no I was selfish....I always think about myself before others and I never used to do that....what has made me so selfish...I don't like the way I am and I need to change now
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M 1 Response May 11

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    I recently split up with my boyfriend,

    who was one of the nicest people ever. (We are both 19 by the way) but I had to do it because he became obsessed with me and would never let me have anytime to myself and caused an argument if I did want that extra time. But since the break up, he's begging for me back and...
    poppygirlx poppygirlx 18-21, F Sep 2

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    ....thats all i gotta say.

    i can even begin to explain
    kitkat2797 kitkat2797 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel guilty because I am putting my picture

    on Whats App. People must say that I'm crazy when they read this , however, our culture and traditions are so strict, especially when it relates about girls. Girls here have to take care of their selves and must to not show their selves.  On the other hand, I will not remove my...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24

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    Guilt Stricken

    Nothing can be worse feeling guilty, specially when you're feeling down in the dumps already. On Saturday, me, my mom, sister and her boyfriend Spencer went to the mall to hangout and shop, and as we sat down in the food court to rest, I suggested to Steph and Spencer that they...
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2011

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    Here's the good thing about all this I finally

    know others aren't the ones with problems it's me...I'm insane I'm the one with problems...I feel so ashamed and guilty for blaming others for my misery. Clearly I'm miserable because of myself and there's no one else to blame but myself. I'm easy and also crazy who'd be stupid...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    I Feel Guilty

    And all the more since i joined ep. i would live to vent and feel sorry for myself and probably wallow in a pool of self pity. But then i see all these people here with their problems and how much more they are going through annd feel ungrateful for venting. I wish i didnt feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 8, 2013

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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    And I hate. If my guilt makes me a good person,

    then I don't want it. My guilt only ties me down, it's my chain to people, and I just want to cut it off, and escape. If I have to cut my own hands off just to get away from this guilt, then I'll do it. No, I don't feel guilty because I've done wrong. I feel guilty for NOT...
    Celal Celal 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    I Feel Guilty

    I am selfish. I don't love anybody properly. I am full of anger. I am lazy. I am not nice. I don't have nice thoughts or feelings about anything or anybody. I do bad things. I like bad things. I FEEL guilty about them. I want to DO them again.
    unAmigo unAmigo 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    My ex and I got into a fight.

    Before we were fighting he was telling me about how he wanted to end his life and I told him to call me before he made that decision, weather it be in six months or six years. And then he said things that made me widely upset. So I told him to go end his life and not call me...
    Anomalyx Anomalyx 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    notperfect247 notperfect247 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 26

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    My husband passed away at 48

    after 20 months of illness. I'm 47. He had been sick for so long and I now find myself feeling guilty that I don't have to worry about him anymore. I have spent the better part of 2 years wondering what I was going to wake up to, what I was going to come home to, what phone...
    lphillips2004 lphillips2004 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I married a girl I didn't love

    and now my divorce is hurting my kids. Not easy for me to talk about. My oldest son is not mine biologically. I fell in love with him when he was a baby. I stayed with my bipolar ex because I loved him. One day I realized that I had to marry her and adopt him. I then would be...
    JustJoel JustJoel 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    cutexmuffin524 cutexmuffin524 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 18

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    Cheater, Liar, Fake

    I feel like a cheater, liar, and fake. I sneak behind my AMAZING boyfriends back to talk to guy friends. He doesnt like me talking to guys and I admit I dont like him talking to girls. Thats the fake. I tell him I am just watching a movie, when really a guy is over and we are...
    iamurb3stsecret iamurb3stsecret 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2010

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    I Feel Guilty

    Hello, I live in Mexico and I'm a 31 y.o. single woman. I feel, guilty, confused and sad very often and that is making me that I don't know what I want anymore. I've been in and out of relationships but most of them haven't last very long. I spent couple of years alone...
    clavel clavel 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    Because I make my boyfriend worried about me

    and I'm not that perfect girl, I'm shallow, flirts a lot and also is annoying to a lot of people...I'm sorry...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I couldn't stay in the freezing cold water long

    enough as I expected only when my feet is numb so I'm using a damp towel to cover my chest and stomach I'll make the towel more damp and sleep in it every night and see where that leads me to. I've hurt almost everyone I should hurt myself in return and spend lesser time here...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    When I was six my best friend was a foster

    child. She stayed with her grandma, my neighbor, on the weekends. It seemed there was always a new home, a new family, a new situation to which she had to adjust. I remember when we were playing once, and she was telling me about her new home, and a teenage boy who lived there...
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F Nov 6

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    I feel like I'm the only EP member

    who has ever done anything bad that's really worth feeling guilty for. I said things to my older sister that I shouldn't have. My sister was talking about something that gave me the impression that I was dumber and inferior than she was, and out of an outburst of emotions, I...
    AlpineBeast AlpineBeast 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    For so many things. One of them being,

    I said some cruel stuff to my older brother, who's 31 but acts more like a teenager. His girlfriend died, and he's going through a very rough time; PTSD. What I said was the truth, and I guess he can't handle the truth because he hates himself a little more now. I feel like I...
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 8

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    I Am An Ignorant Lil Brat

    My best friends husband lost his job about 6 months ago due to the ression he has not found a new job. My husbands job was not effected by the ression. I had her over today so she could meet my new puppy and I (joking) made a comment about how bad her roots were. I was...
    HisLady HisLady 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    I know it's not my fault

    but I am starting to push him away, he tries to hold me hand, anywhere, and I pull away and sometimes snap at him. We go to bed at different times, and if we manage to be awake at the same time, it's dull, he wants to cuddle and I pull away, and for the first time I refused to...
    Chainlove Chainlove 18-21, F Sep 26

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    I always feel guilty during Thanksgiving

    and Christmas and I hate feeling so. My parents are divorced and it's always a matter of how to divide up Thanksgiving and Christmas day. I feel guilty when I spend more time with one or the other. No child should have to endure this. I know this is probably selfish of me to...
    boley1501 boley1501 22-25, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Man I got too drunk lastnight,

    decided to call people and ****.. I feel like I did something horrible now. I'm done drinking, I feel horrible, the guilt is killing me now.
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M Aug 30

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    Guilt Is A Horrible Feeling

    I have guilt that I am trying to deal with. My grandfather passed away the 12th if this month and the last time I seen him we argued and said thing we shouldn't have, we only lived a couple miles apart and I should have gone over and apologized and set things strait with him. I...
    Lycankicker Lycankicker 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Violated And Dirty

    I am a dirty person, i was raped when I was nine. I am a dirty person, i act like a *****. I am a dirty person, All I think about is sex. I am a dirty person, all I can do is cut myself. I am a dirty person, I've tried to kill myself three times. I am a dirty person, I made...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 3, 2012

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    for over a decade i have absolutely utterly

    despised my stepmother,she was an awful person (and not in that bratty way that you see teenagers on this site complaining about their parents over trivial ****) this is a person who gets openly dogged by people to her face at funerals and is only ever referred to as "the...
    Territowel Territowel 26-30, M a week ago

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    My mum is sick and my dad is sick

    and I neglect them sometimes. All that occupies my time now is a boyfriend that is trying to change me and friends that want to lecture. I forget it is my mother who feeds me when I am hungry and it is my parents who love me undeniably without me having to earn it all the time...
    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt 31-35, M 9 Responses Sep 17

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 18-21 Aug 5, 2013

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    There's no problem so awful,

    that you can't add some guilt to it and make it even worse... Why do I feel so guilty? I'm taking care of myself, being nice to everybody, haven't thought of hurting myself or anyone else..then whyyyy??? Something's wrong with my head. :/
    Aurora202 Aurora202 18-21 1 Response Oct 3

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    for having friends. yes that's right I don't

    feel like I did anything to has m deserve it. I feel bad that they like me... like I need to do something to justify it... and yet I'm still lonely so I feel guilty for that too... and every time I complain about life... basically I feel guilty for any emotion I feel... so this...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    I Feel Guilty

    I feel guilty for my mom. She adviced me a lot of things but I didn't  listen . I'm already punished by GOD for this !  Still  I  feel guilty and I wanna say SORRY to my mom !
    richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F 1 Response May 6, 2011

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    So in my opinion a confession is just a

    suppression for feeling guilty about something, so maybe this might help writing about it here. Im feeling guilty about taking clothes and I really want to return themto thier rightful owners. I mean it's really no big deal I do have quite a collection though,....I...
    Miche1e Miche1e 36-40, M Nov 4

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    I feel guilty for not letting my son's dad see

    him. I was letting him watch our son on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays when I work 2nd shift but I'm not anymore. He's an alcoholic. He has been flip-flopping back and forth between drinking and sobriety for the past year or so. When he stops drinking he goes through severe...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    For No Reason!

    Y'know when you're walking along the pavement, minding your own business...and then suddenly you see a police car in the distance, coming your way? Now, if you were normal, you'd just treat it as any other car, right? Hah, not me. I automatically take on the stance of a bank...
    IamcalledS IamcalledS 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    And I don't know why.

    . This feeling sucks
    SleepyRose22 SleepyRose22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    So i just told my mom today i want to go live

    with my dad, she didn't like the idea beacause it happened so fast. She said she did not expect it from me and now i kinda feel guilty and bad for doing so... And i want to know how i can get over this feeling.. can anyone help?
    SeanPerG SeanPerG 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 5

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