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I Feel Guilty

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    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I should feel guilty.

    My stepdad died on the 10th at 3:20am this June. Exactly five days before father's day & two months before his seventh year anniversary with my mother. Aside from the grief, there are two things that are both equally a big portion of my pain aside from his sudden & unexpected...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    I've wound up in kinda a hard place.

    Just living a life that wears on me I never thought I'd have to live, but looking back I see why I've wound up here and all the things I could of done to fix it that were so seemingly tiny and meaningless at the time. I'm fixing everything even though it's really hard having...
    Peanut300 Peanut300 22-25, F May 14

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    I Feel Guilty

    Hello, I live in Mexico and I'm a 31 y.o. single woman. I feel, guilty, confused and sad very often and that is making me that I don't know what I want anymore. I've been in and out of relationships but most of them haven't last very long. I spent couple of years alone...
    clavel clavel 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    Covering For a Friend

    Guilt is NOT an emotion I usually feel, ever.  But right now I am feeling guilty. Two years ago, my best friend started having some troubles in her marriage (I can relate to that!).  Anyway, she began a friendship with a man from her work.  It was...
    childoftheland childoftheland 46-50, F 4 Responses May 2, 2009

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    i accidentally droped hot water on my

    roommate's legs which caused first degree burns....she went through so much pain 'cause of me :/ i'm totally aweful at everything ...i really don't deserve her friendship!!! :'( she said that she forgives me and it wasn't my fault and all but still can't shake the feeling that...
    emiisouma emiisouma 18-21, F Mar 8

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    And I don't know why.

    . This feeling sucks
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2014

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    I Feel Guilty

    And all the more since i joined ep. i would live to vent and feel sorry for myself and probably wallow in a pool of self pity. But then i see all these people here with their problems and how much more they are going through annd feel ungrateful for venting. I wish i didnt feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 8, 2013

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    It's eating and tearing me apart.

    I feel sick and anxious daily. Empty. Evil. Numb. I want to cry but I can't. What would it matter anyway? The past can't change. The guilt and worry won't disappear. It hurts so much to look him in his beautiful eyes. To see his soft trusting smile. His happy glow which...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Guilt is a powerful thing.

    The things we get ourselves into. Smh
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart 22-25, F 19 mins ago

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    I feel guilty sometimes

    when I do certain mistakes in my life. A year back I broke up with my girl friend because she use to think that I was not a trustworthy person. Even tho I didn't do anything WORNG. Explaining her all the times it use to turn out with fights over & over. Sometimes I wonder...
    Lostmyselfinpain Lostmyselfinpain 26-30, M Feb 22

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    I always feel guilty about doing something

    extremely fun. Or doing something really nice for my self. I asked my mom if I have enough money by the beginning of next year if I could go to Korea. She said yes! I feel guilty that I will be having fun and having an experience that I know some of my friends and familys will...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    Sooo... I met a random,

    gorgeous, awesome girl and we both got hurt because of me. I don't even know if she's alright. I mean, I don't know her last name or where she's from or if she's got anyone to keep her from going insane (like I am right now) and she probably wants me dead so there's nothing I...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I often feel guilty when the truth is

    that I'm such a push over, and the guilt isn't warranted. I battle codependency, so I let people walk all over me then feel guilty for standing up for myself. It's such a warped, crazy way of thinking. I started helping out a coworker two and a half years ago because she had...
    beachlover81 beachlover81 31-35, F Mar 12

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    I was having sex with this girl's boyfriend

    for just about the entire time they were together & now she's dead & I didn't even get to apologize...
    QMKJ QMKJ 16-17, F May 5

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    godsgift90 godsgift90 22-25, F 2 Responses May 19

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    Fighting Guilt

    I am not going to spend my life feeling guilty over something in the past that I cannot change, and I'm not going to spend all my time doubting everything people say and whether or not what I'm doing is the right thing. If I make a mistake, I am going to learn from it, not wallow...
    CoriWilson CoriWilson 18-21 Aug 5, 2013

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    Hallo, anyone...This is my first post

    and i do really need your help... I have too much to say but i don't know how to say.There is a nice couple that i know one of them is my friend. Yes, we ever be a very close friend 4 years ago. Now he found a nice pretty girl and he loves her so much. I am happy with his...
    mariavita mariavita 36-40, F Feb 28

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    I always feel bad for being happy

    because I remember all the people that aren't, I wish I could help everyone.
    nocturnallyfucked nocturnallyfucked 13-15, F 15 hrs ago

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    I Feel So Guilty

    because I not honest with my husband. He don't know where I work every Friday and Saturday night, he think I am still working as waitress in the restaurant but I leave the restaurant early on those two nights to work in another place and I want to tell him but I afraid he angry...
    desireforpassion desireforpassion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    I've been purposefully not getting enough sleep

    because my life is more exciting when my symptoms are active. Also because it helps me get away from the world. Bad me, bad.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been thinking about Goldpaw again lately,

    and I feel bad about what happened to her. I feel like I teamed up with Oak and the rest of EP and sort of "exiled" her. I'm no better than anyone else. I look through her profile every now and then: through her stories, her whiteboard, her experiences, her confessions...what...
    BlueRoseNeko BlueRoseNeko 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I visited him this afternoon.

    When we got there, my CPS officer was waiting, and we got searched. It was unreal, and really high security. It was like they had no freedom. We got shown to this small office type room, and my aunt and I sat down and just waited for 5-10 minutes, really nervous. Well I was...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response May 3

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    When I was 7, I had a couple of underlings,

    or servants, or minions that follow me around all day for me to boss around and torment. But there was a third kid. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. Laughing would be horrible, but I can't cry either, because apparently I don't have a heart, so to speak. You'll see what I...
    OgaTatsumi OgaTatsumi 26-30 1 Response Apr 2

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    I made a promise few years back,

    and I broke it due to several reasons. I wasn't proud of myself. I really want to apologize to her and fix things up. But we've lost contact and now the guilt is killing me ...
    redDya91 redDya91 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When my brother is driving me insane,

    I call him ugly and a bunch of similar ego-crushing things in the heat of the moment that I don't mean. I want to get to him when I'm upset, but immediately after I'm full of regret because I do care for my brother. I've brought up things I know he's self-conscious about and I...
    astateofdisarray astateofdisarray 18-21, F May 11

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    My Friend Took His Own Life

    Summer two years ago I was on vication at a old place where I used to live. Going there was my highlight of the year when I got summer vication. It was all just free days hanging with my old best friends by the lake and just relax and talk. One day I was on vication I got a...
    AndYes AndYes 18-21, M Dec 9, 2012

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    My first love and I are talking again,

    still gives me butterflies. Last night we admitted our undying bullet proof love for each other but we are best friends. I feel guilty because everytime we reconnect and talk I feel like we are together again then I push every person around me away I also feel guilty because I...
    alexis0glover alexis0glover 18-21, F Mar 1

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    I believe I have ruined my life.

    I was in a car accident years ago. It was my fault. I rear ended someone after passing out from drinking. Thankfully the other people were not hurt. I shattered my foot so badly the Dr. in the ER said he had never seen an injury that bad to a foot. I should expect to have...
    FreshStart1969 FreshStart1969 41-45, F May 18

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    Doing Wrong And Getting Away From It

    As you can probably already see, I'm 13 years old. You would probably think a 13 year old wouldn't be able to be this bad, but, I am. I'm not sure if I'm proud of it. Anyways, it started when I began playing an online game called RuneScape. You can chat other people and add...
    Lynnboo Lynnboo 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    I finally did it. I finally did exactly what

    everyone, including myself, has been telling me I should do, and that is completely end things with my ex. Obviously, since he's my ex, the relationship was already ended but he just hasn't left me alone. Constant texts and phone calls, always following me around at school...
    babyllove21 babyllove21 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 14

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    I'm a very secretive person.

    I love my family and friends very much, yet there are things that I just don't share that I feel I should. But we all have the right to privacy, right? However, this week...something life changing is happening. Something really big, that I've had planned for a long time but...
    Linasey Linasey 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Some girl came up to me

    and my roommate, told us she was locked out and asked if she could borrow one of our phones to call someone to let her into her room. So I gave her my phone and she walked off to go find the number she needed. I got nervous because I realized I just handed off my phone to a...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    i accidentally droped hot water on my

    roommate's legs which caused first degree burns....she went through so much pain 'cause of me :/ i'm totally aweful at everything ...i really don't deserve her friendship!!! :'( she said that she forgives me and it wasn't my fault and all but still can't shake the feeling that...
    emiisouma emiisouma 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    My wife used to be HOT

    but after 10 years and two children, she is the exact opposite of HOT. She's gained nearly a 100lbs and I don't find her remotely attractive. I feel guilty for not being attracted to her . . . but what the heck am I supposed to do? I can't tell her. I can only be supportive...
    TorturedwithGuilt TorturedwithGuilt 31-35, M 9 Responses Sep 17, 2014

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    This is something I am going through right

    now and, frankly, it is eating me up inside and I don't know how to handle it. I will share it here from the beginning. When I was still in school, around 15 years old, I was friends with a guy. We were very close friends and, perhaps, had it continued longer, it may have...
    OneAlphaWoman OneAlphaWoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    Guilty Conscience

    What is it about guilt that has such control over our lives to the degree that we don't just feel guilt for the things we have done but for our existence too? I grew up in a fairly ordinary household with loving parents and when I look back on my childhood to analyse why I have...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    Cheater, Liar, Fake

    I feel like a cheater, liar, and fake. I sneak behind my AMAZING boyfriends back to talk to guy friends. He doesnt like me talking to guys and I admit I dont like him talking to girls. Thats the fake. I tell him I am just watching a movie, when really a guy is over and we are...
    iamurb3stsecret iamurb3stsecret 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2010

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    I am 18 years old and today I got in my first

    car accident. It was icy and slippery out and I approached a red light and somehow went through it.I tried to stop but it was so fast and seems like a blur. I don't know how I could be so stupid. I hit a truck who then hit another car. No one was hurt but my car is ruined and I...
    corajustine corajustine 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    My husband has been paying insurance

    for almost a year on a business that he hasn't gotten off the ground yet just like any other business and talk well that is about all he does is talk and absolutely no action I've been wanting to leave him but have no place to go and I have debt under my name because of his...
    Bella70 Bella70 41-45, F Mar 17

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    PartyPat2336 PartyPat2336 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    Just did a 50 minute lower body

    and speed workout!
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Apr 6

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    Ending It Like a Firing Squad

    I was talking to a friend/teacher of mine recently about some guilty feelings I have been having lately about a friendship I ended. It was kind of a toxic relationship, and I was very unhappy, so I ended it to save myself a lot of pain and save her the difficulty of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    I feel guilty for not letting my son's dad see

    him. I was letting him watch our son on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays when I work 2nd shift but I'm not anymore. He's an alcoholic. He has been flip-flopping back and forth between drinking and sobriety for the past year or so. When he stops drinking he goes through severe...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    A very short time ago my cousin's son "M"

    committed suicide. He lived with his mother on the east coast. His grandmother, (My Aunt) lives on the west coast. Since I knew it hit her hard I was calling every day for a while. Then every other day. Yesterday when I called she didn't answer the phone. I thought well...
    JennaR JennaR 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I actually cant stop crying!

    Me and Lewis had an argument with my mate the other day because he was telling Lewis to die and stuff! I have always forgave him every time I have had an argument with him because I know what he's been through with his sister dying and other stuff but I couldn't forgive him this...
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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