I Feel Hopeless

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 125 People

    Am I the only one that feels wanting to find

    relief from the pain of depression as stealing happiness?
    youcthrume youcthrume
    36-40, M
    Jan 12

    Today my mother has decided

    that ruining my future verbally is not enough anymore. Today she gave me papers on how much my chores will pay and how much rent and bills i will pay. I do not have a job as she will not let me have one and none of the daily or weekly chores pay more than 3 dollars.i am a 17...
    pyrowolff pyrowolff
    22-25, F
    Mar 7

    Hopless

    life is ****** up i bpd makes life so difficult to live everyday is so hard i feel right now at 5 am like taking something and cutting myself i pissed of i hated living i want die and now not later total pissed off with this ******* thing we call life
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 27, 2011

    Just when I start feeling 1% hopeful in get

    more bad news. I can't take it anymore, nothing is going right and I wish I could just die.
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    Mar 12, 2014

    well no matter what I do how are I try to be

    positive to wish things will change and get better for me. all the effort I have invested in becoming a part of humanity I have failed again .all this years more than an half a century trying desperately seeking a way of belonging wanting to be one of you has been for not. and...
    wolfserpent wolfserpent
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Mar 23

    Like The Song

    by Breaking Benjamin Here I lie forever Sorrow still remains Will the water pull me down and wash it all away Come and take me over Welcome to the game Will the current drag me down and carry me away Suddenly the light begins to fade HOPELESS I'm falling down...
    alteredstate alteredstate
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 26, 2009

    No thoughts in this one just feelings I cry

    almost every day. I don't get it. Why am I ok when we're fighting every day? When I don't see her for more than a day I'm a wreck. Every morning when I wake, and every night when I lay down, I cry for a few minutes. At least that often. A few times tonight at work, when no one...
    ZHC74 ZHC74
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    Feeling hopeless is a horrible feeling

    for no matter anybody... But I do fell like ... I wish I could suddenly leave this world without any pain... I m scared of being alive... I wish some incidents happened to me so that I could die without being a murbder of killing myself...
    Mei2012 Mei2012
    36-40, F
    Mar 2, 2014

    I am making good grades in college,

    I already have a job lined up, but I still feel hopeless. After I get a job, buy a house. Then what? What is the point? If I can describe the future it would be a black hole. There is nothing to work toward. I feel hopeless.
    Orustus Orustus
    18-21, M
    Nov 22, 2014

    All my dreams ended I don't have any more hope

    on anything. I miss the times that I thought I would have a great future.
    katykitty katykitty
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    Chris harper mercer 26 killed 9 at a college in

    Oregon before killing himself because he was a "friendless Virgin" who had lost all hope....I feel his pain....life is so unfair
    Isaokomori22 Isaokomori22
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    I Can't Go On

    There is just too much, I can't handle any of this anymore. I sold my house with my husband and we have to move into a terrible little shanty house while we look for a place we want to buy. I wanted to buy my mother's house that is going into foreclosure but it's taking too long...
    brokencrown brokencrown
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2013

    I just need somewhere to write.

    Writing always makes me put my feelings in perspective. Writing makes my emotions feels in order. I can see it in third person view. It's not in chaos anymore. I see the why, how, who... i see how i should response. But even so, it's not always easy to act. Right now, i am...
    kiBraziki kiBraziki
    18-21, F
    Aug 2, 2015

    I've TRIED for too long.

    ...... to have Faith. Believe "a beautiful girl" Would come along....... and TRULY Love me AND Accept me 'As I Want to Be'. I don't know "how" TO BELIEVE anymore. She "never" Materialized. REVEALED herself....... and Told me SHE wanted me, and Would be FAITHFUL and UNDERSTANDING...
    Bekind2meplease Bekind2meplease
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    So Sick Of S***

    I don't really know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of being depressed and just...hopeless. I just don't feel capable of change at this point. My mindset isn't something I can actively change, and my current situation isn't something I have control over. I'm just stuck in this f...
    thehairguy43 thehairguy43
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 25, 2013

    it's getting to that point ,

    when nothing matters, hope is Dead! !!!
    burnner burnner
    56-60, M
    1 Response Oct 26, 2015

    I'm probably going to be alone

    for my birthday. No money and no friends. Why should I even stay alive?
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 18, 2014

    I have little time to make friends,

    yet I always feel lonely and depressed during the down time I have.. Everything I do seems so pointless. All the success I've had in school and in sports never can mean anything to me because I have no one to share how I view these successes and failures. I won the 2- mile...
    PhindingPhronesis PhindingPhronesis
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2014

    I'm setting myself up

    for failure by already worrying (and let's me be honest, thinking I Know) that counselling isn't going to help me. I feel like I don't care, but I know I do. It's either; care and be losing my mind with panic, or just do my best to ignore it and try to be numb.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 30, 2015

    I have a best friend

    that i was really close to we grew up together and nothing has ruined or relationship until now... a boy. She recently got a boyfriend that she spends all her time with she had completely forgotten me. When ever i go near her when Werner she is with him(which is all the time...
    truthfulwierdo truthfulwierdo
    16-17, F
    Dec 30, 2014

    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I used to have so many interests in life, and now I feel like doing nothing because it doesn't make me happy. I don't know what will make me happy anymore. I mean, I buy a few nice things with the money I make from my part time job, and I sometimes hang out with other people...
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo
    18-21
    Jul 17, 2014

    I've honestly felt this way my entire teenage

    years, but as a young adult it's only gotten worse. Let me start out by saying I'm nothing to society. Absolutely nothing. I'm a short, skinny male. Those are both sins to society. I'm about 5'5 and I only weigh about 103 lbs. I'm also 19. You can already figure out that my...
    Danielt104 Danielt104
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 30, 2014

    i feel like giving up life ,

    and hope .it seem hopeless to recover from this mess .i have been trying and trying but i just cant get out .i am so tired already ,i hope that i can be in koma or Amnseia so i can stop worring and forget bout it
    Appolo123 Appolo123
    16-17, M
    Mar 29, 2014

    Nothing more depressing

    than feeling a glimmer of hope get stomped out before your eyes. Without hope there isn't much else.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce
    41-45, F
    Dec 4, 2014

    I am working so hard.

    I've been studying for school and then studying for a police officers exam I'll be taking in a few days. I feel like there really is no point though. Every way that I look at this, I just see myself failing. I can't imagine myself actually achieving anything. I don't know what...
    maulerrr maulerrr
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 26, 2014
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