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I Feel I Don't Matter

In everyday life & In the grand scheme of things.... I just don't matter. 377 People

    My friend at school (only friend at school) is

    spending all her time with her new boyfriend; the other day i asked her what days she was off for study leave cause i thought we could've hung out or revised together but she said "will get back to you, i'm just away to leave for Cameron's." She didn't get back to me. At school...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses May 7

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    “His manual of heaven

    and hell lay open before me, and I could perceive my nothingness in this scheme.” ~ William Golding
    sciguy18 sciguy18 51-55, M 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Whenever I Feel That I Don't Matter

    whenever i feel that i don't matter, i thought of suicide. the easiest and less painful way to kill myself. it's stupid enough as it is... but i cannot help myself from thinking about it. but when i think of the family that i leave behind and the number of people who love me...
    LovelessAdvocate LovelessAdvocate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2010

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    Please Help Me

    God help me to get over this depession please just help me. i feel so sad and misserable..=(
    thenewmisslunallena thenewmisslunallena 22-25, F 11 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    I Am Not Confidant

    At first glance, I think I might be selfish or overeacting when it comes to this subject, but then once I force these feelings down they might come back up. I have a good life, great friends, and a loving girlfriend with whom I will be spending our 3 month aniversery on...
    TheCorpseMan99 TheCorpseMan99 16-17, M Jun 23, 2010

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    Am I Nothing?

    Sometimes my friends make me feel like I'm nothing but a afterthought.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    I Don't Think I Can Try No More

    Honestly I can't put all my energy into it no more. If I wanted to be ignored, I would just have stayed in my corner where I am comfortable. It's fine the walls are officially back up this time they are concrete.
    lovergirl92 lovergirl92 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    I Just Don't Matter....

    I feel like I don't matter to anyone, that who cares, if I am no longer here, and no longer alive. I know I sure don't. I feel like I just don't matter to anyone, and feel like there is no one that really needs me, or wants me. I just feel like I don't matter, not to me, not to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    If I Were to Disappear........

                - Just go away.... People would miss me I am sure. For a bit, I may drift into your mind every once in awhile. Perhaps some would even regret not showing more interest, as we all have friends that we wish that...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2009

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    Insignificance

    “For many feverish years he was burdened with the sensation, an ancient one to be sure, that the incredible sprawl of human history was no more than a pathetically partial record of an infinitely vast and shadowed chronicle of universal metamorphoses. How much greater, then...
    sciguy18 sciguy18 51-55, M 3 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    Dust In The Wind...

    I realize that many people are suffering greatly; whether due to illness, poverty, depression, addiction, etc. As such, I want to state right up front, that I am extremely grateful for what I do have and do not take it lightly. What (if anything) I mean to others, however, is...
    sciguy18 sciguy18 51-55, M 5 Responses Sep 15, 2011

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    I Have No One Anymore

    No one caresI get awful staresfrom those that were my friendsI used to be So carefreeMy rope has reached the endI know I shouldAnd wish I couldKeep some hope aliveIt's been too longAll good goes wrongNo matter how hard I striveThey turn their backAs I fade to blackAnd slowly...
    Wonderfulinsanity Wonderfulinsanity 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    Why Do I Feel Like This ??

    it always seems im stuck at home in my room with no one to talk to and no one to run to i go to school and im happy but when i come home i sit in my room and cry my mom has a drinking problem and i live with her my great grandma and grandpa and there getting old and i try so hard...
    cierahamblin cierahamblin 13-15 Jan 3, 2011

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    Just A Drop Of Water In An Endless Sea?

    I understand that many people (myself included) sometimes feel as if what we do or who we are doesn't matter. Since making my initial post in this group, I've come to realize that every person has value, and can touch the lives of others. This may, however, not always be obvious...
    sciguy18 sciguy18 51-55, M Oct 31, 2011

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    Silent For Over A Month

    Im finding it increasingly difficult to communicate with my parents. Its been over a month since i last spoke with them, only problem is we all live under the same roof!!! i feel as if me and my parents dont get along like with me like we did when i was younger. I have been...
    abihuniak abihuniak 18-21, M Feb 8, 2011

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    What Is Wrong With Me?

    Is it me? I reach out. I give. I need. And I get ignored. And when ppl do respond is it becasue they only pity me? I complimented someone on leading a meeting today and they ignored me. I raised my hand and said I was a returnee and did not get recognized.  The woman sitting...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 19, 2012

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    Do I?

    Really.... there is anyone who think that I matter?.....
    TheX TheX 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 14, 2011

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    Legacy

    "A man dies ... only a few circles in the water prove that he was ever there. And even they quickly disappear. And when they're gone, he's forgotten, without a trace, as if he'd never even existed. And that's all." ~ Wolfgang Borchert
    sciguy18 sciguy18 51-55, M 3 Responses Jun 19, 2012

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    Just Want to Say

    even though every1 in this group feels they don't matter...including myself...i guess i kind of realised we do...because being in this group means we know we're not really alone...we understand. i feel alone all the time, whether i'm at big family meal, or a party with lots of...
    mexeb mexeb 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2009

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    Globally

    I know I matter and I am important to few people close to me - my family, coworkers, my sub and maybe few others... But that is not enough for me (why I am being called perfectionist or martinet?) But from global perspective I don't believe I or my actions matter and can change...
    MrQ MrQ 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 12, 2012

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    I Feel I Don't Matter

    I feel I don't matter. The world won't change much without me in it. Although I helped a lot of people it was never a life or death matter  they probably could have gotten by without my help. I don't see how I matter.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 4 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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