I Feel Isolated In My Own Mind

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    So Many Contradictions!

    Being in my own mind feels a little bit like being in the middle of a massive argument much of the time. Can anyone else relate to this? When I think of a topic or a problem or something that is going on around me, I have trouble deciding what to make of it or what action to take...
    smileylottie smileylottie
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2012

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