I Feel I've Lost Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 451 People

    Coming back home after being away

    for 10 months. I am currently faced with the dilemma of finding a job. Although when i was travelling i did couchsurfing, helpx and hitchhiking to cut cost. I have exhausted all my financial means and i am faced with the problem of unemployment. I moved in back in my parents and...
    kmgan kmgan
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    Once Upon A Time

    I used to be so happy. Popular. But that was in grade school. The world was normal. I had so many friends, faith in the world, love for everything. But that was then. Everything's changed since then. I'VE changed since then. I'm losing myself. It's an awful feeling. Some people...
    Greniad Greniad
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2013
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 14, 2015

    i feel like after so long of being unhappy you

    loose yourself into the world of unhappiness and its hard to redeem your happiness back no matter how hard you try
    cloudymoons cloudymoons
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2014

    I just recently experienced the worst heartbreak

    that i have ever felt. i felt good about myself during the relationship but at the end i felt lost. she broke up with me in the coldest way i have ever seen, and i lost faith in every girl out there. Even though i have the greatest friends who helps me and supports me, i cant...
    hhhovind hhhovind
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 30, 2014

    No Title Needed..

    Well where do I start.. I'm 17 years old yeah most of you are probably thinking teenagers don't have problems or that they can't be stressed well at least that's what my dad thinks about teenagers. My ex and I broke up almost a year ago we where dating for 3 years.. Yep 3 years...
    Lost4200 Lost4200
    22-25, F
    Aug 3, 2013

    Lost In The Fog.

    I don't know who I am anymore.Some days I wake up and I just stare at my ceiling because I don't remember who I am or what I'm doing.It's a weird feeling that's hard to put into words but it feels like I lose the sense of who I am.Of course it goes away after a 20 seconds but...
    CloakedStranger CloakedStranger
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

    I'M Just Never Happy Anymore..

    I used to be so so happy and now I feel sad and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, everyone around me lies and are spiteful I actually can't trust anyone... :( I just want to be happy again
    HelenNewnan HelenNewnan
    22-25, F
    Nov 9, 2013

    Shattered Heart

    10 years ago I told myself your crazy if I where to get into a relationship , I was young , beautiful , full of life, smiled , had the time of my life. Then I fell in Love and very hard and fast. Well Ten years later and we are still together but by a thread and a prayer. The...
    ahenry1798 ahenry1798
    Feb 19, 2013

    I really do.... I don't recognize myself

    anymore. I just want to be alone and don't feel happy or enjoy almost anything... I have several problems in my life that make me feel ashamed, and i am afraid that people find out about them, so i've built a wall around myself. Even to write this is hard, but at the same time...
    lostminnie lostminnie
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2014

    I Don't Know Where To Go.

    I have lost myself. No longer able to define myself but the things I do or the people I love, I now see that I have no idea who I am and I have no idea what to do about that. The things that used to make me happy have completely lost their appeal. I am constantly consumed with...
    findingthelostgirl findingthelostgirl
    Nov 19, 2012

    I Dont Know What Happened.

    I always used to be a shy person. I mean I talked to people who I didn't know but it always takes me awhile to get comfortable with ppl. Once I am comfortable I'm pretty easy to get along with. But that's all seemed to change..... I've been with my boyfriend for about 3 years...
    jmisty123 jmisty123
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2011

    Pixies at Glastonbury,

    Where is my mind? A bloody good question. And song.
    monkwit monkwit
    46-50, M
    Jun 29, 2014

    Is There Still Hope?...

    Each day passes and i wonder, is life always going to be like this...am  i always going to act and feel this way? No hope for anything anymore...No motivation...No anything? I mean i use to have goals, and i use tobe an awesome person to be around. I was fun, and weird, and...
    lasthope lasthope
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

    Where'd I Go....i Miss Me So...seems Like Its Been Forever..

    Dear Me, Long time no see. I miss you. Things just aren't the same now. I can't seem to set myself a schedule and follow it. I don't write to do lists anymore. You used to make me feel so good, so sure of myself. Now I have become a disappointment to both of us. Remember...
    strangeronthisroad strangeronthisroad
    1 Response Apr 28, 2011

    In the last two years I've went in a direction

    I never thought I'd be going. Trying to mend a broken marriage, climb out of debt, dealing with severe depression, anxiety, and anger and dealing with obsession with sexual content. None of this is what I dreamed of. I thought at this time in my life I would've had a firm grasp...
    BlackSenpai BlackSenpai
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 5, 2014

    I have served twelve years in the military

    and I'm likely to get medically discharged due to illness! My body is wrecked, can't do anything I used to enjoy! Relationship has fallen apart! Feeling lost! Frightened as to what the future holds!
    paddy6162 paddy6162
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2015

    All my feelings are wrapped up

    and tucked away deep inside me and I've spent so much time being who everyone else wants me to be that I don't know who the real me is anymore
    1angel666 1angel666
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 28, 2014

    I'm feeling empty today.

    My eyes close and I see your face behind the lids like always but this time around I feel no longing only sadness that you are gone. I wish I could just accept it like you have. I still have trouble feeling the right emotions, it's like everything is filtered through sadness...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    Dec 12, 2015

    I used to be so different.

    I used to exercise every day, eat healthy, smile, and I used to write. Now when I look at my journal I just can't think of anything to write. I can't even properly express my own feelings on paper or with words. This is scary.
    Shadowmantle Shadowmantle
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    Where Did I Go? What Happened To Me?

    i remember when i was younger i was a basically happy girl. i had friends and things i did outside the home. after so many years of being made to feel i was nothing i have come to believe it. i dont leave my home much. just to go to work. and the market. i feel like im fading...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2011

    There Is Definitely Hope!

    It really has been a long time since i have been on this site. My oh my how i have changed. I am a totally different person now. I have friends, I am in college, a boyfriend, and I am very happy. I have finally decided to change my life. I wanted to feel better, so i changed my...
    lasthope lasthope
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2011

    I don't think there is any way

    for me to survive... I have only one choice..
    ManiacalQueen ManiacalQueen
    26-30, F
    Mar 15, 2015

    Its Over.

    well, its over, i'm out of here pretty soon, won't see my siblings for a long time, if ever, depending on were it is i go to. its over. numb your feelings, shut your mouth, don't feel. feeling only makes things hurt more.
    kagan1 kagan1
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 19, 2012

    Been married for 20 years.

    Have 4 children whom I love. Gave up everything of who I am as a person for my Wife and children just to be ridiculed and betrayed by these people who say they love me. All I do is work and now I am losing my job and thus the final thing that I am I will soon lose. Wife is a...
    morph7 morph7
    41-45, M
    1 Response Aug 21, 2014

    Who Am I?

    I got a lot to tell you, so much that i've lost track of who i really am. The feelings i used to enjoy are gone & i feel like i'm trapped inside a shell. This confusion I feel is of one that I cannot explain, where did it come from and why is it there? When you face countless of...
    R3LaX43v3r R3LaX43v3r
    13-15, M
    Jan 6, 2013

    Something went wrong in my life at one time.

    I am so preoccupied by my looks it's disgusting. I used to have the lowest self esteem, I was antisocial, hated my looks, hated my skin color, hated being black, hated my african hair. That hate all left at one time and left me so COMFORTABLE! So comfortable that I can't put...
    deleted deleted
    May 2, 2015

    Where Did I Go?

       The only time I feel like me is when I'm baking, painting, throwing or helping with a party, some aspects of my job or when I'm shopping. I got lost somewhere over the years. I hate that. I know what I want people to see, but we all get wrapped up in things that that...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Mar 19, 2009

    I'm waking up to ash

    and dust I wipe my brow and I sweat my rust I'm breathing in the chemicals I'm breaking in, shaping up, then checking out on the prison bus
    CallMeFaye CallMeFaye
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    I Miss Myself

    I don't know why i feel so lost.. like my mind is so blank it can't concentrate or think..i thought i might be depressed but even so .. i feel like my old strong positive self has died and is replaced with this hollow silly shallow partial human being that i am now i want to be...
    lifevslife lifevslife
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 9, 2011

    i feel like highschool has just ****** me up.

    before it i was more energetic,more willing to have fun and was rebel.i was much more happier and i was not so anxious like now.now i'm anxious and depressed about everything and i think it's so that i've lost trust in people,my anxiety sometimes turns into hate and anger just so...
    forkinyoureye forkinyoureye
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 30, 2015

    This tired mechanical heart winding down,

    this robotic body rusting away, freezing in the darkness, someone save me, shine your light, shatter me out of this, bring me back to life, if the glass that traps me is broken, I can fly free, Days are the same, all in darkness and grey, someone shine the light on me...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 4, 2014

    i really dont know who i am anymore.

    i cant express emotions anymore. i am starting to get anxieties im starting to be really careless and i feel like a zombie nowadays. i try to connect with people but i just cant anymore. maybe with a certain few. but only in groups. i cant do it individually. i get anxious...
    theanoymouswreck theanoymouswreck
    22-25, M
    Jun 16, 2015

    Being a mom is the best thing

    that has ever happened to me. I love my children with all my heart and wouldn't trade them for the world. But being in an unhappy marriage has made me lose myself. I'm not the person I used to be. The passionate, outgoing, confident Christine seems to be gone most days. I miss...
    ABlueChristine ABlueChristine
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    Broken Hearts

    We dated for two years. I loved him with all my heart. And even though I no longer am in love with him I still seem to care about him. But the worst part about my ending relationship with him is that I have lost myself in the process. I no longer know who i am or what I stand for...
    marieee95 marieee95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2012

    What Am I Going To Do Next?

    I hate myself for this feeling. I can't pull myself to do anything. I feel paralyzed.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 21, 2013

    I'm married to a wonderful woman

    for the last 11 years & have only now realised that I'm not living my life anymore. I live to suit her. Not her fault, not at all. I should have & could have been more forceful. But I've let it slip by. And now I don't think I can get 'me' back. While I love her, I think my only...
    chad1974 chad1974
    41-45, M
    Dec 17, 2013

    I just can't find me.

    I don't feel as if I actually exist like I'm watching a life through a tv screen. I keep getting deeper in my darkness and I've lost all.substance.
    thewolfwiththecollar thewolfwiththecollar
    16-17, F
    May 11, 2015

    All around me is the warm

    and loving home I've worked so hard to create, and the community I've worked so hard to foster. It's good and I'm proud of it. The way we live is simple and good, and I know my children are benefiting from it. I don't want to lose sight of he value of what I have created, but...
    eusoueu eusoueu
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Dec 13, 2013

    I Did Everything

    i did everything, i gave it my all, tried to please him in every way. i gave him my love, my life, everything. i thought he could appreciate it and love me, but i was wrong. i got this in return, a black rose with thorns, that made me bleed every time i'd try to take care of it...
    emilhernandez emilhernandez
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2012


    I used to be a innocent and cheerful girl who led a carefree life. This lasted until when I am around 10 years old. When I am 11 things change. I got tease in school and people just take me for granted. I got hurt alot.when I am 13, I got to a new school.i decide to change myself...
    LuCiFeRz LuCiFeRz
    22-25, F
    Aug 26, 2013

    so im 26 and have two children 4

    and 7.I do all i can for them i adore them.Right now it is difficult as my financial status isn't great so obviously im going to worry about there future,at the moment i genuinley feel cut off from the world im gone past partying and going out,all my focus is on my kids as im...
    cizzyfla cizzyfla
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    I don't know myself, my birth parents,

    my interests, my ambitions, my futures, my identity. Just thinking about it makes me think of nothing, seriously nothing blank poof nothing.
    runningwithwolves runningwithwolves
    18-21, F
    Dec 29, 2013
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