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I Feel Life Is Hardening Me Up

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    I Could Feel It...

    I used to be so different. I changed so much. In many ways for the better, but in others, well, not. I used to be sweet. Really sweet. Very kind-hearted, loving, nice... In a way, I still am, but I can feel myself losing it. I lost my ability to feel compassion long ago...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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