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I Feel Like A Part Of Me Died Tonight

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    Not So Much Who I Lost

    But what I lost...I thought I had a bit of a good thing going with someone I met on here. Then after a week of not being able to get on EP, I see he was talking to some other girl. Just something simple like him saying to her "I'm waiting" says to me he wanted to talk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    So Sad....

      I  read something that made me so sad tonight.  It felt as though a little piece of my heart died.  I don't understand the logic behind it.  I don't understand the anger behind it.  I just don't understand....... My friend doesn't...
    giggles4488 giggles4488 56-60, F 5 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Unexpected Revelation

    I was emailing a close friend tonight and I was trying to share how I was feeling and I made the statement that I feel each day like a piece of me is dying. I had to stop typing cause I broke down in tears for about 10 minutes. I sat back down to continue my thoughts and found...
    msgemini71 msgemini71 41-45 May 21, 2012

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    What Of Me Is Left Alive?

    It's actually yesterday but Its a process and has taken time to sink in, I made a stupid error in judgement and lost my best friend. He'd used my iPad to access his email account and left it up, I read through some of his emails and called him on something, now he says he's lost...
    VoodooInBlue VoodooInBlue 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2012

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    The Worst Year Of My Life.

    About a year ago blood started pouring out of my mouth and it scared me so much. This started happening more and more frequently and I was getting weaker and weaker but I wouldn't tell anyone until it happened in front of my girlfriend and it scared her so much too, I felt like I...
    stevengates stevengates 18-21 1 Response Sep 4, 2012

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    The Roommate Again

    Wow... this is an odd feeling. I really do feel like I am partially dead tonight. Like something, I am not sure what, just up and left my life for good. I am not sure why I feel this way though. I think it has something to do with my own need to blame someone else for my...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 9, 2013

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    Actually, It Was 2 Tonight's Ago

    My ex and I were talking on the phone and he, Manu, told me he spke to one of our mutual friends, crying, saying, "He doesnt know why I broke up with him and that he's in deep pain." He's so full of crap. After what he's said about our incompatability I find it hard to believe...
    RitaRee RitaRee 22-25, F Jul 22, 2011

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    Well This Morning Rather

    I broked down today. I'm hurting... Again. I'll hide it though. I CAN hide it. I HAVE to. And hopefully one day, i'll be better.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Words I Never Thought I Would Hear.

    last night my mom had a bad night.she was in so much pain.i stayed up with her,and at one point she said she wished she was dead.and she asked god to end her suffering.when i heard that,i part of me died.to know that she was in such pain.and that i could do nothing.i almost...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I've always felt like I'm an outsider , adopted at brith and found out at 5 years old , now I'm 30 and I still feel like I just don't fit in anywhere ... I cry cause unselfishly...
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    But i want to spent the weekend with my bf and he is going. Im also invited but i barely know anyone. The thing is its one of those kind of partys where the boys hang out with the...
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    ashleymarcia ashleymarcia 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    My boyfriends mom died about a week ago. We live together and thI go have been stressful since her passing. I didn't know her very well but I feel like her spirit is irritated at...
    KaitlynnW KaitlynnW 18-21, F Aug 22

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    No matter what I do and how well I do it, it's still never enough for anybody. I'm the ****** friend and a horrible daughter even though all I do is try and please everybody, not...
    iflipppppp iflipppppp 16-17, F 52 mins ago

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    But God always save me. I got so sick before i almost died. Pain. Death i know what it feels like. Been to a lot of accidents but jst almost seems like someone is trying to save me...
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I never thought I would turn out to be like this when I was younger. Incompetent, inadequate, lost soul. I'm not anywhere close to the life stage points I should be. I feel like I...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Hello everyone! This is my first post! (Woohoo) Okay, So hi, I'm Kat. I'm 24... 25 on MONDAY 8/11!!! *Suddenly gets writer's block* -_- Always happens. Meh. I live in FL. I'm a...
    LovelyCalico LovelyCalico 22-25, F Aug 7

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    It amazes me the different people in your life.... There are those you can always turn to... Those that are there for you... Those that make you smile like you've never smiled...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I have two rather close friends and sometimes I feel like when I talk to them about how I feel ..they don't understand or want to for that matter especially my one friend in...
    lostinfire lostinfire 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I always say I feel like I'm married to someone I hate because I don't particularly like myself and I can't escape myself. It's really hard to be in this position and I hate the...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 21

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    Sometimes i feel like, no matter how many friends i have, a part of me always feels alone
    Lilys3 Lilys3 18-21, F a week ago

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    Did you ever meet someone and feel a strong connection to them without even really knowing them? Like they just "get" you and you feel like you know them and feel empathy towards...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 21

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    cross country was brutal but shorter today, but my body feels like total crap. my legs feel like cinderblocks when I move them, and i feel bloated all over. At dinner, I felt...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I'm just really really disappointed. I told my mom that this woman (I have a story of how I distrusted this adult who happens to be my moms close friend and how she is now bluntly...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    okay, im thirteen and in about 5th to 7th grade ive had really bad pimples and right now, their gone but i have black spots. my friends say they make me look cute but i cant help...
    swavvy123 swavvy123 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    i feel so weak...My body is like a lump of earth. i feel like my soul has been struck with a lightning bolt. nothing can prepare me for this fate i must face. no matter how much i...
    LunarDream LunarDream 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 31

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    I always feel like every time I do or say something it's weird or wrong but if someone else does the exact same thing it's perfectly fine. And every time I try to defend myself I...
    theartist102 theartist102 22-25, M Aug 4

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    I have all kids of dreams.. And i must say before i say anything else, that i feel like dreams are some of the times based on what you have been thinking about, or somethings...
    cbeneath cbeneath 22-25, F Aug 5

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    This has to be the worst pain I have ever felt towards the person I call my dad. Just the thought of what he said and what happened brings tears to my face and pain to my heart...
    XCrAzYBeAuTiFulX XCrAzYBeAuTiFulX 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I can't make sense of myself in relation to the life around me. I look at people and I feel so very different. There are moments when I know that a certain thought process was...
    WhisperSayuri WhisperSayuri 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    This a major problem for me, all the time. I feel like crap over this. Imagine me, living in a small town with a school of maybe 200 people K-12 grades. And always having this...
    lportra24 lportra24 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    My moms side of the family is really Catholic and pretty homophobic. My mom isn't homophobic but she doesn't approve of the "lifestyle choice". Her boyfriend is really right winged...
    chanchilla chanchilla 18-21, F Aug 10

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    I'm not underweight. I'm 5'5 and 130 lbs, but I am thinner than most people I know or come across and they have noticed it too. I don't eat a lot, just because I don't really...
    Slexre Slexre 22-25, F Aug 10

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    I feel like I shouldn't of lived this long any way, but lately I feel like death is gripping my neck tighter and tighter. I don't know how to get it to release. im not one of the...
    Yungbug Yungbug 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 11

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    As far as I can remember I can't recall the last time my parents ever said I love you or we are proud of you hugged me or even had a discussion with me, I'm originally francophone...
    alexaz66 alexaz66 26-30, M Aug 11

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    I'm going to keep this short and sweet. my best friend and i have been best friends ever since 2nd grade. I love her too death and nothing will ever change that but now we both...
    amarie99 amarie99 13-15, F Aug 14

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    After reading a variety of the experiences people share here I can't help but feel a familiar feeling, like I'm an outlier, like I don't belong. I see experiences of people who...
    darksaber9999 darksaber9999 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    I haven't felt suicidal in so long. The thing is, I know I don't have it super bad. I know people have it worse but for some reason I still don't want to be here. I know my life...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 16-17, F Aug 18

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    Hey guys, my life has been pretty good so far but lately I feel like I don't belong in my country. It started like a few months ago when I went to Thailand for a month with someone...
    msawsome44 msawsome44 22-25, M Aug 20

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    I sometimes hold my breathe when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    killingallparamedics killingallparamedics 16-17, F Aug 20

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    I feel like somethings about to happen, but it doesn't. I feel miserable, despair. I have no reason to (read my last 'experience'), but somethings got to give sometime. Even death...
    LeeHart1 LeeHart1 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    I know they don't. Yet sometimes, I get this anxious feeling of being judged and looked down on. At first it was at school, but now it's in my own home too. I'm not that insecure...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to feel something.....I feel like I don't mean anything to anyone. Words can be said but actions speaks louder than words....I don't feel important
    Supershoes24 Supershoes24 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I've never had a dream that I did not understand in some way, it makes me feel like I'm in touch with myself.
    emavii emavii 18-21, F Jul 31

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    Not to put the spotlight on me.. But at school an everything I feel like I'm invisible. I have some friends but all the girl friends seem to judge me. And it's weird cuz I try to...
    KellsThr13 KellsThr13 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I hate it when someone publicly challenged me and I feel like I look bad. I hate being criticized or lectured especially in public. I feel attacked.
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Jul 31