I Feel Like A Part Of Me Died Tonight

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    Not So Much Who I Lost

    But what I lost...I thought I had a bit of a good thing going with someone I met on here. Then after a week of not being able to get on EP, I see he was talking to some other girl. Just something simple like him saying to her "I'm waiting" says to me he wanted to talk...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Oct 25, 2009

    The Roommate Again

    Wow... this is an odd feeling. I really do feel like I am partially dead tonight. Like something, I am not sure what, just up and left my life for good. I am not sure why I feel this way though. I think it has something to do with my own need to blame someone else for my...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 9, 2013

    I was enjoying a slice of the pizza

    while listening to some old alums that a friend gave me. On my way to reach for another slice but felt noting,only the bare cardboard. I turned to see the box..in horror I see it all gone. That once beautiful thing is now forever gone. I feel cold and empty inside just like the...
    rosesee rosesee
    18-21, F
    Nov 6, 2014

    Well This Morning Rather

    I broked down today. I'm hurting... Again. I'll hide it though. I CAN hide it. I HAVE to. And hopefully one day, i'll be better.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    1 Response Jun 11, 2011

    Actually, It Was 2 Tonight's Ago

    My ex and I were talking on the phone and he, Manu, told me he spke to one of our mutual friends, crying, saying, "He doesnt know why I broke up with him and that he's in deep pain." He's so full of crap. After what he's said about our incompatability I find it hard to believe...
    RitaRee RitaRee
    22-25, F
    Jul 22, 2011

    Words I Never Thought I Would Hear.

    last night my mom had a bad night.she was in so much pain.i stayed up with her,and at one point she said she wished she was dead.and she asked god to end her suffering.when i heard that,i part of me died.to know that she was in such pain.and that i could do nothing.i almost...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    Unexpected Revelation

    I was emailing a close friend tonight and I was trying to share how I was feeling and I made the statement that I feel each day like a piece of me is dying. I had to stop typing cause I broke down in tears for about 10 minutes. I sat back down to continue my thoughts and found...
    msgemini71 msgemini71
    41-45
    May 21, 2012

    So Sad....

      I  read something that made me so sad tonight.  It felt as though a little piece of my heart died.  I don't understand the logic behind it.  I don't understand the anger behind it.  I just don't understand....... My friend doesn't...
    giggles4488 giggles4488
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Feb 8, 2010

    What Of Me Is Left Alive?

    It's actually yesterday but Its a process and has taken time to sink in, I made a stupid error in judgement and lost my best friend. He'd used my iPad to access his email account and left it up, I read through some of his emails and called him on something, now he says he's lost...
    VoodooInBlue VoodooInBlue
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2012

    The Worst Year Of My Life.

    About a year ago blood started pouring out of my mouth and it scared me so much. This started happening more and more frequently and I was getting weaker and weaker but I wouldn't tell anyone until it happened in front of my girlfriend and it scared her so much too, I felt like I...
    stevengates stevengates
    18-21
    1 Response Sep 4, 2012

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