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I Feel Like A Part Of Me Died Tonight

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    The Worst Year Of My Life.

    About a year ago blood started pouring out of my mouth and it scared me so much. This started happening more and more frequently and I was getting weaker and weaker but I wouldn't tell anyone until it happened in front of my girlfriend and it scared her so much too, I felt like I...
    stevengates stevengates 18-21 1 Response Sep 4, 2012

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    What Of Me Is Left Alive?

    It's actually yesterday but Its a process and has taken time to sink in, I made a stupid error in judgement and lost my best friend. He'd used my iPad to access his email account and left it up, I read through some of his emails and called him on something, now he says he's lost...
    VoodooInBlue VoodooInBlue 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2012

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    Not So Much Who I Lost

    But what I lost...I thought I had a bit of a good thing going with someone I met on here. Then after a week of not being able to get on EP, I see he was talking to some other girl. Just something simple like him saying to her "I'm waiting" says to me he wanted to talk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    Words I Never Thought I Would Hear.

    last night my mom had a bad night.she was in so much pain.i stayed up with her,and at one point she said she wished she was dead.and she asked god to end her suffering.when i heard that,i part of me died.to know that she was in such pain.and that i could do nothing.i almost...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    So Sad....

      I  read something that made me so sad tonight.  It felt as though a little piece of my heart died.  I don't understand the logic behind it.  I don't understand the anger behind it.  I just don't understand....... My friend doesn't...
    giggles4488 giggles4488 56-60, F 5 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    The Roommate Again

    Wow... this is an odd feeling. I really do feel like I am partially dead tonight. Like something, I am not sure what, just up and left my life for good. I am not sure why I feel this way though. I think it has something to do with my own need to blame someone else for my...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2013

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    Actually, It Was 2 Tonight's Ago

    My ex and I were talking on the phone and he, Manu, told me he spke to one of our mutual friends, crying, saying, "He doesnt know why I broke up with him and that he's in deep pain." He's so full of crap. After what he's said about our incompatability I find it hard to believe...
    RitaRee RitaRee 22-25, F Jul 22, 2011

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    Well This Morning Rather

    I broked down today. I'm hurting... Again. I'll hide it though. I CAN hide it. I HAVE to. And hopefully one day, i'll be better.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2011

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    Unexpected Revelation

    I was emailing a close friend tonight and I was trying to share how I was feeling and I made the statement that I feel each day like a piece of me is dying. I had to stop typing cause I broke down in tears for about 10 minutes. I sat back down to continue my thoughts and found...
    msgemini71 msgemini71 41-45 May 21, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    My issues began long before I was even born. Digging up my history is getting me nowhere but I can not move on because I'm always so incredibly fearful of consequences. Selling...
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    But i want to spent the weekend with my bf and he is going. Im also invited but i barely know anyone. The thing is its one of those kind of partys where the boys hang out with the...
    miflor miflor 18-21, F Aug 22

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    My husband Johnny and I have been together for 2 years, married for a year and a half. We met through his older brother 2 1/2 years ago and started talking as friends. Neither one...
    ashleymarcia ashleymarcia 22-25, F Aug 28

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    My boyfriends mom died about a week ago. We live together and thI go have been stressful since her passing. I didn't know her very well but I feel like her spirit is irritated at...
    KaitlynnW KaitlynnW 18-21, F Aug 22

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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 2 days ago

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    Well, honestly... Heaven is my home. I belong there with my family, my God, my savior and my angel, but God sent me down here just as he does all of us so that I can do his will to...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 19 hrs ago

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    Sweet Dreams? Sarahbella’s story about her bad dreams (http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Feel-Like-My-Dreams-Are-Telling-Me-Something/4781103#reply_5943032) got me...
    bethturner bethturner 26-30, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    If I didn't have any children of my own, I would just drop everything and just leave. Leave my family, friends and just never look back. I'm in a bad place right now and it seems...
    NightMagic367 NightMagic367 36-40, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm the guy everyone knows and I'm likable but I feel like a loner and not popular, it's weird
    doubletimeit doubletimeit 18-21, M 11 hrs ago

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    Back in 2012 I tried to kill myself and I took a pretty big overdose on some pills. Since then...life hasn't really been the same. I know I'm probably delusional for thinking this...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Sep 5

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I have two rather close friends and sometimes I feel like when I talk to them about how I feel ..they don't understand or want to for that matter especially my one friend in...
    lostinfire lostinfire 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    I posted about a similar problem last night, and like most people the night is a very emotional time for me so I feel the need to post this again but from a slightly different...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M Sep 5

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    I feel like my step-mother hates me as clearly as I feel pain if I poke my own eyes. Its an almost tangible, clear feeling that was at the center of my childhood experience. Now...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M Sep 5

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    I always say I feel like I'm married to someone I hate because I don't particularly like myself and I can't escape myself. It's really hard to be in this position and I hate the...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 21

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    Sometimes i feel like, no matter how many friends i have, a part of me always feels alone
    Lilys3 Lilys3 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Nothing right now can cheer me up. Depression hit me in the chest today. It hurt so damn much, I didn't speak, eat or even participate in today's activities. I lost my friends...
    HayellsDorion HayellsDorion 13-15, F Sep 2

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    Throughout my life I have been with all different kinds of people, but never once felt I was part of the group or that we connected. I just feel like the fly on the wall--that all...
    SoUnderwhelmed SoUnderwhelmed 46-50, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am a very mature and responsible woman with a lovely husband and lovely children. I do what is expected of me, and I do it better than needed. I'm always there for everyone who...
    cheekyhannah cheekyhannah 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Did you ever meet someone and feel a strong connection to them without even really knowing them? Like they just "get" you and you feel like you know them and feel empathy towards...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 10 Responses Aug 21

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    cross country was brutal but shorter today, but my body feels like total crap. my legs feel like cinderblocks when I move them, and i feel bloated all over. At dinner, I felt...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 13-15, F Aug 27

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    I'm just really really disappointed. I told my mom that this woman (I have a story of how I distrusted this adult who happens to be my moms close friend and how she is now bluntly...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F Aug 28

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    okay, im thirteen and in about 5th to 7th grade ive had really bad pimples and right now, their gone but i have black spots. my friends say they make me look cute but i cant help...
    swavvy123 swavvy123 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 31

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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
    Cherrybean84 Cherrybean84 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There you go, I feel like a failure sometimes no matter how hard I try not to quit. My whole life I feel like I been going in circles. Like no matter what I do to try to succeed in...
    MrKool82 MrKool82 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I haven't felt suicidal in so long. The thing is, I know I don't have it super bad. I know people have it worse but for some reason I still don't want to be here. I know my life...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 16-17, F Aug 18

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    Hey guys, my life has been pretty good so far but lately I feel like I don't belong in my country. It started like a few months ago when I went to Thailand for a month with someone...
    msawsome44 msawsome44 22-25, M Aug 20

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    I sometimes hold my breathe when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    killingallparamedics killingallparamedics 16-17, F Aug 20

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    I feel like somethings about to happen, but it doesn't. I feel miserable, despair. I have no reason to (read my last 'experience'), but somethings got to give sometime. Even death...
    LeeHart1 LeeHart1 31-35, F Aug 24

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    I know they don't. Yet sometimes, I get this anxious feeling of being judged and looked down on. At first it was at school, but now it's in my own home too. I'm not that insecure...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I want to feel something.....I feel like I don't mean anything to anyone. Words can be said but actions speaks louder than words....I don't feel important
    Supershoes24 Supershoes24 22-25, M Aug 29

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    Two things I don't understand in life. I don't know why God made me and why He loves me. I've betrayed Him so many times. Two things I know in life. He made me and bought me back...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    No matter who it is I can never make a significant connection with them. My father, and mother both care for me I can tell, and I respect them but to be perfectly honest I feel as...
    aimlessglitch aimlessglitch 18-21, M Sep 2

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    I just started in a new school today. The kids there are really nice. I just started in 8th grade, but I don't feel like I belong. I haven't grown as much as a lot of the other...
    BlaringBlackout BlaringBlackout 13-15, M Sep 4

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    So here I am. Conversing with strangers on the internet in search for a reason not to blow my brains out. In retrospect, I'm not surprised. I can see the whole sordid chain of...
    Stillnothing Stillnothing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 5