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I Feel Like An Utter Failure Most Of The Time

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    I'm Not Sure If Anyone Can Relate...

    Maybe no one will ever see this, but its my experience so here goes. I feel like a failure. Every minute of every day of every year for the past few years. And it hurts, so, so badly. Let me first tell you how lucky I am. I'm married to someone extraordinary, who gives 100...
    GforGodzilla GforGodzilla 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    Coming Up For Air

    It could take eons to write out my entire tale, but I could try to give an abbreviated version for a reader's sake. For starters, I grew up in a single parent household which was predominantly spent in poverty and on welfare. I had sworn I would never, ever end up the same...
    TheRhoda TheRhoda 26-30, F Apr 15, 2010

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    Most Of The Time Feeling Like An Utter Failure

      My life has felt like an utter failure. I feel I have failed at almost everything I have tried.  It began with my education failing two grades in school. Failing at maintaining  friendships due to moving around a lot as a child and even now as an adult.  ...
    Sara600 Sara600 51-55, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2010

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    She Makes Me Feel Like A Failure

    I don't understand why even when I do better than the normal, all she ever see is the bad or how I could have done even better. Why can't she accept that I did better than I normally do? If I had a low grade in a math class like an E and I being it up to a High C then why am I...
    HazelEyedWolf HazelEyedWolf 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    Fear Of Failure And Failing

    I am in my 40s with no career and no accomplishments. Why? Fear of failure. My husband says that I underestimate myself and scared to try something different. Maybe so. As a child, I don't think I ever had a goal to strive for. I just floated through life. I went to college but...
    WALKINGWOUNDED WALKINGWOUNDED 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    Educational Washout

    In my search to further my education im haunted by my poor performance during my undergraduate year. Everywhere I look i'm reminded that I could have done better. Friends moving out and getting 'real jobs', having the ability to support yourself and even getting in schools with...
    sweetscorpion87 sweetscorpion87 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I've done a lot of things to please everyone around me especially my parents. Heck, i could even jump a cliff for them if I have to. However, it seems to be never enough especially...
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    wingsoffreedom wingsoffreedom 16-17, F Feb 21

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    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    DyingLightx DyingLightx 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    autismalanimal autismalanimal 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    LivingGreen LivingGreen 18-21, F Feb 18

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    I just got out of a psychiatric hospital for my depression and anxiety. The only thing that has changed since getting out unfortunately is my dreaming. Before I went the the...
    ZacharyAaron ZacharyAaron 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I was not always fat but the order I got I kept gaining weight. It didn't become a problem until high school, and I would say I still looked okay but I have gained twenty more...
    fatgirl95 fatgirl95 18-21, F Feb 18

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    I annoy people when I correct them. I know that much ,but I have this weird self esteem issue where I just feel like I'm annoying everyone constantly. They say it's not true ,but I...
    onecutebubbles0729 onecutebubbles0729 22-25, F Feb 15

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    My mom mostly makes me feel this way. I'm getting a lot of pressure to plan for the future; this is my first year as a college student and I'm very confused on what I want to do...
    Raewyn95 Raewyn95 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Does anyone believe in fate or signs? I don't 100% but that's because it feels like people are thrown in my face and then I never see or talk to them again. For the past year or so...
    KCCO93 KCCO93 18-21, M Feb 16

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    I was a fool to believe in love (fell twice almost a third time), the closest thing to love is love from a mother I don't believe in that dumb feeling anymore. I feel like me being...
    kareemfa kareemfa 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    Until I was 10 I had live-in nannies. Most of them were wonderful, but I feel like I missed out on a lot because I was rarely around my parents.. They kept me busy with more sports...
    KenziY KenziY 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I don't know if anyone else can relate to this. I find I can allow myself to care about someome in the moment if I want to but I can just as easily switch that off and hurt them in...
    taliaroger taliaroger 18-21, F Feb 21

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    I battled depression. And I got over it by myself. No doctors, no friends, no parents. Diagnosed in 2013 knowing I had been suffering it for years, and today... in 2015 I can...
    nataliafacheux nataliafacheux 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    no one loves me. my family would leave me to fend for myself if I didn't remind them I was with them. I feel alone. my friends talk behind my back and don't care for me anymore. I...
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    This feeling I have deep inside, Is a feeling that I cannot describe. From the pit in my belly, To the ache in my heart, Nothing can make me realize that we are really apart Crying...
    ckjackson43 ckjackson43 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Maybe I'm weird or stupid. but I just don't feel like this world is worth living anymore. I mean consumerism and materialism and our search for wealth has destroyed whatever human...
    fazeelahmed fazeelahmed 22-25, M Feb 11

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    I can't describe it. it just happens sometimes out of nowhere when I'm home or out or anywhere really. it happens when I over thinking about something. seeing people. hearing...
    Zineq Zineq 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    HottRoddTX HottRoddTX 26-30, M Feb 23

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    My parents are constantly critical. They'll call me spoilt/princess/sensitive/negative/etc. Whenever I try to express how they upset me they just tell me I have "no sense of humour...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F Feb 23

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    TheLeeko213 TheLeeko213 18-21, M Feb 25

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    theloveofmylife2 theloveofmylife2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26

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