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I Feel Like Deleting My Ep Account Because This Is Too Painful

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    Delete Me Because I Am The Villain

    I should delete myself...never to be remembered...I was never here and today never happened. Is this best....? I want to do whatever it takes to protect my friends....from me.  I thought that I was good, but now I know that I'm dangerous. I should be locked away, isolated...
    AbandonedArchangel AbandonedArchangel 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 14, 2010

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