I Feel Like Dying a Lot of the Time

So I don't think I'll actually bring myself to attempt it anymore. But believe me when I say, I want to cease to exist. I cry all the time. I self medicate with illegal drugs, perscription pain killers, and benzos. I am an addict. I'm...

I'm planning to commit suicide. I feel there is nothing else I can do. I have many pills. Strong pain killers like hydrocodone. I will take these and die. I have daydreamed of doing this since 4th grade and now I am going to do it and...

I'm not saying I'm suicidal.
But if there was a car coming at me I wouldn't get out of the way. And no one would miss me...
I think about ways to die and I want to. I just can't bring my self to do it.
I wanna leave.

When will my time finally come? I have been trying for years now and for some reason, there is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me "not too deep" or "not too much". A couple of years ago, my depression...

Theres a lot in this brain but heres how i feel:

Same old nights, same old story, re-told a thousand times over again by the countless people who have realized (again) that their current situation was displeasing.
Theres always a...

So, I feel like dying a lot of the time, but not in the sense of "Oh my god, I'm going to kill myself." It's more of a foreboding feeling that I'm not meant to be here in this world for very long. There's nothing wrong with my health...

It feels like a long time since ive felt like dying.. a few years maybe. Somehow the feeling has come creeping back. Now its something that i think and feel all the time, even when im happy. Sometimes, i feel so happy that i just want...

I was told that the constant thought of dying is just a way to protect myself. the thought of dying gives me some relief of something better so I can continue dealing. I have tried to commit suicide and its not somthing I want to...

whats next? tell me, please.
i sware...i just cant take this. this pain i feel. i want it to go away. im sick of life. im sick of myself. its freaking 5am and i cant go back to sleep because i cant stop thinking. my mind is rushing...

As sad as it may be I get happy and feel comfort at the thought of death! I'm not scared of it or have any fear of death In any way. I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of it I can feel depressed but as soon as it crosses my mind...

I just feel like I'm ruining everything for everyone. My boyfriend is perfect, he knows I've been suicidal in the past. I transferred schools to be with him and now I feel like I'm taking over his life. He hates that he rarely gets to...

there hasn'st been a day, when i could be happy. i cry all the time. especially when i shower so no one can hear me. the reason i've held on is for my daughter, she'll be seventeen in october. i leave with with my boyfriend. we've been...

sometimes i lock myself in my room and cry and anyone never notice it,i don't want to be invisible but i am.I miss someone that i never met,someone that would listen to me in a time like this,hug me and make me laugh,i don't want to...

Almost every night I sit up till 3am wondering. Curious if these could be my final days. Wondering if maybe the Zoloft will help me end it all, but I doubt it. Maybe I could just throw a toaster in my bathtub, like the old movies...

some time i will be ignored by all at that time i feel like dying .....:(

it feels stolen. the breath i take. each step i take feels like im taking a step closer to another problem. every time i pass a mirror im reminded of the horrible person i feel like i am. each time someone looks at me with that look of...

heads up this story is going to be long and also a lot of miss spellings so please forgive me btw im male my first try was when i was 12 the reason why is cuz i was raped by my mothers female friend before i moved back south i was...