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I Feel Like Dying a Lot of the Time

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    Try Try And Try Again.......

    heads up this story is going to be long and also a lot of miss spellings so please forgive me btw im male my first try was when i was 12 the reason why is cuz i was raped by my mothers female friend before i moved back south i was sitting in my bead listen to a cd a friend...
    shadowxangel shadowxangel 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    Train

    Today while waiting for a train 2 meet the duchess in town for a split second i considered jumping in front of a train i get like it every so often
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 9, 2013

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    Again

    It feels like a long time since ive felt like dying.. a few years maybe. Somehow the feeling has come creeping back. Now its something that i think and feel all the time, even when im happy. Sometimes, i feel so happy that i just want to die, sometimes i feel so sad that i want...
    kittymeoww kittymeoww 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2012

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    I Don't Know How To Feel Anymore

    I'm scared. My sister says I'm the one that's suppose to be the normal one in the family. Every since two years ago when he touched me and I felt like no one ever believed me because I didn't scream, I feel like no one will ever believe me. I've cried so much and no one will ever...
    ialwayscareforothersbutmyself ialwayscareforothersbutmyself 18-21, F Oct 27, 2013

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    The Man On The Side Of The Road

    This email is written in sorrow and tears as I again plead for the very lives of hurting people everywhere. I had the misfortune a few minutes ago of viewing the body of a probable murder victim; I say probably because the gentleman's body was wrapped in a tarp except for the...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    Maybe I'm weird or stupid.

    but I just don't feel like this world is worth living anymore. I mean consumerism and materialism and our search for wealth has destroyed whatever human-like remained of us. all the simpler joys in life are there no more. we are to put real effort to chase pseudo dreams to...
    fazeelahmed fazeelahmed 22-25, M Feb 11

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    Dying

    I hate it when i feel like dying,it makes me feel like i fail in life.But how can i tolerate all these unnecessary pressure in life.I love my family but they're always breaking my heart.I love my friends but they don't know how i feel.i always think that telling my feelings and...
    100suns 100suns 13-15 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    In My Times Of Dying

    it started last year when I was fifthteen. I thought I met that special girl but everyone knows what happened if you read the story. Anyways after the many complications during the 5 weeks of talking to her I finally knew I was changing mentally. I thought differently and was...
    zosozeppelin95 zosozeppelin95 18-21, M 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    It Can Be An Obsession

    I was told that the constant thought of dying is just a way to protect myself. the thought of dying gives me some relief of something better so I can continue dealing. I have tried to commit suicide and its not somthing I want to revisit but It was an amazing feeling knowing...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 22, 2009

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    I know there are a lot of people

    who feel this way and it seems to be getting worse as the years go on. It's not that I don't want to live because I do. I want to live more than anyone has ever lived before. It's just sometimes I feel alone, like there is some reason that I can't be loved. I'm just too...
    kpax81 kpax81 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

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    I have no idea what I'm ever doing,

    I pray every night that it will be my last. I've been on a downspiral since the love of my life decided it would be better if we werent together. i thought i'd be fine, but the emotional pain every day is slowley killing me. I don't know what to do I feel like i've lost half of...
    greenangel609 greenangel609 22-25, F Dec 7, 2013

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    What Will It Take?

     I know that my body does things that I can't control to protect myself but is this one of them? How can I be sure of anything? When I could know that this is just my body protecting me? It's so confusing I just want death even more..
    lovers4life lovers4life 13-15, F May 23, 2009

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    Im Trying To Make An Impact, That Will Change The World.

    Theres a lot in this brain but heres how i feel: Same old nights, same old story, re-told a thousand times over again by the countless people who have realized (again) that their current situation was displeasing. Theres always a point when either they "man-up" or find a good...
    jeffafa0516 jeffafa0516 18-21, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Im Spinning Out Of Controll

    whats next? tell me, please. i sware...i just cant take this. this pain i feel. i want it to go away. im sick of life. im sick of myself. its freaking 5am and i cant go back to sleep because i cant stop thinking. my mind is rushing everywhere. how did i loose myself??? and why...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2009

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    :(

    some time i will be ignored by all at that time i feel like dying .....:(
    pratvi pratvi 18-21 Nov 21, 2012

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    Wish to Go to Sleep and Never Wake Up...

    there hasn'st been a day, when i could be happy. i cry all the time. especially when i shower so no one can hear me. the reason i've held on is for my daughter, she'll be seventeen in october. i leave with with my boyfriend. we've been together for nine years. he's two sons live...
    mtpi mtpi 46-50, F 11 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    Not Feel At All

    Almost every night I sit up till 3am wondering. Curious if these could be my final days. Wondering if maybe the Zoloft will help me end it all, but I doubt it. Maybe I could just throw a toaster in my bathtub, like the old movies. Simple yet painful. Takes me back to "The...
    ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    I Don'T Know What To Do Or Where To Go Anymore

    I just feel like I'm ruining everything for everyone. My boyfriend is perfect, he knows I've been suicidal in the past. I transferred schools to be with him and now I feel like I'm taking over his life. He hates that he rarely gets to hang out with guy friends or his brother. I'm...
    hopelessanddesperate hopelessanddesperate 18-21, F Feb 24, 2013

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    I Plan My Death Next Friday Night

    I'm planning to commit suicide. I feel there is nothing else I can do. I have many pills. Strong pain killers like hydrocodone. I will take these and die. I have daydreamed of doing this since 4th grade and now I am going to do it and end it all. Why put up with the melancholy...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    I Don'T Know

    I'm not saying I'm suicidal. But if there was a car coming at me I wouldn't get out of the way. And no one would miss me... I think about ways to die and I want to. I just can't bring my self to do it. I wanna leave.
    Jassisamra96 Jassisamra96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21, 2013

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    I Hate My Life...Why Live?

    I just want it all to end...the pain and the hurt...I feel like a burden...
    BloodyTale BloodyTale 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    My Comfort Zone

    As sad as it may be I get happy and feel comfort at the thought of death! I'm not scared of it or have any fear of death In any way. I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of it I can feel depressed but as soon as it crosses my mind I feel at ease I feel relief! But it hits...
    xHurley xHurley 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    They Say Suicides Go To Hell

    So I don't think I'll actually bring myself to attempt it anymore. But believe me when I say, I want to cease to exist. I cry all the time. I self medicate with illegal drugs, perscription pain killers, and benzos. I am an addict. I'm just trying to numb away my pain. My physical...
    waiting4accident waiting4accident 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Each Breath

    it feels stolen. the breath i take. each step i take feels like im taking a step closer to another problem. every time i pass a mirror im reminded of the horrible person i feel like i am. each time someone looks at me with that look of disgust i want to vanish. every time im...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Nov 5, 2011

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    When It's Dark Out

    I can't really blame my depression or my family or friends. Hell, even my therapist. I can't blame it on his best friend's wandering hands and eyes. I can't blame it on RM who went to far months after my thirteenth birthday. I can't blame it on all the times you did it afterward...
    breezeblocks breezeblocks 22-25, F Sep 30, 2013

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    I Am Ready

    I have to say, i am suicidal. For the first time i am really done living on this stupid earth. I have attempted suicide before, but this time it will be different, it will be permanent, and i will make sure of it. Im not sure when i am going to commit, but i know it will be soon...
    apml apml 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    From Dying To Dancing

    "The trials in our life can either make us bitter or better. Affliction can either draw us closer to the heart of God or drive us further from Him; it all depends on our view of God." -Mark A. FinleyFor many years I was very bitter towards God because I felt alone and abandoned...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F Feb 24, 2012

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    Only When I Am Hungover

    I swear to god I have thought I was dying when I've been hungover a few times hahaha =P
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2011

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    Why Won't Death Come to Me Already?

    When will my time finally come? I have been trying for years now and for some reason, there is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me "not too deep" or "not too much". A couple of years ago, my depression got so bad where the suicidal part of me came...
    ajtsai ajtsai 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    But whenever I feel like I do, I treat it as a foreign feeling - I dismiss it. It's crazy how this goes; we get used to feeling a certain way or something, that when we get it the...
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I feel like it's my fault. I was on accident, if I wasn't born everyone would be so happy. I don't let on that anything is wrong, I just keep it to myself. I don't say anything and...
    demonart demonart 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 14

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    I was a fool to believe in love (fell twice almost a third time), the closest thing to love is love from a mother I don't believe in that dumb feeling anymore. I feel like me being...
    kareemfa kareemfa 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    I don't know if anyone else can relate to this. I find I can allow myself to care about someome in the moment if I want to but I can just as easily switch that off and hurt them in...
    taliaroger taliaroger 18-21, F Feb 21

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    Very recently, I'd say in the last 5 weeks my wife Krista and I seem to be growing distant, our love life still sizzles in bed when it happens but at times I feel like she's going...
    wetsec wetsec 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    I feel this allot, not only in school but at home as well. I've moved so many times, and at every new school I'll be the quiet person in the back. I'll make a small group of...
    quietgirl117 quietgirl117 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Does anyone believe in fate or signs? I don't 100% but that's because it feels like people are thrown in my face and then I never see or talk to them again. For the past year or so...
    KCCO93 KCCO93 18-21, M Feb 16

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    None of them ever have time for me anymore. I always have to ask them to hang out they rarely ask me to hang out ( I believe only 1 maybe 2 times last year my friends asked me to...
    wingsoffreedom wingsoffreedom 16-17, F Feb 21

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    When i didn't have a Dom/Master/Mentor i was missing a major part of myself. i don't deny that i was desperate and made some bad choices. it was because i needed my Dom and i'd yet...
    shimmeringrose shimmeringrose 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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    I legit feel like an intruder every time I go into a room because there are groups and I feel like they stop their conversations specifically because I am there. I feel like my...
    youngandinexperienced youngandinexperienced 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I have Depersonalization disorder for almost a year now.It never stops I dont feel anything, my thoughts are racing In my had and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in a...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    I feel like a trapped animal. I hate the city. It is like an artificial desert. They take away the water and the trees and grasses and shrubs and replace it with something that has...
    autismalanimal autismalanimal 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I have had this job for almost seven months. It has its crazy moments, but I love the pace of it and my coworkers. I am only 26 and speak two languages besides English (German and...
    mjahncke12289 mjahncke12289 26-30, M Feb 14

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    So just wanna share something's that I have been thinking about lately. At this point of my life, what I have figured out is that its not as difficult as I thought its gonna be to...
    apersonlikeme apersonlikeme 18-21, M Feb 15

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    no one loves me. my family would leave me to fend for myself if I didn't remind them I was with them. I feel alone. my friends talk behind my back and don't care for me anymore. I...
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I can't describe it. it just happens sometimes out of nowhere when I'm home or out or anywhere really. it happens when I over thinking about something. seeing people. hearing...
    Zineq Zineq 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12