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I Feel Like Dying a Lot of the Time

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    I Hate My Life...Why Live?

    I just want it all to end...the pain and the hurt...I feel like a burden...
    BloodyTale BloodyTale 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    In My Times Of Dying

    it started last year when I was fifthteen. I thought I met that special girl but everyone knows what happened if you read the story. Anyways after the many complications during the 5 weeks of talking to her I finally knew I was changing mentally. I thought differently and was...
    zosozeppelin95 zosozeppelin95 18-21, M 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Wish to Go to Sleep and Never Wake Up...

    there hasn'st been a day, when i could be happy. i cry all the time. especially when i shower so no one can hear me. the reason i've held on is for my daughter, she'll be seventeen in october. i leave with with my boyfriend. we've been together for nine years. he's two sons live...
    mtpi mtpi 46-50, F 11 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    When It's Dark Out

    I can't really blame my depression or my family or friends. Hell, even my therapist. I can't blame it on his best friend's wandering hands and eyes. I can't blame it on RM who went to far months after my thirteenth birthday. I can't blame it on all the times you did it afterward...
    breezeblocks breezeblocks 18-21, F Sep 30, 2013

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    :(

    some time i will be ignored by all at that time i feel like dying .....:(
    pratvi pratvi 18-21 Nov 21, 2012

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    Not Feel At All

    Almost every night I sit up till 3am wondering. Curious if these could be my final days. Wondering if maybe the Zoloft will help me end it all, but I doubt it. Maybe I could just throw a toaster in my bathtub, like the old movies. Simple yet painful. Takes me back to "The...
    ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    It Can Be An Obsession

    I was told that the constant thought of dying is just a way to protect myself. the thought of dying gives me some relief of something better so I can continue dealing. I have tried to commit suicide and its not somthing I want to revisit but It was an amazing feeling knowing...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 22, 2009

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    Im Spinning Out Of Controll

    whats next? tell me, please. i sware...i just cant take this. this pain i feel. i want it to go away. im sick of life. im sick of myself. its freaking 5am and i cant go back to sleep because i cant stop thinking. my mind is rushing everywhere. how did i loose myself??? and why...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2009

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    I Don'T Know

    I'm not saying I'm suicidal. But if there was a car coming at me I wouldn't get out of the way. And no one would miss me... I think about ways to die and I want to. I just can't bring my self to do it. I wanna leave.
    Jassisamra96 Jassisamra96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21, 2013

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    Why Won't Death Come to Me Already?

    When will my time finally come? I have been trying for years now and for some reason, there is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me "not too deep" or "not too much". A couple of years ago, my depression got so bad where the suicidal part of me came...
    ajtsai ajtsai 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Im Trying To Make An Impact, That Will Change The World.

    Theres a lot in this brain but heres how i feel: Same old nights, same old story, re-told a thousand times over again by the countless people who have realized (again) that their current situation was displeasing. Theres always a point when either they "man-up" or find a good...
    jeffafa0516 jeffafa0516 18-21, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Try Try And Try Again.......

    heads up this story is going to be long and also a lot of miss spellings so please forgive me btw im male my first try was when i was 12 the reason why is cuz i was raped by my mothers female friend before i moved back south i was sitting in my bead listen to a cd a friend...
    shadowxangel shadowxangel 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    I have no idea what I'm ever doing,

    I pray every night that it will be my last. I've been on a downspiral since the love of my life decided it would be better if we werent together. i thought i'd be fine, but the emotional pain every day is slowley killing me. I don't know what to do I feel like i've lost half of...
    greenangel609 greenangel609 22-25, F Dec 7, 2013

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    Dying

    I hate it when i feel like dying,it makes me feel like i fail in life.But how can i tolerate all these unnecessary pressure in life.I love my family but they're always breaking my heart.I love my friends but they don't know how i feel.i always think that telling my feelings and...
    100suns 100suns 13-15 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    Train

    Today while waiting for a train 2 meet the duchess in town for a split second i considered jumping in front of a train i get like it every so often
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 9, 2013

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    I Am Ready

    I have to say, i am suicidal. For the first time i am really done living on this stupid earth. I have attempted suicide before, but this time it will be different, it will be permanent, and i will make sure of it. Im not sure when i am going to commit, but i know it will be soon...
    apml apml 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Only When I Am Hungover

    I swear to god I have thought I was dying when I've been hungover a few times hahaha =P
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2011

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    What Will It Take?

     I know that my body does things that I can't control to protect myself but is this one of them? How can I be sure of anything? When I could know that this is just my body protecting me? It's so confusing I just want death even more..
    lovers4life lovers4life 13-15, F May 23, 2009

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    I Plan My Death Next Friday Night

    I'm planning to commit suicide. I feel there is nothing else I can do. I have many pills. Strong pain killers like hydrocodone. I will take these and die. I have daydreamed of doing this since 4th grade and now I am going to do it and end it all. Why put up with the melancholy...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    My Comfort Zone

    As sad as it may be I get happy and feel comfort at the thought of death! I'm not scared of it or have any fear of death In any way. I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of it I can feel depressed but as soon as it crosses my mind I feel at ease I feel relief! But it hits...
    xHurley xHurley 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Again

    It feels like a long time since ive felt like dying.. a few years maybe. Somehow the feeling has come creeping back. Now its something that i think and feel all the time, even when im happy. Sometimes, i feel so happy that i just want to die, sometimes i feel so sad that i want...
    kittymeoww kittymeoww 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2012

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    Each Breath

    it feels stolen. the breath i take. each step i take feels like im taking a step closer to another problem. every time i pass a mirror im reminded of the horrible person i feel like i am. each time someone looks at me with that look of disgust i want to vanish. every time im...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Nov 5, 2011

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    I Don't Know How To Feel Anymore

    I'm scared. My sister says I'm the one that's suppose to be the normal one in the family. Every since two years ago when he touched me and I felt like no one ever believed me because I didn't scream, I feel like no one will ever believe me. I've cried so much and no one will ever...
    ialwayscareforothersbutmyself ialwayscareforothersbutmyself 18-21, F Oct 27, 2013

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    I Don'T Know What To Do Or Where To Go Anymore

    I just feel like I'm ruining everything for everyone. My boyfriend is perfect, he knows I've been suicidal in the past. I transferred schools to be with him and now I feel like I'm taking over his life. He hates that he rarely gets to hang out with guy friends or his brother. I'm...
    hopelessanddesperate hopelessanddesperate 18-21, F Feb 24, 2013

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    They Say Suicides Go To Hell

    So I don't think I'll actually bring myself to attempt it anymore. But believe me when I say, I want to cease to exist. I cry all the time. I self medicate with illegal drugs, perscription pain killers, and benzos. I am an addict. I'm just trying to numb away my pain. My physical...
    waiting4accident waiting4accident 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    The Man On The Side Of The Road

    This email is written in sorrow and tears as I again plead for the very lives of hurting people everywhere. I had the misfortune a few minutes ago of viewing the body of a probable murder victim; I say probably because the gentleman's body was wrapped in a tarp except for the...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    From Dying To Dancing

    "The trials in our life can either make us bitter or better. Affliction can either draw us closer to the heart of God or drive us further from Him; it all depends on our view of God." -Mark A. FinleyFor many years I was very bitter towards God because I felt alone and abandoned...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F Feb 24, 2012

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    I know there are a lot of people

    who feel this way and it seems to be getting worse as the years go on. It's not that I don't want to live because I do. I want to live more than anyone has ever lived before. It's just sometimes I feel alone, like there is some reason that I can't be loved. I'm just too...
    kpax81 kpax81 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    It's this kind of sadness that is starting to consume me whole. I've tried fighting it off on my own for as long as possible, but I'm getting tired. I'm just miserable all the time...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My 3 year old daughters life was taken.. I will never..ever.. be the same again...... My heart? Shattered to pieces. It will never mend...I will never feel happy because shes gone...
    Sierra1993 Sierra1993 18-21, F 11 Responses Jan 9

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    when we go wrong people point at us and say "its your life, you had the right to take a decision you have the full ownership", but when we try to make things right they say "you...
    lovlybear lovlybear 22-25, F Jan 17

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    I feel like dying. I wish my mommy was here. I've never felt so suicidal in my life.
    Jaielll Jaielll 18-21, F Jan 8

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    This group name made me laugh a bit when I saw it. Not because people's stories and everything. But because it's true. Since the day we were born we started dying. So yes, everyday...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I Feel like no body is there when I need them or they dont want to listen to me even though I listen to them. I dont know anymore. I want to meet someone who practically lives...
    cat1024 cat1024 18-21, M 16 hrs ago

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    I am going to turn 30 in couple of days. There is not much enthusiasm. I don't know why I get sad on my birthday. Even if I try to be very cheerful for my well wishers, I can't...
    FallenAngelStar FallenAngelStar 26-30, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Im only one girl but I feel like inside me there are more. I still have no idea who I am. I'm scared. I get weird thoughts when I breakdown. I never had anxiety before but when my...
    JaineDoh JaineDoh 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    most days bring new challenging experiences in to my life. it is a struggle to face the world everyday feeling like a failure. it is even harder when folks look up to you are a...
    tsnuggles tsnuggles 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    I swear I don't know how loud I have to scream for anyone to care enough to console me in my pain. Why do I have to explain myself over and over?! And they still don't understand...
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    I met him when I was 19. We got married when I was 20. We've been married a little over a year and already I can see my husband loving me less and less. I was born and raised in...
    marriedyoungandconfused marriedyoungandconfused 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    The hidden secret of life I mean. I myself don’t know what I mean. I have a huge trusting problem. The problem is not that I don’t trust anyone but that I trust EVERYONE. I...
    avnn avnn 16-17, F Jan 21

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    So here I am in this situation. I'm a bit all over the place right now. Like I feel like screaming and crying and laughing at the same time but hopefully this too shall pass. I try...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Hello everyone. Up until this point (for several years) I have decided to stay silent and observe posts similar to this one. Now, here on this website, on thos particular group it...
    Abufihamat Abufihamat 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    You know, there has to be a reason behind all this low self esteem. Oh yeah, I was raised this way. Not just by my household but also by society and culture. I have a hard time...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I am turning 41 years old in 2 weeks and when I look back at my life I keeping asking myself the same question over and over. I do not know why I was born or brought into this...
    ShyGuyInFL ShyGuyInFL 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I knew I was different. I feel like I have been living a lie for a long time now. My family told me when I was born my eye color was black and I mewed like a cat. No crying just...
    caydiabla caydiabla 18-21, F Jan 14

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    It feels like ****. The brighter side, though, is that it could've hurt more if he had felt the same, we'd been together, and then something bad and super dramatic happened...
    TiraVara TiraVara 22-25, F a week ago

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    It feels like this is all my life will ever amount to. Just feeling sad for no reason, feeling completely lost and alone all the time... I wish I had my friend here right now, but...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M