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I Feel Like Dying a Lot of the Time

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    What Will It Take?

     I know that my body does things that I can't control to protect myself but is this one of them? How can I be sure of anything? When I could know that this is just my body protecting me? It's so confusing I just want death even more..
    lovers4life lovers4life 13-15, F May 23, 2009

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    I Don'T Know What To Do Or Where To Go Anymore

    I just feel like I'm ruining everything for everyone. My boyfriend is perfect, he knows I've been suicidal in the past. I transferred schools to be with him and now I feel like I'm taking over his life. He hates that he rarely gets to hang out with guy friends or his brother. I'm...
    hopelessanddesperate hopelessanddesperate 18-21, F Feb 24, 2013

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    Im Trying To Make An Impact, That Will Change The World.

    Theres a lot in this brain but heres how i feel: Same old nights, same old story, re-told a thousand times over again by the countless people who have realized (again) that their current situation was displeasing. Theres always a point when either they "man-up" or find a good...
    jeffafa0516 jeffafa0516 18-21, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Only When I Am Hungover

    I swear to god I have thought I was dying when I've been hungover a few times hahaha =P
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2011

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    Why Won't Death Come to Me Already?

    When will my time finally come? I have been trying for years now and for some reason, there is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me "not too deep" or "not too much". A couple of years ago, my depression got so bad where the suicidal part of me came...
    ajtsai ajtsai 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    From Dying To Dancing

    "The trials in our life can either make us bitter or better. Affliction can either draw us closer to the heart of God or drive us further from Him; it all depends on our view of God." -Mark A. FinleyFor many years I was very bitter towards God because I felt alone and abandoned...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F Feb 24, 2012

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    In My Times Of Dying

    it started last year when I was fifthteen. I thought I met that special girl but everyone knows what happened if you read the story. Anyways after the many complications during the 5 weeks of talking to her I finally knew I was changing mentally. I thought differently and was...
    zosozeppelin95 zosozeppelin95 18-21, M 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    I have no idea what I'm ever doing,

    I pray every night that it will be my last. I've been on a downspiral since the love of my life decided it would be better if we werent together. i thought i'd be fine, but the emotional pain every day is slowley killing me. I don't know what to do I feel like i've lost half of...
    greenangel609 greenangel609 18-21, F Dec 7, 2013

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    My Comfort Zone

    As sad as it may be I get happy and feel comfort at the thought of death! I'm not scared of it or have any fear of death In any way. I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of it I can feel depressed but as soon as it crosses my mind I feel at ease I feel relief! But it hits...
    xHurley xHurley 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Dying

    I hate it when i feel like dying,it makes me feel like i fail in life.But how can i tolerate all these unnecessary pressure in life.I love my family but they're always breaking my heart.I love my friends but they don't know how i feel.i always think that telling my feelings and...
    100suns 100suns 13-15 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    I know there are a lot of people

    who feel this way and it seems to be getting worse as the years go on. It's not that I don't want to live because I do. I want to live more than anyone has ever lived before. It's just sometimes I feel alone, like there is some reason that I can't be loved. I'm just too...
    kpax81 kpax81 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Each Breath

    it feels stolen. the breath i take. each step i take feels like im taking a step closer to another problem. every time i pass a mirror im reminded of the horrible person i feel like i am. each time someone looks at me with that look of disgust i want to vanish. every time im...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 16-17, F Nov 5, 2011

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    Try Try And Try Again.......

    heads up this story is going to be long and also a lot of miss spellings so please forgive me btw im male my first try was when i was 12 the reason why is cuz i was raped by my mothers female friend before i moved back south i was sitting in my bead listen to a cd a friend...
    shadowxangel shadowxangel 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    Wish to Go to Sleep and Never Wake Up...

    there hasn'st been a day, when i could be happy. i cry all the time. especially when i shower so no one can hear me. the reason i've held on is for my daughter, she'll be seventeen in october. i leave with with my boyfriend. we've been together for nine years. he's two sons live...
    mtpi mtpi 46-50, F 11 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    I Hate My Life...Why Live?

    I just want it all to end...the pain and the hurt...I feel like a burden...
    BloodyTale BloodyTale 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    I Plan My Death Next Friday Night

    I'm planning to commit suicide. I feel there is nothing else I can do. I have many pills. Strong pain killers like hydrocodone. I will take these and die. I have daydreamed of doing this since 4th grade and now I am going to do it and end it all. Why put up with the melancholy...
    elivasquez elivasquez 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    I Am Ready

    I have to say, i am suicidal. For the first time i am really done living on this stupid earth. I have attempted suicide before, but this time it will be different, it will be permanent, and i will make sure of it. Im not sure when i am going to commit, but i know it will be soon...
    apml apml 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    I Don'T Know

    I'm not saying I'm suicidal. But if there was a car coming at me I wouldn't get out of the way. And no one would miss me... I think about ways to die and I want to. I just can't bring my self to do it. I wanna leave.
    Jassisamra96 Jassisamra96 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21, 2013

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    Train

    Today while waiting for a train 2 meet the duchess in town for a split second i considered jumping in front of a train i get like it every so often
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 9, 2013

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    The Man On The Side Of The Road

    This email is written in sorrow and tears as I again plead for the very lives of hurting people everywhere. I had the misfortune a few minutes ago of viewing the body of a probable murder victim; I say probably because the gentleman's body was wrapped in a tarp except for the...
    girl4god girl4god 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    It Can Be An Obsession

    I was told that the constant thought of dying is just a way to protect myself. the thought of dying gives me some relief of something better so I can continue dealing. I have tried to commit suicide and its not somthing I want to revisit but It was an amazing feeling knowing...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 22, 2009

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    Im Spinning Out Of Controll

    whats next? tell me, please. i sware...i just cant take this. this pain i feel. i want it to go away. im sick of life. im sick of myself. its freaking 5am and i cant go back to sleep because i cant stop thinking. my mind is rushing everywhere. how did i loose myself??? and why...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F Oct 16, 2009

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    :(

    some time i will be ignored by all at that time i feel like dying .....:(
    pratvi pratvi 18-21 Nov 21, 2012

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    When It's Dark Out

    I can't really blame my depression or my family or friends. Hell, even my therapist. I can't blame it on his best friend's wandering hands and eyes. I can't blame it on RM who went to far months after my thirteenth birthday. I can't blame it on all the times you did it afterward...
    breezeblocks breezeblocks 18-21, F Sep 30, 2013

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    I Don't Know How To Feel Anymore

    I'm scared. My sister says I'm the one that's suppose to be the normal one in the family. Every since two years ago when he touched me and I felt like no one ever believed me because I didn't scream, I feel like no one will ever believe me. I've cried so much and no one will ever...
    ialwayscareforothersbutmyself ialwayscareforothersbutmyself 18-21, F Oct 27, 2013

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    They Say Suicides Go To Hell

    So I don't think I'll actually bring myself to attempt it anymore. But believe me when I say, I want to cease to exist. I cry all the time. I self medicate with illegal drugs, perscription pain killers, and benzos. I am an addict. I'm just trying to numb away my pain. My physical...
    waiting4accident waiting4accident 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Not Feel At All

    Almost every night I sit up till 3am wondering. Curious if these could be my final days. Wondering if maybe the Zoloft will help me end it all, but I doubt it. Maybe I could just throw a toaster in my bathtub, like the old movies. Simple yet painful. Takes me back to "The...
    ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Again

    It feels like a long time since ive felt like dying.. a few years maybe. Somehow the feeling has come creeping back. Now its something that i think and feel all the time, even when im happy. Sometimes, i feel so happy that i just want to die, sometimes i feel so sad that i want...
    kittymeoww kittymeoww 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2012

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    .....................................I just do don't judge me
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    i literally jut wrote a 7 page letter to my mom on why she should let me dye my hair blue .~.
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    the way my life has been. i want to die. im tired of living this saddistic life i was cursed to have.
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    I always feel like every time I do or say something it's weird or wrong but if someone else does the exact same thing it's perfectly fine. And every time I try to defend myself I...
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    I haven't been diagnosed with anything yet but I'm pretty sure I have an anxiety disorder. I've been anxious for months now and panic attacks with it. I feel like Im slowly dying...
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    I get depressed a lot, and I've learned to just accept the fact that I'm going to be depressed. It still takes it's toll on me, though, and it can get quite painful. It started as...
    Tsalokath Tsalokath 18-21, F Jul 26

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    I never thought I would turn out to be like this when I was younger. Incompetent, inadequate, lost soul. I'm not anywhere close to the life stage points I should be. I feel like I...
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    I don't know why everything goes wrong!!! In the beginning of this year my math teacher was the best he was teaching us perfectly, waiting in the class at lunch time If any student...
    nona000 nona000 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    not my fault just feel like I am forget feel I know I am especially when someone u love says something u never though they would
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Sometimes i feel like, no matter how many friends i have, a part of me always feels alone
    Lilys3 Lilys3 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I don't feel like it, i know it. But they know me an have to deal with it so haha i know you love me so suck it up and be a goofball!
    Dsrutherford Dsrutherford 16-17, M 11 hrs ago

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    My mom keeps comparing me to my sister and I feel like she hates me cause it's never Atisa you should try what your sister did no it's always Amista your sisters Grades are so good...
    dancerwithheart dancerwithheart 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    i am so weird sometimes. i get so lonely but instead of seeking out companionship, what do i do? i push everyone away. i go hide. i drowned out the world with my music cranked up...
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    I just turned one when my parents divorced so it wasn't hard for me to get over that since I don't remember when my parents even were together. A few years later my dad met my step...
    ahk16 ahk16 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    ever since my dad got remarried and had another kid, my brother and i have taken the back burner. scratch that, we've been moved out of the kitchen entirely. particularly me bc i...
    kggi kggi 16-17, F Jul 25

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    Sometimes I do...... There will be times I'm playing around with Ana and she suddenly gets all upset by it and begins to cry. I mean I never push it too far or make it annoying...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 25

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    This is the first time I am sharing my story. Exactly as I said before, I feel like I live in Hell. Hell on Earth, that is. Now, let me tell you why. First of all, I have a large...
    Mymin Mymin 13-15, F Jul 27

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    I feel awful saying this but a friend of mine has decided because of various issues to move out of his houseshare early, came to me yesterday and said can you put me up for three...
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    This has to be the worst pain I have ever felt towards the person I call my dad. Just the thought of what he said and what happened brings tears to my face and pain to my heart...
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    I can't make sense of myself in relation to the life around me. I look at people and I feel so very different. There are moments when I know that a certain thought process was...
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