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I Feel Like I Am A Monster Or Becoming One

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    Monster Inside Me.

    I just simply feel like being stuck in a place I hate being, is turning me into a monster, or just really bringing out a side of me that's just been hidden. I'm really frighten. I'm starting to see things and lately have been afraid to look into the mirror's.
    nerdystars nerdystars 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Hate Everlasting Painful Hate

    Monster hate things, right? Well hating somthing doesnt make you a monster but latley I've felt like a monster. I hate without meaning or purpose and the thing I hate or the group I hate is humanity. Humanity as a whole disgusts me, I think every single person should be shot in...
    KillerInBlood KillerInBlood 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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