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I Feel Like I Am A Monster Or Becoming One

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    Monster Inside Me. - I just simply feel like being stuck in a place I hate being, is turning me into a monster, or just really bringing out a side of me that's just been hidden. I...
    nerdystars nerdystars 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Hate Everlasting Painful Hate - Monster hate things, right? Well hating somthing doesnt make you a monster but latley I've felt like a monster. I hate without meaning or purpose...
    KillerInBlood KillerInBlood 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    All of my dreams seem to tell me a story or play out like an episode of a mini-series but these ones I am about to tell you have the most impact. You see...in these main ones...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Apr 8

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    Well...my friends are just living in the different world and they have no idea what it feels like to be me. My family, hmmm I kinda tend to pretend everything is going great...
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    I ****** up my sophomore year, where I basically traded my friends from freshman for popular people, who turned out to be dicks.. I feel like a loser now, because there nobody at...
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    I feel like I could burst. Now that I'm about 407 pounds roughly, whenever I wear tighter clothes (quite often now because of how quick I gain) I feel like I could burst. All this...
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    I am literally struggling to pay bills. I still live at home at the age of 29. I am a nanny that makes pennies. I am single. And I am battling with my weight. So I am just soooo...
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    I feel like no one loves me... Even though I know they love me... If that makes sense? I can recognize them loving me and caring for me... But I don't feel it. I don't know why I...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    I was on the phone with a friend today. We've known for a very long time. I think she's the only one I "talk" to regularly. And when I say that, I mean, have on the phone. I don't...
    WickedScullyOfTheWest WickedScullyOfTheWest 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Not one person in my entire family understands me. I've never felt this alone in my life. Not to exagerate, but I literally felt like I was being torn apart and reformed by...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    No one understands everyone perfectly. It's impossible and everyone will feel like no one understands them at various points in their life. But I can easily say no one has ever...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    PureWhiteMoonlight PureWhiteMoonlight 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I feel like I'm going to die soon, or any moment. I have depression and anxiety but then again I think about how we are put on this beautiful earth and then we just leave...
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    No matter what it seems like I'm a burden to anyone. I'm the one that screws up everything, from relationships to something small. No matter what I seem to do I'm told I screw up...
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    I just turned 40. Three days after my birthday, the love of my life broke up with me, leaving me heartbroken. I had planned a family and future with him, and just three days before...
    balance25 balance25 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I hate that this is a topic. Nobody should ever have to feel like this. And I know it's easy to just say, "oh well you're good enough don't worry," but it's another thing to...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Does it happen to everyone? Or is it just me. I'm not sure but one thing I do know is that I feel like no one truly likes me. I like to think Im a good person, that I'm nice and...
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    (Skip to next paragraph to skip my rant, I have some questions) I'm not fun or cool and I don't have special qualities, I feel like I'm stuck in one small square and I'll never be...
    mahnouls mahnouls 16-17 1 Response Apr 7

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    This is supposed to be a place if support and help but I feel like if I have bad experiences people just feel sorry for me but no one helps but when so Etching good finally happens...
    ginge101 ginge101 13-15 2 Responses a week ago

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    I feel out of place at times. I've left various groups of friends. I've cut my bonds before. I even lost all my emotions at a time and broke out of a relationship I had. I...
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    Anybody I've talked to or dated after him...it's just not the same. I use to smile every time I got a text from him, smiling and laughing the whole time we were on the phone that...
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    So this might be long. I do feel like a pretty lucky guy with a lot of blessings.. But I do have a lot of worries about my family which I will express here.. Ok so my family is...
    PhindingPhronesis PhindingPhronesis 16-17, M Mar 30

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    That empty feeling. Idk I just feel like such a failure like what's wrong w me why can't I be happy w who I am/what I look like. I guess I just live in a world where everyone goes...
    ELSAhugsyou ELSAhugsyou 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I have friend named Jeanie. Jeanie here is a very friendly person and I admire her for that. But sometimes, I feel like she only calls me whenever her new friends aren't with her...
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    Not loser as in lame or nerd... Although I am a bit nerdy but in the sense that I've lost myself. I'm in a constant battle with my feelings and I lose every time. I feel like I've...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I feel like no one cares. Like everyone just fakes that they care. That they tell me they care but the really don't. I feel hated, lied to and betrayed. ;-(
    Abb50 Abb50 18-21, F Apr 3

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    Since I'm not what people stereotype me to be, I often feel as though I bother them by simply existing. One of my many corks is that I always feel like I'm in someone's way. I...
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    I always want to call someone or txt them or whatever but i feel like im annoying do i dont even try like i hve no life becuz i dont tlk to any one becuz i feel to annoying
    curvybitch curvybitch 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I have been married 5 years, I love my husband he often goes out of town! I recently discovered some things he had been doing ****, live web cams ect. I was devastated. I couldn't...
    LonelyLish LonelyLish 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    They say different is better than normal, but sometimes normal seems so much easier. Normal doesn't mean you don't have problems, but it does mean you can handle them civilly, or...
    ashalew ashalew 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    my dreams have chaos and allsorts in them ...but this one particular dream about my fook buddy made me come to the realisation that hes just using me for sex and that hes not...
    psychicprayer psychicprayer 36-40 a week ago

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    Being only 20, I sometimes feel like this generation is so self absorbed and narcissistic. Yes, I own a phone, but it's not a smartphone and I don't want a smartphone. Is it so...
    whiskersandwine whiskersandwine 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have very little friends and my family is no help .... They make me feel like **** ... well my friends don't but they do not know all of me .... And my grandma isn't proud of me...
    emmawinterfrost emmawinterfrost 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like giving up I have been depressed for over a year and a half I have good weeks and bad it really varies sometimes I am excited as hell and running round and motivated but...
    mellywoo mellywoo 13-15, F 3 days ago

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