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I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

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    Why?

    Why am I the only one in my family who on top of all my medical issues, also has to deal with ******* depression? What have I done so wrong, that I have to deal with this ******* mental illness. I feel like I am just going to break, and I can't take it anymore. I feel Like I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    I Seriously Feel Like Something Is Trying To Ruin Me On All Fronts

    I don't why but I really feel, after the last 3 or 4 years, that something beyond my immediate sensory experience is seriously trying to make me as miserable as it can. I worked really hard to get a good job in a profession I loved, then in 2008 the credit crunch happened and...
    Nomoretomorrow Nomoretomorrow 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 13, 2013

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    Punished

    Punished,Felt that way,When the quake struck,Took me down,For what?I guess,Being wrong place,Wrong time,Or was it?Life was on wrong track!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 6, 2012

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    I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

    just by continuing to exist
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F Mar 13, 2011

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    Your Welcome Mom

     I opened up a credit card a while ago....maybe four years ago. I used it once for gas and then in one single phone call it went out of control. The card  had a 900 dollar limit and I was 18. My mother asked if she could use the card to buy groceries and being the good...
    Strtariot Strtariot 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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    Why?

    I stay out of the way. I help anyone who asks I support and encourage my family, sometimes to the detriment of my health. I don't miss kids events, volunteer as often as possible. I provide physical security and financial stability to my family and others where I can. I don't ask...
    MrElwood MrElwood 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    I Didn't Do Anything

    So why am I being punished?  My friends are being taken away from me with no reason or explanation.  My husband always tells me I have 2 lives.  The one that is real and here and the one I have created for myself on the internet.  Well I am pretty partial to my internet life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    Why Am I Being Punished For Being Depressed?

    I have had depression for a while and I recently got caught. My best friend noticed the cuts on my wrist and told some of the officials at my college and I felt like I was being treated like a criminal, the way they patrolled the hall outside my room and knocked on the door every...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    Bad Luck?

    I do... I feel like maybe all my bad luck is because of all the bad things i have done in my life, like i am being punished for them. Or that maybe i am seriously disliked! It's not just bad luck though or what ever you want to call it. It's simple things like people taking a...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2009

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    What Did I Do Now?

    i know this story aint gonna be as serious and bad as some others that i have read, nor do i intend to be in that state, my heart goes out to everyone hurting but i feel i should tell you all that im stuck in a hole, i dont know what to think of my friends because my friends are...
    FearoftheDovah FearoftheDovah 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    I Hate Feeling This Way But Thing Out There Is Swallowing Me Up

    I feel this very draining feeling if it the anemia or not but I feel like something or someone is punishing me and I don't believe its my crime... I am sick of it really... I am not the rebellious type really.. I just want to be able to feel the the sunlight... my body is sore...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Aug 31, 2011

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    I Feel like no body is there when I need them or they dont want to listen to me even though I listen to them. I dont know anymore. I want to meet someone who practically lives...
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    I am going to turn 30 in couple of days. There is not much enthusiasm. I don't know why I get sad on my birthday. Even if I try to be very cheerful for my well wishers, I can't...
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    Im only one girl but I feel like inside me there are more. I still have no idea who I am. I'm scared. I get weird thoughts when I breakdown. I never had anxiety before but when my...
    JaineDoh JaineDoh 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Hello everyone. Up until this point (for several years) I have decided to stay silent and observe posts similar to this one. Now, here on this website, on thos particular group it...
    Abufihamat Abufihamat 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I feel like there are so many versions of me. Is that weird? Yeah, that's weird... but it's like I open myself up to certain people. Some people know things about me that others...
    Froma2zee Froma2zee 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I met him when I was 19. We got married when I was 20. We've been married a little over a year and already I can see my husband loving me less and less. I was born and raised in...
    marriedyoungandconfused marriedyoungandconfused 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Around 2 years ago, I started going into the woods and off the paths, making sure I was in a deep, dense part so I wouldn't be seen. There, I'd pull down my trousers and relieve...
    NotAllThattt NotAllThattt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 8

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    I feel left out. I have two other roommates, but ever since the third one moved in, I have been feeling left out. I feel like my roommate and I ( the first ones who lived in our...
    Via70 Via70 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    It's often said that being just like everyone else isn't good, and being original or different is better. Whoever said that must have been like others because being so different is...
    ifhsb ifhsb 41-45, M Jan 4

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    I just wanna say how much I love being a Christian. And with that being said, I am not gonna change my religion just to make somebody happy. No way! I could not imagine myself...
    HeySafaaJust HeySafaaJust 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I honestly feel like giving up and just letting my life go... I didn't think being an adult could be so stressful and then only being 19 and having to deal with the stuff I'm...
    Rose1224 Rose1224 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    It feels like ****. The brighter side, though, is that it could've hurt more if he had felt the same, we'd been together, and then something bad and super dramatic happened...
    TiraVara TiraVara 22-25, F a week ago

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    It's this kind of sadness that is starting to consume me whole. I've tried fighting it off on my own for as long as possible, but I'm getting tired. I'm just miserable all the time...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    You know, there has to be a reason behind all this low self esteem. Oh yeah, I was raised this way. Not just by my household but also by society and culture. I have a hard time...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    So I'm in 8th grade and basically in 6th grade this girl, (Lets call her Shelby) Shelby and (Lets call her Makayla) Shelby and Makayla were best friends. As well as in 7th grade...
    PastelOreos447 PastelOreos447 13-15, F Jan 2

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    makes you feel safe when you feel like you are flying apart. loved when you're feeling alone. you can draw stregnth from a hug when you feel weak and can't take anymore. ahhh a hug...
    serendipitousone serendipitousone 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I like giving hugs, and I like being hugged. I like hugs in general. Every different person has their own warmth to them, and their own feeling. My favorite are soft hugs. c: But...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 19

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    The hidden secret of life I mean. I myself don’t know what I mean. I have a huge trusting problem. The problem is not that I don’t trust anyone but that I trust EVERYONE. I...
    avnn avnn 16-17, F Jan 21

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    I heard this report on the radio today... It's from Colorado Public Radio, and it was a piece about children that grow up in poverty, or even homeless. They interviewed this girl...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I like being naked on cam still. Wow this feels good to get off my shoulders. Sorry for being pervy today
    imreal1999 imreal1999 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have been in a good place for most part of a year now. I can feel my self slip in to my dark little corner of the world. I never like being here but it feels safe. I want to stay...
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M Dec 30, 2014

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    **** yes... When im alone i acctually do things! Self improvement is a huge part in my life and having a bunch of crybabies around doesnt make it an accomplishment. I let the...
    vickepicke vickepicke 16-17, M Jan 8

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    Hi I suffer from hard to deal with ocd, when I was diagnosed about 7 years ago I was really struggling and my binge drinking got even worst and I used alcohol as a means to deal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    It's not pretty but me, myself and I are in a relationship with each other, the killer is we don't see eye to eye. I basically feel that all the goodness in me is being held back...
    HelterSkelter1 HelterSkelter1 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I feel like I'm not supposed to have a dad like I don't deserve one because I'm not good enough my real dad abused me almost all my life then pretty much abandon me then when ever...
    CookieMonsta16 CookieMonsta16 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I feel like I always bother my best friend because I always want to hang out with her instead of staying home being bored. But all she wants to do is be with her bf. And my other...
    itslala840 itslala840 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My fiance wants to marry me but i am afraid it'll be a mistake we have to beautiful children together but he's a struggling addict that falls back more than he steps forward. I...
    tolongalone tolongalone 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Sometimes I just think that the crappy relationship I walked away from was all I deserved and that I am never going to be good enough for someone else. But at the same time I know...
    Dovesery Dovesery 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    😑 why do I feel like that?! 😕 Probably cause I'm failing math... 😥 Or that my friends are being jerks!
    nialler14 nialler14 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Ever wonder why people on the internet like being anonymous? They can be all they dreamed of being...with zero accountability. And in many cases....the fangs come out and the...
    slickboots slickboots 66-70, M Dec 30, 2014

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    No one really knows me. Except me. I can be the most perverted little ***** you've ever met, with the dirtiest mind ever, but that doesn't mean I like being told "you must be on...
    BENDrowned BENDrowned 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    HO MY GAWD. CARRY MEH. I CAN'T GET OFF THIS DAMN COUCH. My body is sore, my arms and legs are flailing wherever they want to and this Throat. THIS ITCHY, SNOT-FILLED THROAT. *Cough...
    jehangigi jehangigi 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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