I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

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    Sure I am not perfect,

    but why am I always punished and forced to have this depressing cloud over me?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 3, 2015

    I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

    just by continuing to exist
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale
    26-30, F
    Mar 13, 2011

    Why?

    I stay out of the way. I help anyone who asks I support and encourage my family, sometimes to the detriment of my health. I don't miss kids events, volunteer as often as possible. I provide physical security and financial stability to my family and others where I can. I don't ask...
    MrElwood MrElwood
    46-50, M
    Dec 16, 2011

    Why Am I Being Punished For Being Depressed?

    I have had depression for a while and I recently got caught. My best friend noticed the cuts on my wrist and told some of the officials at my college and I felt like I was being treated like a criminal, the way they patrolled the hall outside my room and knocked on the door every...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

    I Hate Feeling This Way But Thing Out There Is Swallowing Me Up

    I feel this very draining feeling if it the anemia or not but I feel like something or someone is punishing me and I don't believe its my crime... I am sick of it really... I am not the rebellious type really.. I just want to be able to feel the the sunlight... my body is sore...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Aug 31, 2011

    What Did I Do Now?

    i know this story aint gonna be as serious and bad as some others that i have read, nor do i intend to be in that state, my heart goes out to everyone hurting but i feel i should tell you all that im stuck in a hole, i dont know what to think of my friends because my friends are...
    FearoftheDovah FearoftheDovah
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2012

    I don't know why I feel like this each

    and everyday. I feel strongly like being dressed as a woman and get all my head shaved :/ I might have been punished for making or seen a bald woman.. I dont know to to avoid all this.. Will this go away if I try it and get all this done once.. Or do i have mod in a bad case :/
    Idontknowwhomiam Idontknowwhomiam
    22-25
    Jan 1

    I Seriously Feel Like Something Is Trying To Ruin Me On All Fronts

    I don't why but I really feel, after the last 3 or 4 years, that something beyond my immediate sensory experience is seriously trying to make me as miserable as it can. I worked really hard to get a good job in a profession I loved, then in 2008 the credit crunch happened and...
    Nomoretomorrow Nomoretomorrow
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 13, 2013

    Why?

    Why am I the only one in my family who on top of all my medical issues, also has to deal with ******* depression? What have I done so wrong, that I have to deal with this ******* mental illness. I feel like I am just going to break, and I can't take it anymore. I feel Like I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Aug 23, 2009

    Your Welcome Mom

     I opened up a credit card a while ago....maybe four years ago. I used it once for gas and then in one single phone call it went out of control. The card  had a 900 dollar limit and I was 18. My mother asked if she could use the card to buy groceries and being the good...
    Strtariot Strtariot
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2009

    I've always felt that way about myself.

    I suspect that I must have done something really bad in a past life or something.
    UselessNobody UselessNobody
    36-40, F
    May 23, 2015

    Just a lil bit of decision making fell thru a

    bottle of cheap beer And some cigarete , tomorrow Is New day And New Begininng , i Know i am just Hurting myself, but there Are times when we need to forget him And her , their little argument And him being into This choosen one female That to me Is nothing special, but i ASK...
    hunlove hunlove
    36-40, F
    Jul 11, 2015

    I Didn't Do Anything

    So why am I being punished?  My friends are being taken away from me with no reason or explanation.  My husband always tells me I have 2 lives.  The one that is real and here and the one I have created for myself on the internet.  Well I am pretty partial to my internet life...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2011

    Punished

    Punished,Felt that way,When the quake struck,Took me down,For what?I guess,Being wrong place,Wrong time,Or was it?Life was on wrong track!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Mar 6, 2012

    Bad Luck?

    I do... I feel like maybe all my bad luck is because of all the bad things i have done in my life, like i am being punished for them. Or that maybe i am seriously disliked! It's not just bad luck though or what ever you want to call it. It's simple things like people taking a...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2009

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