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I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

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    I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

    just by continuing to exist
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F Mar 13, 2011

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    Your Welcome Mom

     I opened up a credit card a while ago....maybe four years ago. I used it once for gas and then in one single phone call it went out of control. The card  had a 900 dollar limit and I was 18. My mother asked if she could use the card to buy groceries and being the good...
    Strtariot Strtariot 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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    Why?

    Why am I the only one in my family who on top of all my medical issues, also has to deal with ******* depression? What have I done so wrong, that I have to deal with this ******* mental illness. I feel like I am just going to break, and I can't take it anymore. I feel Like I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Why Am I Being Punished For Being Depressed?

    I have had depression for a while and I recently got caught. My best friend noticed the cuts on my wrist and told some of the officials at my college and I felt like I was being treated like a criminal, the way they patrolled the hall outside my room and knocked on the door every...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    I Didn't Do Anything

    So why am I being punished?  My friends are being taken away from me with no reason or explanation.  My husband always tells me I have 2 lives.  The one that is real and here and the one I have created for myself on the internet.  Well I am pretty partial to my internet life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    What Did I Do Now?

    i know this story aint gonna be as serious and bad as some others that i have read, nor do i intend to be in that state, my heart goes out to everyone hurting but i feel i should tell you all that im stuck in a hole, i dont know what to think of my friends because my friends are...
    FearoftheDovah FearoftheDovah 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    I Hate Feeling This Way But Thing Out There Is Swallowing Me Up

    I feel this very draining feeling if it the anemia or not but I feel like something or someone is punishing me and I don't believe its my crime... I am sick of it really... I am not the rebellious type really.. I just want to be able to feel the the sunlight... my body is sore...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Aug 31, 2011

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    I Seriously Feel Like Something Is Trying To Ruin Me On All Fronts

    I don't why but I really feel, after the last 3 or 4 years, that something beyond my immediate sensory experience is seriously trying to make me as miserable as it can. I worked really hard to get a good job in a profession I loved, then in 2008 the credit crunch happened and...
    Nomoretomorrow Nomoretomorrow 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 13, 2013

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    Punished

    Punished,Felt that way,When the quake struck,Took me down,For what?I guess,Being wrong place,Wrong time,Or was it?Life was on wrong track!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 6, 2012

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    Bad Luck?

    I do... I feel like maybe all my bad luck is because of all the bad things i have done in my life, like i am being punished for them. Or that maybe i am seriously disliked! It's not just bad luck though or what ever you want to call it. It's simple things like people taking a...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2009

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    Why?

    I stay out of the way. I help anyone who asks I support and encourage my family, sometimes to the detriment of my health. I don't miss kids events, volunteer as often as possible. I provide physical security and financial stability to my family and others where I can. I don't ask...
    MrElwood MrElwood 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    No matter where I've been I have never found any friend, girlfriend, lover. I've always been alone. I'm in university now and people don't like me or be my friend because I'm...
    franktheman149 franktheman149 18-21, M Dec 1

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    I like being watched while I jerk
    SexyCody16 SexyCody16 16-17, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Last night, my current boyfriend and I had a fight, like we always seem to do at the moment. I went home upset, and ended up dreaming about the guy I dated when I was 18 and living...
    louisevc louisevc 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    well today is just another day of me being in my feelings ..so what the hell....another sappy story of love lost........but i really do miss that feeling of being in love......how...
    amie26 amie26 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    Many of us have a strange tendency in relationships. We tend to feel something about someone – some hurt, some pain, some resentment and yet we wait and wait for things to go...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 7 Responses Nov 20

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    Most people around my age have it all. A good job, plenty of friends, few worries and are generally moving in the right direction, they get opportunities and can embrace life for...
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 22

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    I was 15 and in high school when I started to admit to myself that I liked her. We were good friends, daily debates and petty quarrels, we forged our bond and we've known each...
    shugo23 shugo23 18-21, M Nov 22

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    So, today I had brunch with my friends and they began discussing my brother. He is often a topic that I dread because I know that most people who lay eyes on him will never cease...
    ckj39 ckj39 18-21, M Nov 22

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    I have a pretty demanding job, young child and a partner who barely comes near me despite the effort I make. When I'm alone I feel so much better like the stress just vanishes and...
    friendlygent friendlygent 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 8

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    I. . .just feel. . .so empty. I can't take living with a fake smile, day after day, with no one knowing how torn apart I truly am. I'm also thinking of cutting myself or even worse...
    CrypticIris CrypticIris 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I Think This For Soo Many Reasons Like Right Now I Have A Not So Perfect Relationship Because Lately We Haven't Been Able To Hang Out & Go On A Date All Because Of His Ignorant...
    dessmart1 dessmart1 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I am slowly slipping back into old habits and my stress & anxiety levels are at an all time high. I've cried every night for the past week. my dad is a lying cheater and I can't...
    roryrawry roryrawry 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I don't like being alone, But it's the only thing I'm familiar with, The only thing that hasn't left. I can't seem to quiet my mind, Nor ignore this uneven hollow. In this...
    shadowweep shadowweep 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 21

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    As you have read my other stories my wife brought up a divorce. We haven't been getting along very well. I told myself I would talk to her and find out if this is what she really...
    harleyman2169 harleyman2169 41-45, M Nov 28

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    It's nice when I'm left to my thoughts. I feel like they swirl around me like butterflies. I touch them, feel them, understand them, and then I'm at peace. Sometimes they are a...
    alric alric 16-17, F Nov 29

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    It's crazy. I'm crazy. God, I don't even ******* know. I'm with this amazing guy. His feelings for me are impossible to question. He loves me. I know it. He let's me feel it...
    ohmyfvck ohmyfvck 18-21, F Dec 4

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    My life is not satisfying, it is not enjoyable and I feel like I am merely waiting for it to pass. I moved countries about 18 months ago but have not yet done anything that makes...
    imsoradalecki imsoradalecki 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I always hate when I'm someone's second choice. I feel like I'm being used. And I don't like that. I feel like you only wan me around when something fails,It makes me feel like...
    AshCakes AshCakes 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I feel so alone in this world. Go to school all your life for what? Get a job.. Marry? I don't even get good grades. I'm sick of being the stupid, ugly loner nobody likes. My...
    Holeale Holeale 22-25, T 1 Response Nov 21

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    I love my boyfriend, but sometimes I feel like I'm doing this because I don't want to be alone. I care for him when he's sick. I appreciate the little things he does and the big...
    tinywoman tinywoman 18-21, F Nov 23

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    By nature I'm a social person. I like to be around people, talking to them, hanging out. A lot of times through texting, I text how I feel. I text the way I am feeling. I've always...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    I rarely feel like I'm good enough for anything. My ex husband left me for someone he met on the internet about 5 years ago. I was devastated. We hadn't been happy for awhile...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F Dec 7

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    I don't really, but I'm so unused to feeling "ok" for an extended period of time that the state I'm in right now is so... different! For once, I'm not stuck on the floor sleeping...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I feel i am so behind in life. as if i'm playing catch up. i started my life as an adult so young. i thought i knew what i was doing. i married at 18. then when i was 19 i got...
    alicia0090 alicia0090 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I am not a JOKE!!! Yes, YOU!!! And your friends! Do I seriously look like one you can play around with and use, and then when you get something back, you drop? After all the things...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    If I like someone, I always feel ashamed of myself and inadequate for them. I'm running out of ways to simulate being loved. Feeling like I have very little happiness in my future...
    Nexile90 Nexile90 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    I know she ins't really meaning to but sometimes it feels like shes pushing me away. She barely tells me whats wrong anymore and it honestly upsets me that she comes to me, it...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F Nov 24

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    The feeling of being loved, safe, and secure is great.
    Dezireesdesire Dezireesdesire 18-21, F Dec 1

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    Well, I know that my mother and my dog care about me, but other than them? There's not really anybody. I've had a lot if friends during my life but we've pretty much grown apart...
    nck12278 nck12278 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    I had an odd dream where my gf purposely locked herself in my trunk and told me that she wanted to ride in there all the way to my mothers house. When we got there the house was...
    RailTracer645 RailTracer645 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 5

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    I so cherish my alone time. I need it to function. I never feel more alone in this world then when I am out and surrounded by people. I feel so much better when I am alone. That's...
    wanion wanion 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    im only 15 but I still feel like I've wasted my life. I could be living right now but for the past years I've been stuck at home worrying about everything and being depressed. I...