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I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

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    Why?

    Why am I the only one in my family who on top of all my medical issues, also has to deal with ******* depression? What have I done so wrong, that I have to deal with this ******* mental illness. I feel like I am just going to break, and I can't take it anymore. I feel Like I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    I Didn't Do Anything

    So why am I being punished?  My friends are being taken away from me with no reason or explanation.  My husband always tells me I have 2 lives.  The one that is real and here and the one I have created for myself on the internet.  Well I am pretty partial to my internet life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    Why Am I Being Punished For Being Depressed?

    I have had depression for a while and I recently got caught. My best friend noticed the cuts on my wrist and told some of the officials at my college and I felt like I was being treated like a criminal, the way they patrolled the hall outside my room and knocked on the door every...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    What Did I Do Now?

    i know this story aint gonna be as serious and bad as some others that i have read, nor do i intend to be in that state, my heart goes out to everyone hurting but i feel i should tell you all that im stuck in a hole, i dont know what to think of my friends because my friends are...
    FearoftheDovah FearoftheDovah 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    I Seriously Feel Like Something Is Trying To Ruin Me On All Fronts

    I don't why but I really feel, after the last 3 or 4 years, that something beyond my immediate sensory experience is seriously trying to make me as miserable as it can. I worked really hard to get a good job in a profession I loved, then in 2008 the credit crunch happened and...
    Nomoretomorrow Nomoretomorrow 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 13, 2013

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    Bad Luck?

    I do... I feel like maybe all my bad luck is because of all the bad things i have done in my life, like i am being punished for them. Or that maybe i am seriously disliked! It's not just bad luck though or what ever you want to call it. It's simple things like people taking a...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2009

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    I Hate Feeling This Way But Thing Out There Is Swallowing Me Up

    I feel this very draining feeling if it the anemia or not but I feel like something or someone is punishing me and I don't believe its my crime... I am sick of it really... I am not the rebellious type really.. I just want to be able to feel the the sunlight... my body is sore...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Aug 31, 2011

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    Your Welcome Mom

     I opened up a credit card a while ago....maybe four years ago. I used it once for gas and then in one single phone call it went out of control. The card  had a 900 dollar limit and I was 18. My mother asked if she could use the card to buy groceries and being the good...
    Strtariot Strtariot 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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    Why?

    I stay out of the way. I help anyone who asks I support and encourage my family, sometimes to the detriment of my health. I don't miss kids events, volunteer as often as possible. I provide physical security and financial stability to my family and others where I can. I don't ask...
    MrElwood MrElwood 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    Punished

    Punished,Felt that way,When the quake struck,Took me down,For what?I guess,Being wrong place,Wrong time,Or was it?Life was on wrong track!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 6, 2012

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    I Feel Like I Am Being Punished

    just by continuing to exist
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F Mar 13, 2011

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    I barely cry but when I got home, I did. I never do because it just makes me feel like a weak human being. I hope that's all for today.
    Itsnotareligion Itsnotareligion 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    It's sad to say that I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I don't know if I am feeling sorry for myself or if these emotions are warranted. I feel like my family would be much...
    BeautifulCha0s BeautifulCha0s 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

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    I don't feel like nobody knows the real me, I KNOW that nobody knows the real me
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Not at all! just void. nothing. I don't even feel like talking or laughing. smiling nothing. just seeping deeper into the void sounds good to me! putting my head doen getting sh!t...
    PsychoBitch69 PsychoBitch69 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    well today is just another day of me being in my feelings ..so what the hell....another sappy story of love lost........but i really do miss that feeling of being in love......how...
    amie26 amie26 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Many of us have a strange tendency in relationships. We tend to feel something about someone – some hurt, some pain, some resentment and yet we wait and wait for things to go...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Most people around my age have it all. A good job, plenty of friends, few worries and are generally moving in the right direction, they get opportunities and can embrace life for...
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was 15 and in high school when I started to admit to myself that I liked her. We were good friends, daily debates and petty quarrels, we forged our bond and we've known each...
    shugo23 shugo23 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    So, today I had brunch with my friends and they began discussing my brother. He is often a topic that I dread because I know that most people who lay eyes on him will never cease...
    ckj39 ckj39 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I love the feeling of being shirtless. Feels SO good to have the breeze blow across my bare chest. Also, having the wind blow my chest hair tickles. Gives me a feeling of being...
    JamieSports JamieSports 41-45 Nov 1

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    I feel like I am being lead on, whether intentionally or not. I really like (yes that like) a friend. I can tell her things I can't tell other people. I told her I was a lesbian...
    Geb99 Geb99 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    A little set up for you: I'm a 19 year old girl. Portuguese. Lived in England most of my life. Born in SA. Confident in my appearance. I write. I draw (at university, so it's legit...
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    I. . .just feel. . .so empty. I can't take living with a fake smile, day after day, with no one knowing how torn apart I truly am. I'm also thinking of cutting myself or even worse...
    CrypticIris CrypticIris 18-21, F a week ago

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    I feel as if I'm the biggest crybaby in the whole world. I hate my feelings, I hate being awake, I hate hating things. I feel as if my life is supposed to be this wonderful...
    imotakuchan imotakuchan 18-21, F Oct 31

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    I'm in my last year of high school and I feel like I'm failing at being smart, I haven't had this problem before, I was always the "smart one" but the last couple of months I've...
    elisasama elisasama 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    I don't like being alone, But it's the only thing I'm familiar with, The only thing that hasn't left. I can't seem to quiet my mind, Nor ignore this uneven hollow. In this...
    shadowweep shadowweep 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I have friends, that's true. We're like sisters and hangout all the time. But sometimes I feel like I'm the odd one out. We never talk about the same things, they tend to talk...
    AntiSocialBookworm AntiSocialBookworm 13-15, F Oct 28

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    I always hate when I'm someone's second choice. I feel like I'm being used. And I don't like that. I feel like you only wan me around when something fails,It makes me feel like...
    AshCakes AshCakes 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel so alone in this world. Go to school all your life for what? Get a job.. Marry? I don't even get good grades. I'm sick of being the stupid, ugly loner nobody likes. My...
    Holeale Holeale 22-25, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I love my boyfriend, but sometimes I feel like I'm doing this because I don't want to be alone. I care for him when he's sick. I appreciate the little things he does and the big...
    tinywoman tinywoman 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    By nature I'm a social person. I like to be around people, talking to them, hanging out. A lot of times through texting, I text how I feel. I text the way I am feeling. I've always...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    If you look at me, I appear fine, just the same person as I've always been. But that's only on the outside - internally, I'm not. My depression has eaten away at my identity - I'm...
    megmegmeggers megmegmeggers 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    I do not like being me all the time, but these days I do. It is amazing how sometimes I feel out of tune with the world, like a shark living in a small dirty pond, and others like...
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 36-40, M 4 Responses Nov 2

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    I feel i am so behind in life. as if i'm playing catch up. i started my life as an adult so young. i thought i knew what i was doing. i married at 18. then when i was 19 i got...
    alicia0090 alicia0090 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am not a JOKE!!! Yes, YOU!!! And your friends! Do I seriously look like one you can play around with and use, and then when you get something back, you drop? After all the things...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know, laying here in bed thinking(not always a good idea) looking at the ceiling. I feel like I have a boring personality. I really enjoy being a simple guy but I feel to...
    josh221992 josh221992 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    If I like someone, I always feel ashamed of myself and inadequate for them. I'm running out of ways to simulate being loved. Feeling like I have very little happiness in my future...
    Nexile90 Nexile90 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I know she ins't really meaning to but sometimes it feels like shes pushing me away. She barely tells me whats wrong anymore and it honestly upsets me that she comes to me, it...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Just spent about 20 minutes outdoors in the chilly darkness... enjoy the feeling of being naked but wish it wasn't so cold!!
    drune77 drune77 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 30

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    I feel like no one will ever love me because I myself, am incapable of being lovable. I am ugly, dumb, overweight, lacking in everything a man looks for in a woman, and I always...
    unlovable5 unlovable5 13-15, F Nov 1

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    I'm anxious. I'm personality type A. I think a lot. I talk a lot. I analyze a lot. Therefore I drive people crazy. I like me. Since I drive people crazy I think .. "Maybe I need...
    JoshM1974 JoshM1974 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 5

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    I feel like every day is the same. School, stress, home, videogames, sleep. And after that its gonna be work and stress. Thats your life. Work and stress. And you only live once...
    nolife1234 nolife1234 18-21, M Nov 7

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    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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