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I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

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    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind 22-25, F Mar 14, 2013

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    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily 31-35, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F Feb 1, 2013

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    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 4 Responses May 12, 2010

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    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah 31-35, F Jun 24, 2012

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    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes 26-30, F Mar 29, 2012

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    i cant control my thoughts. there all over the place and being alone with them is torture. my mind isnt even my mind anymore, it's like some demon took over it and is controling...
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    I honestly don't know how to feel about myself at all anymore. I've been dating this guy for 7 months Nd I just don't feel good enough for him at this point. I feel like I can't...
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    I feel helpless, with a certain sadness I can't define with words. I feel like all the lights are on, but I'm in the dark. I feel like I'm drowning, but I'm on the sand. I feel...
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    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Of four kids, I'm the only one that rebelled. I smoke cigs and pot, dropped out of school (though I'm a month away from graduating now) and I got pregnant at 18. I moved out and...
    briarbug briarbug 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Thank you for clicking on my experience. I just wanted to say... I feel like I'm all alone. I feel like I have no one here to help me. Let's just carry on. First of all, I am a...
    TheBloodySerenity474 TheBloodySerenity474 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I decided to go out with an old friend to have some fun today. BIG MISTAKE. It was suppose to be just me and her but instead 6 more people ended up coming. I didn't even know them...
    MissWallflower MissWallflower 18-21, F Mar 13

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    angeleyes2820 angeleyes2820 36-40 a week ago

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    I feel like the depression is crushing me. Like its sitting on my chest and crushing the air out of my lungs and making every breath painful and not worth it. And when I take deep...
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    I've always felt that the family I live with isn't my real family or the house I live in isn't my real home. I never feel like I fit in anywhere and I feel connected to nature and...
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    I hate feeling so empty and lonely. How can I still love someone that lied to me n betrayed me over and over for 5 yrs? No one knows how often I just sit in my house everyday...
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    There are times when I just don’t feel like conversing with others including my family, friends and co-workers. I try my best to be social 90% of the time but sometimes I just...
    mindstruggle mindstruggle 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    I'm not new to ep, in fact I've Whined so much it makes me sick. I have been fortunate to meet a nice young woman to help ease the pain though she lives far away. However, my heart...
    dave6866 dave6866 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    My mom is a great person, and I know she loves me and cares about me a lot, but sometimes she can be so unreasonable and I feel like she doesn't understand me. I study abroad, and...
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    I feel like giving up fighting now days.. idk is it really worth it? our life's are actually so short shouldn't we just spend every second being happy? i know it's cliche but I...
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    It didn't make sense that no one was interested in being around me. Now I have a few reasons why they might seem to make sense to me, but then I didn't. To me felt like you would...
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    This feeling I have deep inside, Is a feeling that I cannot describe. From the pit in my belly, To the ache in my heart, Nothing can make me realize that we are really apart Crying...
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    And I don't know what to do! Nor do I have resources or the money to do anything. I feel lost, out of my mind, like I'm losing myself..... I need to get away, to be me, on my own...
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