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I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

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    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F Feb 1, 2013

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    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 4 Responses May 12, 2010

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    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes 26-30, F Mar 29, 2012

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    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily 31-35, F Mar 21, 2013

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    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah 31-35, F Jun 24, 2012

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    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind 22-25, F Mar 14, 2013

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    But i want to spent the weekend with my bf and he is going. Im also invited but i barely know anyone. The thing is its one of those kind of partys where the boys hang out with the...
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    ever since my dad got remarried and had another kid, my brother and i have taken the back burner. scratch that, we've been moved out of the kitchen entirely. particularly me bc i...
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    I just turned one when my parents divorced so it wasn't hard for me to get over that since I don't remember when my parents even were together. A few years later my dad met my step...
    ahk16 ahk16 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Whelp, a friend of mine, that not too long ago said that I was one of the few people she would actually stay friends with in college and such, recently posted something on Facebook...
    icevsnow icevsnow 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    This has to be the worst pain I have ever felt towards the person I call my dad. Just the thought of what he said and what happened brings tears to my face and pain to my heart...
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    All my life things have been weird for me. I've always been in-tuned with the paranormal world; e.i., I have had bizarre dreams, I seen shadow people, I have been touched by things...
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    I feel like a fraud. I've been in orchestra for 5 years now, and I play the beautiful cello...except I never ACTUALLY played in class. (I'm practically a master at muting sounds...
    ArtisteMe ArtisteMe 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 30

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    My moms side of the family is really Catholic and pretty homophobic. My mom isn't homophobic but she doesn't approve of the "lifestyle choice". Her boyfriend is really right winged...
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    Sometimes I do...... There will be times I'm playing around with Ana and she suddenly gets all upset by it and begins to cry. I mean I never push it too far or make it annoying...
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    I used to be very ambitious, I wanted a successful career and was willing to do my best to achieve my goals. But now that I am at one of the best universities in my country, I've...
    emmacla emmacla 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    She's 10 years older than me and has a seven year old despite our different ages and lives we're still as close as I would say best friends. Anyhow over the last year I would say I...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F Jul 27

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    I feel awful saying this but a friend of mine has decided because of various issues to move out of his houseshare early, came to me yesterday and said can you put me up for three...
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    I always feel like every time I do or say something it's weird or wrong but if someone else does the exact same thing it's perfectly fine. And every time I try to defend myself I...
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    It amazes me the different people in your life.... There are those you can always turn to... Those that are there for you... Those that make you smile like you've never smiled...
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    I'm going to keep this short and sweet. my best friend and i have been best friends ever since 2nd grade. I love her too death and nothing will ever change that but now we both...
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    I have a few friends, two guys and a girl, and yet there isn't a soul in the world I feel I can really talk to about life and existing. The guys, the other girl, and I used to all...
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