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I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

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    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 4 Responses May 12, 2010

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    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah 31-35, F Jun 24, 2012

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    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F Feb 1, 2013

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    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily 31-35, F Mar 21, 2013

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    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind 22-25, F Mar 14, 2013

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    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes 26-30, F Mar 29, 2012

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    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    I was in a horrible relationship for 20 years with a very controlling partner. Now that I am finally out of the relationship, I feel like and idiot most of the time as I adjust to...
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    Hello everyone. Up until this point (for several years) I have decided to stay silent and observe posts similar to this one. Now, here on this website, on thos particular group it...
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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I knew I was different. I feel like I have been living a lie for a long time now. My family told me when I was born my eye color was black and I mewed like a cat. No crying just...
    caydiabla caydiabla 18-21, F Jan 14

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    I feel so different from every family member in my family... Like nothing in common whatsoever only a few things... I notice this very well over Christmas this year! People seem...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    You know, there has to be a reason behind all this low self esteem. Oh yeah, I was raised this way. Not just by my household but also by society and culture. I have a hard time...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    So I'm in 8th grade and basically in 6th grade this girl, (Lets call her Shelby) Shelby and (Lets call her Makayla) Shelby and Makayla were best friends. As well as in 7th grade...
    PastelOreos447 PastelOreos447 13-15, F Jan 2

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    sometimes, I think to myself.. what is the point of even trying in the world any more if people just result in not liking me in the end. i'm a very nice person and i try to belong...
    tirwin6471 tirwin6471 16-17, F Jan 16

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    For anybody who doesn't know the real me: I feel as if everybody does it. We all put an exterior out there that promotes our best features. Nobody wants to be that angry, annoying...
    findingfae findingfae 18-21, F a week ago

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    So, my severe depression has almost always kept me out of any sort of friend groups, and the one circle i was in made it pretty obvious I was the outsider, just clinging on. I've...
    TheUrge21 TheUrge21 18-21, M Dec 29, 2014

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I am loved by my one set of grandparents, my single mother of 51, boyfriend, and my bestie carey. I don't have any other family anymore :-( I don't feel like I can truly talk to...
    JessiAnn27 JessiAnn27 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    In my high school, there were many people like me and I loved that fact. Well I was always very different but we had always topics of interests in common. In this school I have...
    l0stwithin l0stwithin 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    So basically my best friend went to this school exhibition day with our class , i didnt go because i was sick that day so i was not in school and couldn't go on the trip. This...
    alliixxxx alliixxxx 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like my life has no meaning and therefor I should not continue this dreadful path. I think that people have as much right to die as to live. Why should suicidal thoughts...
    nuttyduck nuttyduck 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    There's really nothing special about it. I mean I go out once in a while. I make plans with my friends. But everytime I look on Instagram or Facebook everyone looks like there...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    i don't really do much. i go to school, go to work, do homework and repeat. i feel like i haven't been living my teenage years to the fullest and I'm running out of time. does...
    madiek madiek 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Every ****** g day. Today (now technically yesterday) is my birthday and I feel like a giant POS. My wife made me feel like **** because she said she would cook dinner when I got...
    snake215 snake215 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I always think people are around because they want me for something and not because they genuinely like me as a person because I think I'm so quiet, boring, ugly and retarded. I'm...
    Feliciajake Feliciajake 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I was with someone for 10 years since I was only 17... he cheated on me, emotionally abused me, pushed me away, and just made me feel like I wasn't worth anything. But I kept...
    CharlotteTeller CharlotteTeller 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I feel like running because no one gets me, I'm still in the closet & came out to some friends. & my family treats me like bullshit for some reason... yess i have an iPhone, iPad...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    How does, we stopped 2 hours ago for a beer, and left you alone to deal with the kids (who were asking for you all day) equal "we're staying out of your way so we don't get in...
    readum16 readum16 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    When you feel like that the pain is too much and sadness overflows from your heart. That you thought it's getting better and your hopes are up but the truth is, it's not happening...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I love her so much and honestly we both get jealous easily but mine is warranted cuz she has used guys twice to hurt me in our relationship. mind you she did shut both of them out...
    Luckystraight Luckystraight 18-21 Jan 17

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    I don't know why but sometimes a fit of rage develops in me bursting to get out, and the bad part is that I feel like destroying the world but this feeling in me quickly dissapears...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I feel like I'm not supposed to have a dad like I don't deserve one because I'm not good enough my real dad abused me almost all my life then pretty much abandon me then when ever...
    CookieMonsta16 CookieMonsta16 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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