I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 99 People

    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame
    18-21, F
    Jul 23, 2014

    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2013

    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85
    22-25, F
    Feb 1, 2013

    my chest is tight and I'm constantly fighting

    back tears....I can feel the darkness taking over.
    huntersveil248 huntersveil248
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2015

    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah
    31-35, F
    Jun 24, 2012

    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2012

    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes
    26-30, F
    Mar 29, 2012

    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2013

    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 12, 2010

    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 11, 2010

    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind
    22-25, F
    Mar 14, 2013

    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2013

    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily
    31-35, F
    Mar 21, 2013

    So recently I have been having major issues

    with my weight and eating habits. There was a period of time when I was 190 pounds, but over the course of about a year, I lost 70 pounds. My parents even tell me I'm too skinny and that I should eat more. I used to be very strict with my calorie intake. I would also try to...
    EddieNashton EddieNashton
    13-15, M
    1 Response Oct 3, 2015

    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Apr 20, 2011

    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2010
    deleted deleted
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    May 22, 2015

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    Daddyofkitten Daddyofkitten
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    When i feel like being in the edge of the cliff, i dont move because i think thats the only way for me to survive.
    Aaaashton Aaaashton
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    because you just said this, "I hurt and I'm sad for the reason that you can't tell me anything and I have to watch you sit there helpless and sad.", "Sometimes I feel like i am...
    silentsimp silentsimp
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    Each day I feel like I cause trouble. I feel like I make everyone's day worse. I don't feel happy. I've been constantly sad. I never goes away, and if it does it always comes back...
    silentsimp silentsimp
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    When we fight I blame myself all the time and it makes me feel like the worst human being on Earth. I want to kill myself sometimes, honestly.
    silentsimp silentsimp
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    I want to talk to him but i feel like he shouldn't forgive me for treating him ******. I feel like he thinks I take him for granted. I feel bad.
    silentsimp silentsimp
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    I invented the word outcast ..I love it tho...it makes me unique and God I love that better than being like you fucksss..take your prep party and shove it
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
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