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I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

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    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily 31-35, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 4 Responses May 12, 2010

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    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes 26-30, F Mar 29, 2012

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    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah 31-35, F Jun 24, 2012

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    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F Feb 1, 2013

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    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind 22-25, F Mar 14, 2013

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    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    today i really feel like i let someone down...this site has really helped me get my feelings down so i don't feel so trapped, but i still need control. so i still cut (well...
    kwrc kwrc 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    I like being controlled and used to help others it gives me a clear mind
    aimtopleas3 aimtopleas3 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 7

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    A little set up for you: I'm a 19 year old girl. Portuguese. Lived in England most of my life. Born in SA. Confident in my appearance. I write. I draw (at university, so it's legit...
    exulansis exulansis 18-21, F Nov 3

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    This is my first shared experience so bear with me please. Lately, for no apparent reason, I have just been feeling like I don't belong anywhere. And I ask myself all the time why...
    broller broller 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have friends, that's true. We're like sisters and hangout all the time. But sometimes I feel like I'm the odd one out. We never talk about the same things, they tend to talk...
    AntiSocialBookworm AntiSocialBookworm 13-15, F Oct 28

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    I am hoping someone older will be able to offer me some advice because I am a 55 year old woman who fell in love with someone for the first time in my life. It happened 2 years...
    Bethena Bethena 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    My family, my boyfriend, my therapist nobody seems to understand how deeply depressed I am. The only way I can explain it is I feel like im stuck waist deep in quicksand and...
    DenSan DenSan 22-25, F Nov 7

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    I feel like writing, so I wrote this. (10min or so to make) Thoughts, opinions, suggestions? Please leave them below I sit, gazing at the melancholy world around me. Mourning...
    PokewithasideofTurkey PokewithasideofTurkey 13-15, M Nov 10

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    In front of my eyes. I used to take responsibility for the feelings of others. I thought I did. Actually, I wasn't qualified, and made no assertions that I was some guru or...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 11

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    I don't know if it's depression, or what, but since last year i've been feeling like I have no direction in my life, like I don't like nothing, I've been feeling that what is ahead...
    licito licito 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I was 15 and in high school when I started to admit to myself that I liked her. We were good friends, daily debates and petty quarrels, we forged our bond and we've known each...
    shugo23 shugo23 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I met this boy online on twitter we started to talk a lot he was a jerk a douche bag i guess we can say. He had asked me out to the movies and i rejected the first time but the...
    tooloveornot tooloveornot 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    If you look at me, I appear fine, just the same person as I've always been. But that's only on the outside - internally, I'm not. My depression has eaten away at my identity - I'm...
    megmegmeggers megmegmeggers 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    Yes I am only 17 and I'm still to young to be talking about "forever" but you never know I could walk outside and get shot or just die unexpectedly idk what's going to happen to me...
    LovingTheNewMe LovingTheNewMe 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 3

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    This is how I am currently feeling... No job, no boyfriend, in debt, going through a divorce and living under my brothers roof who wants me out by the end of the year... I know...
    Gaffa1234 Gaffa1234 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 6

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    I just feel pushed to a dark corner... There is nowhere out, there is no hope...my first university major was in marketing. I spent over 6 years looking for a job in the field... I...
    SweetBrazilianLizzy SweetBrazilianLizzy 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    Most people around my age have it all. A good job, plenty of friends, few worries and are generally moving in the right direction, they get opportunities and can embrace life for...
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was told by my mother when I was younger to "act like there is a camera on you at all times." She told me this in an attempt to get me to quit some bad habits that I did when I...
    brint0n brint0n 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am not a JOKE!!! Yes, YOU!!! And your friends! Do I seriously look like one you can play around with and use, and then when you get something back, you drop? After all the things...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Im so different. I wish I had friends. Im always told im beautiful but always sucked at conversations. Im probally too much of a weirdo to be a model, but I get told I should model...
    PrettyUnique47 PrettyUnique47 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I feel as if I'm the biggest crybaby in the whole world. I hate my feelings, I hate being awake, I hate hating things. I feel as if my life is supposed to be this wonderful...
    imotakuchan imotakuchan 18-21, F Oct 31

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    Crying is a healthy release of overwhelming emotions. Water is such an excellent energy conductor. You know how taking a bath or shower just seems to always make you feel better...
    Oaktreeacorn Oaktreeacorn 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    I liked a guy friend for two years, told him my feelings, he said he needed time. Then as time went by, much less progress has been made. I finally decided to get over him, but it...
    liah1 liah1 26-30, F Nov 12

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    I'm a senior in high school. It's my last year I should be excited and everything. Instead I just feel like giving up and dropping out of school. It's not like I don't make good...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I want to tell someone how I feel but there's no one I can talk to. I was in a relationship until a few days ago but it ended because something bad happened to my girlfriend who is...
    Marylin13 Marylin13 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    because all I do these days is spend time on my laptop. Sometimes I think I could be addicted to the inter-net. But these days I spend most of time playing cards which can be very...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response a week ago

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    The day I drove my husband to the airport he took a part of me with him I want to feel like he feels nothing for the person that he spent 17 years with So why cant I why do I think...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F a week ago

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    If I like someone, I always feel ashamed of myself and inadequate for them. I'm running out of ways to simulate being loved. Feeling like I have very little happiness in my future...
    Nexile90 Nexile90 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I know she ins't really meaning to but sometimes it feels like shes pushing me away. She barely tells me whats wrong anymore and it honestly upsets me that she comes to me, it...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F 2 days ago

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