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I Feel Like I Am Out of Control

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    Ode To Me

      left empty and wanting wandering aimlessly through clouds of doubt Hurt feeling pain and crying trying to heal my wounds but they wont Alone all by myself scared this is for good looking for comfort in all the wrong places angry rage builds up and explodes from my body...
    Kaleveradaily Kaleveradaily 31-35, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Completely Lost And Flailing

    I have always been fairly quiet and even-tempered. I don't usually fight back when fought with. This is probably why my family has always chosen to pick on me, or at least it feels that way. I am technically an only child, but I consider my younger cousins to be my brother and...
    mommyeyes mommyeyes 26-30, F Mar 29, 2012

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    Can Make Good Descions For Myself

    i feel lost , i keep makeing bad descions , i am tired , i have a lot of personal problems ,                         april 20 still here in new york , i have...
    matts5 matts5 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    Off The Rails

    I think by now I've been honest enough and forthcoming enough and self-revelatory enough that it's a known fact I am highly sensual and very sexual.  This is not necessarily a fact about which I'm sanguine, but there isn't a whole hell of a lot that can be done to change it...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    My Finances And Goals I Set Just Don't Add Up

    but I am happy with my study right now... I love to read - sometimes I get down and want outside stimulation and fun with people naturally. I want to have friends to go out with occasionally, to a milk bar or cafes or night club occasionally... I got to budget my money better...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 20, 2011

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    Life Feels Out Of Control

    I feel like I have no control over my life anymore. I just keep making mistakes after mistakes. I just feel so lost and confused about everything in my life. I just wish I had control of my life again. I dont know what to do. My grades are bad. I dont really talk to my friends...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 4 Responses May 12, 2010

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    I Hate My Sleeping Partner

    im out of control most of the time! can't even stand the side of my damn hubby anymore, feels like i want to torn him to pieces!
    cheekah cheekah 31-35, F Jun 24, 2012

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    I have PTSD from abuse I endured in high school

    and some in college. My therapist has decided that she wants to start going through these ‘events’…So when I leave her office I feel worse about myself than when I went in. I get home and I usually cut or purge or both. I am just starting to work with her on some DBT...
    ikaelame ikaelame 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I'm Not Myself.

    I am in this kind of numb, not caring about anything mode.  I can't explain it.  All I know is that I've taken a carefree attitude in my life.  This is not like me and I want off this rollercoaster of hell. 
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    Uncontrollable Within The Controllable Zone!!!

    It is normal for us human where we feel this so called adrenaline rush. This is usually occurring during a special event that happens in our life, most likely during sports, contest, etc. We couldn’t help but to feel this kind of impulsive hormone that comes rushing in within...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F Feb 1, 2013

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    I Really Feel Like Ive Gone Out Of Control

    I dont know why but for a while now it seems like ive gone out of control and made mistakes I know I shouldnt be making. This summer I left my house for a couple of weeks to stay at my friends house because my parents got mad at me for something I did and I felt like I needed...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    Why Mummy Wears Sunglasses In The Snow......

    Well its a very good question, a very simple question from our 4 year old daughter isn't it dear? why does mummy wear sunglasses in the snow...well i will tell you why, because of you, they hide my tired, swollen eyes..that quite frankly look like **** holes in the snow...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Out Of Control?

    “I don’t like this feeling of being out of control” I say… “You’re not out of control my love… “ he whispers, “You’re in my control…”
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Friday...11.30am

    the very last time i heard your voice, the last sentence 'ring me when you want picking up from work,i love you' ....then the phonecall at work, you hadn't picked our beautiful daughter up, me thinking you had just lost track of time again you know, sat doing photos, but how...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    The Hardest Part...

    of my week has to be the weekends, I am sat on the bed trying to stop crying, trying to pull myself together, sat listening to the kids playing, such innocence in their words, such innocence in a sense that is totally destroyed, my youngest makes me laugh, she's only four,sat...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Cant Take Control Of My Mind!

    So two days ago i was venting about how unhappy i am in the relationship that i have been in for going on five years now. He loves me but shouldn't. What i did to him was so horrible on so many levels. The damage i have done is unforgivable. He has lost his confidence, his self...
    tornbetweenmymind tornbetweenmymind 22-25, F Mar 14, 2013

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    I Don't Feel Free Anymore

    Recently, my feelings have been out of control. Lots of things I wanna talk about but let's talk about one thing at a time. Since I joined this page on face-book "Revolution on the patriarchal society" I be came weirdly aggressive towards men, it is not like I started hating them...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I don't even know HOW I feel. I am having a very horrible week....maybe 2 weeks. Maybe more....I had an awful day today and I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. I want to share...
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    How do I stop driving myself crazy!? One little thought leads to another, which leads to another, and I end up with this big unrealistic scenario that keeps playing through my head...
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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
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    I've literally never been more depressed in my whole life. Why do I keep letting the same person control me and make me feel like I'm not even human.
    GabbyCot GabbyCot 18-21, F Sep 14

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    I'm just really really disappointed. I told my mom that this woman (I have a story of how I distrusted this adult who happens to be my moms close friend and how she is now bluntly...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    It's funny. I'm 27, turning 28 soon. All my life I have lived to please my parents. I decided to apply to college abroad once, got accepted. My parents weren't happy about it and...
    AsiG AsiG 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    My husband Johnny and I have been together for 2 years, married for a year and a half. We met through his older brother 2 1/2 years ago and started talking as friends. Neither one...
    ashleymarcia ashleymarcia 22-25, F Aug 28

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 31

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I’ve always listened to people when they said that it’s okay to be different. That’s why I always kinda tried to embrace it. But no matter where I go, People always seem to...
    Tweeter97 Tweeter97 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    Today I am feeling like this for sure. It seems like no one wants to be around me. When I open my mouth, usually something stupid comes out, and then I get contradicted or...
    goldenbeginning goldenbeginning 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    My husband often makes me feel like myself and our kids come in second to his friends and video games and whatever else he can distract himself with. I know it could be just me...
    AshWilkie AshWilkie 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I posted about a similar problem last night, and like most people the night is a very emotional time for me so I feel the need to post this again but from a slightly different...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M Sep 5

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    I'm an 18 year old kid that had an awesome childhood. My family was always tight knit, the kind that eats together ever night. During the past 4 years or so, my family has just...
    stonesfan367 stonesfan367 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 14

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    In high school I had many "friends", and many people always used to text me/talk to me on social media. I once had a sweet 16, invited many people, but not that many showed up...
    bbyfwn bbyfwn 18-21, F Aug 24

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    I have two rather close friends and sometimes I feel like when I talk to them about how I feel ..they don't understand or want to for that matter especially my one friend in...
    lostinfire lostinfire 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    So about 10 months ago I moved from the state I grew up in. I live about 500 miles from there now and when I got here I was busy with moving and buying a house and traveling for...
    ande7897 ande7897 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    So here I am. Conversing with strangers on the internet in search for a reason not to blow my brains out. In retrospect, I'm not surprised. I can see the whole sordid chain of...
    Stillnothing Stillnothing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    I feel like my step-mother hates me as clearly as I feel pain if I poke my own eyes. Its an almost tangible, clear feeling that was at the center of my childhood experience. Now...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Like the air that drifts between us I feel unimportant, unseen and uninteresting. People glance my way and see no more than scenery. Ostracised by my friends at school, I inhabit...
    BustedMonkey BustedMonkey 18-21, M Sep 7

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    Just having a really hard time right now. The love of my life just used and abused me so badly, except I still love her. She told me she would always love me, no matter what...
    BradleyBlei89 BradleyBlei89 22-25, M Sep 7

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    Everytime i walk out of the house i always get the feeling like someone's watching me.. Last year our school had some type of disco and i always felt like i was being watched.. I...
    aria3276 aria3276 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I am currently in high school and I have a couple of people I talk to in my classes but during the weekends I have no one to hang out with like others do. I'm not really a people...
    raisetheroof raisetheroof 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    Sweet Dreams? Sarahbella’s story about her bad dreams (http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Feel-Like-My-Dreams-Are-Telling-Me-Something/4781103#reply_5943032) got me...
    bethturner bethturner 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    i am so weird sometimes. i get so lonely but instead of seeking out companionship, what do i do? i push everyone away. i go hide. i drowned out the world with my music cranked up...
    SadisticBitch SadisticBitch 31-35, F Aug 23

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    I often feel like I'm on the outside of my friend group
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    I'll start complaining or ranting or describing my day or whatever you wanna call it and I feel like that's all I tend to do lately and I feel like i'm annoying the hell out of my...
    AlphaOmega007 AlphaOmega007 16-17, F Aug 27

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    I feel like this is more towards the people in my life that I interact with on a daily basis.. I can be very anti social, even with my own family. I mean, don't get me wrong. It...
    StoneColdNipZz StoneColdNipZz 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 28