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I Feel Like I Have Lost Myself

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    I don't even know how

    or why it happend and I guess it dosent't even matter anymore. I was so blinded by the depression and anxiety,all the lonelyness and desperation just drove me to become someone else.Someone I am not,someone I hate.All I cared about was a way out, a way to change everything but I...
    NARS1 NARS1 16-17 1 Response Apr 13

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    Fantasy Vs Reality

    My two favorite movies are Moulin Rouge and The Way We Were. Try as I might, I can never decide which one I like better, they both resonate with me. When I watch MR, I see an idealized view of love. They fought for each other, and in the end the only thing that tore them asunder...
    DearTinHeart DearTinHeart 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Lost Connection

    I have suffered from high levels of tension in my muscles for years but about 5 years ago I started getting the tension so bad in my neck that is was making my jaw ache and give my continuous tension headaches. I knew what the problem was: I was some how (subconsciously) tensing...
    peterrory peterrory 31-35, M May 25, 2011

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    Once I was a strong girl,

    had great friends, my dream job and was just strong. A year later, I am recently dumped, I am in the midst of walking away from my job and I hate myself.
    JeLaWa JeLaWa 22-25 1 Response Aug 31

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    Lost Soul

    I am not a believer in the other world. I am not a believer in anything really unless I see it with my own eyes. But everything I use to believe has come into question. My parents are devout Catholics, they worship daily and they attend church more than a priest at times. I use...
    Barrenwasteland Barrenwasteland 18-21 1 Response Aug 19, 2010

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    As far as I can remember I can't recall the

    last time my parents ever said I love you or we are proud of you hugged me or even had a discussion with me, I'm originally francophone and was sent to English highschool not knowing a word of English I built my self so many barriers not to be made fun of or have any one hurt me...
    alexaz66 alexaz66 26-30, M Aug 11

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    I feel like my life is going by too fast

    and that I don't know where to go after high school. I feel like I won't have a purpose afterwards. There is no job I'd really like to do - I don't know where to go from here. Everyday just seems like a waste. I'm on autopilot.
    madhousex madhousex 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    My life has forever changed from the past 2

    years. I am no longer myself! Who used to just live in today and not worry about anything. Now I have become this hard rock. Someone who is just doing her work, but not really living. Losing him forever changed my life! I don't know what I miss the most - him or my old self? I...
    endlesslyyyforever endlesslyyyforever 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I Have Lost Myself

    I used to be different. I didn't care what others think about me. I was happy yet very shy. It seems that now every day I am becoming a different person- I don't smile and laugh that much- what makes me sad is that I don't smile at all some days. I don't know what changed me and...
    brainstorm123 brainstorm123 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe

    and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month old son he died in bed with my husband a freak accident who was blamed he went crazy beat me left me for my cousin he ended up In jail now he is...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    Love Lost In Death

    Once upon a time ... this starts fairy tales, but my love story is a nightmare. It started amazingly. I fell in love with a boy right after I graduated high school. He promised the world and I believed everything he said. It was all so honest and sincere. I went off to...
    ChelCRae ChelCRae 70+ Dec 22, 2011

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    Few People Even Care About A 62 Year Old Lost Woman.

    Most everyone younger than me would be surprised that at my age, I am feeling lost. I recently was laid off and a friend of mine said "You didnt just lose your job, you lost yourself" How true that is, but I have lost myself longer than the 9 months I have been unemployed...
    ricishay ricishay 61-65, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2010

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    I Want To.

    Time passing tick tock from minutes to hoursRecluding yet it seems fate teasing my heart.Your presence deep inside my bloodI am torn inside keeping apartNothing consoles yet can’t move forward.Gates locked,sweet moments now memories of past.The key thrown at a distance,far...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Nov 23, 2013

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    What's Good For the Goose...

    With all the problems I have had in my marriage the last few years; I lost myself. Now; here's to getting my life back!!!!
    1Babe 1Babe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2009

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    I Feel Socially Lost

    My name is Kevin and I have developed a twisted perspective on life beginning around 5th grade. I was always social and still am and love to make people happy and embracing positive vibes. Through out middle school and high school i found that i have had a hard time concentrating...
    kevinwood93 kevinwood93 18-21 2 Responses May 18, 2013

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    On The Way To Find Myself

    Its my first experience to write a story that to about my personal life... we often feel we are professionals, good friends or any other kind of reputations we need to satisfy our soul.. Do i look good? am i lucky? is thr anyone who likes me? will i be a center of attraction...
    roops15th roops15th 18-21 Jul 11, 2011

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    as a teen boy, I assume

    that this may be normal... but sometimes I just feel like I don´t want to go on with this comedy. My dad left, my uncles left, my grandmother left, my mom left... I am alone. I don´t have my special someone, she loves someone else. My friends don´t know what´s going on, I...
    jsabina11 jsabina11 18-21, M Apr 4

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    Some days are good. Some aren't,

    I've always been told life is hard , Get over it. Why should it have to be. I can't do this...
    arabella1108 arabella1108 18-21, F Jul 29

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    I Dont Know What To Do.

    I am going to turn 21 in one month, i spent the last 3 years since highschool doing nothing but drinking and taking drugs. It all started after highschool i didn't get accepted to any colleges i thought i would. All my friends moved away but i had to stay and go to a community...
    Wastedplants Wastedplants 22-25, M Jul 14, 2013

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    Hate My Life At the Moment

    So weird really. I was always the strong one in our relationship and now I feel like I'm just crying for attention or something. At my age you would think you would be past feeling like this. My wife and I have been married for 15 years. It's my second marriage. We have a...
    MickeW MickeW 46-50 3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    I Am Definitely Not The Same Person Anymore

    I was alway the goody two shoes in life. I had great grades, a great boyfriend for 7 years, a good life. I started drinking a little bit while I was in high school senior year. I stopped because it wasnt as exciting as it was at first. SO I never in my life tried pot. Ever...
    mznativeprincess mznativeprincess 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2010

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    For The Children

    Today we the people in San Ignacio Cayo Belize C.A  are mourning the death of a 13 year old who went missing on Monday June 4th,2012. Her body was found yesterday June 6th, in a village DEAD..... This has been happening for years all over the world our children are been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 7, 2012

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    Losing It All

    A year ago if anyone told me I would be where I am today I never would have believed them. This year has been extremely difficult emotionally,personally, and financially. My Mom passed away,but she had to spend weeks in the hospital. Connected to tubes, wires, and machines she...
    Lifeisoverated Lifeisoverated 46-50 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    My Life Is Falling Apart

    Its funny how life turns out, i was born with a birthmak on my face, my parents thought i would never amount to much, they were very controling etc so i moved into my own place there i meet my partner, we have been together 14 yrs we have had our ups and downs, but lately i cant...
    littlemummy littlemummy 36-40 1 Response Nov 29, 2011

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    This Break Up Has Consumed Me And Broken Me Down

    So to give you guys a little background story into our relationship, I knew my ex all through my adolescent years and we were always very good friends and hung out in the same circles. When we were 18 years old, we started dating. He struggled with addiction problems in the...
    pugs390 pugs390 22-25, F Jun 28, 2013

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    Feeling So Lost, Alone, Unloved, Drowning....i'm Just Drowning Here.

    I have battled depression my entire life, Mom was never great, always made me feel worthless and unlovable. Dad was never around, never stopped it. I shut them both out and cut communication almost 2 years ago. I felt better without them. But now, I just feel lost and I can't...
    TearBottle TearBottle 26-30 2 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I Am No Longer Static.

    There's what I am, what I think I am and what I want to be. I have to let go of what I think I am because it takes liberties with what I want to be, interferes with it. I have to know what I am so that I can progress to what I want to be. You get hurt when you are proven not to...
    Explodey Explodey 22-25, M Jun 18, 2012

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    I Have Lost Me

    It was my fault. I let myself live my life around my husband's. Around his timing. His plans. His needs and wants. It used to work because I always managed to squeeze some time for me. But that all went away after my daughter came along. I love her to bits and have  not...
    Kuala Kuala 36-40 6 Responses Dec 16, 2008

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    I Lost Myself And My Happiness

    Throughout most of my life I have usually been a generally happy person. Granted, I did go through some patches of depression in early high school, but by junior year I felt as though I had just outgrown it. I loved everything about life! I could appreciate and enjoy even the...
    kms2011 kms2011 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    I can't even look myself in the mirror without

    being disgusted by every little inch of me. I have no idea "who I am", I'm in school graduating soon & everyday I doubt if that's really what I wanna do, do i even want to live is the ultimate question I ask myself daily and I hate that. my depression is so bad as well as my...
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F Feb 23

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    I feel like i have lost myself.

    I don't know who i am any more. I didn't realise till now that i am a completely different person. I have changed so much that a few of my friends question why i am the person i am now. I used to be a happy, carefree teenager that had so much fun and enjoyed life to the fullest...
    cnguyen1997 cnguyen1997 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Trying To Figure Things Out

    I am married to a wonderful man, we used to be a very outgoing couple. However reality set in and we started to get out lives together, since we've been on this good path of saving and building a future our social life fell apart. I used to be very outgoing and outspoken, and a...
    Diva77 Diva77 31-35 1 Response Jun 23, 2010

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    Lost And Forgotten

    I feel that not only have I lost myself, but I have also forgotten who I really am. I have always been a people pleaser, shy, a very obedient person, well-mannered, and a huge daydreamer! I have obviously been wanting to break away from the people-pleasing person that I was so...
    Mudd357 Mudd357 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I Have Lost Myself

    For a while now there has been not 1 day that I have not cried, even as I write this I'm sobbing. I just wish someone would give me a big hug that's all I don't ask for more. I really don't know what to do anymore the more I try to please others the...
    bienperdida09 bienperdida09 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    I Lost Myself In My Own Feelings Of Sadness And Fear.

    The day that my mom died out of cancer, i felt peace. For a while, for a second, for a thought that everything has ended, it brought me peace. I then, helped my father in preparing her burial, even though I felt like i helped less. Long story short, today is the 1st day of August...
    Atiara Atiara 16-17, F Jul 31, 2012

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    I've Lost Myself An Everything Else

    I'm only 21 and I've lost everything I honestly don't know who I am I used to be so out going and so talkative but now I hate everyone.. I'm bitter towards strangers and I pushed all of my friends away... And I'm always trying to push my boyfriend away to leave me.. I mean there...
    Melissacp Melissacp 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2012

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    My Marrage Is Drowing Me

    I am married to a man thats changed so much so many things i didnt know about my high school best friend or even half of his family there are so many things i wished I had known before we rushed into getting married . hes gotten hurt 6 years ago and lost every thing his 30 job he...
    theheartkeeper theheartkeeper 51-55, F Sep 3, 2013

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