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I Feel Like Im Different

different in the way that i feel so lonley even when im with people 519 People

    im a 27 yr old community college freshman.

    my whole life ive felt alienated and somehow different from the rest. i grew up in a family that consisted of a schizophrenic mother , a distant and cold father,and a brother with behavioral problems that exited from my life prematurely . what stood out to me growing up was the...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    onxy601 onxy601 18-21, F May 14, 2015

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    I don't know how to explain this,

    but i feel different. It's not bad, at all, I don't know. I may be a little drunk, easier to vent. But I met a girl recently who has an amazing heart. I love her mindset on life, it's so different from anything I've experienced. I can't explain how I feel but I've felt a minor...
    musikid48 musikid48 22-25, M Sep 8, 2015

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    Here's some honest writing about me,

    that's pretty much all it is, Yes, I'm skinny. I'm not anorexic, i eat till full. Yes, I'm dyslexic. My handwriting is a mess, my maths doesn't make sense but my right brain is incredible. Yes, I'm dyspraxic. I get bored while tying my shoe laces, and I'm clumsy. But I'm aware...
    GirllOnFire GirllOnFire 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    I Don't Belong In This World

    The world is an unforgiving place for somebody like me. I'm 15 years old, yet I want to grow up, so I can go to university... I was always much naturally smarter than everybody else, and hardly had to try at all, but I was not socially smarter. I had few friends growing up, and...
    ChosenJar ChosenJar 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 2, 2013

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    I'm Weird

    I know I'm different. I feel almost overpowered by my emotions. It's not necessarily a good or bad thing because I've came to understand the balance of both but I don't fit in. People don't dislike the difference in me which is apparently extremely visible to all, luckily enough...
    harraya harraya 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2011

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    BBCover BBCover 18-21, M Mar 11, 2014

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    I feel like am different from everyone els

    cause am not funny.smart can't do cool tricks or anything look ugly out of everyone I hang around with and everyone gives me dirty looks.
    rhysiee rhysiee 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 11, 2014

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    I feel like I'm in the way.

    Everything I comment on turns out to be a disaster. Maybe I should keep everything to myself. I'll just go talk to a wall.
    Somethingawful Somethingawful 16-17, F Jan 29, 2014

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    shivvvy05 shivvvy05 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16, 2015

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    I am only in the way.

    How will life get better, if be are always hurting me? It will not! How will life get better if i am alway putting myself down? It will not! How will I ever over come losing my mom? I will not! How will I ever make my dad stop being an alcoholic? I will not! I am a big fat ugly...
    Somethingawful Somethingawful 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1, 2014

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    I dont know what this is

    but at times my teeth feel numb but real stiff...and like there slowly growing and sharpening. When i touch them with my tongue they feel sharper, does anyone know what this is? The bridge of my nose get stiff, like the skin feels real stiff and just unflexible like not capable...
    BioWolf1234 BioWolf1234 16-17, M Sep 27, 2015

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    I have these moments often.

    I have a pit in my stomach, a broad stroke of sadness that's foreshadowed by a fear of death and losing my mind like a tragic tale. Dying and have lost it all, not being one with this world and not having final say on myself. I'm crying but not hysterically, just a single tear...
    Chpt17 Chpt17 22-25, M Apr 12, 2015

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    I'm not the only one,

    right? In regards to partying in college.. both my neighbors are throwing a party. It's 10:00 p.m on a Friday night and I'm just watching tv. I feel like I'm not living the norm college life. Everyone I've met at school parties, drinks, and goes out all the time. I'm totally ok...
    sabrina62995 sabrina62995 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    I was talking to a friend of mine,

    and he said "I wish my wife was just submissive and did what I wanted!" I thought about that. I let that sink in. That would be terrible. I mean, there would be perks, but overall no way. I want a women thats independent. knows what she wants and isn't scared or ashamed to...
    Parker0325 Parker0325 31-35, M Nov 12, 2015

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    Different And Proud

    I know how it feels to be cast different. I was born and raised in a small northern Indiana city the  name of the city was South Bend it was very simple and   country like it had none of the problems that plaque middle size cities I married and relocated to Gary...
    orionnights orionnights 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2010

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    I feel so lonely in this town,

    I don't talk to anyone anymore. Everyone drifted away. When I walk around or go out, I feel like a tourist everyone stares cause I dress different and act different. I wish I could go back to Oregon, that's where I feel like I belong.
    Kirerhor Kirerhor 22-25 Apr 24, 2014

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    I can feel the utterly broken walls

    and the heat that now unfroze my heart. the steel that once encased it now melted. it feels so alien yet it feels so good, I am so used to feeling a rage that had coursed through my veins for so very long but now all I feel is a heat. its a firey one yet its gentle like the soft...
    Nightshade721 Nightshade721 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I'm half Spanish and half white.

    There will always be clicks in schools and you can totally see it in my school. All the white girls don't except me because I have curly hair and I have an accent on some words and all the Spanish people don't except me because I'm white and I have too many "white girl friends...
    GraceUS99 GraceUS99 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2014

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    Im so different. I wish I had friends.

    Im always told im beautiful but always sucked at conversations. Im probally too much of a weirdo to be a model, but I get told I should model all the time. I always feel like im too thick to be a model tho. Ive never really been accepted by any one. Ive always just hung alone...
    PrettyUnique47 PrettyUnique47 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    Do you ever just go on YouTube to watch music

    videos, and 5 hours later you're watching a tutorial on how to talk to zebras?
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    Trapped

    I was a fun outspoken loud mouth teenager, but that all changed last year I turned angry and insecure hateing everyone everything but above all I hated myself. I began self-harming and being arrested for being violent towards my mother, my father was an abusive man and my mother...
    Rosiemajor Rosiemajor 16-17 Feb 7, 2013

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    Im Just Different

    I honestly dont think im anything like the other kids at my school. & that isnt totally a good thing. Im quiet. I want to be loud and fun, & i want to make people laugh all the time. I feel like everytime i say something people look at me like im an idiot. So i just stay quiet...
    dalexxo dalexxo 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2013

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    What Defines Us As - Normal???

    Merriam-Webster's dictionary defines NORMAL as: 1 - according with, constituting, or not deviating from a norm, rule, or principle 2 - conforming to a type, standard, or regular pattern; and as : of, relating to, or characterized by average intelligence or development b...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    I know I'm different.

    I sometimes wish someone was capable of understanding me, but I'm happy they can't.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 6, 2015

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    Half of you guys better pray the

    if you ever have a daughter, she doesn't run into a guy like you..
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    I Feel I Dont Belong

    Hello................................ This is my story i suppose i should tell you from the beginning I'm goth i feel different every day my friends they are very preppy people but i cant do it i cant be happy well i can but its hard to dress happily i feel that i don't...
    vampireprincess87 vampireprincess87 13-15 Oct 20, 2010

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    They say different is better

    than normal, but sometimes normal seems so much easier. Normal doesn't mean you don't have problems, but it does mean you can handle them civilly, or in a calmer more evenly tempered manner. Not saying being different means you are Crazy, but my different might. Crazy because I...
    ashalew ashalew 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2014

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    Lonely .

    Where to begin my name is Rosie. I am a 14 year old but have the knowledge of about an 18 year old. I am forever enclosed in my personal hell; one of the punishments is being the only girl in my family. There are many things I want to talk about but I’ll start with the basics...
    SecondsTillBreaking SecondsTillBreaking 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2012

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    But deep down, I know

    that I'm not.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2015

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    iamcharly iamcharly 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I feel like I'm special.

    ..like I'm meant to help people.. I really think I could have powers inside of me waiting to be unlocked and to help people it's weird I know....but all the time night and day I think about it. That I have a different life somewhere. I really think I have supernatural powers and...
    Maddib114 Maddib114 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 24, 2015

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    I am only in the way.

    How will life get better, if be are always hurting me? It will not! How will life get better if i am alway putting myself down? It will not! How will I ever over come losing my mom? I will not! How will I ever make my dad stop being an alcoholic? I will not! I am a big fat ugly...
    Somethingawful Somethingawful 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1, 2014

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    I feel like there's something everyone else

    knows that I have never caught onto and people just never say anything about it because its assumed that everyone knows it. I feel like once (if?) I find out what this is it'll make my life a lot easier and happier. Any insight?
    theoneironaut theoneironaut 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    Im Not Like The Rest Of Them

    my story is Simple.. i am a black guy who was raised with white people i know my real family and they dont like me becuz i am not like them. i grew up in group homes and foster homes and picked up a lot of character traits that make pople not like me.. it still bugs me i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 29, 2013

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    I Feel Alone And Disconnected From The World

    I have recently just move to a new state to better my life and dreams. i wanted to get away from my mom and our poor struggles and try to be more independent and focus on my goals. When i moved here I felt so alive and great at first, but i started to feel lonly and unsupported...
    djay135 djay135 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 8, 2011

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    I honestly think I'm the only happy person in

    my family. Everyone else complains about their marriage, money, everything. And I just here all "God provides". Seriously, why do people complain endlessly about their lives instead of going to God with our,making SOME kind of effort?
    CherrybombBetty CherrybombBetty 31-35, F Aug 12, 2015

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    I'm highly sexual yet I'm a Virgin I

    rather take belly dancing, workout or explore the day than than go party at night I connect better with older people ( not romantically) than people my own age I love researching how to be my best self I'm aching to become a success I listen to classical music, world music...
    LittleMissSunshine22 LittleMissSunshine22 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2015

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