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I Feel Like I'm Dying Inside

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    Russia

    I was born there I was an orphan there I was adopted there but now im here a world filled with lies,sl*ts and a*ssholes noww im 14 I was adopted at 11 months am i  NOT GOOD ENOUGH?
    larissacrater larissacrater 13-15, F 7 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Hug

    I need a hug does anyone want to hug me?
    larissacrater larissacrater 13-15, F May 8, 2013

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    My Interior Is Like A Desert As I Strive To Make My Outer Self A Pleasant Garden For Others... Failing...

    I wish that I could embrace every lonely hurting soul; To surprise them all with a love and understanding beyond words... Yet I myself am filled with darkness emptiness loneliness a desert thirst. What can I do? How can I remain standing and walking through this desert? When I...
    lightcast lightcast 26-30, M Jan 9, 2013

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    You Can Learn From My Story

    What is my life. My life consist's of a few important thing's. They are called values, because of them. I do what I do, and I be what I want to be. Some people don't know what their living for. Or shall I say, what's the purpose. I believe we all have our own purpose of living...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    Waiting

    I feel that i am waiting just the day of my death surviving. I feel i am living as a vegetable and for a human that is survive.
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    The Becoming

    I am dying inside All the parts that make  me…me, are dying. This is exactly what you think.   I will rise again as something different All that made me..me, will be gone. And I will wander with the rest feeding off the living in any way possible.   You...
    CeciliaBdoomed CeciliaBdoomed 26-30 Dec 7, 2010

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    ??? Bad Feelings ???

    ??? I don't know...! What I see I feel... What I hear reveal... Falsely coping with repeats of memories... Rear to be good ones... No laughter... No smiles... No love... ****..! I hate needing someone... Knowing... No where on this planet, noir outer space... Is there a...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Sep 3, 2013

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    :'( Dying Inside

    I want to bleed, I want to die, To slit my wrists, And say goodbye, Id run the blade, Alone my vein, I'd bleed to death, And end my pain, I'd fall asleep, I'd never wake, It seems to me, The choice to make, I feel like this, I don't know why, And every night, I sit and cry, I...
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2013

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    Severly Depressed

    my body is aching with pain, im not sick, its anxiety. it hurts so bad. feels like i cant breathe, all i do is cry. i dont wanna be here or anywhere. im not coping but no one can hear or see my pain. and no one cares, no one acknowledges they even notice me. i have put on a brave...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    Someone

    can someone message me please I need to talk to someone
    larissacrater larissacrater 13-15, F May 8, 2013

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    It's Strange

    It's a strange feeling when you come to the realization that you're emptier than you were the day before. You can't put your finger on it, but there's something missing today that you were absolutely sure was there yesterday. Little by little, you stop noticing the beauty in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 15, 2012

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    The Feeling Hurts So Much

    I feel so sad and empty that i don't know how to help myself. So much has happened this year that it feels like it's all caught up with me and now i don't think i can bare the pain of it. I thought i was doing really well, but now i can't stop crying. I know i'll get through it...
    Evernight Evernight 31-35, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2009

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    Dying To Live

    My family only consist me and my 21 year old daughter because I am apoted and no friends because I have a skin condition called PSORIASIS and on my scalp where I also get painful sores on my scalp I've tried everything in the stores for my PSORIASIS and nothing works I'm limited...
    Paula77 Paula77 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2012

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    I Feel It All Coming Back

    I know it's been a while since I've posted, so I just thought I would update how I've been doing. When I first got out of the hospital things were absolutely great. I had never felt so alive in my life. I didn't have any friends, but as soon as school started back I found the...
    JessiZombies JessiZombies 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2011

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    Yes....

    i feel like i am dying. i feel like i am slowly slipping away, and not even myself can save me.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    If I Had A Way Out Id Take It

    Iv tried to stay off here, im screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears. Hurting me is a way for my son to get attention Iv had it Im tired of being used abused, lied to and lied about If i had a way out of my life i would take it. I have nothing left in me only every...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F Sep 21, 2013

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    Never The Same.

    all the time i am deppressed. i feel my chest closing in. i feel feint time slows down. i wanna die.. nothing matters... i feel numb but i would crave pain. i have written poetry for the discription so here: I Have to go somewhere to escape this crazy mess people think...
    Jinx3scape Jinx3scape 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    Indeed

    We are all born to die. When and how is the untouchable paradigm. Because is not on our terms but up to the Universe to determine. Meanwhile, we remain in a constant state of painful growth. This knowledge and the pain of dying inside brings unsurpassed strength for us to...
    manlio99 manlio99 56-60 2 Responses May 7, 2012

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    I Life In Real Live

    I CANT DO THIS I CANT DO THIS.....I CANT GO TO THAT ******* DOOR, THAT DOOR HURT ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT PERSON BRAINWASHED ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN.....I AM A NICE GUY....RIGHT NOW I AM ******* PISSED WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD SAYS " YOU KNOW SHE...
    memyself4u memyself4u 22-25, M 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    Having been diagnosed with Cyclothymia I have

    at least the reasons for my poor life choices
    Madetobemad Madetobemad 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    Everyday, i spend hours reflecting on my past,

    my mistakes, my family, my future, Ect... I HATE everything about myself & my life. I wish i could donate my Heart/Organs to people who needs it. Painless Death i til ya. I guess its how i would want to end my life. Wont ever be possible. Wish there was law to say "You can...
    Ebtitel001 Ebtitel001 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Lost And Never Found

    I have chronic tinnitus and chronic constipation. I am losing weight rapidly. I have to take laxatives just to get a bowel movement. Something is wrong. I think I am going to die soon. Please help.
    cjohnso409 cjohnso409 51-55 1 Response Aug 24, 2012

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    Friend

    Who wants to be my friend???
    larissacrater larissacrater 13-15, F 2 Responses May 8, 2013

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    The Pain

    i get sooooooooooooo deprressseddd when i get my period and it sucks
    larissacrater larissacrater 13-15, F 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    I Do Not Like Feeling Empty.

    I realized today im no where near as empty as i have considered myself to be. I am filled with love for someone who is not here...i am filled with pain at that realization...i am filled with lonliness and not because people are not around...i am filled with a simple want to...
    withloveforever withloveforever 22-25, M Nov 21, 2010

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    A Lonely World, Is It?

    I have read things, People saying they need friends. They just don't want to be alone, and want someone to talk to. You see I don't need friends because I already have them. I have people to talk to when I am feeling lonely. The only difference is that none of my friends are with...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M May 19, 2013

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    You Think Your Alone

    I find that being alone is not in my best nature. I hate it. Through out my whole life I have felt anger. I use to let it build inside of me. The anger would cause me to say things, it would take control of my emotions. It caused me grief, pain and torment to this day forward...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    From The Outside My Life Looks Perfect

    I have everything that I've ever wanted. Husband kids house family friends but yet I am still miserable. I wake up feeling all over the place.I tell myself "what the hell is wrong with you why are you like this why aren't you happy". My husband doesn't know what to do for me and...
    unperfectly unperfectly 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2013

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    Dying

    They say that when people die in their sleep, they go peacefully. Yeah.... until they wake up in the morning to find out they're dead.
    NarutoShippudenFanGirl NarutoShippudenFanGirl 16-17, F Apr 8, 2013

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    It Hurts :(

    I don't always quite understand or know what triggers this but it always starts with me getting extremely depressed and it causes a ache in my chest where it feels like a sucking vacuum in my chest and it aches and feels ,the best way I can describe it, like my soul is dying just...
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface 22-25, F 1 Response May 2, 2013

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    Numb

    its 5am, im crying again, im dying inside and nobody knows it but me. im a real person living a fake life, pretending im ok, so people dont tell me to wake up to myself, get over it, deal with it, move on. i was going to work putting on this fake me,but i dont know that i can...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2013

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    Whats Happening

    every day is so cold i feel so alone i can feel something deep in me growing eating at my soul its getin darker its takeing over im slowly dyeing i need help this thing in side grows inside me and every day more things happen why am i cursed help me
    vice13 vice13 16-17 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    Absolute Downfall

    So it begins. I am about to go to the edge of hell again which means I might go through absolute suffering. But I'm just a liar I don't suffer. No one cares what I have to say. But somehow I'm going to hell. Heheheheheheheheh. Oh yes I'm definately going to hell.
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 Apr 22, 2012

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    Haunting Spirits

    Sitting on the park bench Staring at the bay Crying out to spirits That haunt me everyday Wishing they would leave me At peace to fall asleep Instead they come to poke me And grab my soul to keep I tell them that my heart hurts And is crumbling as it falls But they just keep on...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

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    I Feel So Numb.

    So this is my first post. i am new to this site so dont be too cruel to me.Well here it goes...I have been depressed for as long as i can remember.  It actually got worse when i got deployed to afghanistan this year (yes i am in the army, dont judge me.) but while i was out...
    heero22 heero22 18-21 5 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Zombies In My Head......

    I have demons in my head every day at the same time!! When i wake up i feel real good and the world is at my feet ....but every day i come home from work i collaps because i have to do a thing that is in my head unpossible and has never work out right for me!! How hard some...
    memyself4u memyself4u 22-25, M May 3, 2013

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    I Don't Want To Be Here

    I want to die.  I am mediocre at everything.  I am always so alone.  Without a soul to talk to openly.  It hurts badly that I feel so fatigued by my own negativity and lack of socialism and vibrancy.  I feel so bad that I want to collapse and...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    Seriously?

    Last night was just another one of those soul killing evenings.  My hubby of 36 years is now disabled and is unable to walk more then  10 steps without having to stop and rest.  I have pretty much cared for this man all of our marriage.  I was 17 when we got married and I had...
    teri58 teri58 51-55, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2011

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    Am I Okay?

    Ok. I know out in the world there are people out there like me....maybe. Sometimes I see things, that are nto actually there. It might be my imagination. When I see them I only see things for like one second. Sometimes I hear things that no one else can hear. Sometimes I get lost...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    I've always struggled with this. I always feel like I'm not a good enough friend, not a good enough spouse, not a good sister, not a good enough student, not a good enough person...
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    I ended a relationship with a girl who loved me, without explanation, suddenly, and after too fast a build-up. I've since moved cities twice and started a new career, starting...
    JonWinter JonWinter 36-40, M Apr 7

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    Lately, I've been feeling like I don't really fit in to my current group of friends. Even though they're people I've known for at least a few years, I'm starting to feel left out...
    Kay8712 Kay8712 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    "Perfectionism can feel like a friend who you think is encouraging you but is actually the enemy within, the perfectionist bully inside your head, undermining all your achievements...
    mfpf mfpf 31-35, F Mar 26

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    I am never happy. Yes, I may smile, but deep inside I am just never in a good mood. I stay depressed and sad. I work full time, but I do not make enough to live on my own or pay...
    berlynn20 berlynn20 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    After having this feeling oftenly, I realized that you are not alone. You only feel lonely. All you need is a hug😊💕
    allisonslim allisonslim 22-25, F Mar 28

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    I'm overweight and my self confidence is low but I don't hate my body. I'm 5'8" and weigh 375 lbs I've had this question stuck on my mind a lot lately because I've noticed that all...
    fgarci04 fgarci04 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I hate that this is a topic. Nobody should ever have to feel like this. And I know it's easy to just say, "oh well you're good enough don't worry," but it's another thing to...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I'm over here depressed as hell and she's too busy playing video games to even notice..
    XxSaintsEyesxX XxSaintsEyesxX 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I feel like **** right now.
    littlemeonly littlemeonly 13-15, F Apr 9

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    People say there is no such thing as middle child syndrome but sometimes I can't help think that maybe it could be true. I am middle to two brothers and the only girl. I have...
    Clagerag Clagerag 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I Have been with my girlfriend for about 6 months now and she has a little girl from her previous relationship. The little girls dad is in jail and has been there for the past 2...
    jboy1967 jboy1967 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    Is this feeling mine or have I been made to feel like it?!? Has anyone been in this situation . I am constantly in battle. I can only do to the best of my ability knowing that it...
    saeed78 saeed78 31-35, M Mar 31

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    I'm not sure if it's because I've loved and lost... the fact I had and now don't... or the fact because I've reached the unreachable and have been found completely useless and...
    armyguyclaude armyguyclaude 26-30, M Apr 6

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