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I Feel Like I'm Dying Inside

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    Having been diagnosed with Cyclothymia I have

    at least the reasons for my poor life choices
    Madetobemad Madetobemad 46-50, F Jan 8, 2014

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    I've worked so hard for

    so long to be where I am. Now I have the first college degree in my family, I'm an engineer. It's been a long painful road motivated by a need to support myself so that I would never be stuck in any situation or abusive relationship. I never wanted to.depend on anyone for...
    outofgascompletely outofgascompletely 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 23, 2014

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    The Becoming

    I am dying inside All the parts that make  me…me, are dying. This is exactly what you think.   I will rise again as something different All that made me..me, will be gone. And I will wander with the rest feeding off the living in any way possible.   You...
    CeciliaBdoomed CeciliaBdoomed 26-30 Dec 7, 2010

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    I'm just sitting here on days off smoking weed

    to make the pain and sadness go away... Day 3 in a row. Here we go.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    Indeed

    We are all born to die. When and how is the untouchable paradigm. Because is not on our terms but up to the Universe to determine. Meanwhile, we remain in a constant state of painful growth. This knowledge and the pain of dying inside brings unsurpassed strength for us to...
    manlio99 manlio99 56-60 2 Responses May 7, 2012

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    I miss you so much that I feel like dying babe

    😔 I'm pretending to be strong and okay in front of others which is not like me but inside me I feel like dying and I cry my heart out when no one is looking
    lydiasangi lydiasangi 18-21, F Oct 23, 2014

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    I feel like I keep fixing things

    but people surround me were not helping. Honesty I doubt myself that I can help and make things right.
    thomascalvinn thomascalvinn 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    Haunting Spirits

    Sitting on the park bench Staring at the bay Crying out to spirits That haunt me everyday Wishing they would leave me At peace to fall asleep Instead they come to poke me And grab my soul to keep I tell them that my heart hurts And is crumbling as it falls But they just keep on...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

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    Dying Inside Just Waiting For The Rest Of Me To Catch Up

    I feel so empty that it aches and yet so full that I could burst... I don't know which is worse. I feel lonely all the time, even when surrounded by friends and/or family. After I lost 2 people very close to my heart to suicide ( a month apart from each other), I felt like my...
    ioutfoxedyou ioutfoxedyou 22-25, F Aug 14, 2011

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    From The Outside My Life Looks Perfect

    I have everything that I've ever wanted. Husband kids house family friends but yet I am still miserable. I wake up feeling all over the place.I tell myself "what the hell is wrong with you why are you like this why aren't you happy". My husband doesn't know what to do for me and...
    unperfectly unperfectly 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2013

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    I love my wife(Don't judge her too harshly,

    she isn't here to defend her self after all) but more and more its becoming love in the abstract because I am finding that our conversations turn to fights with alarming regularity. To be fair we have been together for almost 8 years and that does things to a person but I still...
    whowantstoknow97 whowantstoknow97 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    not my fault just feel like I am forget feel I

    know I am especially when someone u love says something u never though they would
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2014

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    Friend

    Who wants to be my friend???
    larissacrater larissacrater 16-17, F 2 Responses May 8, 2013

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    Dying To Live

    My family only consist me and my 21 year old daughter because I am apoted and no friends because I have a skin condition called PSORIASIS and on my scalp where I also get painful sores on my scalp I've tried everything in the stores for my PSORIASIS and nothing works I'm limited...
    Paula77 Paula77 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2012

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    Im drowning and you are standing 3 feet away

    SCREAMIMG "LEARN HOW TO SWIM!"
    cuddlesforsnuggles cuddlesforsnuggles 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    Waiting

    I feel that i am waiting just the day of my death surviving. I feel i am living as a vegetable and for a human that is survive.
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    Am I Okay?

    Ok. I know out in the world there are people out there like me....maybe. Sometimes I see things, that are nto actually there. It might be my imagination. When I see them I only see things for like one second. Sometimes I hear things that no one else can hear. Sometimes I get lost...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    :'( Dying Inside

    I want to bleed, I want to die, To slit my wrists, And say goodbye, Id run the blade, Alone my vein, I'd bleed to death, And end my pain, I'd fall asleep, I'd never wake, It seems to me, The choice to make, I feel like this, I don't know why, And every night, I sit and cry, I...
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2013

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    A Lonely World, Is It?

    I have read things, People saying they need friends. They just don't want to be alone, and want someone to talk to. You see I don't need friends because I already have them. I have people to talk to when I am feeling lonely. The only difference is that none of my friends are with...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M May 19, 2013

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    If I Had A Way Out Id Take It

    Iv tried to stay off here, im screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears. Hurting me is a way for my son to get attention Iv had it Im tired of being used abused, lied to and lied about If i had a way out of my life i would take it. I have nothing left in me only every...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F Sep 21, 2013

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    It's Strange

    It's a strange feeling when you come to the realization that you're emptier than you were the day before. You can't put your finger on it, but there's something missing today that you were absolutely sure was there yesterday. Little by little, you stop noticing the beauty in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 15, 2012

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    Severly Depressed

    my body is aching with pain, im not sick, its anxiety. it hurts so bad. feels like i cant breathe, all i do is cry. i dont wanna be here or anywhere. im not coping but no one can hear or see my pain. and no one cares, no one acknowledges they even notice me. i have put on a brave...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    Lets start am army/group to do evil things fun

    things in real life, this is real. If you are in USA please contact me
    SamTraveler16 SamTraveler16 16-17, M Mar 5, 2014

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    Hug

    I need a hug does anyone want to hug me?
    larissacrater larissacrater 16-17, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    ??? Bad Feelings ???

    ??? I don't know...! What I see I feel... What I hear reveal... Falsely coping with repeats of memories... Rear to be good ones... No laughter... No smiles... No love... ****..! I hate needing someone... Knowing... No where on this planet, noir outer space... Is there a...
    faded1 faded1 36-40, F Sep 3, 2013

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    I Feel It All Coming Back

    I know it's been a while since I've posted, so I just thought I would update how I've been doing. When I first got out of the hospital things were absolutely great. I had never felt so alive in my life. I didn't have any friends, but as soon as school started back I found the...
    DetachedCitizen DetachedCitizen 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2011

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    I Do Not Like Feeling Empty.

    I realized today im no where near as empty as i have considered myself to be. I am filled with love for someone who is not here...i am filled with pain at that realization...i am filled with lonliness and not because people are not around...i am filled with a simple want to...
    withloveforever withloveforever 22-25, M Nov 21, 2010

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    Every morning before I wake up.

    I see this light surrounded by darkness like a tunnel. I run towards the light but then I wake up with a migraine and heartache. my mom says it's just hunger but I eat and it's still there that pain. it's killing me, like someone threw sulfuric acid down my throat. my insides...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 22

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    I am one of the sweetest most caring

    individuals u could hope to meet. I love to make people laugh and feel better. In turn, it does the same for me. But the truth is I'm a mess. I'm such a mess.. I've been watching my husband battle heart disease, cancer, die while driving , u name it for years... We would also...
    Amginn Amginn 36-40 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    No one wants me. Everyone has hated me lately.

    Everyone has someone special. I'm a good person, don't I derserve someone's love? Someone that I want? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    Whats Happening

    every day is so cold i feel so alone i can feel something deep in me growing eating at my soul its getin darker its takeing over im slowly dyeing i need help this thing in side grows inside me and every day more things happen why am i cursed help me
    vice13 vice13 16-17 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    I Feel So Numb.

    So this is my first post. i am new to this site so dont be too cruel to me.Well here it goes...I have been depressed for as long as i can remember.  It actually got worse when i got deployed to afghanistan this year (yes i am in the army, dont judge me.) but while i was out...
    heero22 heero22 18-21 4 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Numb

    its 5am, im crying again, im dying inside and nobody knows it but me. im a real person living a fake life, pretending im ok, so people dont tell me to wake up to myself, get over it, deal with it, move on. i was going to work putting on this fake me,but i dont know that i can...
    drained2 drained2 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2013

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    Absolute Downfall

    So it begins. I am about to go to the edge of hell again which means I might go through absolute suffering. But I'm just a liar I don't suffer. No one cares what I have to say. But somehow I'm going to hell. Heheheheheheheheh. Oh yes I'm definately going to hell.
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 Apr 22, 2012

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    Yes....

    i feel like i am dying. i feel like i am slowly slipping away, and not even myself can save me.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    Someone

    can someone message me please I need to talk to someone
    larissacrater larissacrater 16-17, F May 8, 2013

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    My energy is just....

    gone. I'm finding it harder and harder to feel emotion, and more often than not I get lost in my own little world, thinking about the emotionless, heartless thing I'm becoming. It's like I've been losing a battle against myself, if that makes any sense.
    marshababy33 marshababy33 13-15, F Jul 26

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    You Think Your Alone

    I find that being alone is not in my best nature. I hate it. Through out my whole life I have felt anger. I use to let it build inside of me. The anger would cause me to say things, it would take control of my emotions. It caused me grief, pain and torment to this day forward...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    I Don't Want To Be Here

    I want to die.  I am mediocre at everything.  I am always so alone.  Without a soul to talk to openly.  It hurts badly that I feel so fatigued by my own negativity and lack of socialism and vibrancy.  I feel so bad that I want to collapse and...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    wind blew in my face

    and i closed my eyes as i reached out of the car window and let the little falling leaves softly kiss my fingertips. "what's wrong you aren't speaking much today," he said as he peared over to me. from the corner of my eyes i could see his questioning expression. "i'm dying," i...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel 18-21, F May 18, 2014

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    The Pain

    i get sooooooooooooo deprressseddd when i get my period and it sucks
    larissacrater larissacrater 16-17, F May 7, 2013

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    I Luv U

    omg this has never happened to me before!! ....my heart is aching soo much am struggling to take a breath..feels like something heavy is pressing on my chest..dont know what to do!..feels like am dying without you 
    Tarule Tarule 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 30, 2012

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    Never The Same.

    all the time i am deppressed. i feel my chest closing in. i feel feint time slows down. i wanna die.. nothing matters... i feel numb but i would crave pain. i have written poetry for the discription so here: I Have to go somewhere to escape this crazy mess people think...
    Jinx3scape Jinx3scape 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    You Can Learn From My Story

    What is my life. My life consist's of a few important thing's. They are called values, because of them. I do what I do, and I be what I want to be. Some people don't know what their living for. Or shall I say, what's the purpose. I believe we all have our own purpose of living...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    Everyday, i spend hours reflecting on my past,

    my mistakes, my family, my future, Ect... I HATE everything about myself & my life. I wish i could donate my Heart/Organs to people who needs it. Painless Death i til ya. I guess its how i would want to end my life. Wont ever be possible. Wish there was law to say "You can...
    Ebtitel001 Ebtitel001 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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