I Feel Like I'm Dying Inside

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    Never The Same.

    all the time i am deppressed. i feel my chest closing in. i feel feint time slows down. i wanna die.. nothing matters... i feel numb but i would crave pain. i have written poetry for the discription so here: I Have to go somewhere to escape this crazy mess people think...
    Jinx3scape Jinx3scape
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Nov 8, 2010

    Everyday, i spend hours reflecting on my past,

    my mistakes, my family, my future, Ect... I HATE everything about myself & my life. I wish i could donate my Heart/Organs to people who needs it. Painless Death i til ya. I guess its how i would want to end my life. Wont ever be possible. Wish there was law to say "You can...
    Ebtitel001 Ebtitel001
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2014

    If I Had A Way Out Id Take It

    Iv tried to stay off here, im screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears. Hurting me is a way for my son to get attention Iv had it Im tired of being used abused, lied to and lied about If i had a way out of my life i would take it. I have nothing left in me only every...
    drained2 drained2
    51-55, F
    Sep 21, 2013

    Someone

    can someone message me please I need to talk to someone
    larissacrater larissacrater
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 8, 2013

    ??? Bad Feelings ???

    ??? I don't know...! What I see I feel... What I hear reveal... Falsely coping with repeats of memories... Rear to be good ones... No laughter... No smiles... No love... ****..! I hate needing someone... Knowing... No where on this planet, noir outer space... Is there a...
    faded1 faded1
    36-40, F
    Sep 3, 2013

    Having been diagnosed with Cyclothymia I have

    at least the reasons for my poor life choices
    Madetobemad Madetobemad
    46-50, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    wind blew in my face

    and i closed my eyes as i reached out of the car window and let the little falling leaves softly kiss my fingertips. "what's wrong you aren't speaking much today," he said as he peared over to me. from the corner of my eyes i could see his questioning expression. "i'm dying," i...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel
    18-21, F
    May 18, 2014

    I Luv U

    omg this has never happened to me before!! ....my heart is aching soo much am struggling to take a breath..feels like something heavy is pressing on my chest..dont know what to do!..feels like am dying without you 
    Tarule Tarule
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2012

    I Feel It All Coming Back

    I know it's been a while since I've posted, so I just thought I would update how I've been doing. When I first got out of the hospital things were absolutely great. I had never felt so alive in my life. I didn't have any friends, but as soon as school started back I found the...
    DetachedCitizen DetachedCitizen
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2011

    I feel like I keep fixing things

    but people surround me were not helping. Honesty I doubt myself that I can help and make things right.
    thomascalvinn thomascalvinn
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 16, 2014

    I Do Not Like Feeling Empty.

    I realized today im no where near as empty as i have considered myself to be. I am filled with love for someone who is not here...i am filled with pain at that realization...i am filled with lonliness and not because people are not around...i am filled with a simple want to...
    withloveforever withloveforever
    22-25, M
    Nov 21, 2010

    Am I Okay?

    Ok. I know out in the world there are people out there like me....maybe. Sometimes I see things, that are nto actually there. It might be my imagination. When I see them I only see things for like one second. Sometimes I hear things that no one else can hear. Sometimes I get lost...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 14, 2013

    I Don't Want To Be Here

    I want to die.  I am mediocre at everything.  I am always so alone.  Without a soul to talk to openly.  It hurts badly that I feel so fatigued by my own negativity and lack of socialism and vibrancy.  I feel so bad that I want to collapse and...
    BBUDS BBUDS
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 29, 2010

    :'( Dying Inside

    I want to bleed, I want to die, To slit my wrists, And say goodbye, Id run the blade, Alone my vein, I'd bleed to death, And end my pain, I'd fall asleep, I'd never wake, It seems to me, The choice to make, I feel like this, I don't know why, And every night, I sit and cry, I...
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2013

    A Lonely World, Is It?

    I have read things, People saying they need friends. They just don't want to be alone, and want someone to talk to. You see I don't need friends because I already have them. I have people to talk to when I am feeling lonely. The only difference is that none of my friends are with...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
    18-21, M
    May 19, 2013

    You Think Your Alone

    I find that being alone is not in my best nature. I hate it. Through out my whole life I have felt anger. I use to let it build inside of me. The anger would cause me to say things, it would take control of my emotions. It caused me grief, pain and torment to this day forward...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 8, 2013

    Indeed

    We are all born to die. When and how is the untouchable paradigm. Because is not on our terms but up to the Universe to determine. Meanwhile, we remain in a constant state of painful growth. This knowledge and the pain of dying inside brings unsurpassed strength for us to...
    manlio99 manlio99
    56-60
    2 Responses May 7, 2012

    I'm just sitting here on days off smoking weed

    to make the pain and sadness go away... Day 3 in a row. Here we go.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 21, 2015

    not my fault just feel like I am forget feel I

    know I am especially when someone u love says something u never though they would
    Angel2345 Angel2345
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    Numb

    its 5am, im crying again, im dying inside and nobody knows it but me. im a real person living a fake life, pretending im ok, so people dont tell me to wake up to myself, get over it, deal with it, move on. i was going to work putting on this fake me,but i dont know that i can...
    drained2 drained2
    51-55, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2013
    SuriAnne SuriAnne
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    Probably I am dead for him.

    I'm dying actually, I don't have a reason to live anymore.
    hashsoul hashsoul
    31-35, F
    Oct 31, 2015

    Severly Depressed

    my body is aching with pain, im not sick, its anxiety. it hurts so bad. feels like i cant breathe, all i do is cry. i dont wanna be here or anywhere. im not coping but no one can hear or see my pain. and no one cares, no one acknowledges they even notice me. i have put on a brave...
    drained2 drained2
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2013

    I love my wife(Don't judge her too harshly,

    she isn't here to defend her self after all) but more and more its becoming love in the abstract because I am finding that our conversations turn to fights with alarming regularity. To be fair we have been together for almost 8 years and that does things to a person but I still...
    whowantstoknow97 whowantstoknow97
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2014

    Whats Happening

    every day is so cold i feel so alone i can feel something deep in me growing eating at my soul its getin darker its takeing over im slowly dyeing i need help this thing in side grows inside me and every day more things happen why am i cursed help me
    vice13 vice13
    16-17
    Dec 27, 2012

    It's Strange

    It's a strange feeling when you come to the realization that you're emptier than you were the day before. You can't put your finger on it, but there's something missing today that you were absolutely sure was there yesterday. Little by little, you stop noticing the beauty in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 15, 2012

    You Can Learn From My Story

    What is my life. My life consist's of a few important thing's. They are called values, because of them. I do what I do, and I be what I want to be. Some people don't know what their living for. Or shall I say, what's the purpose. I believe we all have our own purpose of living...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
    18-21, M
    May 12, 2013

    From The Outside My Life Looks Perfect

    I have everything that I've ever wanted. Husband kids house family friends but yet I am still miserable. I wake up feeling all over the place.I tell myself "what the hell is wrong with you why are you like this why aren't you happy". My husband doesn't know what to do for me and...
    unperfectly unperfectly
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2013

    No one wants me. Everyone has hated me lately.

    Everyone has someone special. I'm a good person, don't I derserve someone's love? Someone that I want? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    I Feel So Numb.

    So this is my first post. i am new to this site so dont be too cruel to me.Well here it goes...I have been depressed for as long as i can remember.  It actually got worse when i got deployed to afghanistan this year (yes i am in the army, dont judge me.) but while i was out...
    heero22 heero22
    18-21
    4 Responses Nov 1, 2011

    I am one of the sweetest most caring

    individuals u could hope to meet. I love to make people laugh and feel better. In turn, it does the same for me. But the truth is I'm a mess. I'm such a mess.. I've been watching my husband battle heart disease, cancer, die while driving , u name it for years... We would also...
    Amginn Amginn
    36-40
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    Friend

    Who wants to be my friend???
    larissacrater larissacrater
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2013

    The Becoming

    I am dying inside All the parts that make  me…me, are dying. This is exactly what you think.   I will rise again as something different All that made me..me, will be gone. And I will wander with the rest feeding off the living in any way possible.   You...
    CeciliaBdoomed CeciliaBdoomed
    26-30
    Dec 7, 2010

    Waiting

    I feel that i am waiting just the day of my death surviving. I feel i am living as a vegetable and for a human that is survive.
    marirosi marirosi
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 20, 2013

    Haunting Spirits

    Sitting on the park bench Staring at the bay Crying out to spirits That haunt me everyday Wishing they would leave me At peace to fall asleep Instead they come to poke me And grab my soul to keep I tell them that my heart hurts And is crumbling as it falls But they just keep on...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2012

    I've worked so hard for

    so long to be where I am. Now I have the first college degree in my family, I'm an engineer. It's been a long painful road motivated by a need to support myself so that I would never be stuck in any situation or abusive relationship. I never wanted to.depend on anyone for...
    outofgascompletely outofgascompletely
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 23, 2014

    I think I have copper poising.

    So it's 3 am, mums at work. I spilt copper sulphate on my hands yesterday in science. I immediately washed it off. By the time I got to the tap it was dry there and the teacher said at the start of the class that it will absorb into your skin and you may die. What the **** am I...
    ScottM13 ScottM13
    13-15, M
    1 Response Oct 27, 2015

    Im drowning and you are standing 3 feet away

    SCREAMIMG "LEARN HOW TO SWIM!"
    cuddlesforsnuggles cuddlesforsnuggles
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 25, 2014

    I miss you so much that I feel like dying babe

    😔 I'm pretending to be strong and okay in front of others which is not like me but inside me I feel like dying and I cry my heart out when no one is looking
    lydiasangi lydiasangi
    18-21, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    Every morning before I wake up.

    I see this light surrounded by darkness like a tunnel. I run towards the light but then I wake up with a migraine and heartache. my mom says it's just hunger but I eat and it's still there that pain. it's killing me, like someone threw sulfuric acid down my throat. my insides...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 22, 2015

    Yes....

    i feel like i am dying. i feel like i am slowly slipping away, and not even myself can save me.....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 30, 2009

    My energy is just....

    gone. I'm finding it harder and harder to feel emotion, and more often than not I get lost in my own little world, thinking about the emotionless, heartless thing I'm becoming. It's like I've been losing a battle against myself, if that makes any sense.
    marshababy33 marshababy33
    13-15, F
    Jul 26, 2015

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