I Feel Like I'm Losing My Mind

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    All my life I had family backstab me

    and lie to me. I get friends who turn out to not be my friends. When I finally get a friend I end up moving. Same thing when I meet a girl I like. I'm forced to live with family that has absolute no sympathy for me. I have never lived somewhere more than a year. Everyone says...
    HERO132 HERO132
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 28, 2015

    I don't know what it is,

    I seem to be losing my empathy, I switch between moods so quickly its scares me never mind other people. I get hopelessly attached to something for while but can never commit for a long time, I struggle to find the meaning in stuff or understand consequences for my actions. It...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 18, 2013

    Just Another Phase?

    I don't understand it...I thought I was getting better....I thought I could control it. I used to feel my moods swings coming and could at least try to stop them. But lately...well....I don't know..it's like they hit me like a big ******* truck. I don't want to eat anymore. I...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    7 Responses Sep 14, 2009

    I don't know where the darkness ends

    and I begin. I'm trapped inside my mind. So many horrifying emotions that render me unable to speak or move, so i just give in and let it swallow me. I don't know who I am, perhaps I never did. Sleep used to be my greatest escape, but this darkness is a merciless master, it's...
    U1049927 U1049927
    18-21, M
    Aug 13, 2015

    I Already Have

    I'm completely off the rails... I think. I don't know if I truly am insane or just an over thinking, overly curious, and confused teen. I find my mind...in the middle of nowhere with everything. It's so strange, I am, but....I've always been like this. When I was a little girl I...
    stellastarz420 stellastarz420
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 21, 2012

    It's crazy. I'm crazy.

    God, I don't even ******* know. I'm with this amazing guy. His feelings for me are impossible to question. He loves me. I know it. He let's me feel it every time I'm with him. He doesn't hesitate to show me how much I mean to him. He has met every single one of my family, he...
    ohmyfvck ohmyfvck
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2014

    I Have To Vent This Out.

        It all started when he was 6 days old. He had his first two small seizures. By the next day they got worse.     I used to dream about having my child....the midnight wake ups. The lack of sleep. The cuddles..watching him do all those little...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    27 Responses Jan 3, 2010

    When You Put It All Away And Lock That Door..............

    Sometimes the pain finally breaks out of the dark room and attacks full force. All the **** that you were either too chicken, stupid, and weak to deal with. Life kicks you when you are down...and takes great pleasure in doing so. That little thing that happened years ago...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    9 Responses Apr 5, 2010

    Everyone was laughing at me.

    they think I'm weird. Crazy. I don't blame them. Monster. Self imposed indulgence, you hate me? I hate you. I hate all of you. Not really. Not you..just the clouds. They're human too. I like spurting out random thoughts online..no one knows who you are..I hope not.
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    Life Kicks You When You're Down.

    This year has been hell. And things slowly build until they have NOWHERE else to go. First off....my son...no answers..no reason...same problems. *sighs* Then losing the twins at 17 weeks. We had names picked out..we started getting clothes and bottles. Then the D&E...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    32 Responses Nov 19, 2009

    Feeling Emotionally Torn

      I just lost my fetus in April-May (miscarriage and D and E). I know that it's probably just my hormones but I feel like I'm going insane. I start crying about nearly everything and get mad about the rest. I wanted to swaddle a my sons teddy bear and couldn't stop crying...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    31 Responses Jun 12, 2009

    I feel like I'm losing it I mean like I can't

    focus on any thing seeing and thinking voices will go muffled from time to time more frequently as the days pass my mind it wanders to strang thought that arnt mien I start to see 2 to 3 of one thing I am having trouble feeling pain or any thing really please HELP ME!?
    Shadow500 Shadow500
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 21, 2014

    Sometimes I feel like

    if I just allowed myself to completely lose my mind - I would be much happier.
    meowmix29 meowmix29
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    They say that time heals all wounds.

    But some wounds are too deep for time to repair.
    U1049927 U1049927
    18-21, M
    Aug 17, 2015
    Nickymissyou Nickymissyou
    41-45, F
    Oct 16, 2015
    hamz11 hamz11
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    So Where Do I Start?

      A few days ago I wanted to kill myself. I didn't od but cut more than I ever had. I felt weak and ashamed. I still do. Crap I can't get my thoughts in order.   I'm lost two cats to poisonings. They both died. My familiar Cinder died yesterday. I had him since he was...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    28 Responses Oct 8, 2009
    FracturedMind2 FracturedMind2
    26-30, M
    Sep 26, 2015

    Have you ever found something

    that makes you feel secure? I found that something was booze and a gay scene, but that security has now become my biggest insecurity it's made me doubt who I am and what I'm about, question my abilities and grow to hate myself even more. I have Emotionally unstable personality...
    LadySweetz LadySweetz
    18-21, F
    Jun 27, 2015

    Sometimes I actually get scared.

    I start to fear myself. I stop trusting myself in fear that I'll do something without realizing it. Flashes of images run through my eyes. Able to see the changes I can do. So easily, so effortlessly. Seeing the possibilities that I can do. Energy runs in my aura. The sudden...
    hallow1331 hallow1331
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I just want someone to take care of me.

    I'm tired of being the leader.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 1

    Humanity: All Faith Is Lost

    Most kids say they can't wait until they are older to have the experience of adults, I was once one of these kids too. I was hopeful and excited for the future thinking it had so much to bring. I shiver at the words "life is what you make it" because its what I based all my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 26, 2013

    I've had an extremely stressful year

    and I have been so busy and I have not been taking care of myself and I know that is a contributing factor but there is something weird going on with me right now and I am having trouble getting a grip on it. I'm experiencing these weird time echos. My son was sick and in the...
    MuguetDeMai MuguetDeMai
    41-45, F
    Dec 19, 2015

    I Genuinely Believe That Without Help, My Mind May Crack.

    Hello there, fellow sufferers of mental disorders, This will be a long story, I'm afraid but I seriously need to get all of these factors off my chest and I would appreciate it if you read the events in their entirety. Let me begin by stating that I had a perfectly stereotypical...
    DubVolatile DubVolatile
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 20, 2012

    I Just Want to Scream....to................................

    I don't know what I want to do. Okay so that's a lie. I want to and I feel I shouldn't. Right now I can't think straight and feel like crying. I feel like cutting. I feel like screaming. I want to laugh and am truly trying. But the smiles are all false right now. My heart is...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    Aug 1, 2009

    I am afraid I will miss the end of EP,

    it has been a long fun journey. I have peen fighting the urge to kill myself now for months, and it is getting stronger daily. I have a few things that are keeping me here and somewhat balanced. The first is my urge to enact revenge, and yes I have plans for that too. I want...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 18

    Why these straight boys can't leave me alone.

    .??? Don't they have beautiful girlfriends?I mean if they are really straight??? I'm scared of attaching emotionally with someone... At last it hurts a lot... Why these straight boys can't mind their own business !!
    BRG8 BRG8
    18-21, M
    May 6, 2014

    I love you...but I'm not

    even ******* sure what to do now...I dont know if what you're telling me are lies...I don't feel like I can trust you.....you know everything about me... i am confused and you are making me second guess things but I love you so ******* much, and I dont want you to go but I guess...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 3, 2015

    Paint It Black

    "Paint It Black" I see a red door and I want it painted black No colors anymore I want them to turn black I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes I have to turn my head until my darkness goes I see a line of cars and they're all painted black With flowers and my...
    TheCaliforniaKid TheCaliforniaKid
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 5, 2013

    Everyone was laughing at me.

    they think I'm weird. Crazy. I don't blame them. Monster. Self imposed indulgence, you hate me? I hate you. I hate all of you. Not really. Not you..just the clouds. They're human too. I like spurting out random thoughts online..no one knows who you are..I hope not.
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    Oct 16, 2015
    EEA1991 EEA1991
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

    I'm lost. I'm almost 20 now.

    I read a degree, but not anymore. It was not my cup of tea. I didn't have close friends. All are fake. I don't have anyone to share my feelings. All the time I'm trying to be nice. Few days I was happy because someone had a crush on me, but I was stupid. I didn't understand...
    BRG8 BRG8
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

    I LOVE THAT SONG!!!!!

    OUTTA MY MIND BY B. O. B. FT. NICKI MINAJ!!!!!!!! MISTLY BECAUSE NICKI MINAJ IS IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Samcoyou Samcoyou
    13-15, M
    1 Response Mar 17, 2014

    The last 48 hours have been the hardest I have

    had to deal with and I finally thought all my hard times were all done with! Yet the hardest is still to come!! My boyfriend is being sentenced on 20th may and is looking at 2-3 years! I feel I've let myself down and almost him too! Why didn't he listen to me more?? I am law...
    oneday2015 oneday2015
    26-30, F
    May 2, 2014

    For A Split Second

    Sometimes for a while I feel like I'm about to lose control My heart begins to pound My head begins to spin I'm overwhelmed with my emotions My body starts to tremble My eyes begin to blur I can no longer breath soundly As I clasp on to keep hold of sanity Then suddenly I crash...
    Carly1992 Carly1992
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2013

    I Can See It

    I am waiting to be put away. I don't feel life or happiness. I am always tired and upset and jealous of what I don't have and...I just cannot explain it out loud. My mind...I am misplacing my true head here. I feel so alone...and I know that is so lame to say because I have so...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies
    18-21, T
    Oct 1, 2012
    amberlxl amberlxl
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

    I am angry at everything about my life

    and I have no way to actually vent about it. I wish it could all stop for a second just so I can get my mind right to continue, but I can't even tell anyone this in my actual life because of this facade I live up to that I am this eternally happy person with no worries. I don't...
    WaNd3ReR WaNd3ReR
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    Thinking About What He Did To Me And The Truthe As To Why................

    I feel like I'm losing my mind because I can't stop thinking about my spouses' infedelity and pretty much living a double life! The fact that he also made a family with someone else is F****D up also. Does anyone understand why would you ruin a good thing? Especially when I...
    justicia justicia
    36-40, F
    17 Responses Oct 9, 2009

    I'm going to try to sleep without drinking

    tonight. Bull ****. I'm honestly afraid that it is not possible for me to sleep without booze and pills. It's **** but true. It scares me. Not the thought of overdosing.... But that I cannot sleep without "help". A/A doesn't seem reasonable as I couldn't make it through one N...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 31, 2015

    I'm not feeling like myself at all.

    I'm losing faith in everything, except God. I'm losing faith. I don't know what's happening. I feel like I'm doing a lot of things to make others happy, even If that means making myself extremely unhappy. It's like I'm running towards a cliff and I know that I'm going to fall...
    BMTH99 BMTH99
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2015

    I'm walking a tightrope.

    But I lose my balance. I fall. I'm in a high rise building in New York, it's dark, I see the stars outside through a wall of smashed window. I lie in the red glass and feel a gentle breeze. I feel at rest. I lie down but stand up, I run but walk, I sprint but jog... Everything...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 5, 2013

    Insane Emotions Getting Into Insane Thoughts

    For a long time I've had problems with my emotions and thought that what I feel is not normal. I am getting very nervous and uneasy around people and generally cannot feel joy from anything. As bad as I thought I had it because of my inability to connect with people, share my...
    damnthislife damnthislife
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2012

    I Know He's Trying

    I've lost all interest in physical contact. Lately I don't even want to be hugged let alone have sex. I know my hubby is trying to understand but he takes it personally when I tell him I need to be alone. He'll follow me into the room yelling "what did I do wrong". Well...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 28, 2009

    Nothing about the way I think is "normal".

    Weird, I go to work. I do my job. I interact with others and put on this face of normal. I know though, that the vibe I give off is definitely received by others and some know...this chick ain't right. The thoughts that go through my mind...obsessive and overpowering and...
    Gem1970 Gem1970
    41-45, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

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