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I Feel Like I'm Losing My Mind

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    On the wing of an angel, I did fly. Off I fell, almost dropped through to hell. Now attempt to fit together the pieces, While trying to blend with the species. Not at all like them, I now feel the alien. Human or not, on this Earth I shall rot. Puzzle incomplete, don't know...
    rastagal rastagal 31-35, F Oct 18, 2012

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    So Where Do I Start?

      A few days ago I wanted to kill myself. I didn't od but cut more than I ever had. I felt weak and ashamed. I still do. Crap I can't get my thoughts in order.   I'm lost two cats to poisonings. They both died. My familiar Cinder died yesterday. I had him since he was...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 28 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    I Know He's Trying

    I've lost all interest in physical contact. Lately I don't even want to be hugged let alone have sex. I know my hubby is trying to understand but he takes it personally when I tell him I need to be alone. He'll follow me into the room yelling "what did I do wrong". Well...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 4 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    I Just Want to Scream....to................................

    I don't know what I want to do. Okay so that's a lie. I want to and I feel I shouldn't. Right now I can't think straight and feel like crying. I feel like cutting. I feel like screaming. I want to laugh and am truly trying. But the smiles are all false right now. My heart is...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 Aug 1, 2009

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    I'm walking a tightrope.

    But I lose my balance. I fall. I'm in a high rise building in New York, it's dark, I see the stars outside through a wall of smashed window. I lie in the red glass and feel a gentle breeze. I feel at rest. I lie down but stand up, I run but walk, I sprint but jog... Everything...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 5, 2013

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    Humanity: All Faith Is Lost

    Most kids say they can't wait until they are older to have the experience of adults, I was once one of these kids too. I was hopeful and excited for the future thinking it had so much to bring. I shiver at the words "life is what you make it" because its what I based all my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 26, 2013

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    I am quiet most times

    but an extrovert when i have to be but lately I just really cant focus. I have no stability anymore..im struggling and constantly having battles with myself..sometimes i find myself making a big thing out of nothing, from thoughts that didnt even happen in reality! -.- i dont...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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    Just Another Phase?

    I don't understand it...I thought I was getting better....I thought I could control it. I used to feel my moods swings coming and could at least try to stop them. But lately...well....I don't know..it's like they hit me like a big ******* truck. I don't want to eat anymore. I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 7 Responses Sep 14, 2009

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    EEA1991 EEA1991 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I Wish I Could Escape From My Life

    The last 2 weeks or so I have been feeling like I am slowly loosing my mind. I am a 32yr old woman with 3 children. Ages ranging from 10 to 13. I became a mother for the 1st time when I was 18yrs old. Don't get me wrong, I love my children dearly, but I wish I would have never...
    Captivatingeyes Captivatingeyes 31-35, F Oct 10, 2010

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    I feel like I'm a complete psychic case!

    I am suicidal...upto recently....I used to put cuts on my arms and all....my boyfriend changed that.... I start feeling happy and normal but someday I break down again and start crying like no sane person does....I don't know what I'm Saying or doing...I lose my mind in short...
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Why these straight boys can't leave me alone.

    .??? Don't they have beautiful girlfriends?I mean if they are really straight??? I'm scared of attaching emotionally with someone... At last it hurts a lot... Why these straight boys can't mind their own business !!
    BRG8 BRG8 18-21, M May 6, 2014

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    I actually feel like my life is worthless.... I'm never going to get anywhere in life when I feel like I'm losing my mind :( head is spinning in circles •_•
    Carly1992 Carly1992 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    Thinking About What He Did To Me And The Truthe As To Why................

    I feel like I'm losing my mind because I can't stop thinking about my spouses' infedelity and pretty much living a double life! The fact that he also made a family with someone else is F****D up also. Does anyone understand why would you ruin a good thing? Especially when I...
    justicia justicia 36-40, F 18 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    I Genuinely Believe That Without Help, My Mind May Crack.

    Hello there, fellow sufferers of mental disorders, This will be a long story, I'm afraid but I seriously need to get all of these factors off my chest and I would appreciate it if you read the events in their entirety. Let me begin by stating that I had a perfectly stereotypical...
    DubVolatile DubVolatile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    What'S Crazy Anyway?

    Used to be that I thought of crazy people as those who pose an actual physical threat to either themselves or others. Like some crazy homeless people who yelled at me just for making eye contact. Which reminded me of the movie K-Pax, in which not even looking at homeless people...
    InvoluntaryLoner InvoluntaryLoner 31-35, M May 2, 2013

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    It's crazy. I'm crazy.

    God, I don't even ******* know. I'm with this amazing guy. His feelings for me are impossible to question. He loves me. I know it. He let's me feel it every time I'm with him. He doesn't hesitate to show me how much I mean to him. He has met every single one of my family, he...
    ohmyfvck ohmyfvck 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    Goodbye, Sanity.

    Dec. 11, 2010 Gah, last night and tonight, I think I'm losing it. My mind's flitting all around, won't stop. Feel like something big and exciting and awesome is about to happen; and that when it doesn't, I'll snap. My body's all fidgety and I can't decide if the energy is...
    InvariableAlteration InvariableAlteration 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 11, 2010

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    I don't know what it is,

    I seem to be losing my empathy, I switch between moods so quickly its scares me never mind other people. I get hopelessly attached to something for while but can never commit for a long time, I struggle to find the meaning in stuff or understand consequences for my actions. It...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 18, 2013

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    I'm going to try to sleep without drinking

    tonight. Bull ****. I'm honestly afraid that it is not possible for me to sleep without booze and pills. It's **** but true. It scares me. Not the thought of overdosing.... But that I cannot sleep without "help". A/A doesn't seem reasonable as I couldn't make it through one N...
    xanaxannex xanaxannex 22-25 Mar 31

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    I'm not feeling like myself at all.

    I'm losing faith in everything, except God. I'm losing faith. I don't know what's happening. I feel like I'm doing a lot of things to make others happy, even If that means making myself extremely unhappy. It's like I'm running towards a cliff and I know that I'm going to fall...
    BMTH99 BMTH99 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    My Mind Is A Mess

    hi im male 43 British yes i am a loner i have no job i live with my Mother and her Partner. i stay in my room most of the time but i am starting to crack up and go mad. I dont have a girlfriend(never had a proper girlfriend)technically im still a Virgin.apart from hookers and...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    The Moment When I Feel Most Unhinged....

    so im having a wobbly evening, farming some scars as i like to call self harm, and then i decide that instead of chipping away at the frustration, i should just cut it off from the source. i trace i little ghost-line on the wrist to be sure and psyche myself up.dont want to be a...
    deepestbolgia deepestbolgia 22-25, M Feb 20, 2013

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    I Have To Vent This Out.

        It all started when he was 6 days old. He had his first two small seizures. By the next day they got worse.     I used to dream about having my child....the midnight wake ups. The lack of sleep. The cuddles..watching him do all those little...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 28 Responses Jan 3, 2010

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    I Can See It

    I am waiting to be put away. I don't feel life or happiness. I am always tired and upset and jealous of what I don't have and...I just cannot explain it out loud. My mind...I am misplacing my true head here. I feel so alone...and I know that is so lame to say because I have so...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T Oct 1, 2012

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    I'm lost. I'm almost 20 now.

    I read a degree, but not anymore. It was not my cup of tea. I didn't have close friends. All are fake. I don't have anyone to share my feelings. All the time I'm trying to be nice. Few days I was happy because someone had a crush on me, but I was stupid. I didn't understand...
    BRG8 BRG8 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 16, 2014

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    Paint It Black

    "Paint It Black" I see a red door and I want it painted black No colors anymore I want them to turn black I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes I have to turn my head until my darkness goes I see a line of cars and they're all painted black With flowers and my...
    TheCaliforniaKid TheCaliforniaKid 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    When You Put It All Away And Lock That Door..............

    Sometimes the pain finally breaks out of the dark room and attacks full force. All the **** that you were either too chicken, stupid, and weak to deal with. Life kicks you when you are down...and takes great pleasure in doing so. That little thing that happened years ago...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 9 Responses Apr 5, 2010

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    I Already Have

    I'm completely off the rails... I think. I don't know if I truly am insane or just an over thinking, overly curious, and confused teen. I find my mind...in the middle of nowhere with everything. It's so strange, I am, but....I've always been like this. When I was a little girl I...
    stellastarz420 stellastarz420 13-15, F Jul 21, 2012

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    Insane Emotions Getting Into Insane Thoughts

    For a long time I've had problems with my emotions and thought that what I feel is not normal. I am getting very nervous and uneasy around people and generally cannot feel joy from anything. As bad as I thought I had it because of my inability to connect with people, share my...
    damnthislife damnthislife 26-30 2 Responses Jan 12, 2012

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    For A Split Second

    Sometimes for a while I feel like I'm about to lose control My heart begins to pound My head begins to spin I'm overwhelmed with my emotions My body starts to tremble My eyes begin to blur I can no longer breath soundly As I clasp on to keep hold of sanity Then suddenly I crash...
    Carly1992 Carly1992 18-21, F Sep 19, 2013

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    All The Time...

    Ever feel like your brain is just...numb? Like, no matter how much you try to wrap your head around certain ideas and things, you just can't, it almost hurts to sometimes. And then you're told, "It's a phase, it's teenage hormones..." Well, maybe it's nothing hormones, maybe I...
    Owlchan101 Owlchan101 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2012

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    Numb Again.

    I don't understand it, for the past eight hours I could not stop crying, I could not stop the strong urges to end my life, and I could not stop the feeling of myself falling apart. I tried everything that normally worked, I just couldn't get myself to smile or even stop crying...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F Mar 30, 2013

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    Life Kicks You When You're Down.

    This year has been hell. And things slowly build until they have NOWHERE else to go. First off....my son...no answers..no reason...same problems. *sighs* Then losing the twins at 17 weeks. We had names picked out..we started getting clothes and bottles. Then the D&E...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 32 Responses Nov 19, 2009

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    I feel like I'm losing it I mean like I can't

    focus on any thing seeing and thinking voices will go muffled from time to time more frequently as the days pass my mind it wanders to strang thought that arnt mien I start to see 2 to 3 of one thing I am having trouble feeling pain or any thing really please HELP ME!?
    Shadow500 Shadow500 18-21, M 1 Response May 21, 2014

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    hamz11 hamz11 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 17

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    I LOVE THAT SONG!!!!!

    OUTTA MY MIND BY B. O. B. FT. NICKI MINAJ!!!!!!!! MISTLY BECAUSE NICKI MINAJ IS IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Samcoyou Samcoyou 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    The last 48 hours have been the hardest I have

    had to deal with and I finally thought all my hard times were all done with! Yet the hardest is still to come!! My boyfriend is being sentenced on 20th may and is looking at 2-3 years! I feel I've let myself down and almost him too! Why didn't he listen to me more?? I am law...
    oneday2015 oneday2015 26-30, F May 2, 2014

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    Where Will We Meet Again?

    I lost my soul. I think I traded it to the devil but cannot remember what for. It is odd, though, I thought with this loss would come the end of other things. I still have compassion, maybe more now than ever. I've become a softer person who cannot deal with the very real events...
    rastagal rastagal 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Feeling Emotionally Torn

      I just lost my fetus in April-May (miscarriage and D and E). I know that it's probably just my hormones but I feel like I'm going insane. I start crying about nearly everything and get mad about the rest. I wanted to swaddle a my sons teddy bear and couldn't stop crying...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 31 Responses Jun 12, 2009

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    For A Split Second

    Sometimes for a while I feel like I'm about to lose control My heart begins to pound My head begins to spin I'm overwhelmed with my emotions My body starts to tremble My eyes begin to blur I can no longer breath soundly As I clasp on to keep hold of sanity Then suddenly I crash...
    Carly1992 Carly1992 18-21, F Sep 19, 2013

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    Sometimes I feel like

    if I just allowed myself to completely lose my mind - I would be much happier.
    meowmix29 meowmix29 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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