I Feel Like I'm Trapped Inside Myself

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    I Look Different to the Ways Im Feeling?!?

    Growing up both parents were completely useless at showing me love. Never any hugging or saying "I love you" This to me now at 31 seems really weird. I think because of this Im now not very good at emotional stuff either. The thing is, on the inside I really am the most...
    sadnlonely sadnlonely
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 26, 2007

    Okay so it all started

    when I was about 8 years old. We went to kings island and I rode this roller-coaster with my dad and I didn’t like it so I curled up into a ball and had my neck kind of kinked, I went home and ever since then I’ve been getting nauseous at night to the point where I would...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 12, 2014

    A Never Ending Friendship Nightmare.

    Okay. For a few months, I have been having some serious friendship troubles that have made me feel so trapped within myself, it's beginning to drive me crazy.I feel depressed all the time - and even after spending time with friends all day, the feeling swallows me the minute I'm...
    DragonTwirl DragonTwirl
    13-15
    Aug 30, 2012

    Trapped Forever.

    Trapped in my head, trying to escape memories of a life I once had. Fear of confronting my worst pain, fear of face to face that day I’m sure to go insane. Hatred built up for so long, guilty of life lived so wrong. A day without remembrance will never pass, a day for death...
    justjamie15 justjamie15
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 26, 2013

    My thoughts torment me relentlessly.

    Day and night. Even in my sleep. I have nightmares frequently. I can't push my thoughts aside. It's a losing battle. I've tried so ******* hard to be strong. Depression has defeated me. It won. My physical health issues have taken an immense toll on me. They haven't improved no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 29, 2015

    Putting Reality On Hold.

    I’ve never been good at expressing myself, except through my art. I don’t like to talk much or argue, so I don’t. Because of that, I’m often misunderstood. Sometimes I scream, silently. I am lost inside myself, because I don’t understand what I’m doing or what I am...
    Tamsi Tamsi
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2012

    Its Like The Seeds Were Planted In My Mind.

    It seems like i've always been in a weird transition phase in my life.  I'm always telling myself that once I get passed whatever stage it is i'll be who I am suppose to be and I will be planted on the ground. No longer feeling like i'm floating all the time. But the...
    milesdleeg milesdleeg
    18-21
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

    I'm a teenager and I do things

    that "normal" teenagers do. I've been to parties, I've experimented but I also play sports, and I get good grades. I can carry a conversation with about anyone and I'm very easy to get along with. I'm not one to judge nor discriminate. I love giving advice and I try to be a...
    findingmytrueself findingmytrueself
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    Non-Religiously Trapped

    ‘I feel trapped inside myself’. What a great title! This completely explains my current situation of de-converting from a Christian to Atheist. I would like to say before I start with my experience, it is a big relief to know there are others trying to speak their voice in a...
    soliare soliare
    26-30, M
    Feb 12, 2013

    Trapped Within.

    It feels really good to know that there are others out there that feel "trapped" too.  My entire life I have just felt trapped within myself, I can't explain the feeling.  Just always, painfully shy, struggling within.  I can't believe that I am not the...
    pinklollipop pinklollipop
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 31, 2007

    Why Can I Express?

    I'm stuck. Seriously, I'm stuck! I don't what to say or how to say it? I'm not happy with my current situation and I'm literally stuck with what to do... Making life changing decisions right before Christmas are not ideal at all and I don't think they would benefit anyone...
    MarchTheMarch MarchTheMarch
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

    Here is the thing. I know

    that I can be and do anything. Other people have told me that I have the potential to fly high - I have mental images where I am flying high. The problem is that I am on the way of myself right now. I could be the person I want to be but somehow I can't get over myself. I choose...
    befabolous befabolous
    26-30, F
    Dec 19, 2014

    Always

    I have always felt as if I am trapped inside of myself. It's as if there's an invisible barrier keeping me from connecting with the rest of the world, and try as I might, I can't break through the barrier. It has always existed and has always been a part of me. It keeps me from...
    ItchyWitch82 ItchyWitch82
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 24, 2010

    Trapped

    Trapped,not again,This time,It's serious,Feel like,I'm inside myself,Not lookin' good,Need out,So I can breathe again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 2, 2012

    Reality is starting to blur

    and my emotions cannot be kept. I feel like I'm suffocating inside of myself, and there is no easy fix. What I wouldn't give to be normal me again.
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2014

    I Feel Like I'm Trapped Inside Me

    I suppose depression is like That. I am 43. I seriously need To get a life. I have no friends. I'm stuck up in my room in my Mums house i never go out. My friends have all got on with Their lives met girls houses .. But I am stuck. I am lonely. Life is passing me by . Even my 63...
    defoekeane defoekeane
    36-40, M
    Aug 2, 2013

    I'm So Lost

    I feel so stuck inside myself. I can't be myself. The person who I want to be is getting more and more buried and I'm so scared that I'm going to be stuck like this forever. I'm losing myself. I don't even know who I am anymore.. 
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2010

    Confused.

    The years have passed so quickly. Where has it all gone?I can still see past events as if they occured last week. In reality they occured many years ago. Time flies so quickly and one mistake is all it takes to change everything. Ive changed in many ways,made lots of mistakes i...
    talisman2010 talisman2010
    51-55, M
    Feb 6, 2010

    Oh Dear.

    How do i start this? I lie awake all night, listening out for anyone that might pass by my house, or the cars that buzz. And i can't get out,ive not been out in so long, I'm not sure if i'm scared, im more tired. Yeah its depression and the doctors are taking their time finding...
    openupyerskull openupyerskull
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 11, 2010

    I was sexually abused from age 5 to 12.

    Lost my mother in 2012. Was almost killed in 2013 by my same abusers. My sister has now been sick for 5 months and her and my mom were/are all I have. I'm misunderstood. I'm ignored by the rest of the world. My abusers want to sell me. I've tried to be strong for 23 years but I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 30, 2015

    I feel like I am an amazing person

    but I am trapped in my own mind.
    melXlo melXlo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2015

    Did you ever notice the world got smaller

    so you know more people than ever, but they are all the same. No one can help you. No one can actually care about you. It's all the same no matter what group of people you are with. Nothing changes.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 18, 2015
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Aug 22, 2015

    I Won't Let Myself Speak Up

    There are so many times where I just want to say something in a group or I just want to be my crazy, silly self. But I just will not let myself. I hate that feeling of being trapped inside of myself. My fear of saying something stupid doesn't let me be who I...
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Nov 7, 2008

    Omg I Dont Understand What Is Happening To Me

    i study everyday and the next day i feel like i dint do anything yesterday,and i feel packed in a box everyday,my exams will be starting soon,i don't understand what to do,and i even don't know what i am scared for,so many days has passed but this thing is not ending,but now i am...
    kunal1993 kunal1993
    22-25
    1 Response Mar 18, 2013

    Feeling Trapped Inside Myself.

    So lately, I've been feeling almost trapped inside my own body. I know that probably sounds really strange, but sometimes I feel 'slow' with my movements and it's like my arms and legs lose feeling in them. But if I concentrate on that body part and try to move it, the feeling is...
    MissKady MissKady
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2012

    How'd I Get In Here?

    and why is the door always locked? How come he gets to come and go as he pleases? I've been in here far too long now.. All the days are blending together like some tasteless smoothie. Except it's like one of those diet drinks, where you're blindly following a stringent set...
    Cleaveland Cleaveland
    22-25, M
    Oct 21, 2013

    I feel this way a lot,

    actually. A couple weeks ago, I looked in the mirror and felt like a puppet. My consciousness was the puppeteer, pulling the strings to make me move. But unlike normal puppeteers, I can't just grab a new puppet. I'm stuck here, with this one.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2015

    I Feel So Trapped and I Can't Function.

    I feel like I'm trapped inside myself and can't escape. I can't breathe and I feel like a robot unable to listen to my inner self. I am so tired of myself. I have no one to talk to about anything because I have NO ONE. I'm sick of having to hold in everything, and just telling...
    ImSuffocating ImSuffocating
    16-17
    1 Response Jul 25, 2008

    Reaching For You

    I am desperately reaching for you with all I've got, with eyes on fire, and my insides a raging inferno. However, it is not hate, and it is not anger, nor is it rage. It is a tremendous force that I can not find the right words for. It makes me want to collapse backwards, twist...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jul 11, 2008

    Trapped and Tryign to Find Away Out

    I feel alone trapped in hell, I think this depression has been my own personal hell. I have never felt so down in my whole life. I have never thought of killing myself and not wanting to be around before the things that have happened this year. I miss my life I miss the way I was...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2008

    Here I Go, Zipping Off My Skin.

      Dammit, why can't I just step out of this body. I am stuck in my fleshy arrangement of cells, I feel like I am trapped in this body because I am. Perhaps my brain could be removed and sit elsewhere for awhile, that way I would be outside of my body, but would I then feel...
    smebro smebro
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Jun 18, 2007

    So Subtle I Haven't Noticed It For Too Long....until Now

    So I haven't always had the easiest life but who has right? I think I really get the feeling of being trapped inside of myself or more apropriately lost inside of myself when I first got to college....I was so terrified and apprehensive of everything since I was going to a huge...
    Veronica822 Veronica822
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2009

    I Feel Trapped

    I feel like I'm trapped in my body, in my society, my family, my friendship group with people who are in the same income group as me. I am trapped into getting a good job, getting married, having 1.9 children and dying at 80. I want to have nothing because then I feel I would be...
    TotieBabie TotieBabie
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 6, 2012

    I sometimes hold my breathe

    when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    ScumbagDaze ScumbagDaze
    18-21, F
    Aug 20, 2014

    Trapped In A Room Called My Body.

    I am trapped in a room called my body and I can't get out. The door wont open. I am screaming let me out, banging on the door. It wont let me out. no one hears me. please let me out. I want to be free. I want to be free!
    boo864 boo864
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

    Every so often I get this awful feeling.

    It's like I'm becoming extremely self-aware while simultaneously disconnecting from my consciousness. I believe "depersonalization" is the word used to describe it. It's been happening more and more often, and lasting longer. Is there any way to control this sensation?
    tturbulence tturbulence
    16-17, F
    Feb 14

    I spend most of my time thinking of what I will

    say in any situation that comes up in my life. This leads me to be silent when the most important things need to be said. Usually when a situation comes up I end up saying something completely opposite to what I wanted or needed to say. So I never really express who I really am...
    bec413 bec413
    22-25, F
    Aug 30, 2014

    I Need A Revoltion

    My freshmen yr in college. I'm 18 and feel like in going through my mid-life crisis. How am I supposed to know what I want to be, what the right path is, what my passion is? I am so uninspired by life right now, not able to even force myself to get up for food and water when its...
    Nieceq Nieceq
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 3, 2010

    And I Can't Get Out

    I am seriously trapped inside myself. I literally don't have a clue of how I am supposed to behave around others. I always seem kind of lost. It makes me sad that not a single person in this world knows the "real" me, because I never show the real me as I am  trapped inside...
    gamingzone3 gamingzone3
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 26, 2010

    B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L ...

    What exactly does that mean cause I don't remember the last time I felt that
    luubug luubug
    18-21, F
    Apr 30, 2014

    I have been living in the same small(ish) town

    for 15 years. I'm so tired of it. There's a few things I enjoy, I volunteer for a soup kitchen and am part of a church I enjoy, but other than that, I'm miserable. Every day I deal with discouragement, reasons for me not to leave, and advice I don't want to here about from my...
    flippinbiscuits flippinbiscuits
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    To me, the worst feeling in the world is the

    feeling of being trapped. I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. However, in one sense, I must accept that everyone is trapped-- inside themselves. If a living thing exists, by definition it has limits. I remember being four and starting to understand and...
    DepressedDemigod DepressedDemigod
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    Today i managed to break my new laptop somehow

    idk how lcd all ****** up. I am fighting depression. I keep losing this and its best described when im stressed out it like my mind blanks out for quick moments and looking back on those moments feel like a dream. I think about things in my life if i only did this things would...
    RecklessRomantic RecklessRomantic
    22-25, F
    Oct 29, 2015

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