I Feel Like I'm Wearing a Mask Sometimes

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 141 People

    Increasingly I am feeling like I was born with

    a mask on my face... I mean, here I am, this 39 year old lady with a wealth of experience, I speak several languages, am well versed in ancient history and other forms of esoteric knowledge, having high qualifications, and trained in unarmed combat,... and yet, people behave...
    Hhaawke Hhaawke
    41-45, F
    Jul 21, 2014

    Thank You, Mr. Dunbar

    I first read this poem when I was in high school, and promptly set to memorizing it. We do indeed wear the mask.We Wear the MaskBy Paul Laurence DunbarWe wear the mask that grins and lies,It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,-This debt we pay to human guile;With torn and...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    May 14, 2013

    Fractured

    Harsh, cold and accelerated. Vulnerability is the catalyst of me revealing. I feel over time I've developed so many false selves I'm left uncertain. The one I wear I see, I hate that ************. Don't like it don't read. Understanding of falsifying fake friends as lies spewed...
    11knaves11 11knaves11
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 18, 2013

    Would You?

    Would you love me more if I revealed more of myself to you? Would you sit down & conversate with me more if I shared more things with you? Would you take care of me when i'm too weak to keep fighting? Would you hug me if i'm sad? Would you love me when i'm feeling lonely...
    HiPpIeRoNiN HiPpIeRoNiN
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Feb 19, 2010

    I Had To Make My First Mask

    It was my first year at a new school. I didn't know anyone. A mask that was made to look like I wasn't sad and lonely. But it wasn't a made to look like I was happy either. Just a mask-mask.
    Volto Volto
    22-25, M
    Aug 4, 2013

    Wake Up,put My Mask On For Everyone To See,(remember Dont Show Any Insecurity)

    its been a really long time scince i ever showed anyone, what behind the mask, who i really am. when ever im in a social or public situition im such a paradox, of who i really am. what really terrifys me is just how popular the mask is when its on! really im full of...
    ilookgditsaruse ilookgditsaruse
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 28, 2010

    Sometimes It's Necessary!

    People can't handle what is really there sometimes.   At work is another situation where you have to be a certain way that may not be who you are.  A mask is usually to protect others and yourself from harm or rejection.  Society has displayed a picture of how...
    compulsion2 compulsion2
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

    Man Of Many Masks.

    I was robbed of my chance interact and socialize as a child. Those pivotal years of your life when you are suppose to develop them by socializing with others and learning how to interact. I was kept locked away in my room most of the time. When I grew older and freed myself from...
    EscapeMyMind EscapeMyMind
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 9, 2011

    Do You Ever Feel Like You're Wearing a Mask to Cover Up How You're Really Feeling On the Inside?

    I do. I often smile when I don't really feel like doing so. I feel that by doing this, those who I care about will feel happy & comfortable around me. Lately though, it's extremely hard to mask the pain that I feel. :-(
    HiPpIeRoNiN HiPpIeRoNiN
    31-35, M
    20 Responses Sep 9, 2009

    Blue Faced

    Have you ever seen that comic on tumblr with the two blue faced creatures both wearing wooden masks? It goes something like this: The blue faced creatures go around the world searching for someone like them (blue faced) and because they're both wearing masks, they meet again and...
    ctg2 ctg2
    22-25, F
    Sep 7, 2013

    I feel like crying. But I'm thinking of saving

    everything later. Later. Let's cry later stephie, let's succumb into the feeling of disappointments and regrets later. Let's deal the world later. All I can think about right now is to leave the world with pride. I want to be someone who can have the right to have all the pride...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 20, 2014

    truth be told nobody REALLY knows me i have my

    mask on around everyone im afraid of what people might think when they see what i am my parents know im odd but they dont know the half of it and maybe there are others out there like me whos company i would enjoy but ever time i give someone a peek they run away im impulsive...
    justmax justmax
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 15, 2013

    Always Sweet

    I am wearing a mask infront of ppl other than my spouse. If m.i.l says something nasty to me I STAY polite and humble. But actualy I feel like snapping at her. Even my housekeeper, if I feel like scolding her I just shut up. No one knows the real me. I have no house friends. Im...
    sweetmom2 sweetmom2
    26-30, F
    Jan 6, 2010

    No-one Could Handle My Life Or Pain....

    I know how people see me at work and in general. Sweet girl, great with kids, likeable and always got a smile on their face. The truth couldn't be any different. I am nearly always feeling ashamed of myself for being in a job below my degree level (running a creche/playleading...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 7, 2011
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