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I Feel Like Such a Freak

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    Why Am I So Weird?

    I feel like such a freak.  I'm awkward.  I'm different.  I can't relate to people.  I have no confidence.  The woman I love doesn't love me and the woman I'm dating would rather be my "friend".  I have been told I'm creepy but don't know how to fix it.  I'm afraid of being...
    prophet784 prophet784 26-30 3 Responses Aug 25, 2011

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    "There's Nothing Wrong With Being a Freak"

    I do not believe there is such a thing as normal... For years I strived for it and finally realized it does not exist. I have been told I am a freak because I am different. I talk to myself, I laugh at nothing, I dance around when no music is on. I love life and I hate for it to...
    ericalee4 ericalee4 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2008

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    Don't Know

    It's hard to explain, but I'll try. You know how highschool can be right. And all of my friends are talking about sex, having sex, etc. and I would really like to try it, but I know I'm not ready emotionally or physically to have a sexual relationship, but I'm pretty curious...
    Katelynn Katelynn 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 14, 2007

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    In a place full of weird punk

    and hippie people you think I'd feel at home but I still feel like an outcast. Fruck!
    brokenkailyn brokenkailyn 16-17, F Jan 11, 2014

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    In my text messages I some time refer myself in

    third person to close friends for personal reasons. So on this road trip with people I don't really know and my lover I texted a close friend of mine. This guy started to read them and then turned around telling my other that i was a freak talking about my self in third person...
    NnopE NnopE 18-21 Feb 4, 2014

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    You're So Weird.....

    For as long as I can remember people have called me strange, different, weird, awkward, etc. and I have to say I've always enjoyed it. I know I see the world differently than other people, and I've begun to wonder why. I've tried my best to fit in with everyone else, to try to...
    Ilovemac24 Ilovemac24 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2013

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    Bad Girl

    Im 24years old.  My life hasnt been easy for many reasons and ive never felt "normal", i dont mind being a little different (which i am!) but i hate feeling like such an outsider.  I am a freak, on the outset i may look a little shy and quiet...
    Brammie Brammie 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    I Feel Like A Freak And Its All My Fault...

     I'm smiley, I'm happy, I do alright in school, I look normal, I have fun, I'm friendly, I'm cute. Thats what they think anyway. But no one knows I'm a self harmer, not deep but i still do it. I need to do it, and i hate myself for it especially cause i cant seem to stop...
    Saffyx Saffyx 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    I Feel Like A Freak And Misunderstood

    I just feel so different compared to everyone else. I honestly don't have a lot of friends (which isn't much of a problem, because I like to think of myself as a very independent person). My problem is that I just don't know how to deal with myself anymore. I have a major amount...
    LittleMonster94 LittleMonster94 16-17 2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I Feel Like a Freak and a Loser

    I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never been on a date I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never had a boyfriend I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I still live with my parents I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I don't have a job I feel like a freak...
    freakazoid freakazoid 31-35 5 Responses Dec 5, 2008

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    Alone Confused And Cliche

    I feel as if I open up a little bit ill seem weak. So forgive me if I hold back. If anyone wants to know anything else which I highly doubt you know where to find me.
    Erinsson15 Erinsson15 18-21, M Sep 22, 2013

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    As Many A Viet Nam Vet Knows..

    When the going gets 'weird', the 'weird' turn PRO
    ownlyme ownlyme 56-60, M 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    Who'S A Freak?

    I am a Jesus Freak, a horny freak, I enjoy being played with, and spanked...I love being tied up and not knowing what is going to happen at times, But What kind of freak are We? If we all were the same then, this world would be dull, so FREAKS COME OUT!!!
    blue62dragon blue62dragon 51-55, F 6 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    A Masked Existence

    I know my problems aren't that big when you put them into perspective of what other people have to deal with, but they're mine, and to me they're big. A used to have friends, but now they don't hang out with me ad I know they talk about me behind m back. Sometimes they even make...
    PaintedOnSmile PaintedOnSmile 13-15, F Sep 24, 2012

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    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I noticed that people never talk to me unless they want a favor. it's like they can never talk me or like my photos on instagram. and when I ask them too they say their busy but...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    The hidden secret of life I mean. I myself don’t know what I mean. I have a huge trusting problem. The problem is not that I don’t trust anyone but that I trust EVERYONE. I...
    avnn avnn 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    So here I am in this situation. I'm a bit all over the place right now. Like I feel like screaming and crying and laughing at the same time but hopefully this too shall pass. I try...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I know that I am just an adopted child but why does she always needs to make me feel this way. I feel like I am never enough and I feel like I am the dumbest woman in the world...
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I feel our culture / society of obedience, authority, and dominance is terrible and it hurts me inside that it exists. There doesn’t seem to be what I define as love in the world...
    Love3149 Love3149 22-25, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I met him when I was 19. We got married when I was 20. We've been married a little over a year and already I can see my husband loving me less and less. I was born and raised in...
    marriedyoungandconfused marriedyoungandconfused 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    It feels like this is all my life will ever amount to. Just feeling sad for no reason, feeling completely lost and alone all the time... I wish I had my friend here right now, but...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Jan 6

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I knew I was different. I feel like I have been living a lie for a long time now. My family told me when I was born my eye color was black and I mewed like a cat. No crying just...
    caydiabla caydiabla 18-21, F Jan 14

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    sometimes, I think to myself.. what is the point of even trying in the world any more if people just result in not liking me in the end. i'm a very nice person and i try to belong...
    tirwin6471 tirwin6471 16-17, F Jan 16

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    It feels like ****. The brighter side, though, is that it could've hurt more if he had felt the same, we'd been together, and then something bad and super dramatic happened...
    TiraVara TiraVara 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Feeling like a jerk right now. I just read through all the msgs my friends sent me. It seems like they haven't yet noticed my decision to disappear from their lives. They are still...
    BB13xx BB13xx 16-17, T Dec 25, 2014

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    I've done a lot of horrible things and when I think about it, I feel like there won't be a bright future for me. I push people away from me and I'm not happy about that. People...
    amyduell06 amyduell06 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    It starts off with small things. Like, why is it that I don't like things that a lot of people seem to love? Then it slowly fades into things like, why do I see things in a way...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    You know, there has to be a reason behind all this low self esteem. Oh yeah, I was raised this way. Not just by my household but also by society and culture. I have a hard time...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    So I'm in 8th grade and basically in 6th grade this girl, (Lets call her Shelby) Shelby and (Lets call her Makayla) Shelby and Makayla were best friends. As well as in 7th grade...
    PastelOreos447 PastelOreos447 13-15, F Jan 2

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    My ex told me things I had done. People Say he lies. He lied a lot. I was the one dumped so I'm the monster right? I don't know who's more afraid- him seeing me or me going on...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I work in the hospitality industry and I have started my carrier as as an Agent but after a five years of working in this industry I have moved from a hotel to other one for...
    Yassan Yassan 26-30, M Jan 5

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    Every ****** g day. Today (now technically yesterday) is my birthday and I feel like a giant POS. My wife made me feel like **** because she said she would cook dinner when I got...
    snake215 snake215 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I am loved by my one set of grandparents, my single mother of 51, boyfriend, and my bestie carey. I don't have any other family anymore :-( I don't feel like I can truly talk to...
    JessiAnn27 JessiAnn27 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I have the same feeling in all honesty. its not like an ego boosting feeling like i should be important its more like i feel I'm meant for a purpose yet its like my brain is to...
    spiritualjourney87 spiritualjourney87 26-30 Jan 8

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    I am turning 41 years old in 2 weeks and when I look back at my life I keeping asking myself the same question over and over. I do not know why I was born or brought into this...
    ShyGuyInFL ShyGuyInFL 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I was with someone for 10 years since I was only 17... he cheated on me, emotionally abused me, pushed me away, and just made me feel like I wasn't worth anything. But I kept...
    CharlotteTeller CharlotteTeller 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Although I am a grown man I feel like a little girl inside sometimes. I see pretty little pink ballerina dresses and pretty little frilly girl dresses and get man because I can't...
    littleweewee123 littleweewee123 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    Everytime i like someone, i feel like my heartbeat is getting faster. I feel like me and him will have something special. But im always wrong because what i expected didnt came...
    annaambrose annaambrose 13-15 Jan 12

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    I feel like running because no one gets me, I'm still in the closet & came out to some friends. & my family treats me like bullshit for some reason... yess i have an iPhone, iPad...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    How does, we stopped 2 hours ago for a beer, and left you alone to deal with the kids (who were asking for you all day) equal "we're staying out of your way so we don't get in...
    readum16 readum16 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    When you feel like that the pain is too much and sadness overflows from your heart. That you thought it's getting better and your hopes are up but the truth is, it's not happening...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I feel like crap more than ever right now... I've never said anything because I don't want to upset you, I don't want to make things worse, but communications the key right now.. I...
    catho catho 18-21, F Jan 13

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    when im watching movies , the characters in it seem so special. they all have there own personality and talents and they have a life. im so boring compared to everyone I have no...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm feeling lonely this past few weeks. 2015 was a bomb. It's true as days goes by everything constantly change. I was happy and full of life my heart was filled with joy when I...
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16

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