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I Feel Like Such a Freak

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    I Feel Like A Freak And Its All My Fault...

     I'm smiley, I'm happy, I do alright in school, I look normal, I have fun, I'm friendly, I'm cute. Thats what they think anyway. But no one knows I'm a self harmer, not deep but i still do it. I need to do it, and i hate myself for it especially cause i cant seem to stop...
    Saffyx Saffyx 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    Alone Confused And Cliche

    I feel as if I open up a little bit ill seem weak. So forgive me if I hold back. If anyone wants to know anything else which I highly doubt you know where to find me.
    Erinsson15 Erinsson15 18-21, M Sep 22, 2013

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    Don't Know

    It's hard to explain, but I'll try. You know how highschool can be right. And all of my friends are talking about sex, having sex, etc. and I would really like to try it, but I know I'm not ready emotionally or physically to have a sexual relationship, but I'm pretty curious...
    Katelynn Katelynn 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 14, 2007

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    A Masked Existence

    I know my problems aren't that big when you put them into perspective of what other people have to deal with, but they're mine, and to me they're big. A used to have friends, but now they don't hang out with me ad I know they talk about me behind m back. Sometimes they even make...
    PaintedOnSmile PaintedOnSmile 13-15, F Sep 24, 2012

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    Bad Girl

    Im 24years old.  My life hasnt been easy for many reasons and ive never felt "normal", i dont mind being a little different (which i am!) but i hate feeling like such an outsider.  I am a freak, on the outset i may look a little shy and quiet...
    Brammie Brammie 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    I Feel Like a Freak and a Loser

    I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never been on a date I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never had a boyfriend I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I still live with my parents I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I don't have a job I feel like a freak...
    freakazoid freakazoid 31-35 5 Responses Dec 5, 2008

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    In my text messages I some time refer myself in

    third person to close friends for personal reasons. So on this road trip with people I don't really know and my lover I texted a close friend of mine. This guy started to read them and then turned around telling my other that i was a freak talking about my self in third person...
    NnopE NnopE 18-21 Feb 4, 2014

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    As Many A Viet Nam Vet Knows..

    When the going gets 'weird', the 'weird' turn PRO
    ownlyme ownlyme 56-60, M 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    Who'S A Freak?

    I am a Jesus Freak, a horny freak, I enjoy being played with, and spanked...I love being tied up and not knowing what is going to happen at times, But What kind of freak are We? If we all were the same then, this world would be dull, so FREAKS COME OUT!!!
    blue62dragon blue62dragon 51-55, F 6 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    Why Am I So Weird?

    I feel like such a freak.  I'm awkward.  I'm different.  I can't relate to people.  I have no confidence.  The woman I love doesn't love me and the woman I'm dating would rather be my "friend".  I have been told I'm creepy but don't know how to fix it.  I'm afraid of being...
    prophet784 prophet784 26-30 3 Responses Aug 25, 2011

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    In a place full of weird punk

    and hippie people you think I'd feel at home but I still feel like an outcast. Fruck!
    brokenkailyn brokenkailyn 16-17, F Jan 11, 2014

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    You're So Weird.....

    For as long as I can remember people have called me strange, different, weird, awkward, etc. and I have to say I've always enjoyed it. I know I see the world differently than other people, and I've begun to wonder why. I've tried my best to fit in with everyone else, to try to...
    Ilovemac24 Ilovemac24 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2013

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    I Feel Like A Freak And Misunderstood

    I just feel so different compared to everyone else. I honestly don't have a lot of friends (which isn't much of a problem, because I like to think of myself as a very independent person). My problem is that I just don't know how to deal with myself anymore. I have a major amount...
    LittleMonster94 LittleMonster94 16-17 2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    "There's Nothing Wrong With Being a Freak"

    I do not believe there is such a thing as normal... For years I strived for it and finally realized it does not exist. I have been told I am a freak because I am different. I talk to myself, I laugh at nothing, I dance around when no music is on. I love life and I hate for it to...
    ericalee4 ericalee4 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2008

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    I feel this allot, not only in school but at home as well. I've moved so many times, and at every new school I'll be the quiet person in the back. I'll make a small group of...
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    I am a 20 year old male and have always been single and a virgin and have been rejected by every single female I have ever approached. I feel like there is no hope of me getting a...
    malik91694 malik91694 18-21, M Feb 6

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    I legit feel like an intruder every time I go into a room because there are groups and I feel like they stop their conversations specifically because I am there. I feel like my...
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    "Life is like a long rehearsal for a play that will never begin"-quote from the movie Amelie. It's a sad feeling when we do so much and anticipate that something great will happen...
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    apersonlikeme apersonlikeme 18-21, M Feb 15

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    It's like there's a demon clinging on my back, then there's this gnawing feeling at the back of my mind. It's as if someone's trying to get through to me but I can't hear a thing...
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    I don't feel like i belong. I don't even feel i belong in my own skin. I try to be like everyone else, wearing whats cool, changing my personality, trying to fit in because i don't...
    TheBrokenSouls TheBrokenSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    I was a fool to believe in love (fell twice almost a third time), the closest thing to love is love from a mother I don't believe in that dumb feeling anymore. I feel like me being...
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    Panic. Anxiety. Pain. Pressure. Stress. These emotions are swirling through my head. I can't help but be kind of depressed, can I?Some say people bully them, some say they have...
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    I don't know if anyone else can relate to this. I find I can allow myself to care about someome in the moment if I want to but I can just as easily switch that off and hurt them in...
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    Everything is a mess... I am speechless as of the moment, I can't figure out what should be the exact words I should utter. I can express what I feel but to have the right...
    wanderer08chasinglove wanderer08chasinglove 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    no one loves me. my family would leave me to fend for myself if I didn't remind them I was with them. I feel alone. my friends talk behind my back and don't care for me anymore. I...
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    Hi. I'm Laurel I'm ten years old, and I'm in 5th grade. I feel like no one loves me. I have very few friends and I never really see them. Even my mom does not love me. Everybody...
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    Well it's because no one does I'm at school here alone with my head down I feel like crying I haven't talked that much today... And I'm always talking and laughing and have a smile...
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    fazeelahmed fazeelahmed 22-25, M Feb 11

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