I Feel Like Such a Freak

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    I Feel Like A Freak And Its All My Fault...

     I'm smiley, I'm happy, I do alright in school, I look normal, I have fun, I'm friendly, I'm cute. Thats what they think anyway. But no one knows I'm a self harmer, not deep but i still do it. I need to do it, and i hate myself for it especially cause i cant seem to stop...
    Saffyx Saffyx
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2010

    In a place full of weird punk

    and hippie people you think I'd feel at home but I still feel like an outcast. Fruck!
    brokenkailyn brokenkailyn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2014

    In my text messages I some time refer myself in

    third person to close friends for personal reasons. So on this road trip with people I don't really know and my lover I texted a close friend of mine. This guy started to read them and then turned around telling my other that i was a freak talking about my self in third person...
    NnopE NnopE
    18-21
    Feb 4, 2014

    I Feel Like A Freak And Misunderstood

    I just feel so different compared to everyone else. I honestly don't have a lot of friends (which isn't much of a problem, because I like to think of myself as a very independent person). My problem is that I just don't know how to deal with myself anymore. I have a major amount...
    LittleMonster94 LittleMonster94
    16-17
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

    Don't Know

    It's hard to explain, but I'll try. You know how highschool can be right. And all of my friends are talking about sex, having sex, etc. and I would really like to try it, but I know I'm not ready emotionally or physically to have a sexual relationship, but I'm pretty curious...
    Katelynn Katelynn
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Sep 14, 2007

    Who'S A Freak?

    I am a Jesus Freak, a horny freak, I enjoy being played with, and spanked...I love being tied up and not knowing what is going to happen at times, But What kind of freak are We? If we all were the same then, this world would be dull, so FREAKS COME OUT!!!
    blue62dragon blue62dragon
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Mar 28, 2013

    I Feel Like a Freak and a Loser

    I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never been on a date I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I have never had a boyfriend I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I still live with my parents I feel like a freak... I am 34 and I don't have a job I feel like a freak...
    freakazoid freakazoid
    31-35
    6 Responses Dec 5, 2008

    Bad Girl

    Im 24years old.  My life hasnt been easy for many reasons and ive never felt "normal", i dont mind being a little different (which i am!) but i hate feeling like such an outsider.  I am a freak, on the outset i may look a little shy and quiet...
    Brammie Brammie
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 14, 2009

    I am so weird. And I feel like I cant do

    anything right. I mess everything up and sometimes I feel like life just isn't worth it. I have amazing people in my life but I'm so weird And I worry I'm going to scare them off and they make me so happy but I go through these episodes where something little sets me off and it...
    monstertrainwreck monstertrainwreck
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    Alone Confused And Cliche

    I feel as if I open up a little bit ill seem weak. So forgive me if I hold back. If anyone wants to know anything else which I highly doubt you know where to find me.
    Erinsson15 Erinsson15
    18-21, M
    Sep 22, 2013

    You're So Weird.....

    For as long as I can remember people have called me strange, different, weird, awkward, etc. and I have to say I've always enjoyed it. I know I see the world differently than other people, and I've begun to wonder why. I've tried my best to fit in with everyone else, to try to...
    Ilovemac24 Ilovemac24
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

    Why Am I So Weird?

    I feel like such a freak.  I'm awkward.  I'm different.  I can't relate to people.  I have no confidence.  The woman I love doesn't love me and the woman I'm dating would rather be my "friend".  I have been told I'm creepy but don't know how to fix it.  I'm afraid of being...
    prophet784 prophet784
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 25, 2011

    A Masked Existence

    I know my problems aren't that big when you put them into perspective of what other people have to deal with, but they're mine, and to me they're big. A used to have friends, but now they don't hang out with me ad I know they talk about me behind m back. Sometimes they even make...
    PaintedOnSmile PaintedOnSmile
    13-15, F
    Sep 24, 2012
    rmski rmski
    46-50, M
    May 14, 2015

    As Many A Viet Nam Vet Knows..

    When the going gets 'weird', the 'weird' turn PRO
    ownlyme ownlyme
    56-60, M
    1 Response May 13, 2012

    "There's Nothing Wrong With Being a Freak"

    I do not believe there is such a thing as normal... For years I strived for it and finally realized it does not exist. I have been told I am a freak because I am different. I talk to myself, I laugh at nothing, I dance around when no music is on. I love life and I hate for it to...
    ericalee4 ericalee4
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 24, 2008
    rmski rmski
    46-50, M
    May 14, 2015

    I've been bullied before.

    Lots of times actually. From 5-8 grade. I got a lot of remarks about my appearance. It still hurts. Ever since 7th grade I've become a perfectionist about my appearance. And I hate pictures. Last year at homecoming I got ridiculed. I felt broken because j had dressed up and...
    internallybroken internallybroken
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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