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I Feel Like Such a Fuck Up

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    I've Been Trying 2 Write 4 Hours

    I just can't get started. I'm here to get stuff out. Maybe some of it could even help someone else out. It's not going to help if I just sit here, hour after hour looking at the screen. I think that's all I do now. It's taken me over a decade to get here...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 5 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    im really horrible in school .

    im a junior and i managed to pass all my classes some how with straight Ds . this year i a, ,king a real effort in school getting the best grades i have ever gotten averaging Cs and 1 or 2 Bs . but i cant seem too grasp spanish class. and my parents **** on me for it because of...
    kainoadesu kainoadesu 16-17, M Feb 15

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    I'm 22 years old. I've never had a job,

    even though I've been looking since I was 17. I got kicked out of grammar school and graduated on a lower level, something my parents have never really accepted. I've never had a relationship. I keep losing friends, because once I trust them enough I tell them everything. More...
    isawadeer isawadeer 22-25, F a week ago

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    Life Is A Death March.

    Someone at church reached out to me yesterday. It was nice and all, but for me it just draws attention to the fact that I'm a total ****-up. I just don't feel capable of being a normal person. I've always felt sub-human, and I always felt that if people really knew about what I...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response Nov 15, 2010

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    Failure At Its Finest

    I dont know why i cant ever succeed at anything. Relationships, jobs, family, friends, school, life itself are all just one big dissapointment to a guy like me. I feel like no matter how hard i try or what i do never in my life can i be happy, let alone the people around me. Even...
    stebbz00 stebbz00 16-17 3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    Royal **** Up.

    Whatever I do or say, I always let-down, upset, anger, fail, disappoint or unintentionally guilt Someone. My boyfriend, my friends, my family.. And I feel like I'm just whining. But it's true. I cry at night sometimes thinking of how much of a failure I am to myself and everyone...
    Sinsirr Sinsirr 18-21, F Sep 2, 2011

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    Feel Like I'm Faking Being A Grown Up And Not Fooling Anyone.

    I am 30 years old as of one month ago. I still haven't paid my March rent and I don't have enough gas in my car to get me to work for the week. I feel like I can't ever manage my life, I feel like I don't fit anywhere and so I am faking it everywhere. I just want to vomit all...
    Bette411 Bette411 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2010

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    I Feel Like Such A F*uck Up

    So, I'm 16 years old, and i seriously feel like I'm much older than what i am due to all the responsibilities i have. My worst problem, i can't keep people close. I have SUCH a huge problem with that. I lose friends left and right because," I can't deal with it." Or "Because...
    Lost247 Lost247 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2010

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    I Am A Total Fuckup...

    Well... i guess im one of those people that constantly tries to do the right thing and thinks that im some good person when im really not if i think about it. im 17 - well now just turned 18 like 3 hours ago and i have had the same girlfriend for the last 5 years of my life...
    smith00123 smith00123 18-21 1 Response May 28, 2011

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    My Life Is Just A Big Failure.

    I'm 31 and currently back living at my mom's since I ruined my relationship with my boyfriend. I finally had a decent guy and instead of doing everything to make it work I've done the exact opposite. Managed to push him away with my insecurities and emotional instability until...
    StaringAtTheSun StaringAtTheSun 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    I Am A Complete **** Up!

    1. so i screwed my entire education up 2. i ****** up my career more than twice 3. i have ****** up my relationships, and my marriage 4. i can not do anything right at all 5. I have ****** my family out of my life 6. and because im such a dumb **** i have managed to ruin a great...
    buckeyeracr00 buckeyeracr00 31-35, M Oct 10, 2012

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    Why Can't I Do This Right?

    So I grew up ******, poor, living in parks, etc. Mom was a major **** up, and my dad was never around. Now as an adult, I have worked crap jobs (fast food) to keep a roof over my head, sometimes two jobs. Recently, I got married and now have a kid. My wife does not work, so I am...
    goldenharmonica goldenharmonica 22-25 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    I'm A 20 Year Old **** Up

    I've spent the last 20 years of my life trying to please everybody. My mother, my father, my friends, but in the end i tried to do something for myself and for them when i graduated highschool. I never applied myself to studies in high school, spent most of my time in drama guild...
    Fuckup101 Fuckup101 18-21 Jan 27, 2012

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    I organize a book club and I feel like such a failure because very few members show up to the monthly meetings. Last year before I organized the book club a lot of members attended...
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    So I'm failing in school, my mom is pretty mad. The worst part is that I get all the questions right in class but when it comes to taking the test or quiz I fail. Then with my...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    I literally struggled with this 3rd quarter of the semester like this is the first time I actually had an F in something... I think I'm losing focus, losing motivation, and...
    KyLeone KyLeone 18-21, F Apr 2

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    I'm longing for affection.....for love. Hell I appreciate every last smile I get but what I truly long for is physical contact. It doesn't even need to be sexual. A kiss, and hug...
    Lone1y Lone1y 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm not bullied properly but at the same time names, labels, comments, everything is just thrown my way and I find myself caring too much, how do people just let go of all that...
    AsylumOfMyOwn AsylumOfMyOwn 13-15, F Apr 2

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    Yeah I'm a messed and now I am particularly irritated due to my own Spazzy Hand >_< Hector: o_O In other words defeating Pokemon Black will have to wait because I 'accidentally...
    SquirrellyChanLuvsAcorns83 SquirrellyChanLuvsAcorns83 18-21 Apr 2

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    That empty feeling. Idk I just feel like such a failure like what's wrong w me why can't I be happy w who I am/what I look like. I guess I just live in a world where everyone goes...
    ELSAhugsyou ELSAhugsyou 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I feel like such a bother in people's lives now .... I feel like everyone is leaving me
    imsobroken1123 imsobroken1123 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I live in a very competitive place, surrounded by people who are doing so much with their lives, and it overshadows my meager accomplishments. I try my hardest at something, and...
    shadow553 shadow553 16-17 1 Response Mar 29

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    Maybe I should not complain? But I do feel like my life is on hold and I'm frustrated. My job is good and I have a good educational background; I'm thinking to get another master...
    viicky77 viicky77 26-30, F 16 hrs ago

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    Not always, but sometimes I sit down and feel like I'm lost, sad, depressed and confused at the same time. When it happens, seeing happy people makes me more sad, seeing sad people...
    AReallyNiceGuy AReallyNiceGuy 13-15, M 15 hrs ago

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    I have friends but I feel like I'm leading them on I'm so numb and they can't even tell. I pretend to laugh and like their things but I don't know if I can do it anymore
    ShattertheMemories ShattertheMemories 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 3

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 3

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 5

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I've been struggling with illness for about five years ever since I went on beta blockers for a heart ailment. Last year i began to get crippling insomnia. I've lost two jobs...
    cherrybl0ss0ms cherrybl0ss0ms 22-25, F Mar 20

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    I've been struggling with illness for about five years ever since I went on beta blockers for a heart ailment. Last year i began to get crippling insomnia. I've lost two jobs...
    cherrybl0ss0ms cherrybl0ss0ms 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I know im young but at this moment i feel like im never going to be happy. I have no motivation, no drive. I've realized that the only thing that makes me really happy is really...
    Justdoitessay Justdoitessay 16-17, M Mar 28

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    Meanwhile my boyfriend is in NYC for a college course schmoozing with publishers and, after one day, got a job working for a cooking website from the publisher he is staying with...
    dendroica dendroica 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I'm a junior in High School. I go to prestigious all boys private prep in a big US city and I'm surrounded by people who say they love and support me but I don't feel it. I'm of...
    tvantes1 tvantes1 16-17, M Mar 23

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    I have been cursed with this stupid thought process. I see things in ways most normal people can't deal with. I know that the horrible messed up things in this world as damaging...
    dizlasthope dizlasthope 36-40, M Mar 27

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    (Skip to next paragraph to skip my rant, I have some questions) I'm not fun or cool and I don't have special qualities, I feel like I'm stuck in one small square and I'll never be...
    mahnouls mahnouls 16-17 1 Response Apr 7

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    I'm a 24 year old married, full time student and full time employee. I'm going to school to become a music teacher and am fortunate enough to have a job that works around my school...
    birdyhouse birdyhouse 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I somehow feel trapped...and I also honestly feel like I can't escape...or perhaps never escape. I just want to P-Shift and run out of my horrible life that I have to live and deal...
    PureWhiteMoonlight PureWhiteMoonlight 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I don't know why every achievement I get or everything that I do right I just feel like I failed. And I'm not worthy. I was chosen from my high school as the city scholar (not...
    frozenkisses21 frozenkisses21 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I hate that this is a topic. Nobody should ever have to feel like this. And I know it's easy to just say, "oh well you're good enough don't worry," but it's another thing to...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I just don't understand what's the meaning of life. Why do we live ?. What's the meaning of doing anything when at the end of the day we all feel the same hollowness inside. Things...
    jerry44 jerry44 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I was on the phone with a friend today. We've known for a very long time. I think she's the only one I "talk" to regularly. And when I say that, I mean, have on the phone. I don't...
    WickedScullyOfTheWest WickedScullyOfTheWest 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like I owe my old friends an apology. I feel like I’m the reason a lot of my past relationships haven’t worked out. I feel like I’m always wasting time...
    moorelove3168 moorelove3168 18-21 2 days ago

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    Whenever I think about being free outside, my heart beats in excitement. But of course I can't go outside half of the time. While typing this, I feel like I like literally feel...
    PureWhiteMoonlight PureWhiteMoonlight 16-17, F Mar 18

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    Since a little girl I have felt like I'm not from planet Earth. Stars, Planets, Lights, Space, etc.. has all been apart of my soul. My mind & heart feel spiritual & like many women...
    zbabi3 zbabi3 22-25, F Mar 18

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    I feel like no one loves me... Even though I know they love me... If that makes sense? I can recognize them loving me and caring for me... But I don't feel it. I don't know why I...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I am 15, and since I was a young child I have always known that I was different. Not necessarily different in a bad way, just different. I have always looked at things in a way...
    somethinggreat somethinggreat 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I feel like I'm going to die soon, or any moment. I have depression and anxiety but then again I think about how we are put on this beautiful earth and then we just leave...
    manifestyourown manifestyourown 13-15, F Mar 22

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    I just turned 40. Three days after my birthday, the love of my life broke up with me, leaving me heartbroken. I had planned a family and future with him, and just three days before...
    balance25 balance25 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My despise my mother in law experience is bit of a backwards situation, in no way is she mean to me or is she that "evil" woman most wives complain of - in fact she is the complete...
    mittengirl mittengirl 26-30, F Mar 28

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