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I Feel Like Such a Fuck Up

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    Life Is A Death March.

    Someone at church reached out to me yesterday. It was nice and all, but for me it just draws attention to the fact that I'm a total ****-up. I just don't feel capable of being a normal person. I've always felt sub-human, and I always felt that if people really knew about what I...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response Nov 15, 2010

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    I Am A Total Fuckup...

    Well... i guess im one of those people that constantly tries to do the right thing and thinks that im some good person when im really not if i think about it. im 17 - well now just turned 18 like 3 hours ago and i have had the same girlfriend for the last 5 years of my life...
    smith00123 smith00123 18-21 1 Response May 28, 2011

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    I'm 22 years old. I've never had a job,

    even though I've been looking since I was 17. I got kicked out of grammar school and graduated on a lower level, something my parents have never really accepted. I've never had a relationship. I keep losing friends, because once I trust them enough I tell them everything. More...
    isawadeer isawadeer 22-25, F Apr 11

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    Feel Like I'm Faking Being A Grown Up And Not Fooling Anyone.

    I am 30 years old as of one month ago. I still haven't paid my March rent and I don't have enough gas in my car to get me to work for the week. I feel like I can't ever manage my life, I feel like I don't fit anywhere and so I am faking it everywhere. I just want to vomit all...
    Bette411 Bette411 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2010

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    I've Been Trying 2 Write 4 Hours

    I just can't get started. I'm here to get stuff out. Maybe some of it could even help someone else out. It's not going to help if I just sit here, hour after hour looking at the screen. I think that's all I do now. It's taken me over a decade to get here...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 5 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    I Feel Like Such A F*uck Up

    So, I'm 16 years old, and i seriously feel like I'm much older than what i am due to all the responsibilities i have. My worst problem, i can't keep people close. I have SUCH a huge problem with that. I lose friends left and right because," I can't deal with it." Or "Because...
    Lost247 Lost247 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2010

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    I'm A 20 Year Old **** Up

    I've spent the last 20 years of my life trying to please everybody. My mother, my father, my friends, but in the end i tried to do something for myself and for them when i graduated highschool. I never applied myself to studies in high school, spent most of my time in drama guild...
    Fuckup101 Fuckup101 18-21 Jan 27, 2012

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    Royal **** Up.

    Whatever I do or say, I always let-down, upset, anger, fail, disappoint or unintentionally guilt Someone. My boyfriend, my friends, my family.. And I feel like I'm just whining. But it's true. I cry at night sometimes thinking of how much of a failure I am to myself and everyone...
    Sinsirr Sinsirr 18-21, F Sep 2, 2011

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    I Am A Complete **** Up!

    1. so i screwed my entire education up 2. i ****** up my career more than twice 3. i have ****** up my relationships, and my marriage 4. i can not do anything right at all 5. I have ****** my family out of my life 6. and because im such a dumb **** i have managed to ruin a great...
    buckeyeracr00 buckeyeracr00 31-35, M Oct 10, 2012

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    Failure At Its Finest

    I dont know why i cant ever succeed at anything. Relationships, jobs, family, friends, school, life itself are all just one big dissapointment to a guy like me. I feel like no matter how hard i try or what i do never in my life can i be happy, let alone the people around me. Even...
    stebbz00 stebbz00 16-17 3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    im really horrible in school .

    im a junior and i managed to pass all my classes some how with straight Ds . this year i a, ,king a real effort in school getting the best grades i have ever gotten averaging Cs and 1 or 2 Bs . but i cant seem too grasp spanish class. and my parents **** on me for it because of...
    kainoadesu kainoadesu 16-17, M Feb 15

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    Why Can't I Do This Right?

    So I grew up ******, poor, living in parks, etc. Mom was a major **** up, and my dad was never around. Now as an adult, I have worked crap jobs (fast food) to keep a roof over my head, sometimes two jobs. Recently, I got married and now have a kid. My wife does not work, so I am...
    goldenharmonica goldenharmonica 22-25 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    I wish if I could just die . No one cares about me . I dropped out of Highschool & now I'm going back to it I'm trying also to find a job . Part time job at least . plus my...
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 8

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    I feel like such an annoyance and burden to everyone I talk to. I don't think I'll be talking to anyone for a while so sorry if I don't reply to you.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Aug 27

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    It's 9:07pm.... I'm listening to music in my bed, and I feel like I'm gonna go insane... Just **** everything up. I wanna destroy my room and everything. Goddammit, I'm so...
    NegativePulse NegativePulse 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    I know they don't. Yet sometimes, I get this anxious feeling of being judged and looked down on. At first it was at school, but now it's in my own home too. I'm not that insecure...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I'm just really really disappointed. I told my mom that this woman (I have a story of how I distrusted this adult who happens to be my moms close friend and how she is now bluntly...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F Aug 28

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    No matter what I do and how well I do it, it's still never enough for anybody. I'm the ****** friend and a horrible daughter even though all I do is try and please everybody, not...
    iflipppppp iflipppppp 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I feel like my step-mother hates me as clearly as I feel pain if I poke my own eyes. Its an almost tangible, clear feeling that was at the center of my childhood experience. Now...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Like the air that drifts between us I feel unimportant, unseen and uninteresting. People glance my way and see no more than scenery. Ostracised by my friends at school, I inhabit...
    BustedMonkey BustedMonkey 18-21, M Sep 7

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    I'm so sad. I feel left out and alienated. I feel like I wanna burst a tears but I couldn't. I think it's not worth. It's ok. You guys do this to me but I promise to make it worse...
    Jojopay Jojopay 26-30 Sep 10

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    I feel like I'm going ******* crazy man
    heartzs heartzs 16-17, F a week ago

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    Okay so basically I'm doing courses to train me for entrances of various design schools. They teach me How to draw and stuff and all that. And I've never drawn before like idk How...
    Teebee1998 Teebee1998 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Did you ever meet someone and feel a strong connection to them without even really knowing them? Like they just "get" you and you feel like you know them and feel empathy towards...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 10 Responses Aug 21

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 31

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There you go, I feel like a failure sometimes no matter how hard I try not to quit. My whole life I feel like I been going in circles. Like no matter what I do to try to succeed in...
    MrKool82 MrKool82 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My boyfriends mom died about a week ago. We live together and thI go have been stressful since her passing. I didn't know her very well but I feel like her spirit is irritated at...
    KaitlynnW KaitlynnW 18-21, F Aug 22

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    I feel like somethings about to happen, but it doesn't. I feel miserable, despair. I have no reason to (read my last 'experience'), but somethings got to give sometime. Even death...
    LeeHart1 LeeHart1 31-35, F Aug 24

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    cross country was brutal but shorter today, but my body feels like total crap. my legs feel like cinderblocks when I move them, and i feel bloated all over. At dinner, I felt...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 13-15, F Aug 27

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    My husband Johnny and I have been together for 2 years, married for a year and a half. We met through his older brother 2 1/2 years ago and started talking as friends. Neither one...
    ashleymarcia ashleymarcia 22-25, F Aug 28

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    okay, im thirteen and in about 5th to 7th grade ive had really bad pimples and right now, their gone but i have black spots. my friends say they make me look cute but i cant help...
    swavvy123 swavvy123 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    No matter who it is I can never make a significant connection with them. My father, and mother both care for me I can tell, and I respect them but to be perfectly honest I feel as...
    aimlessglitch aimlessglitch 18-21, M Sep 2

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    I posted about a similar problem last night, and like most people the night is a very emotional time for me so I feel the need to post this again but from a slightly different...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M Sep 5

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    Back in 2012 I tried to kill myself and I took a pretty big overdose on some pills. Since then...life hasn't really been the same. I know I'm probably delusional for thinking this...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Sep 5

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    YES YES I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THIS, this feeling is so disturbing! Eventhough they, my friends says they enjoy my accompany & they likes it when i get all happy & hyper but i just idk...
    saffaismail saffaismail 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    A few months ago my brother was arrested and is now on bail till the 8th December (1 day before his birthday). I am 14 years old and I feel like my family is falling apart as there...
    MimiChim MimiChim 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I am so f**king sick of feeling broken and lost. I shouldn't have to hate myself because others treated me like crap. I am not some injured lamb who needs to be nursed back to...
    LunaKye LunaKye 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
    Cherrybean84 Cherrybean84 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I’ve always listened to people when they said that it’s okay to be different. That’s why I always kinda tried to embrace it. But no matter where I go, People always seem to...
    Tweeter97 Tweeter97 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 2 days ago

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    I write my feelings on here day after day and sometimes, I do miss a few days because of my hectic schedule but that doesn't stop my thoughts of you.Ever since we said goodbye and...
    Godsmack23 Godsmack23 31-35, M 12 hrs ago

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    I sometimes think that life is just a dream. Seriously. I feel like I could be just another spot of nothing in the universe, if it even exists. And those thoughts turn into more...
    mournwiththemoonandthestars mournwiththemoonandthestars 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    Everytime I log in into Facebook or open Instagram and see that other people are having fun and have lots of friends I feel like I'm the loneliest person in the world and that...
    theitalianboy theitalianboy 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 20

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    My head feels like its gonna explode I don't want to think anymore. I want to forget I exist for awhile. I don't want to hear the shower dripping, feel my arms burning from the...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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