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I Feel Like Such a Fuck Up

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 52 People

    Royal **** Up.

    Whatever I do or say, I always let-down, upset, anger, fail, disappoint or unintentionally guilt Someone. My boyfriend, my friends, my family.. And I feel like I'm just whining. But it's true. I cry at night sometimes thinking of how much of a failure I am to myself and everyone...
    Sinsirr Sinsirr 18-21, F Sep 2, 2011

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    I'm 22 years old. I've never had a job,

    even though I've been looking since I was 17. I got kicked out of grammar school and graduated on a lower level, something my parents have never really accepted. I've never had a relationship. I keep losing friends, because once I trust them enough I tell them everything. More...
    isawadeer isawadeer 22-25, F Apr 11

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    im really horrible in school .

    im a junior and i managed to pass all my classes some how with straight Ds . this year i a, ,king a real effort in school getting the best grades i have ever gotten averaging Cs and 1 or 2 Bs . but i cant seem too grasp spanish class. and my parents **** on me for it because of...
    kainoadesu kainoadesu 16-17, M Feb 15

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    Why Can't I Do This Right?

    So I grew up ******, poor, living in parks, etc. Mom was a major **** up, and my dad was never around. Now as an adult, I have worked crap jobs (fast food) to keep a roof over my head, sometimes two jobs. Recently, I got married and now have a kid. My wife does not work, so I am...
    goldenharmonica goldenharmonica 22-25 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    Life Is A Death March.

    Someone at church reached out to me yesterday. It was nice and all, but for me it just draws attention to the fact that I'm a total ****-up. I just don't feel capable of being a normal person. I've always felt sub-human, and I always felt that if people really knew about what I...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response Nov 15, 2010

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    Failure At Its Finest

    I dont know why i cant ever succeed at anything. Relationships, jobs, family, friends, school, life itself are all just one big dissapointment to a guy like me. I feel like no matter how hard i try or what i do never in my life can i be happy, let alone the people around me. Even...
    stebbz00 stebbz00 16-17 3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    I'm too old to be such a **** up.

    My parents put me through school and now I'm more indebted to them than ever. I graduated and have done nothing with my degree or my life. I've never had a job and it scares me. I can't handle people. I'm afraid everyone is gonna see what a stupid piece of **** I am. I'm sure my...
    spazchick spazchick 22-25, F Sep 24

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    I'm A 20 Year Old **** Up

    I've spent the last 20 years of my life trying to please everybody. My mother, my father, my friends, but in the end i tried to do something for myself and for them when i graduated highschool. I never applied myself to studies in high school, spent most of my time in drama guild...
    Fuckup101 Fuckup101 18-21 Jan 27, 2012

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    I've Been Trying 2 Write 4 Hours

    I just can't get started. I'm here to get stuff out. Maybe some of it could even help someone else out. It's not going to help if I just sit here, hour after hour looking at the screen. I think that's all I do now. It's taken me over a decade to get here...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 5 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    I Am A Total Fuckup...

    Well... i guess im one of those people that constantly tries to do the right thing and thinks that im some good person when im really not if i think about it. im 17 - well now just turned 18 like 3 hours ago and i have had the same girlfriend for the last 5 years of my life...
    smith00123 smith00123 18-21 1 Response May 28, 2011

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    Feel Like I'm Faking Being A Grown Up And Not Fooling Anyone.

    I am 30 years old as of one month ago. I still haven't paid my March rent and I don't have enough gas in my car to get me to work for the week. I feel like I can't ever manage my life, I feel like I don't fit anywhere and so I am faking it everywhere. I just want to vomit all...
    Bette411 Bette411 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2010

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    I Feel Like Such A F*uck Up

    So, I'm 16 years old, and i seriously feel like I'm much older than what i am due to all the responsibilities i have. My worst problem, i can't keep people close. I have SUCH a huge problem with that. I lose friends left and right because," I can't deal with it." Or "Because...
    Lost247 Lost247 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2010

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    I Am A Complete **** Up!

    1. so i screwed my entire education up 2. i ****** up my career more than twice 3. i have ****** up my relationships, and my marriage 4. i can not do anything right at all 5. I have ****** my family out of my life 6. and because im such a dumb **** i have managed to ruin a great...
    buckeyeracr00 buckeyeracr00 31-35, M Oct 10, 2012

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