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I Feel Like the Only Solution Is Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 84 People

    Please Don't

    Many, many, people have felt this way. People want to help you. Reach out. Wait. See how you feel tomorrow.
    acheyknees acheyknees 31-35, F Apr 18, 2007

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    Not Constantly

    I feel suicidal now and then, I have for over a decade now. For a long time it was a constant thing but these days it comes and goes. Today it's gone but it was close earlier. It's a constant struggle with my psyche, trying to convince myself to push through another day, living...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F Nov 28, 2007

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    I Would Commit Suicide Right Now

    if I had enough balls to go through with it. But I don't. I'm such a ******* failure I don't even have to courage to kill myself. How ******* pathetic am I?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 11, 2011

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    Only Solution

    I wrote a story on the group called I attempted suicide.. Eveyrthing I wrote on there is true but I wanted to say something on here because just because I don't want to hurt people it does not mean I do not think of suicide every day of my life. Sometimes the thoughts are worse...
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    Seems Like the Easy Way Out, But I Cant Leave Them.

    lately i have been thinking about suicide. i cant think of any other way that would end all this s***. although i cant undo death, so if i do die i can't go back on what i've done, wereas if i cut myself i can stop it will just take time and leave scars. i've been under soo much...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 3 Responses May 3, 2007

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    Please Show Me Your Mercy

      I envy those who get killed for whatever reasons, even those who suffered a lot when they died. It doesn't matter how much they suffered. What matters is that eventually they are dead, which means that they won’t suffer anymore. I am not scared of death at all. For...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Its the Only Way..

    it's the only way.. i can escape from myself. i will always be a self-consuming force. i dont think.. i can't do this.. i'm so scared. and tired. why am i the way i am? i come from such a normal family. i was loved as a kid. why am i so ****** up. i need helpppp
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 4 Responses Aug 16, 2007

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    Ive Been Like This Since I Was 9

    suicide has been a daily thought for me and the occasinal attempt. I think life is beautiful and its a shame im not capable of enjoying it the way i should be.
    shittylittleperson shittylittleperson 16-18, F Oct 8, 2007

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    Wonderful Change!

    Hey guys, For almost six years I woke up and went sleep with thinking about suicide. I had rope (with perfect knot) in wardrobe. I was too tired to cry or looking for some help. I just wanted to die, no matter how. I was ready to feel real pain if it could help me to end my...
    aleksiej aleksiej 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2011

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    Me And The National Suicide Prevention Hotline

    I have asked a lot of questions about suicide and death on EP, also I have talked about it for a long time with my EP friends, and the reason for this is that I’m suicidal all the time. I haven’t the chance to talk with someone who had (or have) suicidal thoughts, but as I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    The Solution

    Suicide is a way of saying, "You can't fire me-I quit".I think about it all the time.The inadequate,demeaning life is one reason why death is so inviting. I have absolutely no desire continuing living in my own personal hell. Death will be a great relief
    yrral32 yrral32 61-65, M 1 Response Feb 21, 2012

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    Not Again!?!?

    I'm a veteran of suicide themes, groups, whatever, starting about the end of 2008.  Here I am again.  My last suicide post was ten days ago.  If this were just a repeat of prior posts, more of the same, I wouldn't write it down.  This one's different.Until...
    Zotz123 Zotz123 61-65, M 2 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    Again

    I wrote a thread and basically what I am saying is that. Suicide is NEVER the answer. It is a permant solution to something that can be fixed. For people who are cutters or burn themselves they can recover. I am not saying it would be easy but it is worth it. I am a cutter...
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 19, 2011

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    I Understand....

    I've been in that place many times. Infact I used to fantisize about how I'd do it and when. I used to wish I'd get hit by a car or lose control while I was driving and it would kill me. I completely understand how and why people feel like this. But I'll tell you something...it's...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 21-25, F 2 Responses Apr 19, 2007

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    Ultimate Control Or Lack of It

    i know it is intensely selfish to want to die but when you feel helpless and hopeless it seems the only solution you think people will see it as an accident then it wont seem so bad plus you really believe they will be better without you you cant damage anyone including yourself...
    claracluck claracluck 41-45, F Feb 24, 2008

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    Scared But Tempted

    I've had suicidal thoughts before when I've been depressed but this week.They are very intense and it's scary veen though it would be an easy way out of this ****** up world...... It's certainly a quick fix......
    nvpcse nvpcse 21-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2007

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    Down In The Depths

    I started out by putting an experience in the "I Think All the Time About Suicide" group.  Then I amended that experience when I got a new med that seemed to work.  Well, the effect of the med has gone away and the suicidal thoughts are back again, bigtime.The only...
    Zotz123 Zotz123 61-65, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    I Have Had 54 Years Of Suffering, Loss, Pain, Struggle, Abuse And It's Just Time To Go Away

    I wont get into details, but I have had enough. I am in the testing stages of two somewhat fool-proof suicide methods. One involves CO gas the other Nitrogen gas. I have done extensive research an now am at the point were I will be testing both methods to make sure I find the...
    imyouroldman imyouroldman 51-55, M 3 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    I'm So Very Tired...

    I'm so tired of people telling me that "tomorrow is another day" or some other cliche bull. This is my existence: I have no friends, no family, no kids, no boyfriend. I have a cat that sometimes want to be around me, but most of the time she rather just steal food...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 4, 2008

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    Another Failed Experiment.

    I just I just don't haebe enooguh patience ooor       my timiiiiiiiing isn't right.I think I got into the tub before my meds were at full stremgjth.  I couldnt get comfortabke.  The water was too hot.  My fingers wer getting prunihs. If   onyl I hcould het may hand of...
    katnipkitkat katnipkitkat 41-45, F Jul 29, 2011

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    ::pick Your Favorite Shade of Black. But Dont Say You Loved Me::

    i dont understand why i am so sad all the time. i will have the greatest day followed by literal weeks of agony. for me it is more than just feeling sad. i literally have body aches for days with a splitting headache. is all my suffering worth that one simple day of tranquility...
    muffintopwarrior muffintopwarrior 19-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2008

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    I Want to

    I agree I don't want to live anymore. Everyone would be sad for a day then get over it. I need to find a quick way, that is not very painfull and will deffinetly kill me. Any ideas?
    lucey lucey 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    Between a Rock and a Knife

    Cutting doesn't work... I can't drink it away (heaven know's I've tried)... I'm stuck. Nothing to do... Can't off myself because of what it will do to friends and family... People tell me suicide is selfish... I believed it once... Now I wonder... Are they just as selfish to ask...
    girlinterrupted83 girlinterrupted83 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I just turned one when my parents divorced so it wasn't hard for me to get over that since I don't remember when my parents even were together. A few years later my dad met my step...
    ahk16 ahk16 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    I don't even know where to start mainly because all my life I've been an outcast. When I was young my real father left me and so my mom worked a lot to keep food on the table and...
    Arwenlethena Arwenlethena 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I feel awful saying this but a friend of mine has decided because of various issues to move out of his houseshare early, came to me yesterday and said can you put me up for three...
    elphaba2309 elphaba2309 22-25, F 17 hrs ago

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    Haha, I feel weird writing this but, I've always wondered this. Obviously I know what it feels like to women, but I've always been curious as to what guys feels when they're having...
    AjLeePunk AjLeePunk 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    not my fault just feel like I am forget feel I know I am especially when someone u love says something u never though they would
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm not like I'm good enough for my boyfriend because people tell me that I am my good enough and that he should leave me!
    unhappygirl21 unhappygirl21 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    No really death is like after me and if it's not for my awesome reflexes I wouldn't be here and I just feel like I'm also a mistake
    PaulinaaaO PaulinaaaO 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I really feel like my friends don't really need me sometimes. They just need someone to talk to about there problems to me other than that they don't really talk to me.
    justinbartolome justinbartolome 13-15, M 6 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I can't help but feel like a failure and that I'm letting my dad down. All he talks about is how I wanted to go to Harvard, be a doctor, got straight A's. Part of me...
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    For the past 8 years of my 'life' I have suffered with severe anxiety and depression. They say it's meant to get better, but every day just gets harder. I'm almost starting to feel...
    36chambers86 36chambers86 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Okay so today.... Let me first say that I work in a retail store. I work in the shoe department and I'm the only one in this shoe department, which sometimes isn't the best, like...
    daisymetcalf daisymetcalf 22-25, F Jul 5

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    ever since my dad got remarried and had another kid, my brother and i have taken the back burner. scratch that, we've been moved out of the kitchen entirely. particularly me bc i...
    kggi kggi 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I get depressed a lot, and I've learned to just accept the fact that I'm going to be depressed. It still takes it's toll on me, though, and it can get quite painful. It started as...
    BloodMoonWolfbane BloodMoonWolfbane 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    I am sixteen years old and have just received my "predicted gcse grades". All of my predicted grades are a grade B. Many people have told me these are "good grades" but to me a B...
    Candyflosshair Candyflosshair 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    Like, everything is crap. Worthless ****. Nothing.. And that I can go on no more. But i been there, and I dont want to go there again. I read many books over my time now... Much...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 11

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    I have said this loads of times before, but my girlfriend is grounded tell September... and every day that passes with no contact it feels like part of me is dying inside... Idk if...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I moved back home after college and all my college friends stayed on the east coast and my high school friends moved away and the ones that are still here I feel I have grown up...
    SofaRose SofaRose 22-25, F Jul 17

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    I feel like ..i was never meant to be a mother ...don't get me wrong I believe children are so beautiful and innocent and all I see is good in them! innocent and sweet ...I have 3...
    pinkfloydkitty pinkfloydkitty 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    My life is very complicated. My daughter is disabled and sit in wheelchair. She goes to school for disabled kids. Since shes away, i sleep till lunch at home. I developed this bad...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    Hey There people... I am 32... And I just feel like a looser... When I left school I wanted to do an art course. But my parents didn't approve... So I did a marketing course only...
    SweetBrazilianLizzy SweetBrazilianLizzy 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Iv noticed that I think my dreams are trying to tell and show me a darker side to me, I do feel like I have a inner darkness inside me and my dreams are trying to show it. I...
    AnotherTomboyGamer AnotherTomboyGamer 13-15, F 4 days ago

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