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I Feel Like the Only Solution Is Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 84 People

    Between a Rock and a Knife

    Cutting doesn't work... I can't drink it away (heaven know's I've tried)... I'm stuck. Nothing to do... Can't off myself because of what it will do to friends and family... People tell me suicide is selfish... I believed it once... Now I wonder... Are they just as selfish to ask...
    girlinterrupted83 girlinterrupted83 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2008

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    Ive Been Like This Since I Was 9

    suicide has been a daily thought for me and the occasinal attempt. I think life is beautiful and its a shame im not capable of enjoying it the way i should be.
    shittylittleperson shittylittleperson 16-18, F Oct 8, 2007

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    Not Constantly

    I feel suicidal now and then, I have for over a decade now. For a long time it was a constant thing but these days it comes and goes. Today it's gone but it was close earlier. It's a constant struggle with my psyche, trying to convince myself to push through another day, living...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F Nov 28, 2007

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    I Have Had 54 Years Of Suffering, Loss, Pain, Struggle, Abuse And It's Just Time To Go Away

    I wont get into details, but I have had enough. I am in the testing stages of two somewhat fool-proof suicide methods. One involves CO gas the other Nitrogen gas. I have done extensive research an now am at the point were I will be testing both methods to make sure I find the...
    imyouroldman imyouroldman 51-55, M 3 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Scared But Tempted

    I've had suicidal thoughts before when I've been depressed but this week.They are very intense and it's scary veen though it would be an easy way out of this ****** up world...... It's certainly a quick fix......
    nvpcse nvpcse 21-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2007

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    I'm So Very Tired...

    I'm so tired of people telling me that "tomorrow is another day" or some other cliche bull. This is my existence: I have no friends, no family, no kids, no boyfriend. I have a cat that sometimes want to be around me, but most of the time she rather just steal food...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 4, 2008

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    The Solution

    Suicide is a way of saying, "You can't fire me-I quit".I think about it all the time.The inadequate,demeaning life is one reason why death is so inviting. I have absolutely no desire continuing living in my own personal hell. Death will be a great relief
    yrral32 yrral32 61-65, M 1 Response Feb 21, 2012

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    Its the Only Way..

    it's the only way.. i can escape from myself. i will always be a self-consuming force. i dont think.. i can't do this.. i'm so scared. and tired. why am i the way i am? i come from such a normal family. i was loved as a kid. why am i so ****** up. i need helpppp
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 4 Responses Aug 16, 2007

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    Down In The Depths

    I started out by putting an experience in the "I Think All the Time About Suicide" group.  Then I amended that experience when I got a new med that seemed to work.  Well, the effect of the med has gone away and the suicidal thoughts are back again, bigtime.The only...
    Zotz123 Zotz123 61-65, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    ::pick Your Favorite Shade of Black. But Dont Say You Loved Me::

    i dont understand why i am so sad all the time. i will have the greatest day followed by literal weeks of agony. for me it is more than just feeling sad. i literally have body aches for days with a splitting headache. is all my suffering worth that one simple day of tranquility...
    muffintopwarrior muffintopwarrior 19-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2008

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    Not Again!?!?

    I'm a veteran of suicide themes, groups, whatever, starting about the end of 2008.  Here I am again.  My last suicide post was ten days ago.  If this were just a repeat of prior posts, more of the same, I wouldn't write it down.  This one's different.Until...
    Zotz123 Zotz123 61-65, M 2 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    Again

    I wrote a thread and basically what I am saying is that. Suicide is NEVER the answer. It is a permant solution to something that can be fixed. For people who are cutters or burn themselves they can recover. I am not saying it would be easy but it is worth it. I am a cutter...
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 19, 2011

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    Please Show Me Your Mercy

      I envy those who get killed for whatever reasons, even those who suffered a lot when they died. It doesn't matter how much they suffered. What matters is that eventually they are dead, which means that they won’t suffer anymore. I am not scared of death at all. For...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Only Solution

    I wrote a story on the group called I attempted suicide.. Eveyrthing I wrote on there is true but I wanted to say something on here because just because I don't want to hurt people it does not mean I do not think of suicide every day of my life. Sometimes the thoughts are worse...
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I Understand....

    I've been in that place many times. Infact I used to fantisize about how I'd do it and when. I used to wish I'd get hit by a car or lose control while I was driving and it would kill me. I completely understand how and why people feel like this. But I'll tell you something...it's...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 21-25, F 2 Responses Apr 19, 2007

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    Me And The National Suicide Prevention Hotline

    I have asked a lot of questions about suicide and death on EP, also I have talked about it for a long time with my EP friends, and the reason for this is that I’m suicidal all the time. I haven’t the chance to talk with someone who had (or have) suicidal thoughts, but as I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    Seems Like the Easy Way Out, But I Cant Leave Them.

    lately i have been thinking about suicide. i cant think of any other way that would end all this s***. although i cant undo death, so if i do die i can't go back on what i've done, wereas if i cut myself i can stop it will just take time and leave scars. i've been under soo much...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 3 Responses May 3, 2007

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    Ultimate Control Or Lack of It

    i know it is intensely selfish to want to die but when you feel helpless and hopeless it seems the only solution you think people will see it as an accident then it wont seem so bad plus you really believe they will be better without you you cant damage anyone including yourself...
    claracluck claracluck 41-45, F Feb 24, 2008

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    I Would Commit Suicide Right Now

    if I had enough balls to go through with it. But I don't. I'm such a ******* failure I don't even have to courage to kill myself. How ******* pathetic am I?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 11, 2011

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    Wonderful Change!

    Hey guys, For almost six years I woke up and went sleep with thinking about suicide. I had rope (with perfect knot) in wardrobe. I was too tired to cry or looking for some help. I just wanted to die, no matter how. I was ready to feel real pain if it could help me to end my...
    aleksiej aleksiej 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2011

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    Please Don't

    Many, many, people have felt this way. People want to help you. Reach out. Wait. See how you feel tomorrow.
    acheyknees acheyknees 31-35, F Apr 18, 2007

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    I Want to

    I agree I don't want to live anymore. Everyone would be sad for a day then get over it. I need to find a quick way, that is not very painfull and will deffinetly kill me. Any ideas?
    lucey lucey 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 25, 2007

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    Another Failed Experiment.

    I just I just don't haebe enooguh patience ooor       my timiiiiiiiing isn't right.I think I got into the tub before my meds were at full stremgjth.  I couldnt get comfortabke.  The water was too hot.  My fingers wer getting prunihs. If   onyl I hcould het may hand of...
    katnipkitkat katnipkitkat 41-45, F Jul 29, 2011

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