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I Feel Like the Past Is Haunting Me

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    Cautionary Tale: And So The Oldage Story Goes...

    One recurring theme in my Life is my innate ability to hurt guys. It's never intentional, and it's always my biggest fear, and yet, it always has to happen. I just had a falling out with a girl I know. She had invited me to a family dinner once, saying that she wanted to boast...
    WistfulWonderings WistfulWonderings 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2011

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    Seriously! Really?

    Last night was the first night of my Master program. I was very excited to start. It has been a long road to get here. My good friend who graduated with me in June was continuing with me. What could go wrong??? Life has a funny was to bring the past back to you. Not in a direct...
    gigidrangonfly gigidrangonfly 41-45, F Sep 11, 2012

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    Why Now?

    Its been one year since we broke up, about 365 days ago. I dont understand, why now??We broke up, it didnt end so well... But unfortunately i had no other choice. I understood his anger turned to me, i understand i had hurt him alot, but the thing i simply cant understand is: why...
    misunderztood misunderztood 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 21, 2011

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    In My Dreams

    Lately I see my dad a lot, it's natural, he died this year. But I also keep having my ex-step father showing up and that I hate. Sometimes my mother still shows up too. And some of the settings... I need my dreams to release me, not remind me
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F Nov 19, 2007

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    I Know My Past Will Haunt Me Upto Death

    I thought about him ( my ex ) almost  everysecond......This process starts  with opening my eyes in the morning and stops closing my eys at night . But he always planned to cheat me, he abused me , raped me ( ? ) [ he forece me or harassed me sexually without my " real concent...
    richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F May 12, 2011

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    I Buried My Past Without Killing It First. It's Now Haunting Me. Advice Please!

    I was raised never to open up to people. I kept all my feelings inside. For the past year, my past has been haunting me. Everything that went wrong in my life is finally coming to the surface. Sometimes I will just cry for no reason. I've had a rough life, I don't consider it...
    anoymous anoymous 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 8, 2010

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    To Grow Up

    People and past experiences which only caused you trouble is like a rock in the road, a stone you keep dashing your feet against... Why look back when it is time to pick up your feet and walk over the rock?! There is nothing left in the past, only hurt that you can allow to hold...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2012

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    It Seem to Me Like the Past Is Closer to Me Than My Future Is

    I have been realizing more and more that everytime I push myself to move forward, the past is right around the corner...why is that? Does anyone else feel like their past is following them or haunting them? Because I am just getting sick of this. The only suggestion I can think...
    angelofthenight angelofthenight 21-25, F 9 Responses Oct 18, 2007

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    It Sneeks Up On Me

    I try not to think about it I put positive thoughts in my head Think about other things But still that doesn't work The past sneeks up on me When I least expect it I don't have much to do Maybe that's the problem I don't have distractions I've let it go already I'm still...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2011

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    Punch Me Straight In My Face

    The last time he called me a month ago, but we didnt talk that time... So yesterday i decided to talk to him, to tell him all whats left to say and to move on, both me and him...Its been a while since the last time we talked...but yesterday broke me...destiny didnt want me to...
    misunderztood misunderztood 18-21, F Sep 4, 2012

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    My boyfriends mom died about a week ago. We live together and thI go have been stressful since her passing. I didn't know her very well but I feel like her spirit is irritated at...
    KaitlynnW KaitlynnW 18-21, F Aug 22

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    It's funny. I'm 27, turning 28 soon. All my life I have lived to please my parents. I decided to apply to college abroad once, got accepted. My parents weren't happy about it and...
    AsiG AsiG 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    No matter who it is I can never make a significant connection with them. My father, and mother both care for me I can tell, and I respect them but to be perfectly honest I feel as...
    aimlessglitch aimlessglitch 18-21, M Sep 2

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    So here I am. Conversing with strangers on the internet in search for a reason not to blow my brains out. In retrospect, I'm not surprised. I can see the whole sordid chain of...
    Stillnothing Stillnothing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    I am currently in high school and I have a couple of people I talk to in my classes but during the weekends I have no one to hang out with like others do. I'm not really a people...
    raisetheroof raisetheroof 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm an 18 year old kid that had an awesome childhood. My family was always tight knit, the kind that eats together ever night. During the past 4 years or so, my family has just...
    stonesfan367 stonesfan367 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I am a nerd; I've been a nerd all my life. Well today I was telling one of my friends about my meh schedule at school 9-5 everyday. I was telling him while I don't have evening...
    janeastin janeastin 22-25 Sep 9

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    I'm just really really disappointed. I told my mom that this woman (I have a story of how I distrusted this adult who happens to be my moms close friend and how she is now bluntly...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F Aug 28

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 31

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    There you go, I feel like a failure sometimes no matter how hard I try not to quit. My whole life I feel like I been going in circles. Like no matter what I do to try to succeed in...
    MrKool82 MrKool82 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel like somethings about to happen, but it doesn't. I feel miserable, despair. I have no reason to (read my last 'experience'), but somethings got to give sometime. Even death...
    LeeHart1 LeeHart1 31-35, F Aug 24

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    cross country was brutal but shorter today, but my body feels like total crap. my legs feel like cinderblocks when I move them, and i feel bloated all over. At dinner, I felt...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 13-15, F Aug 27

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    My husband Johnny and I have been together for 2 years, married for a year and a half. We met through his older brother 2 1/2 years ago and started talking as friends. Neither one...
    ashleymarcia ashleymarcia 22-25, F Aug 28

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    okay, im thirteen and in about 5th to 7th grade ive had really bad pimples and right now, their gone but i have black spots. my friends say they make me look cute but i cant help...
    swavvy123 swavvy123 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    Two things I don't understand in life. I don't know why God made me and why He loves me. I've betrayed Him so many times. Two things I know in life. He made me and bought me back...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I posted about a similar problem last night, and like most people the night is a very emotional time for me so I feel the need to post this again but from a slightly different...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M Sep 5

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    Back in 2012 I tried to kill myself and I took a pretty big overdose on some pills. Since then...life hasn't really been the same. I know I'm probably delusional for thinking this...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Sep 5

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    I feel like my step-mother hates me as clearly as I feel pain if I poke my own eyes. Its an almost tangible, clear feeling that was at the center of my childhood experience. Now...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M Sep 5

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    YES YES I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THIS, this feeling is so disturbing! Eventhough they, my friends says they enjoy my accompany & they likes it when i get all happy & hyper but i just idk...
    saffaismail saffaismail 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    A few months ago my brother was arrested and is now on bail till the 8th December (1 day before his birthday). I am 14 years old and I feel like my family is falling apart as there...
    MimiChim MimiChim 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I am so f**king sick of feeling broken and lost. I shouldn't have to hate myself because others treated me like crap. I am not some injured lamb who needs to be nursed back to...
    LunaKye LunaKye 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Like the air that drifts between us I feel unimportant, unseen and uninteresting. People glance my way and see no more than scenery. Ostracised by my friends at school, I inhabit...
    BustedMonkey BustedMonkey 18-21, M Sep 7

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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
    Cherrybean84 Cherrybean84 26-30, F Sep 13

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    I’ve always listened to people when they said that it’s okay to be different. That’s why I always kinda tried to embrace it. But no matter where I go, People always seem to...
    Tweeter97 Tweeter97 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Okay so basically I'm doing courses to train me for entrances of various design schools. They teach me How to draw and stuff and all that. And I've never drawn before like idk How...
    Teebee1998 Teebee1998 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 5 days ago

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    I feel as if my heart is tired and i feel lost in time and life and the world and people around . My brain feels tired to just have the thought of this world and the people in it...
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    Sweet Dreams? Sarahbella’s story about her bad dreams (http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Feel-Like-My-Dreams-Are-Telling-Me-Something/4781103#reply_5943032) got me...
    bethturner bethturner 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I write my feelings on here day after day and sometimes, I do miss a few days because of my hectic schedule but that doesn't stop my thoughts of you.Ever since we said goodbye and...
    Godsmack23 Godsmack23 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    But i want to spent the weekend with my bf and he is going. Im also invited but i barely know anyone. The thing is its one of those kind of partys where the boys hang out with the...
    miflor miflor 18-21, F Aug 22

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    Sometimes i feel like, no matter how many friends i have, a part of me always feels alone
    Lilys3 Lilys3 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I know they don't. Yet sometimes, I get this anxious feeling of being judged and looked down on. At first it was at school, but now it's in my own home too. I'm not that insecure...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I have two rather close friends and sometimes I feel like when I talk to them about how I feel ..they don't understand or want to for that matter especially my one friend in...
    lostinfire lostinfire 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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