I Feel My Demon

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    Face

    I feel and see my demon every night. It the face of the man who raped and buggered me every night and day for 4 years. I feel the shearing pain of his penis being rammed in me .his vile treats to kill me if i told . I smell him all these years later and his laugh as he...
    Hunbunnybabe Hunbunnybabe
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Dec 12, 2009

    Many people believe all demons are evil.

    What happens when as a Christian your enemies hurt you and cause you to have suicide attempts. I'm so weak that I can't fight back. So I did a incantation and now have a demon who I control due to my evil mind which appeases him. I didn't kill anyone if he did it hahaha... By...
    bigbear9521 bigbear9521
    18-21, M
    Nov 27, 2014

    Face

    I feel and see my demon every night. It the face of the man who raped and buggered me every night and day for 4 years. I feel the shearing pain of his penis being rammed in me .his vile treats to kill me if i told . I smell him all these years later and his laugh as he...
    Hunbunnybabe Hunbunnybabe
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Dec 12, 2009

    His name is Nero if you do not know him do some

    research on him and Nero is my inner demon. Me and Nero is very close I feel his power covering my body everyday.
    Nero6 Nero6
    26-30, M
    Feb 11, 2015

    Hatred

    It all happened when my locked up feelings turned against me. I fell into depression, I avoided my friends and family. Felt like hitting people for no reason at all and I did do it. Felt like killing, cutting myself, abusing the weak, everything possible. In the way I made...
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection
    16-17, F
    Dec 27, 2009

    I Feel His Power

    my name is not of importance at this point i find myself thinking and when i do a smile a demonic smile goes on my face. i cant shake it. i see flames but as i touch them i fill no pain i hear a voice high pitch and freaky but with some range of intelligence in them they speak in...
    elimentaljester elimentaljester
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 26, 2011

    My Demon

    My demon, It’s awaking, Negative thinking, Life’s been ****, The monster within, Showing, Hating life, If I’m to go on, Somehow, I need to lose this demon, So I can live again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

    Akin Almost To A Non Fatal Meeting With Death

    The scariest thing next to meeting predators and manipulators is meeting the demon. Your demon is terrifying and anyone who swears that they don't have one is trying to sell something or really put themselves on a pedestal. I became intimately familiar with my demon at the age of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2009

    I feel him and his power his name is Alastor

    and he has been my friend since I was little. Me and Alastor are one our feelings are one, our emotions are one, our mind are one and Alastor gives me the power to torment those mentally. Alastor is the demon of torment and he is the torturer of hell his power is a drug to me...
    PrinceofDeception PrinceofDeception
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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