I Feel Numb

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 349 People

    Kay, so a while back my parents got divorced.

    It was sad but i got to so them both sense they lived in the same state. I was okay. I have decided to go to school in my dads city because I actually made friends, because of that choice my mom is deciding to move to Arizona. It was hard. I'm not gonna get to see one of my...
    bluegirl16 bluegirl16
    16-17, F
    Mar 30, 2014

    People say feeling pain is better

    than feeling nothing at all but I disagree. Feeling nothing allows me to think clearly and evaluate my feelings (or lack thereof). And now that I am numb, nothing can hurt me and it'll be easier to forget
    DiamondAuthority DiamondAuthority
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2014

    I don't know why I feel like this.

    I have a perfect girlfriend and I love her so much but I just feel like I'm not good enough for anyone or anything. And it's really affecting me. I've been having the urge to cut so much because honestly that's the only thing that made me actually feel something other than this...
    Searchingforanswers5789 Searchingforanswers5789
    22-25, F
    Oct 3, 2015

    Trying To Relax

    I feel like a broken record now, posting all these somewhat sad stories lately- but I treat this site as if it were a diary so I guess it's okay for me to continue on with my blubbering nonsense. I went on Facebook today. I deleted my account back in April due to excessive drama...
    Elysiaaa Elysiaaa
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2011

    Tears running down my face

    and making me feel cold and Wet. Blood dripping from my wrists making me feel isolated and hated. Burn marks on my legs making me feel heat and pain. The words I repeat in my head, "your useless, your invisible, your nothing" all of it and I turn numb. That's when I leave the...
    Angelfromhell17 Angelfromhell17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 16, 2014

    This wheat beer I made taste like ***,

    and I'm not happy as I wanna be, but I'm not as sad as I usually am. So I guess theres a plus. Maybe I'll regret the texts in the morning, maybe not. Probably lol. I guess I gave away my friends in some delusion of "love" but people are only there for you when it suits them...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 20, 2015

    I don't want to do anything anymore.

    .. people invite me out and I decline and say I have a lot of stuff to do or have other plans, when really I just stay in my room, I don't feel like eating or anything. What does it all matter anyway... no one cares anymore. I don't talk to anyone anymore, I just ignore everyone...
    KeKeNae KeKeNae
    22-25, F
    Apr 11, 2015

    I guess that's okay with everything that's been

    happening. It just hurts no one in my life ever notices. Not that that's anything new. Lol Been that way my whole life. With the exception of a cousin who made Fun of me.
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    Jun 19, 2015

    I'm feeling so numb after being dumbed by my

    boyfriend and I really don't know why they fool us with true love which doesn't exist
    SakuraRi SakuraRi
    22-25, F
    Nov 28, 2015

    Staring Off Into Nothing

    sometimes i find myself staring into space and not having any idea what i was thinking about. sometimes i feel so numb that i literaly do whatever i can to make myself feel any emotions. all day i fake being happy and bubbly, when in reality, i dont know what happy anymore. i...
    shakenintonothing shakenintonothing
    22-25, F
    Feb 9, 2012

    I have no idea what i'm feeling.

    .. it veers towards numbness and distress. I'm never happy but am not feeling that sad either... numb.
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77
    36-40, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    Stressing myself out.

    Lacking motivation.
    coraimaal coraimaal
    22-25, F
    Apr 15, 2015

    I feel like life has no meaning.

    I have goals for my life, but they seem impossible to reach. I don't find joy in anything I used to. I sleep for 14 hours a day because I'd rather be sleeping than awake. I need help but I don't know where to find it.
    ialison ialison
    22-25, F
    Feb 26, 2015

    Right now, "normal" seems to be almost beyond

    the point of comprehension. I look at the past and it feels like another lifetime. It seems almost impossible to find hope in a tomorrow because of the things I must face. But I can't give up. I can't die. That wouldn't be right. No... I owe this to myself.
    deleted deleted
    Oct 18, 2015

    I sometimes lose feelings in my fingers,

    but its not the type of pins and needles feeling. More of trying to physically move them... And they don't wanna move
    TheresAPossibility TheresAPossibility
    16-17, F
    Apr 12, 2015

    I'm used to people leaving me,

    I feel nothing. I feel numb. I don't know how to feel. I couldn't care less if they're gonna leave me or not. It's their choice. There's no one stopping them if they're gonna leave me. Not even me.
    Sakihiro Sakihiro
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2015

    Numb That moment when you enter your room,

    lay down in bed, stare at the ceiling, but feels nothing. Exhausted from crying, Blankly looking Don't know what to do tired of everything too I just dont understand where should I stand mind is not working bloodflow rushing heavy breathing pain is now gone I want to run away...
    RoseGold3213 RoseGold3213
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015

    I don't know how to explain the pain I feel

    anymore. It goes from hitting me and I break down to just leaving me feel numb. That's the only word that I can use to describe this feeling. The pain is there, I don't want to go out, I have no motivation to do anything and I just want to be alone. I don't know how to deal with...
    arcticmonkeys9 arcticmonkeys9
    18-21, F
    Dec 27, 2015

    Usually I am the person

    that cries over anything everything, and feels everything. Lately I've just felt so numb. I don't feel love, I don't feel hate, and I don't feel anger. I just do not feel anything but emptiness. Numbness. It just doesn't make any sense. I can't even cry. I hate being like this...
    rosesrthebest rosesrthebest
    22-25, F
    Nov 6, 2015

    My mom and I got in a fight yesterday.

    I told her that she ruined my excitement over college because she was constantly choosing fights with my dad when we visited the school I want to go to. She lost it. She blamed her failing marriage on me and told my dad she wants a divorce. She hit me and pulled my hair and...
    justsayyes2 justsayyes2
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2015

    Everyone's Worst Nightmare

    It's a scary thing to feel numb. Except you don't really feel it you just....are...numb. It's like you flipped a switch to shut off that part of your mind that feels emotion. You try to trigger them, but the tears don't fall, your anger doesn't rage. So what's a person to do when...
    LifeOfAGingerKid LifeOfAGingerKid
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 28, 2012

    I Was A God....

    I was a god.   At least I thought I was. I had it all.  Not a lot of it all, but some of it all. So I was more like a demi-god, which did god’s bidding. I was charismatic, good-looking, of good moral character, had a reputable job, a ministry to reach out to...
    passionateactorxox passionateactorxox
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 29, 2009

    I feel numb. as in theres no feeling anymore.

    I'm acting happy but i'm dying inside, and angry, depressed, and all of that at once makes me feel like a girl lost and not moving at all.
    serenapaul serenapaul
    16-17, F
    Feb 28, 2015

    Going Through Motions

    I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of empty place. Where I can't really seem to care too much about anything. Sure. I do feel other emotions but they're all numbed down, to a point where if need be Ican pretty much hide them away. All day, I try to keep busy to do all I can to...
    relleaine relleaine
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2011

    the sphere is stretching fartheror am i getting

    smaller?the world spins forward until i can only spot a dotI’m covered in nacaram i deep the seaor outer space?he meant the world to mecan life last shorterand dreams last longer?don’t fool thy heartwe made love spiritousa thousand timesyou drank my bad blood off my...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    Have you ever taken a shower

    and no matter how hot the water was you just couldn't feel it? I mean you could see the thick billows of steam swarming in the air and your skin was getting red from the constant pelting of heated water but...you just couldn't feel it
    rottenroses rottenroses
    18-21, F
    Jul 17, 2014

    It's more so the opposite,

    I need to feel. So badly I need to feel. I need to feel the emotions of others, because they are the only emotions that even register anymore. I feel numb to my own emotions, like it's all just a simulation, and nothing I feel is real. I cut today, a rarity for me. No blood...
    speedskull speedskull
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 26, 2014

    It's difficult to leave someone I think I love.

    . because I keep thinking it'd be a mistake if I did. I really wish I met him later in life. I'm already hurting him a lot by "going behind his back" aka cheating in his terms. I never agreed that we were exclusive. That being said it has to be over next time we have our...
    lagamine lagamine
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2014

    I Feel Numb

    I feel 'numb'.The word 'numb' is exactly the right word to explain my feelings or the feelings that I cant feel. That's the problem.I cant feel anything.I cant feel sadness,happiness,hate,fear,loneliness and the most important one 'love'. Especially in these days,I've been a very...
    cansu94 cansu94
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 1, 2010

    Can't bring myself to do much of anything now.

    I have flashbacks at night and I hear voices in my head. Something deep within me says I should cut again to feel anything, really… but I can't bring myself to do even that. It's almost like I'm no longer living. Just breathing.
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    I feel like a zombie,

    doing things coz I have and existing coz im breathing Im waiting for someone to stick my head to stop my suffering
    Siexybreaker Siexybreaker
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    Feeling numb makes me forget all the worries

    and pain. It feels so good to feel free. To feel like theres nothing wrong. Nothing to worry. Nothing to feel. It feels so great to forget all the worries. All the pain. How i wish i'd forget all the the pain. All the worries. All the bullshit. All the ****** up things in my...
    elel110993 elel110993
    22-25, F
    Oct 18, 2014

    Been feeling numb lately

    and it's not funny.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 19, 2015

    Another one Just finding out

    that a young man, of whom my baby brother, oldest nephew and I grew up with, got stabbed to death... Is this in the news? I doubt it. Why?... When is it going to end? Last I saw him, he cried to me over the passing of my baby brother. And my mother finally took that hike...
    NaomiSunshineJourney NaomiSunshineJourney
    31-35, F
    Aug 2, 2015

    Desperate For Any Sort Of Relief...

    hello, i am 23 years old. for the past month i have been feeling..well..nothing. i thought maybe it was dp but im not sure. im not sure of anything anymore. i dont know how to feel again. i try to talk to my friends and family about it but they dont understand. of course i know...
    xstoryofxagirlx xstoryofxagirlx
    3 Responses Dec 17, 2010

    Life kinda sucks, but its great at the same

    time. Or maybe it just feels bad but I have really great things in my life. I don't know. It's super packed, and I'm doing some kind of work all the time. I hardly get any sleep. But I'm also surrounded by some pretty great people. I feel happy I think. but I guess I don't...
    iciwu28 iciwu28
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2014

    I have a serious problem with not allowing

    myself to recognize my feelings. I'm pretty sure it stems from my childhood as my parents liked to label every emotion except for happiness as an "attitude". And my mother believes that there should be a smile on everyone's face 24/7 even if you aren't happy. (Ridiculous) Also...
    robyn9854 robyn9854
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2015

    I don't feel anything.

    I did something stupid today. I just want to sleep forever.
    life14 life14
    22-25, F
    Oct 10, 2015

    I haven't been on here

    for months, I guess this is how I've felt. Life's good, I just don't feel anything anymore- I'm surrounded by people I love and love me back, life is beautiful but I guess I don't feel much anymore, just numbness Things will get better, and I hope you all know that if you feel...
    damnflanders damnflanders
    18-21, F
    Jun 21, 2015

    I feel absolutely nothing.

    I have been feeling like that this week. Yesterday I was preparing some food and accidentally cut my finger badly with a kitchen knife. There was a lot of blood. I was watching my blood dripping and felt nothing. Later mom saw me and asked what I had done. I explained, but she...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2015

    Feeling Numb

    For a while now I feel like I have no feelings about anything anymore. I used to be such a caring person, would never want to hurt anyone but lately I feel like I dont care about anything as much. When I think about it properly I think it has just been this year since my...
    Chicky Chicky
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2008

    I don't wanna feel no more It's easier to keep

    falling Imitations are pale Emptiness all tomorrows Haunted by your ghost Lay down, black gives way to blue Lay down, I'll remember you Fading out by design Consciously avoiding changes Curtains drawn now it's done Silencing all Tommorows Forcing a goodbye Lay down, black...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2016

    I want to cry but i cant

    and its really scaring me. Every part of me is cold and not sad but not happy and I am just drifting.
    emslife emslife
    18-21, F
    Sep 11, 2015

    I feel numb and dead inside.

    I care, but i don't. I'm sad, but I'm not. I harm myself to feel pain, but come up empty. I turn the water in the shower as hot and cold as it can go, just to feel something. I never do. I feel lost.
    kittylova kittylova
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2016

    today is just not my day.

    I have a lot of bad vibes going on. my moms guy friend is back here... if you've ever read my stories and say "guy friend" then you know who he is. the last time I saw him he stole my moms car. now he's back in her room. taking her car again where ever he wants when he has a car...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    I miss talking to the grief counsellor lady.

    She helped me put things in perspective. Plus she just listened and the stuff I said mattered. It's so nice to have had that. Miss it.
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I don't know lately things have been

    so rough. Half the time I feel like I'm just a walking corpse. I wake up, go to work and then go back to bed. The other half of the time I just want to cut. Feel something. It's just frustrating. I hate it. I used to have hope that things would get better; that there is a silver...
    helpimalive95 helpimalive95
    22-25, F
    Dec 21, 2014
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