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I Feel Numb

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    Kay, so a while back my parents got divorced.

    It was sad but i got to so them both sense they lived in the same state. I was okay. I have decided to go to school in my dads city because I actually made friends, because of that choice my mom is deciding to move to Arizona. It was hard. I'm not gonna get to see one of my...
    bluegirl16 bluegirl16 13-15, F Mar 30

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    Have you ever taken a shower

    and no matter how hot the water was you just couldn't feel it? I mean you could see the thick billows of steam swarming in the air and your skin was getting red from the constant pelting of heated water but...you just couldn't feel it
    rottenroses rottenroses 16-17, F Jul 17

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    I Don'T Know Anymore

    So...life has just sorta become pointless. I get up, finish classes online, and...come here basically. I don't really see a way out, besides the obvious "go do stuff." There isn't exactly much to do in a town of 12,000 people that's majority farmland. I guess I could shoplift at...
    ExtremelyPointless ExtremelyPointless 18-21, M Jun 4, 2013

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    I have no idea what i'm feeling.

    .. it veers towards numbness and distress. I'm never happy but am not feeling that sad either... numb.
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77 36-40, F Dec 14

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    sophiejon sophiejon 18-21 1 Response Nov 18

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    A Relization.

    Today, I noticed that I feel numb. I drove up into the mountains today with some of my friends and I realized I had stopped caring about a lot of things. I don't know which direction to take my life anymore, I feel like I just don't know what to do. I can't motivate myself to do...
    cyhm37 cyhm37 16-18, M 1 Response Nov 10, 2007

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    Just Floating Here

    When I'm not overcome with the sharp pangs of anxiety, I often feel nothing. I watch and read the scariest things I can find, and I feel no fear. instead, I wish with all my might that the creatures and monsters will some get me.
    StrangeDarkSecrets StrangeDarkSecrets 16-17 May 27, 2013

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    Trying To Relax

    I feel like a broken record now, posting all these somewhat sad stories lately- but I treat this site as if it were a diary so I guess it's okay for me to continue on with my blubbering nonsense. I went on Facebook today. I deleted my account back in April due to excessive drama...
    Elysiaaa Elysiaaa 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    Everyone's Worst Nightmare

    It's a scary thing to feel numb. Except you don't really feel it you just....are...numb. It's like you flipped a switch to shut off that part of your mind that feels emotion. You try to trigger them, but the tears don't fall, your anger doesn't rage. So what's a person to do when...
    LifeOfAGingerKid LifeOfAGingerKid 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    In my teenage years, depression hit me like a

    typhoon. It hit hard, with little to no mercy. The intensity and the rage blinded my eyes from what's left of a shred of hope. Now that I'm nearing my 30s, depression hit me like a state of void. No tears, no laughter, no excitement, no motivation, and absolutely no care in the...
    mynoseiskillingme mynoseiskillingme 26-30, F Aug 30

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    I Feel Numb.

    Its like that pink floyd song: Ive become so comfortably numb. This is about breakdown number 28 and even the music i listen to cheer me up. . .To make me feel something just seems so distant. I just.. I cant explain it. Ive been thinking of death so often right now i just i...
    LennonLover LennonLover 22-25, F Oct 8, 2012

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    I have my blade .... I can't feel anything

    right now. I wanna cry but I can't I wanna feel something..
    mayamariesolis mayamariesolis 16-17, F May 31

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    Just Nothing

    I'm so hurt and broken right now.. and yet, i feel nothing. I feel so numb. I don't know what happened to me.. Maybe it's because im badly hurt and broken that my own heart and mind just completely shut down. I can't smile without faking it. I can't make myself laugh...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F Nov 29, 2013

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    Life kinda sucks, but its great at the same

    time. Or maybe it just feels bad but I have really great things in my life. I don't know. It's super packed, and I'm doing some kind of work all the time. I hardly get any sleep. But I'm also surrounded by some pretty great people. I feel happy I think. but I guess I don't...
    iciwu28 iciwu28 16-17, F Sep 19

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    I went to a concert the other night,

    Fall Out Boy. And, I felt.. So happy, and alive. I was jumping around, and having so much fun. That I knocked my glasses off my face, I was just. So happy. And I'm now home, and.. I feel numb And sick And lifeless And like, there's really no reason. Why I have to get up tomorrow...
    Ceciliaasaurus Ceciliaasaurus 13-15 1 Response Aug 30

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    I don't know how to feel anymore.

    I'm worried, depressed, tired, restless and irritated. I feel like my life is wasting. I didn't do as well on my exam today as I'd have hoped to. I know I didnt fail, but if I lose my scholarship, I'm quitting and moving down to some trailer park on a beach somewhere in Florida...
    Redspikex Redspikex 18-21, F Dec 12, 2013

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    I Feel So Numb...

    I feel so numb, so dead. I can't feel anything. I can't cry, I can't feel anything. I just want to hurt myself just to feel something. I feel so damn numb, and I can hardly stand it... just can't take it....I feel so numb, and I hate this. I don't want to be numb...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 17, 2009

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    People say feeling pain is better

    than feeling nothing at all but I disagree. Feeling nothing allows me to think clearly and evaluate my feelings (or lack thereof). And now that I am numb, nothing can hurt me and it'll be easier to forget
    QueenGoddess QueenGoddess 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 7

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    Numbness Kills

    to me feeling numb just means your close to the edge of disaster.Although it could also mean your close to some miracle but its just closer to disaster for me. Im currently at the numb disaster stage.All the antidpressants do is mask the feeling of depression they dont erase it...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F May 27, 2013

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    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F May 6

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    I Was A God....

    I was a god.   At least I thought I was. I had it all.  Not a lot of it all, but some of it all. So I was more like a demi-god, which did god’s bidding. I was charismatic, good-looking, of good moral character, had a reputable job, a ministry to reach out to...
    passionateactorxox passionateactorxox 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2009

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    Every time I get hurt I always feel numb.

    My emotions shut down and I automatically distance myself from the source of pain. When I heard the words through that phone call, "I'm sorry.. But I'm in love with another girl. She's always by my side and I love her." My world came crashing down and I could only choke out the...
    MsPsycho MsPsycho 18-21, F Mar 8

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    Feeling Numb

    For a while now I feel like I have no feelings about anything anymore. I used to be such a caring person, would never want to hurt anyone but lately I feel like I dont care about anything as much. When I think about it properly I think it has just been this year since my...
    Chicky Chicky 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2008

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    Do you believe in soulmates?

    If so ever wondered where your one was? On a remote island maybe? At your work or school? maybe they your best friend Or maybe they weren't even born yet? what would happen if your soulmate died before you even got a chance to spend your life together. I had a soul mate once...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 11

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    I just sit here in this empty feeling like

    everything around me isnt real. I dont feel happiness anymore.
    analeadtheway analeadtheway 13-15, F Jun 1

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    I Feel Numb

    I feel 'numb'.The word 'numb' is exactly the right word to explain my feelings or the feelings that I cant feel. That's the problem.I cant feel anything.I cant feel sadness,happiness,hate,fear,loneliness and the most important one 'love'. Especially in these days,I've been a very...
    cansu94 cansu94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    Today I told the boy I liked

    that I had a crush on him, he became nervous but eventually told me that we can only be friends because he got hurt in the past. And he didn't deserve a girl like me. I don't understand, how a person can say they don't deserve me when it was me who asked. Doesn't that mean that...
    therealimperfectwriter therealimperfectwriter 18-21, F Feb 7

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    I don't know lately things have been

    so rough. Half the time I feel like I'm just a walking corpse. I wake up, go to work and then go back to bed. The other half of the time I just want to cut. Feel something. It's just frustrating. I hate it. I used to have hope that things would get better; that there is a silver...
    helpimalive95 helpimalive95 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    It's another one of those countless nights

    where I open up and my pent up feelings come bursting out of me in a powerful stream that I cannot contain. Today, I had a conversation with my friends. It started out as me being envious of a friend who is contemplating dating a guy who has been after her for a while. Then it...
    MissBlackrose MissBlackrose 16-17, F Aug 2

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    Im Numb

    found out boyfriend is cheating enough said
    ariez ariez 22-25, F Apr 4, 2009

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    Maybe Empty

    I still care and think about others..but nothing..cant feel anything now.. Last night just cut and yet..no pain..nothing..like dead..just cant explain.. i talk but dont feel.. maybe is good,i dont feel anxious or nervous.. i wanted to cut more after a while to see if i can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 12 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    I feel like a zombie,

    doing things coz I have and existing coz im breathing Im waiting for someone to stick my head to stop my suffering
    Siexybreaker Siexybreaker 36-40, F Dec 6

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    It's more so the opposite,

    I need to feel. So badly I need to feel. I need to feel the emotions of others, because they are the only emotions that even register anymore. I feel numb to my own emotions, like it's all just a simulation, and nothing I feel is real. I cut today, a rarity for me. No blood...
    speedskull speedskull 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    Numb.

    I've been avoiding what has happened in my mind. It still doesn't feel real that this could happen after all that we've said to each other. If I pretend it's not real, then I can avoid disaster just a little bit longer.. Once the numbness goes away and the pain begins, all hell...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F Sep 15, 2013

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    It's Been a Long Time

    Living was a richer experience when I was younger. Scents, sounds, colors, and emotions embossed many epochs my life and each period felt unique. But past my senior year in high school, my perceptions have been dulled. I no longer experience much excitement and time seems to be...
    effervescence effervescence 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Does anyone else feel just kinda numb?

    Like I used to have so many emotions and now I don't really feel much... I just kinda sit in my room and draw once and a while, but mostly sit there wondering why i can't feel anything...help me?
    Ofwgkta13 Ofwgkta13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I don't know how i feel right now I was crying.

    ..abt everything I know i am a mess I couldn't bare that feeling..so I took.my littil magic pill...xanax so basicly..i feel numb now nothing..i wonder why i even was crying half hour ago well..don't get me wrong..xanax don't make u happy but at least u have no worries...and all...
    justme26 justme26 26-30, F Mar 15

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    Staring Off Into Nothing

    sometimes i find myself staring into space and not having any idea what i was thinking about. sometimes i feel so numb that i literaly do whatever i can to make myself feel any emotions. all day i fake being happy and bubbly, when in reality, i dont know what happy anymore. i...
    shakenintonothing shakenintonothing 18-21, F Feb 9, 2012

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    Over time I have developed a Strong hate And

    disgust For other human beings. This is simply the Aftermath of spending Years Depressed, Suicidal, And Anxious. I do not feel any Emotions at all Except for anger. I feel Quite numb Actually.
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F Jul 17

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    Numb

    I can't keep on doing this. Sometimes, I feel like I'm being suffocated, slowly. Like someone has a pillow over my head and they keep letting me have just enough air to keep on living. I feel so damn numb...
    frankiewalkingdeadgirl frankiewalkingdeadgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2009

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    Desperate For Any Sort Of Relief...

    hello, i am 23 years old. for the past month i have been feeling..well..nothing. i thought maybe it was dp but im not sure. im not sure of anything anymore. i dont know how to feel again. i try to talk to my friends and family about it but they dont understand. of course i know...
    xstoryofxagirlx xstoryofxagirlx 22-25 6 Responses Dec 17, 2010

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    It's difficult to leave someone I think I love.

    . because I keep thinking it'd be a mistake if I did. I really wish I met him later in life. I'm already hurting him a lot by "going behind his back" aka cheating in his terms. I never agreed that we were exclusive. That being said it has to be over next time we have our...
    lagamine lagamine 22-25, F Mar 9

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    Tears running down my face

    and making me feel cold and Wet. Blood dripping from my wrists making me feel isolated and hated. Burn marks on my legs making me feel heat and pain. The words I repeat in my head, "your useless, your invisible, your nothing" all of it and I turn numb. That's when I leave the...
    Angelfromhell17 Angelfromhell17 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    Babylon - You Are Fallen

    Babylon – to you arrive all nations of the earth Tripping over themselves in haste Like silly schoolgirls after their first kiss You enslave the souls of men You fish for men with a wide cast net You are shameless in your glory   “Kill the innocent and...
    compelled3 compelled3 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 4, 2009

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    georgieescar georgieescar 18-21, F May 6

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    Emotionless

    At times I have no heart. I don't care about anybody or anything. One second I can be so overwhelmed by me emotions then the next second I don't give a ****. I feel like the world can just disappear and I wont care. Lately even when I say I'm happy or sad its just me...
    KitKat04 KitKat04 22-25, F Feb 2, 2009

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    This kind of feeling

    that makes me feel sad actually =[
    Misspuzzle Misspuzzle 26-30, F Jul 5

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    Feeling numb makes me forget all the worries

    and pain. It feels so good to feel free. To feel like theres nothing wrong. Nothing to worry. Nothing to feel. It feels so great to forget all the worries. All the pain. How i wish i'd forget all the the pain. All the worries. All the bullshit. All the ****** up things in my...
    elel110993 elel110993 18-21, F Oct 18

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    Going Through Motions

    I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of empty place. Where I can't really seem to care too much about anything. Sure. I do feel other emotions but they're all numbed down, to a point where if need be Ican pretty much hide them away. All day, I try to keep busy to do all I can to...
    relleaine relleaine 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2011

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    im dead inside i have been in the hospital

    for self harm for a week now and not one person friends or family has bothered to visist me or check on me i am all alone in this cruel world
    qiyy qiyy 31-35, F Jun 24

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    I was in the shower staring at the wall

    and I saw a lot of water droplets just falling slowly at the same time down the wall... And I started thinking about time...the very idea that time is always moving, always going, so slowly and so unnoticeable until it's gone. Originally I went into the shower to cry, because...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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