I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    I've always felt disconnected from those around

    me. Their happiness never matches mine. I don't understand their sadness. “I'm so excited!” It's not hard to fake it. It's not hard to fake cry, and charm people into thinking. Raw emotions are easy to fake. I've become really numb. Recently, something kind of strange...
    darkadventures darkadventures
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    Most days I wake up and I call my parents

    since they don't call me. I think they are still trying to build my independence. But I've always been a bit of a loner you know? :( When I first joined EP I was on the verge if ending it all. In real life people don't understand. They see my physical appearance and judge me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    I've been withdrawing from social interactions,

    since I stopped believing in faith and religion. I don't feel like I can connect with anyone. My wife is angry with me.
    redpillbrain redpillbrain
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 21

    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

    I'm getting depressed again.

    I'm so angry. I have no idea how to let go of the anger. I am so mad about where I am in life. I want to be friendly with my family. But I am sick of being that quiet little girl who is insecure and scared and embarrassed and paranoid and gets abused taken advantage of and...
    glitternglamxo glitternglamxo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 6
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 10

    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 28, 2014

    if it werent for school i dont think i would

    socualize as much. i find it to be physically and mentally exhausting after awhile.
    psfromthestars psfromthestars
    18-21, F
    Jun 15, 2015

    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7
    36-40, F
    Nov 23, 2012

    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer
    70+
    3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

    Reaching Reaching up Reaching out Reaching

    into Nothing Searching Seeking Hoping Nothing Shouting Screaming Hurting Nothing Falling Fading Dying Nothing Rising Floating Flying Gone. Inspired by the feeling of disconnectedness and not belonging. Inspired by the feeling of being Nothing to No one.
    Listening80 Listening80
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 9

    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2012

    im not up to much today ,

    wont even force it
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    Sometimes when i'm going through phases

    when I'm really stressed out or anxious or depressed at the same I start to feel numb... It's probably a sort of coping mechanism, I suppose. So that I don't feel the anxiety, I tone down every emotion. It also happens when I 'm with a group of people talking/socializing. I...
    escapemyreality escapemyreality
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2015

    most days actually, I just can't really connect

    with anyone unfortunately I don't why,I wan't to but I just can't.this is why I've ended up alone.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I am 23 years old and about to graduate college.

    I had an abortion September 3rd. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it. I feel like it had to have been the worst decision of my life. I feel absolutely awful, it has changed my whole aspect about life. I went on vacation to my native country and slept with...
    suelen0507 suelen0507
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 2, 2011

    Mountain summon me To your highest peak.

    Sky reach for me Feel me at your feet. Forest protect me In your foliage arms. River cleanse me And carry me forth To Another World A World away From Being A World away From Being Nothing To No one Fill my ears With your sweet smells! Caress my body With your beautiful...
    Listening80 Listening80
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 14

    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

    Feels like people actually pretend to be close

    with me.. Only for small amount of time and they enjoy others company..
    Karth06 Karth06
    22-25, M
    Jan 20

    How blindly we keep going on

    and on in life.. Not even pausing once, not even seeing all this.. When did life become a rat-race? To just reach, to achieve, to carry on and follow others, never questioning why and what is all this, never stopping to see where all the desires are taking us, to nowhere.. Do...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2015

    Yup, I feel that very often.

    Actually, when I think about it, I always have that feeling somewhere deep inside. There are moments when I don't pay attention to it and I'm too busy but it's always there. I have always felt I am somehow different from everyone. Even from my closest friends. It's very hard...
    AnnaFromFinland AnnaFromFinland
    22-25, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2010

    I wish i didn't feel

    so alienated all the time
    florals florals
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    Sometimes I find myself writing thoughts

    and reading them at a later date, and feeling as though I am reading a stranger's thoughts and feelings. I can't recognize myself in anything. I am living life looking down at myself from above, being present but not truly present at all; here but never truly and actually here...
    paperpeaks paperpeaks
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2015

    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Nov 14, 2011

    I don't know what has been happening with me

    lately but as of late **** in my life has been a bit bizzare and scary for me, where do I begin, in the last few months I have been having frequent and strangely occurring "de Ja vu" moments, these moments are not necisssarily saying I have been here before a couple months back...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 6, 2015

    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 18, 2011

    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

    ...Those moments where you just want to,

    find a place ... In the middle of nowhere and just SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    GuruGoddess GuruGoddess
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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