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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    Most days I wake up and I call my parents

    since they don't call me. I think they are still trying to build my independence. But I've always been a bit of a loner you know? :( When I first joined EP I was on the verge if ending it all. In real life people don't understand. They see my physical appearance and judge me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 17

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    if it werent for school i dont think i would

    socualize as much. i find it to be physically and mentally exhausting after awhile.
    psfromthestars psfromthestars 16-17, F Jun 15

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Sometimes I find myself writing thoughts

    and reading them at a later date, and feeling as though I am reading a stranger's thoughts and feelings. I can't recognize myself in anything. I am living life looking down at myself from above, being present but not truly present at all; here but never truly and actually here...
    paperpeaks paperpeaks 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I do not know but... I really want to feel close to someone. It is very hard because now almost nobody is trustworthy. But I really wish that. I want someone to talk about...
    xCristiana xCristiana 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I realize that everyone at some point in their life feels this way. However why you feel like this is because you also feel on top of that that no one is facing the same...
    Eninferno Eninferno 13-15, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Somehow in life I never learned coping skills. I am so depressed and often wonder how to move on to the next day.
    poppyluv596 poppyluv596 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I read this somewhere on the Internet and just think it's so accurate. "To me, depression is the days that I feel sad for no reason. Depression is the mornings that I don?t feel...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Totally into someone who will never feel the same way...
    sometimespresent sometimespresent 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have always felt a disconnect from the world, alot of people tell me I don't think like others, not in a bad way, in an interesting way. I still never quite get why they say...
    froggystyletorture froggystyletorture 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    well it seems that well my life and other peoples lives and the world and friends and everything everyone seems to be so rilled up and stressed and maxed out and nothing seems to...
    dathglas dathglas 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    No, I'm not going to go on and on whining about it, just saying...........
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've never really payed attention to what kind of person I am. I did what I wanted to do, that's it. I never realized how many people I've hurt. How many I've abandoned. I...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Firstly, I have always known somehow I had a gift to sense the emotions of other people as if they were my own. I can also sense any feeling when someone really *wants* something...
    AngelicLights AngelicLights 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I think my body is rejecting me......everything is just not going right probably stress related. Time to lay down and give up
    ReneeTay ReneeTay 18-21, F a week ago

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    I really miss being intimate with someone I care for :(
    Enditall515 Enditall515 18-21, M Aug 24

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    My Friends only talk to me when there other friends won't talk o them
    kittyminro kittyminro 13-15, F Aug 23

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    I always had a good relationship with all of my class mates. I was actually pretty popular back then and I never let other people decide for me who i should hangout with and with...
    XbulletproofX XbulletproofX 16-17, F Aug 23

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    I am just so frustrated and angry with myself right now. I have been trying to get to a normal weight and maintain it for YEARS and I just cannot seem to get there. I am stuck on a...
    Robinzasio Robinzasio 41-45, F Aug 23

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    I have one social site where i started to spend time more often. Some days ago i added there a guy who lives far away from me. I wrote him messages just about the places we live...
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Put me in a cabin. Leave me with three dogs. Give me food, books, movies, art supplies, and good music and I am done with society. That's paradise to me and I'd want to devour into...
    zrylism zrylism 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 23

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    I want to hide in the forest by a waterfall. Live off the land. Wake up in the morning only to answer to my self and Mother Nature. That would be utter bliss for a while
    Dobesir Dobesir 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    Reasons not to like me: (1) I break at least one thing per week, plates or glasses etc (2) when I eat popcorn I stuff my face with it (3) I can't stand it when people make noises...
    Aminderaser Aminderaser 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 23

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    I miss the sensation of a woman's body against mine. The warmth of her body. Soft and silky skin. Curves and crevices waiting for me to touch and taste them.
    TheCunylinguist TheCunylinguist 41-45, F Aug 23

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    Some days I feel so overwhelmed by life that I just want to run away from everyone and everything. I know that running away doesn't solve your problems and that if you do run away...
    hannahphillips hannahphillips 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    ever had a such a strong feeling of disbelieve in everything you do? mostly about your self? that's what I am feeling. I don't feel like a good person, I feel like I should be...
    Zineq Zineq 18-21, F Aug 21

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    The relationship me and coach had (friend or more then fried? Idk) I felt kind of melancholy and nonchalant. Then, on our last extra session/date I was drying off with my towel and...
    WeirdAlyank WeirdAlyank 16-17, F Aug 20

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    Sugarland "Stuck like glue" MMMM better...MMMM better... Absolutely no one that knows me better No one that can make me feel sooo goooood How did we stay so long together...
    RoadPoet RoadPoet 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    i just don't only feel.....i am really different from others...life often teaches us many things...sometimes about others but sometimes ,...it could be just about yourself...all...
    Ahaanaa Ahaanaa 13-15, F Aug 18

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    I can't communicate well with my generation. This is a horrible struggle which has already destroyed part of my life. Why is it so hard to figure out what people want from me. I...
    Shamdizzle Shamdizzle 22-25, M Aug 18

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