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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    Sometimes I find myself writing thoughts

    and reading them at a later date, and feeling as though I am reading a stranger's thoughts and feelings. I can't recognize myself in anything. I am living life looking down at myself from above, being present but not truly present at all; here but never truly and actually here...
    paperpeaks paperpeaks 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    if it werent for school i dont think i would

    socualize as much. i find it to be physically and mentally exhausting after awhile.
    psfromthestars psfromthestars 16-17, F Jun 15

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    Most days I wake up and I call my parents

    since they don't call me. I think they are still trying to build my independence. But I've always been a bit of a loner you know? :( When I first joined EP I was on the verge if ending it all. In real life people don't understand. They see my physical appearance and judge me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 17

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Why do I always feel this way? I feel so inadequate. And it hurts because I know why. :-(
    Asereht Asereht 31-35, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I just feel lol I'm pathetic and ad that I annoy people. When I'm not annoying them, they're annoying me--I'm there, bit not noticed, left to be isolated, left to fake it, and look...
    cincyboy cincyboy 16-17, M 6 hrs ago

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    Having that feeling of just running away from everyone ..hoping to never be found and live my life In peace..not being hurted by no one..depending only on myself just be happy...
    chari1975 chari1975 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It doesn't happened often. Sometimes it strikes me and I don't know why. I just hate myself. I see myself as pathetic and degrading. I have things people will never get and I know...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I'm such a ***** and I really don't know why. I guess it's because I treat people how I've been treated in the past.
    KaiyaSantana KaiyaSantana 16-17, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have once broken down since I made my friend feel disappointed and sad. When I knew that, I couldn't stop crying. And the next few days, I felt so terrible. I felt so guilty and...
    Acrylic19 Acrylic19 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    i have like the best poker face.. and im so proud of me for that. but every second i get by myself i break down. i cant do it anymore. nobody knows the things that go on in my head...
    ForeverMyAlwaysREH3 ForeverMyAlwaysREH3 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Even you hae thousand friends you only have few or not one friend with whom you can share your feelings.
    karandhillon28 karandhillon28 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Here's the thing... I'd love to know if anyone relates. I'm depressed and lately I've felt the urge to open up about it cause until now nobody knows. Yet, everytime I try to send a...
    nowherewego nowherewego 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I sometimes just want to myself and maybe someone will talk me out of being alone and dramatic
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I hate sharing my feelings with others. It's easier for me to just keep it inside. I don't like feeling vulnerable or accepting others' help because it feels like I am...
    nerdfighter314 nerdfighter314 16-17, F a week ago

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    My husband and I got into a huge argument. I always say the most horrible things when I'm mad and I really wish I didn't. I've been taking a lot of pain medicine lately and it's...
    DeIuxedEdition DeIuxedEdition 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I'm always left out and I can't talk about anything! I swear, listen to anything but popcontry pop jazz rap and classical. Which everyone else likes. Also sports and nobody likes...
    Lolatux Lolatux 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    We live in a world full of selfish people, so I don't feel like telling anyone what's going wrong in my life, just because I don't feel they will care. I feel it's better to shut...
    AllieLe AllieLe 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 21

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    I am happy but at the same time I'm not. It's like no one truly know how I feel. I'm smiling on the outside but I'm crying on the inside. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes and I...
    EyesOnyou72 EyesOnyou72 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I think I'm really unlucky, or at least this week in particular I'm having the worst time of it. I've been in two car accidents this week where I have been reversed into, my job...
    VoicesInTheShadows VoicesInTheShadows 22-25, F Jun 20

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    Everytime I speak to my doctor he asks if I've had any suicidal thoughts or feelings, the answer is always no, because I don't. But I feel more ad more like my existence is...
    DHggmu DHggmu 22-25, M Jun 19

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    I wish I could but I can't afford to live independently yet. I'm working on it and I know I'll achieve my freedom. I'm tired and sick of everyone and I know as long as I'm with...
    IchirinNoHana IchirinNoHana 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    and start a new life. new everything about me. that would be great.
    asdfghjkl26 asdfghjkl26 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    There are times when I thought of things in the past. It will just happen suddenly. Like my mind on a time travel, recreating the scenario that I hate the most.I have crying spells...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 7 Responses Jun 19

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    I feel distrusted and singled out, everyday
    christyshowlive christyshowlive 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    I love the feeling of starting fresh with no attachments or familiarities
    MrLazyCloud MrLazyCloud 18-21, M Jun 18

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    I'm different. Very different. I may be human, yet I don't understand other humans. I don't understand why they feel love. Why they are scared of death, and other people dying. I...
    XxAshexX XxAshexX 18-21 Jun 18

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    Some days are a little bit too much. I get this urge to just drop everything and all my responsibilities. And just go do something, anything else. Today is one of those days. I...
    AceWarbringer AceWarbringer 31-35, M Jun 18

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    Well not by everyone just a lot of people and friends I talk to. I mean I feel like they just don't like me. I'm so confused because everyone is changing and so am I . So I'm...
    lifeisastruggle4ever lifeisastruggle4ever 13-15, F Jun 16

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    Been struggling without my pills the past few days, I get more tomorrow but I just feel the need to vent somewhere. Overwhelmed sometimes.
    DHggmu DHggmu 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Is being needy a bad thing? Many people think i want someone to feel sorry for me. But all I want is someone to understand me and listen to me. Is it bad to empty your feelings out...
    AwesomeGuyy22 AwesomeGuyy22 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 16