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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Most days I wake up and I call my parents

    since they don't call me. I think they are still trying to build my independence. But I've always been a bit of a loner you know? :( When I first joined EP I was on the verge if ending it all. In real life people don't understand. They see my physical appearance and judge me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 17, 2015

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    And today is one of those days.

    Earlier, I started to turn off my cellphone but I have a teenager and things come up so I have to be available at all times.
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F Dec 15, 2015

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    I've been withdrawing from social interactions,

    since I stopped believing in faith and religion. I don't feel like I can connect with anyone. My wife is angry with me.
    redpillbrain redpillbrain 36-40, M Jan 21

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    Sometimes when i'm going through phases

    when I'm really stressed out or anxious or depressed at the same I start to feel numb... It's probably a sort of coping mechanism, I suppose. So that I don't feel the anxiety, I tone down every emotion. It also happens when I 'm with a group of people talking/socializing. I...
    escapemyreality escapemyreality 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2015

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    im not up to much today ,

    wont even force it
    Rain0069 Rain0069 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    I don't know what has been happening with me

    lately but as of late **** in my life has been a bit bizzare and scary for me, where do I begin, in the last few months I have been having frequent and strangely occurring "de Ja vu" moments, these moments are not necisssarily saying I have been here before a couple months back...
    32forever2016 32forever2016 31-35, M Dec 6, 2015

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    if it werent for school i dont think i would

    socualize as much. i find it to be physically and mentally exhausting after awhile.
    psfromthestars psfromthestars 18-21, F Jun 15, 2015

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    Mountain summon me To your highest peak.

    Sky reach for me Feel me at your feet. Forest protect me In your foliage arms. River cleanse me And carry me forth To Another World A World away From Being A World away From Being Nothing To No one Fill my ears With your sweet smells! Caress my body With your beautiful...
    Listening80 Listening80 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    I am 23 years old and about to graduate college.

    I had an abortion September 3rd. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it. I feel like it had to have been the worst decision of my life. I feel absolutely awful, it has changed my whole aspect about life. I went on vacation to my native country and slept with...
    suelen0507 suelen0507 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2015

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Rain0069 Rain0069 26-30, F Jan 10

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    I wish i didn't feel

    so alienated all the time
    florals florals 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2015

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    How blindly we keep going on

    and on in life.. Not even pausing once, not even seeing all this.. When did life become a rat-race? To just reach, to achieve, to carry on and follow others, never questioning why and what is all this, never stopping to see where all the desires are taking us, to nowhere.. Do...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 31, 2015

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 2 Responses May 28, 2014

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    I've always felt disconnected from those around

    me. Their happiness never matches mine. I don't understand their sadness. “I'm so excited!” It's not hard to fake it. It's not hard to fake cry, and charm people into thinking. Raw emotions are easy to fake. I've become really numb. Recently, something kind of strange...
    darkadventures darkadventures 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2015

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    ...Those moments where you just want to,

    find a place ... In the middle of nowhere and just SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    GuruGoddess GuruGoddess 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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    most days actually, I just can't really connect

    with anyone unfortunately I don't why,I wan't to but I just can't.this is why I've ended up alone.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    I'm getting depressed again.

    I'm so angry. I have no idea how to let go of the anger. I am so mad about where I am in life. I want to be friendly with my family. But I am sick of being that quiet little girl who is insecure and scared and embarrassed and paranoid and gets abused taken advantage of and...
    glitternglamxo glitternglamxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Yup, I feel that very often.

    Actually, when I think about it, I always have that feeling somewhere deep inside. There are moments when I don't pay attention to it and I'm too busy but it's always there. I have always felt I am somehow different from everyone. Even from my closest friends. It's very hard...
    AnnaFromFinland AnnaFromFinland 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    Feels like people actually pretend to be close

    with me.. Only for small amount of time and they enjoy others company..
    Karth06 Karth06 22-25, M Jan 20

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    More or less everyday.

    At least everyday I dare to leave the house, seeing happy, contented people socialising and going about their business normally, it really bums me out. I don't begrudge people for it, I'm just jealous of them.
    theotherusernamesweretaken theotherusernamesweretaken 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 15, 2015

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    Sometimes I find myself writing thoughts

    and reading them at a later date, and feeling as though I am reading a stranger's thoughts and feelings. I can't recognize myself in anything. I am living life looking down at myself from above, being present but not truly present at all; here but never truly and actually here...
    paperpeaks paperpeaks 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 13, 2015

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    And there I was, in that place, attending a convention, where it was 2pm, I was listening to speakers. I WAS TORN. My introversion wanted to withdraw into my room, draw a hot bath...
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    why dont my mom understand me. it hurts when she says that i dont care for her
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