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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    Most days I wake up and I call my parents

    since they don't call me. I think they are still trying to build my independence. But I've always been a bit of a loner you know? :( When I first joined EP I was on the verge if ending it all. In real life people don't understand. They see my physical appearance and judge me...
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Whenever I'm at school, I feel like I'm elsewhere. I could sit in a large room full of people, all talking to each other and trying to get my attention, and yet I just can't focus...
    ViperaStellaris ViperaStellaris 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Okay so listen up poptarts. There's kinda this thing where I'm sad a whole lot but don't want anyone to worry about me. In fact, I am only writing this because you need to know my...
    oopsoopspsosjxdsi oopsoopspsosjxdsi 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It comes and goes in waves. The milder ones have me feeling slightly to moderately blue but still functional. But then that one comes along and I am immobilized. I'm unable to...
    wallofnight wallofnight 61-65 1 Response Apr 12

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    Dear SelfWhy are you so mean to me? I have done nothing but supported you all this time. I have given you so much haven't I? Why can't you ever see the good in me, treat me right...
    SwanSongRebeL SwanSongRebeL 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 17

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    I am feeling very overwhelmed these days. With life in general. I have been dealing with my father being ill for about two years now and it's slowly wearing away at finances...
    Withmywoes Withmywoes 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I don't think I'll ever be able to describe exactly how I feel without feeling insane. But I can start I guess. I feel like my energy is just so different than the people around me...
    buffalobilll buffalobilll 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    yep. its just one of those days and it has been a long one. it started out fine. I woke up ate etc etc. the usual. then I left with my grandparents to buy and dig flowers. the lady...
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    :/ take me away... and make everything better
    Comeflywithme23 Comeflywithme23 18-21, F Apr 26

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    Exactly. I feel numb, can't laugh I can cry if I force it out. everywhere theres ppl laughing living it up blah blah blah and I'm stuck in this hole I can't dig myself out of. I'm...
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 8

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    Usually in a crowd, I'm the one sitting in the corner, tight lipped while everyone is mingling and laughing. I think I enjoy people watching than being in the crowd. I'm not a...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I love my family but sometimes they drive me crazy. Its hard being the only guy and youngest in my family, sometimes I just need silence so I can think. I also always hate that...
    LonerToMost84 LonerToMost84 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    Ahhh having lunch in my car away from the noise and everyone.....got a new book, looking forward to reading. This is the only time I have to myself! A house full of kids and a...
    funsized1 funsized1 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    Life can sometimes feel like such a burden... So many ways to cope, but the best way was with love.... Now I just lust for something I don't have...
    pokerheartbrkn pokerheartbrkn 41-45, M Apr 21

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    Sum days i really feel down and really hate myself for so many reasons ..... I even wish tht i go sleep and never wake up i sum times think how would life be for my family if i was...
    ThisIsMe987 ThisIsMe987 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I hide things from my family and now they think I am a good person..... when I barely show any feelings for those I don't care for. No remorse for them.... or anything for them. I...
    AnonWesker AnonWesker 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    It's ironic..I'm more open to friends ill make online than people in my real life like fam or real life friends.Family wise there's only one fam member i get along with but I don't...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 13

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    I thought i was alone, being the odd one around here. I think differntly, I catalogue my thoughts, like a computer. I like science and math cos it makes sense. The theories and...
    nadiahimran2000 nadiahimran2000 13-15, F a week ago

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    I long for the intimacy and the dance with youMy sinful garden of imagination and thoughts I can’t wait to give to you(*in my mind I pass a wink and smile at the faceless...
    nocool nocool 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 16

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I just don't know what my purpose is.and I just feel like my life is over
    harleymufin harleymufin 13-15, M Apr 9

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    I was having a good month up until like three days ago. now I'm in some kind of down wave. I started taking sleeping pills again for the hell of it. I tripped balls at work...
    Cosmicmutt Cosmicmutt 18-21, M Apr 9

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    You think that you are okay, and then from nowhere, depression hits you.. I don't know for how long I have to deal with this anymore.. I'm really tired and I'm losing my mind... >_...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 12

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    Screw the lying and blame game. You wouldn't change even if it'd help everyone in the end.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F Apr 15

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    I used to be. now I'm not. i must grew up a little. I dont care how much money someone has.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 21

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    So don't know what to do with my life just want to go away somewhere and start a fresh :/
    pix78 pix78 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Finally getting back on the road. Everything is as it should be.
    Jackem82 Jackem82 31-35, M Apr 14

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    I just want to be happy. Every time I achieve happiness, something brings me down. It's exhausting trying to "remain positive". Truthfully, I've tried.. It's gotten me no where. It...
    Withmywoes Withmywoes 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I feel like im waiting for my grandmother to come back but she won't until theres some way she can I am pretty sure im stuck feeling this way
    mythlover mythlover 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I feel like I'm supposed to do something, but I'm scared when I do it I'll die
    beyondalone beyondalone 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 10