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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 66-70 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I feel different from everyone else and that's not a good thing it's like c'mon who the heck wanna be different I always try to hide that but sometimes it doesn't work out I'm...
    frost103 frost103 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 3

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    When I stared talking to Tim it was great , the site and meeting him really helped me to get over a person that I was connected to for 18 years. Tim helped me to step back and take...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 6 hrs ago

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    Having a difficult time sticking to my decisions today. I think I might be making it harder on myself by only adhering to the "letter" of my decision but not the "spirit" of it...
    BBWand40 BBWand40 41-45, F 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I've been dealing with this for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    My beach and Friday nights with my friends are my safe places, where I get away from everything/everybody.
    Softballchick05 Softballchick05 13-15, F Mar 7

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    I can't deal with people nor my coworkers I'm feeling bad don't know how even to break in I'm criticized and I feel so different than everyone else but I swear I don't wanna be...
    frost103 frost103 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Yes.i do. but this is not healthy... it's time to brake bad habits for me. For example i have couple of new friends in my life now.I moved to this city lately. And just two who i'm...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F Mar 13

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    and sometimes the right things are the hardest things to be done.it hurts...it feels wrong for a moment...but deep within u know that it is right n no matter what u just have to do...
    urnesha urnesha 18-21, F Mar 2

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    And now it's time to sleep. I'm scared for the nightmares but I will get through it again. It only makes me more tired... Goodnight everyone...
    Raicyn Raicyn 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I feel bad cause my ex have been coming over and we been ******* our brains out she gots a new man in her life and cheating is cheating but the only reason I feel bad is cause...
    daddylove4u daddylove4u 51-55, M Mar 18

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    Im tired of everyone here and want to move AT LEAST 4 hours away. But of corse I cant 1) Im 17 and 2) Even after im 18 ill still be in high school. I want to start over and make...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F Mar 19

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    Ever have one of those times when you wish you could just get in your car and/or get in a plane and just up and go far far away and not go back for at least a couple of weeks...
    tastyfrzz tastyfrzz 46-50 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sometimes its just better to climb into my "bubble" for a bit and just relax and think. Being such a sensitive and emotional person all the time wrecks havoc on my body. So I just...
    orchidangel orchidangel 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am tired of being polite to people.My mom in law does not think I have a mom too and acts so selfishly sometimes.All she thinks of is her son.I don't exist for her.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 6 Responses Mar 2

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    Nobody from my school knows I'm depressed. Mainly my "friends" I just hide it so I don't have to explain anything.
    Butterflyyana Butterflyyana 16-17, F Mar 19

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    I'll make friends and we'll have a blast. It takes a lot of effort to have those enjoyable moments. Especially trust and expression as well as a creative mind. Well, I'm the sort...
    Reanou Reanou 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I am the daughter of a happily married couple and the sister of 3 siblings. One brother and two sisters. and I am the third child to be born in this family...for the past few years...
    Annamo2dres Annamo2dres 22-25, F Mar 16

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    I am the daughter of a happily married couple and the sister of 3 siblings. One brother and two sisters. and I am the third child to be born in this family...for the past few years...
    Annamo2dres Annamo2dres 22-25, F Mar 16

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    My friendship doesn't seems to stay. I've been a timid girl since young. I lost all connection with my highschool friends other than my best friends when we graduated. And then I...
    ContraDreams ContraDreams 18-21, F Mar 22

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    Theres a boy dying to meet me, Ive refused. We've talked for 4 years online after I left our school district. He lives across the city, and we have never even ran into each other...
    petramullins petramullins 13-15, F Mar 14

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    im not suicidal or anything but people get annoying bout hella fast
    TCByrdhouse TCByrdhouse 13-15, M Mar 2

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    I deff ****** my hair up ......
    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Can you imagine all that you could get done if there were no need for stoplights and no traffic jams!
    tastyfrzz tastyfrzz 46-50 Mar 16

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    I am autistic and I need to have a safe place where I can be alone in a dark and quiet room uninterrupted. I have my room in my house, but my dad sleeps in here while I sleep in my...
    Hymph Hymph 22-25 Mar 17

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    Everytime people asks me if I'm okay, it just reminds me that I'm not.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 1 Response Mar 18

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    What if it never gets better? What happens if I'm always just going to be sad?
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    The signs of ignorance is showing everywhere. My so called Friends build walls around me it seems as if to close me out. Alone is how I am left. My father gone. I guess my whole...
    Kristyforall Kristyforall 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I had a huge win at work yesterday afternoon and last night my husband and both kids had major meltdowns. I'm so proud that I kept myself together and was the force of reason and...
    BBWand40 BBWand40 41-45, F 9 Responses Mar 21

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    But life has those moments. And society makes them longer.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M a week ago