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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 299 People

    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Sometimes I think I've opened myself up too much I build these contacts but some withdraw and leave me disconnected from them and myself. I can not close my heart part way; I'm all...
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I have never been so depressed....i am currently isolating myself from everyone and pushing everyone away....i feel so broken and run down i dunno what to do anymore....
    redphoenix02 redphoenix02 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I can't help that maybe if I feel it there must be some truth to it
    Princeofnothing Princeofnothing 18-21, M Feb 3

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    I've gone out of my way to help people, gave people my last just so they had something. I drop everything at last minute just to go and help someone in need. All the while i've...
    bleedingouttheeyes bleedingouttheeyes 31-35, M Feb 18

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    I don't know why do I hide it whenever I am really depressed and even feel like crying. But I do. I really don't wanna let others know I am depressed. Just like, today, my friend...
    Acrylic19 Acrylic19 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I know my boyfriend loves me, he says I love you only in the deepest moments we share. Which use to get to me but now I think it's special. But sometimes I also feel like in...
    Withmywoes Withmywoes 22-25, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I annoy people when I correct them. I know that much ,but I have this weird self esteem issue where I just feel like I'm annoying everyone constantly. They say it's not true ,but I...
    onecutebubbles0729 onecutebubbles0729 22-25, F Feb 15

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    So my first post on this got deleted which just made my day even worse. What I was writing about that made me upset and angry got made worse by ep deleting it! So apparently I can...
    NewDay NewDay 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    It doesn't matter what I'm doing, sitting in class, zoning out, or playing the piano. I sometimes just get confused as to why I am there in that moment and frankly what the point...
    Kgurl1177 Kgurl1177 16-17, F Feb 16

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    Am I ***** for not really responding to simple greetings on here?"Hello", "Hi', "What's up?". I guess after receiving some messages from people that were pretty thought out(as a...
    Raneth Raneth 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    totally belong in this group I am the poster child for this group the CEO ...I finally lowered the guillotine on my rotting passionless relationship with my now ex fake husband I...
    jaxpdx jaxpdx 41-45, F Feb 1

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    Sometimes I just feel stupid and idiotic because of my disorders that I'm not proud of... I feel like some freak :'( I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Borderline...
    SkylerSkies SkylerSkies 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I miss the feeling of being physically and mentally intimate with someone. Like, I have sex, but the sex I have isn't love. It's just sex. I haven't "made love" in nearly 6 months...
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I sometimes feel like nobody understands exactly what I am going through even though they say they do and I don't think that they realize that doing that makes it even harder to...
    Bubbles0329 Bubbles0329 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    Perhaps this is the prefect title. I truly do feel like a bad person. The fact that my past is now my present.. Going nowhere fast. Stuck at a crossroad not knowing which way to...
    Beanbella Beanbella 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Intimate with someone play a vital roles in bonding the two souls together, heal each other's wound, repair broken skin.. Yummy yummy
    WalkerJoe WalkerJoe 26-30, M Feb 3

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    Just because you haven't found your talent yet, doesn't mean you don't have one.
    cat20079 cat20079 36-40, M Feb 3

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    Image That is me all the way.
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Slept all day yesterday.. ..I could sleep all day today... Eternal sleep. I don't want to Cary on
    thebeautifulprincess thebeautifulprincess 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today is a down day .. Xxxx
    snowmoon123 snowmoon123 31-35, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Did anyone survive? I swear I heard your voice beyond this side.
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M Feb 1

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    True enough. Intimacy is a unique thing between two people who know each other well.
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Feb 2

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    Sucks when you treat your girl with affection and love and your the one who gets hurt. Hopefully miss right comes along soon
    cbm99 cbm99 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    I'm trying to come to terms with myself and decisions that I've made in the past. I'm selfish in that I want to be happy, but I'm hurting people in the process.
    twistedAndJaded twistedAndJaded 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I am shorter than even the average woman. I'm only 145 cm (4'9"). But I kinda like it.
    smalljuha smalljuha 18-21, M Feb 19

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    Some days I feel angry. Like why me, what did I do to deserve this. Some days I feel just sad and empty. I often wonder if things will ever be easy for me or if my entire life will...
    shoxic shoxic 22-25, F Feb 1

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    I'm an awkward teenager from a very emotionally retentive family. It has bothered me my entire life that when I look at other families (my neighbors, my friends' families, TV...
    mystory1s2commonforaT1tle mystory1s2commonforaT1tle 16-17, M Feb 7

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    Posted by LetItGo000 on February 10th, 2015 at 10:06 AM Hi everyone! How are you? Before anything, I'd like to say that this confession may be a little long, but I really need...
    LetItGo000 LetItGo000 18-21, F Feb 12

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    I recently broke up with my boyfriend because he wasn't making me happy any more and some of the stuff he started to say to me was really hurting me on the inside. I've got one...
    ginge101 ginge101 13-15, F Feb 13

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    When I listen to the music I like, I search for ratings online. And if the music is rated horrible. I feel like that I am a horrible person. And I can't get rid of it because I...
    lostfreakinglost lostfreakinglost 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Yesterday was one of those days. I was triggered the night before by something I can't admit to anyone about. It's way too painful. I hate those days though but when you have a...
    jvstme jvstme 46-50, F 5 Responses Feb 10

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    just feels like I can't seem to stop screwing everything up some days you know? I just went sliding several feet on a quarter inch think sheet of ice ten minutes ago. is it any...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M Feb 10

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    Am I a terrible person for not wanting you to be back home? I liked that you weren't present, it gave me some time to think in peace. And your efforts to stay into contact with me...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Hate this feeling of missing someone and realizing that u r alone in this...feeling so lonely like everything is missing while having everyone around me...i m behaving so stupid...
    deephuman deephuman 22-25, F 4 days ago