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I Feel So Disconnected From Everyone And Everything Some Days

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    Deliberate Disconnections

    I've gone my whole life never becoming completely connected to any one thing, I've never learned how to do one thing completely, or given myself to one person entirely. I'm not sure if this is a defense mechanism that allows me to stay safe from harm or from feeling stupid. It...
    theunexaminedlife theunexaminedlife 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Somedays ill just wake up

    and have a couple things go wrong and instantly know itll be a bad day. sometimes i just walk around school like a lost confused soul looking for closure.
    Jenna1214 Jenna1214 16-17, F 1 Response May 28

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    Love Is Like Candy

    Exhausted Spent Worn Weary Love is like candy Great high Hard crash I crave the taste I want the feel But knowing what it will do to me No thank you I'll pass...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    What I Wish I Had Said In A Song....

    Come on baby, let's get out of this town I got a full tank of gas With the top rolled down There's a chill in my bones I don't want to be left alone So baby you can sleep while I drive I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar In my pocket I'll carry my harp I got some...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    My Own Little World.

    i battle with a mental illness and pushing people away is what i do best i battle with bipolar disorder and because of that i trust no one around me and it makes me so sad, i push people away cause im scared if i let them close they will do everything in there power to hurt me...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed 18-21, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    The Dance Of Disconnection..

    At a very young age I discovered something about myself that wasn't quite like the other children in my presence. My self~awareness was fully developed by the age of 5 and I was adultified on the regular. I had no one to protect me or guide me through life rather cast their...
    whosgonnasavemysoulnow whosgonnasavemysoulnow 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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    Fish Bowl

    I feel like I'm in my own little ******* fishbowl, while everyone else is out swimming in the big wide ocean. I get stuck with this. Reinforced glass. Little stone castle and some plastic seaweed. You might read some of my stories and think you can 'relate' to me, but if you...
    newmurderer newmurderer 70+ 3 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    It's Really Pathetic

    I noticed it sometime after the abuse ended. I thought that now that it was over I would be happy. But then I realized how other parts of my life felt distant. I suppose as a defense mechanism during the abuse, I created another world made of novels, video games; it was really...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2012

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    Somedays

    I wake up most days and i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything some days i don't feel human i feel like an alien incapable of feeling anything but numb and depressed i wake with tears in my eyes sometimes i just wish everyone would leave me alone with my thoughts...
    Cetana Cetana 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Its My Own Emotions That Do This

    My own bitterness and anger keep me in my own little corner. My disconnected seems to hide hehind my fake little smile. Because if I'm not smiling they will know and that is not good. If I appear the way I feel then I will be criticize by my mother, my friends, my employer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2011

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    Every Now And Then

    Every now and then I have days where I feel so hopeless and down on my future. It doesn't make sense because other days I feel like I can conquer the world. I guess I'm just feeling sad because I'm finally distancing myself from my exbf. I thought I wanted to still be friends but...
    Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7 36-40, F Nov 23, 2012

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    Disconnected

    Disconnected,That's how I feel,When it comes to life,It's disconnected me.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Like Today

    Literally, right now, I am sitting here at my computer, writing stories for EP when I wish I was out somewhere enjoying my life with people I love. My girlfriend is asleep, my mother is here and she's asleep as well, and I have no friends except music. I don't really even feel...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    Everything becomes meaningless some days and when people complain to you about certain stuff you don't even feel sorry for them any more. Its just some days when you can't bring...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F Oct 28

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    I just wish I had enough money to go somewhere far away where no one knows me and be just by myself. Free to be me and do what I want just go away. Just for a week. I want to just...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F Oct 29

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    I try to reach out but it feels impossible! I remember when I young and dumb (19) I fell in love with this girl and it didn't go my way and I was down... But I was living one of...
    ozboybrian ozboybrian 26-30 1 Response Nov 10

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    I don't like when people see me cry. It makes me feel weak. I don't want anybody I'm not close to to see me at my lowest. It makes it look like they have something over me. An...
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    Like right now. I just don't feel like being near anybody or talk to anybody. I want to just forget about everything.
    SAVEtheHER0 SAVEtheHER0 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    Because I keep all my problems and pain to myself. I need to talk to someone but I'm too afraid they will judge me. Or I am afraid I will complain too much. I am in one of the most...
    Malone670 Malone670 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    Now is usually my chill time. Time for me to just be me and process my emotions from the day. Today I'm being robbed of that being stuck at my moms. No family event or emergency...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    I hind the pain I am feeling from my kids and grandson some times I go in to the shower and I cry my eyes out I don't show any of them the pain I am feeling since my husband left...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 4 Responses Nov 7

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    Sometimes I just want to run away, but I can't. so I get into my car and drive. I make no turns just straight. as far as I can go. I start to feel like I can actually get away. all...
    jenn316 jenn316 22-25, F Nov 12

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    I'm over people from school everyday it's like a battle trying to tell myself it's okay when in reality it's not I come home to my family and then get **** from them I feel so lost...
    Loverforsweets Loverforsweets 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    I don't want to stress anyone out. I can deal with it myself. I know I can because I have no other choice but sometimes I feel like I can't keep it up anymore.
    Klahleesi Klahleesi 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I feel like forging relationships with people, although it takes work, is 2nd nature for everyone around me. But I have no idea how to do it myself...
    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F Nov 4

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    I've only found 1 person my age who can actually understand me.. Well.. Some of the times.. Which is way more then anyone has been able to before . Everyone my age is just worried...
    MorbidPeaches MorbidPeaches 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    Want a job, pay my own bills, contribute to society and get away from everybody! Live my own simple life.
    josh221992 josh221992 22-25, M Oct 28

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    I'm so sick of my daughter. I could walk away easily if not for my husband. Trapped. Feeling very trapped.
    mjj1977 mjj1977 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    I'm an introvert. Sometimes I need to be alone. It's not that I don't like people or I hate anyone or I'm sad. I just need to re energize by myself, with a book and maybe some tea...
    faithisadino faithisadino 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    I feel I am a lot more mature than the people in my classes or around me.
    Emmy182 Emmy182 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    Of course I'm different, I'm me, nobody has my exact same genetics or way of thinking, nobody is me, nobody can be me. That's obvious. I just don't understand why teens need to go...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 4

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    I feel bad when people act ungrateful even after you do as much possible. I hate this people & I feel that one day they should also have the same experience & have the same...
    Lostmyselfinpain Lostmyselfinpain 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    I'm pretty sure I do sometimes haha
    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Even if it's just in my mind - it's still an escape right?
    IBleedBlue IBleedBlue 18-21, F Nov 12

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    My friends don't know what I go through everyday. They think im a nice person to be around .Well im to them . It hurts to know that there just as fake as bardie dolls
    wolffire14 wolffire14 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    I have strong beliefs and values. I'm saving myself for marriage. I drink very little and I don't do drugs. I absolutely hate going out to bars,clubs,etc. I would much rather play...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 31

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    I get along with older people instead of the people my age.
    dashuria dashuria 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 2

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    Or people of any age, really.
    ShatteredSoundwaves ShatteredSoundwaves 22-25, M 10 hrs ago

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    I've been with this guy for almost 5 months and its been great till now.. He had a past affair with my cousin but that was way before us and just recently she found out about us...
    Natalia16 Natalia16 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    My confidence in my work. My dad stole my resevoir. And society aint taught get over it yet. They just say do it and how. Like it made sense and is easy. Not.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 15

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    When life slaps you, go ahead and slap it right back
    fav777 fav777 18-21 2 Responses Nov 18

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    Though I do have my moments when I still feel hurt and like crap. Some days it's really hard to push past. Before I used to have to really force myself through the haze. It would...
    W0lfhunter W0lfhunter 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 6

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    It's sad, isn't it? You meet someone. You two get close. Everything's great for a while. You talk a lot. You tell them a lot. They know a lot. About you. They're different from...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 1 Response 4 days ago

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    a few years ago i was a little bit chubby and wasn't happy with myself. i started to eat better, stopped trying to lose weight by not eating/purging/overexercising and found a way...
    skinnytofat14 skinnytofat14 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    I have so many good things in my life, beautiful experiences, lots of opportunities, caring friends, amazing kids, but I can't fight this sickness that's infected me. I feel...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 10

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    Consider for a moment all the things we google search, all the things that our friends search, and that people outside those circles of people probably google search for everyday...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 16

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    I'm very disconnected from media in general compared to basically every other kid I know. I never watch TV, listen to the radio, or care about the news. I'm one of the only kids in...
    RipperCreak RipperCreak 13-15, M 1 Response