I Feel Stupid

I used to be smart.. my grades in school were really good, and i felt clear and focused and able to do things, up until i was about 13. Thats when i started self-harming, and i would just find anything to inflict pain on myself, and...

I spent the weekend fretting that I p!ssed off my best friend, because she didn't respond to my message. Today at school I find out that she got her phone and computer taken away for her grade dropping to a B+. She even got hurtful...

I just recently bought the Nurse Entrance Exam study guide. I have to take this test in order to get into Thomas Jefferson school of Nursing.
Oh how dumb I feel. It has been 12 years since I graduated from high school and even then I...

I have to tell him. I have the biggest crush on him and I have to tell him or I'll regret it forever. He's online right now and I'm talking to him RIGHT NOW but I can't tell him. Not over MSN, and not in real life. I JUST CAN'T!
I'm a...

Why do I feel stupid? Because I don't know how to get along well with other people. Because I can't hold a conversation with someone else. Because I get scared. Socially. Because I keep thinking I screwed up. Dammit. To have...

Why did she leave? Why why why? Etc. Why won't she talk to me? What am I doing wrong? Why can't I see her again? If I will, then when? 10 years from now? 20? Will she be married to some other guy? I hope not. I don't want to...

I shouldn't feel like this, but, sometimes I do... It doesn't make sense really. I have a 4.0 at one of the top 30 schools in the country, I am studying 4 languages (and adding more), play 3 instruments and love learning in general. So...

that i feel stupid while i feel everyone else is alot more intelligent then i am i cant think sometimes to stay on task and remember certain things and it frustrates me and it makes me cry to know that i have this learning...

i thought it was all three of us, working  together to make sure it started right, to make sure it went in the right direction. i helped with all the research and started to get a little excited about it. i was included in it i...

Math makes no sense. I just don't get it, I don't understand sometimes. I study harder for math than all other classes put together. I had a tutor all summer prepare me for this, but now I'm struggling again. Its like the teacher is...

When I hear about someone who started their reading habits since an early age, say, for example, at elementary school, I always get this awful feeling of inferiority and guilt. Well, it's more of a mixture of feelings and thoughts that...

I have no business sense
No street smarts
am a computer idiot
am an employment idiot
can't find info on the stuff others seem to have picked up by osmosis
know useless information and have no useful information
can't design a web...

I can honestly say that after my first year of college, I feel less intelligent than I did before.
The university I go to pretty much tries to humble students in each and every possible way. After my first semester, all...

I get very lost and confused easily when people talk. Once people use words that I can't spell or know the meaning of I freak out and my head hurts. Or when I read something and it has lots of uppity intellecutal language same result I...

i will start my story from the begining so please be patient :)

well, my mother died when i was 5 years old and i have 2 twins younger brothers

my father lived his life for us, he didnt get married after my mother, he wanted...

so theres this guy that ive been talking to lately, with the hope of a future relationship in mind. i guess you could say ive got a thing for him at the moment.
so i texted him today at work saying "hey you, hows things?" cuz...