I Feel Totally Alienated

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    It's extremely hard to try

    and form relationships sometimes. It's hard making friends and when you do, they seem to never really last. This isn't written out of exaggeration- just happens to be the way the things are. And I am aware that this feeling won't always feel like this, but it can be pretty...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 30, 2015

    The odd one out, the rebel.

    The one who gets into problems. That's who I am, or who I appear to be, I'm unsure. I'm always alone, in school, at home, everywhere, no company. When I look at the other kids, they seem almost too happy to me, so oblivious, is it because I'm cynical...
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13
    13-15, F
    Feb 10

    there are people all around me.

    friends I text and tweet and Facebook and go out with. I am hardly ever alone, but I feel so alone. I don't have a single person I feel comfortable just talking to about a bad day. my dad is having his fling with his woman who I can't tell anyone. my mum is always working and I...
    skittlequeen skittlequeen
    16-17, F
    May 30, 2015

    Always alone. "Be social,

    keep talking" they say. Well apparently I must be really annoying because I'm inevitably left alone, or blown off entirely. Even in conversation. I'm meeting people and trying to make friends and we don't click and they move on. Ok that's fine. It sucks, but there's a few...
    Twichl Twichl
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    except for my kids and maybe 2 other people

    who i know online. I prefer the online people to the real world people.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    Aug 6, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 10, 2009

    Horribly Alienated

    i feel horribly alienated all the time. i have tried to correct it. i try to make friends. but it is impossible. people don't understand when i talk about it. this alienation is way beyond loneliness. it's horrendous.
    diredepths diredepths
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2010

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