I Feel Very Unwanted

I think the title says it well.
I am head-over-heels for him.
We have known each other since were 11.
We were in such deep love. I know this because I felt it with my whole being.
But today... He said he was done with me. He has done...

I have felt very unwanted a lot throughout my lifetime. Its a feeling that I think I will pretty much always have to deal with because due to some events from my past. I am trying to cope with the feelings, and try to push them aside...

Everytime I find a person that wants to be friends with me it doesnt last long. Its like after they spend time with me they see how dumb i am. See i have dislexia and im not smart. I know this, and i hate this. the school system failed...

I dont understand why I havent found a girlfriend yet its been nine years and every year gets even harder to keep trying.But some part of me just think it would be best to just give up.Today I woke up better than ever but still feeling...

My story.

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Sometimes I feel unwanted and uneeded. Like I'm annoying people by talking to them. My mother sometimes calls me a parasite. I feel like most people I talk to only hear "Blah, blah, blah." I am lonely, I feel neglected. There is...

I'm a person NOBODY wants ,

I'm sure I'm not alone when I say this. But I feel very unwanted all the time. Either I'm not good enough or something, I always feel vibes from others that I'm not wanted. Whatever.

How very sad to be over forty, completely single, with no real prospects on the radar screen.  I was very shy growing up, so I've never even had a real boy-friend.  Not really.  I was a "one of...