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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 120 People

    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    The feeling's terrible.

    You're completely numb from inside, nothing makes you happy, you can't live in the present no matter how hard you try. But, I'm going to find my soul one day. You wait and watch, you.
    IDontWantNoTrouble IDontWantNoTrouble 26-30, M Dec 20, 2014

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 6 Responses May 2, 2011

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    More than enough happened with me in last 2 months. At first I thought it's just destroying me. I became depressed and suicidal and a total loner. But then I begun to find myself...
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 16-17 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    It's funny how life goes sometimes. Two nights ago I got a phone call from someone who used to be my best friend for 12 years, He stoped talking to me about a year ago due to his...
    AstridPhotographer AstridPhotographer 22-25, F Feb 10

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    I believe God has told me that I have truly lost my salvation. When I was young I prayed to God asking Jesus into my heart, (though not feeling any conversion or conviction), I did...
    unsaveable unsaveable 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I can relate to everyone here. I wouldn't consider myself jaded, but I have no complete trust in anyone. I wasn't always this way, and a younger more naive version took everyone at...
    Kidpanama Kidpanama 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    Self Reflections My skin is not a tough armor, its too thin and easily broken. The air i am inhaling is attenuating with each gasp for breath. My shins are quivering and small...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    after 8 years of being with a man I met as a sophomore in high school when I was fifteen I'm now 22 and I've been through more than I've ever imagined. he cheated on me for 3 years...
    kjndlani1213 kjndlani1213 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    Fluffy . . ..Remembering Bear years later i vowed not to have a pet ever again. My ex brought a cat home one day and of course failed. I did my best to try not accept her. The cat...
    Dreambuttterfly Dreambuttterfly 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 30

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    THINGS ARE SOO AMAZING RIGHT NOW! Our relationship feels better than ever and NATE IS SO AMAZING! I didn't go to sleep at all last night because I couldn't believe Nate and I had...
    ChildOfHarmony ChildOfHarmony 16-17, F Feb 4

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    I've never been like everyone else, I've always had different opinions maybe that's why I don't have many friends..
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    Sometimes I feel lost and this is a feeling I want to lose
    norahcutie norahcutie 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I am alone The doors of heaven been shut I thought I knew the lord but I didn't realize that I was a hypocrite my heart was hard and I had a loose tongue. I am under gods judgment...
    smt368 smt368 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Turns out that I've known for years that I have a baby brother from my father's side. Although I've never intended to met him since i don't get along with our dad. Recently I...
    meredithgreys meredithgreys 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Every last one of my hardships in my life have shaped me to be the woman that I am today I don't regret anything that I've gone through because it taught me a lesson I hold my head...
    Shai75 Shai75 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    I have a older brother and a younger sister who I never talk to. I only thought I had a older brother but a few years ago a young girl found me on Facebook claiming that her and my...
    OrochimaruSama92 OrochimaruSama92 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I've been a volunteer firefighter/EMT/recovery diver for 2 years and all the things I've seen and done have made a lot stronger. I've had to pull dead bodies from frozen lakes, cut...
    firefighter1122 firefighter1122 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 14

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    I've been through a lot in my life and have had a lot of illness, family and friend loss etc but I am far stronger and more focused because of those things which is the only good...
    Turnturn Turnturn 26-30, F Feb 14

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    people don't understand what they put me through. they see me and think I'm happy, that I would never attempt suicide, that I would never self harm. until my mom found out. I...
    eternitygoeson eternitygoeson 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    As a teenager growing up in society, people don't necessarily see what it's like to go through some things that I deal with. In general, a lot of teens have depression. What kills...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I've been a volunteer firefighter/emt/recovery diver for two years, I've seen and had to do some horrible things, like diving to the bottom of a lake to bring up a dead child and...
    firefighter1122 firefighter1122 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17

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    I wouldn't know how to handle life and it's tough situations had I not been through what I've been through growing up. It made me who I am today.
    Born2Inspire Born2Inspire 18-21, M Feb 18

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    I've been lying to my body for so long ... I fear one day it's going to realize how old it really is!!
    Walkalone9000 Walkalone9000 51-55, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am strong because of what I've been through. My problems although they've caused me deep unbearable pain, shape me into who I am and who I want to be. I want to look back on my...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I don't deny or hide the mistakes that I've made in my life, but I don't flaunt them either. I like the person that I am, and I wouldn't be me without those experiences.
    purplemusicprincess purplemusicprincess 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    I only live with my dad, am a only child, and I don't go to school. I've only lived with my dad for about 2 or 3 years but it feels like a lifetime. My mom died when I was 8 or 9...
    sierrastivers sierrastivers 13-15, T 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Yesterday I found photos of a naked women on his bed in my boyfriends, now ex boyfriends phone. I am of course heart broken but I am not at all surprised I said if I ever found...
    SeniaV SeniaV 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I've seen things and gone through things I shouldn't have had to experience. Some days I wonder how I crawled out of the depths of hell with as much damage as I had, and how I went...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been drained. Emotionally. My soul has departed. And now i would enjoy nothing more then destruction. I have no control.
    dropitnow52 dropitnow52 18-21, F a week ago

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    Come let us play Let me restrain your body so that your soul is set free Let me paint those red stripes on your tenderness Let the boundaries between pleasure and pain blur Let us...
    aravind920 aravind920 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    After watching this ! I have arrived!! Lol http://youtu.be/44lmjc2I_cE
    ALaCoit ALaCoit 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    The sun did not rise today... My skin did not feel its warmth. My soul did not feel it's comfort. My mind is full of shadows of the past. Darkness surrounds me...my hurt like...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    going through tramatic experiences can hurt people...yet my being has decided to let it all go...she finally realizes the whole picture and has forgiven those that hurt her...she...
    EternalViolet EternalViolet 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I had about 4 near death experiences one out of those fours had me fighting for my life.. if you want to know more what it felt like inbox me...it doesn't make me a better person...
    UrOneAndOnly UrOneAndOnly 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    A few times. He wants me really bad. He cannot have me I am not for sale. This is the absolute in fear. No more. What did that mean?
    LastofmyPeople LastofmyPeople 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    I have made a decision to cheat on my wife. Our relationship is unsalvageable. I just need some affection. No yelling, no critizising. It's been years lost without touching.
    MikeMachinist MikeMachinist 61-65, M Feb 12

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    it's so sad to know that those people who told you they care about you is now ignoring you as if they never knew you. As if you've never been part of their lives. As if you never...
    KarenIsMyName KarenIsMyName 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't get how some people can do certain things in there youth and not expect that they must deal with the consequences of there actions. when I was a teenager I fell in love...
    queenofthesouthpaw queenofthesouthpaw 22-25, F Jan 28

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    my oldest brother's death. I always thought he was invincible and when he passed it hurt me to my heart.
    Shannon87 Shannon87 26-30, F 4 Responses