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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

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    The feeling's terrible.

    You're completely numb from inside, nothing makes you happy, you can't live in the present no matter how hard you try. But, I'm going to find my soul one day. You wait and watch, you.
    IDontWantNoTrouble IDontWantNoTrouble 26-30, M Dec 20, 2014

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F Oct 24, 2013

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 7 Responses May 2, 2011

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    I guess I thought I was, but maybe I'm not. I'm feeling very sad and very suicidal right now. It's taking an effort to not just scream or slit my wrists. And I feel so stupid. But...
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    I am lost inside my head.Reality is too hard. I am a coward.
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    Nightmare. I had many many bad experiences starting when I was a baby. We are very poor that milk was scarce and I feed on rice juice or warm water. We sleep in dirty places, I got...
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    Yep. I'm here to share my thoughts, opinions, dreams and aspiration. If it doesn't fit your standards, it's your problem, I don't want to have an argument with ANYBODY. nor my...
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    Why is it that my boyfriend who child I am now 7 months pregnant with is lashing out at me? His mother passed away 2 weeks ago today. I went with him to the funeral in which he...
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    my mind wanders to moments with You anticipating, but anticipating what? blinded, but sensing Your presence hearing You breathe, makes me hold my breath and breathe harder all at...
    gingerlymaid gingerlymaid 41-45, F 20 hrs ago

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    Frustrated with myself I seem to do fine in the morning all good intention then some thing happens, usually stress and I eat myself sick I wish I would stop but I don't know how...
    marlett marlett 41-45, F 1 Response May 4

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    I was lonely and desperate for a companion. His name popped up on my screen alongside a smiling face. Still to this day, I have no idea how to pronounce his name but seeing it...
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