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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 117 People

    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    The feeling's terrible.

    You're completely numb from inside, nothing makes you happy, you can't live in the present no matter how hard you try. But, I'm going to find my soul one day. You wait and watch, you.
    IDontWantNoTrouble IDontWantNoTrouble 26-30, M a week ago

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 6 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    For awhile I did lose myself. I thought the journey of finding me would be this long road filled with questions left unanswered. Until I reached out to this person. He has opened...
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I put everything I had into this relationship...lost my 2 closest and only friends. Now I've lost her. I feel so alone and out of it. I don't know what to do.
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    I endured a huge betrayal from an unlikely place. I won't share specific details of the story - because my purpose for this essay is not to complain! Quite the opposite; I want to...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 17

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    Does anyone have any strategies for the pain and emptiness? I wake with it, I live with it and at the end of the day I sleep with it. Sometimes I find it hard to breathe. I can't...
    missssyme missssyme 31-35, F 8 Responses Dec 11

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    For a while I've been having these dreams about this girl I've never met before and I think I've fallen in love. It's been almost a year I've been having these 4 weird dreams and I...
    bayley92 bayley92 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14

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    I have been through more than any 20 year old should have been through. I have been sexually abused in a relationship that lasted 4 years too long. I have done every drug I know of...
    MariaSmiles17 MariaSmiles17 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    I have been sexually abused and demeaned. I have had 5 surgeries. I have been on every rx painkiller except morphine and dilaudid. I have lived, loved, lost, found it again, and...
    CountryQueen623 CountryQueen623 18-21, F 18 Responses Dec 12

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    Over the summer I was 130 pounds! It was all in my tummy too I almost looked like I was 3 months pregnant >.> I mean I know some people can work that weight but not me lol. But now...
    PartyPat2336 PartyPat2336 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Have you ever just sat and thought....damn I've been through a lot of ****
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    My brother died a year and a half ago, he fell down some stairs and hit his head. I thought I was ok. My best friend, lover and confidant and I have drifted apart, I have no one...
    AisBash AisBash 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    Well it's nearly 9pm here for me, just to anyone out there I'm usually available to talk around this time. Just thought I'd say something
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    I've had a therapist for over a year now...
    blueworldsapart blueworldsapart 13-15, F Dec 16

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    And by a person I've never seen or talked to before. Was just selecting their profile to take a look and it says I've been blocked. Curious that someone would block me randomly...
    Snowhat Snowhat 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 16

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    As I grow older and look back upon my life.I have experience all knids of physical and mental anguish.Going through them broke me down,yet I've found away to get back up and keep...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Dec 9

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    Yes. I'm in love, but not a girl, ..I fell in love with myself, And nature is love,Love yourself so much to gain,It seems as if I've got everything,
    Mandycanada123 Mandycanada123 36-40, M Dec 3

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    I have certainly met some great people here on EP. I'm glad I've found such a place like this where I can be myself.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Dec 9

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    In the new year i will be starting a new youtube channel vlogging about mental health. I want it to be very interactive with the audience so will be having video convosations with...
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40 18-21, M Dec 12

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    For the last one year and half, I lost many parts of my life. I had to quit my job, my health was bad, my friendships changed, my relationships didn't work out, and even my car was...
    palabok palabok 31-35, M Dec 5

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    I suck at life now. My worlds been taken away. Knife through the heart. This is BULLSHIT. Baby choose to come back to me. You know this isn't right!
    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 10

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    Be it emotional or physical. Being stabbed in the back so many times I lost count, to cancer and other health issues. I have been through more in my 30 years then allot have and...
    ImJustJen ImJustJen 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    How can I tell though? He makes me feel worlds different than anyone ever has in the past. All I can think is that he makes me feel like I am wrapped in a warm blanket when I am...
    BlueMoonLuck BlueMoonLuck 22-25, F Dec 10

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    I have recently decided to leave my husband and all of my plans seem to be falling through. I feel trapped :
    jennygirlnov1910 jennygirlnov1910 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 10

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    I just found out my grandpa almost passed away this past week. He's doing better then he was. I have been with him today for most of my day. He's lost so much weight it makes me...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    If I was too sit here and write every bad thing that happened....we'd be here for a while, in fact I should write a memoir. so I'm just going to tell the story of the girl that had...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    In life, we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But no matter what, everything we do makes us who we are, and in...
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 2

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    I'm drowning in darkness and sadly I don't know if I'll win this fight.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    alinacc12 alinacc12 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    Your experiences makes u to who u are and the more hurt you,ve been the more u can learn from it. From my experience the hurtful people is the ones who are the most understanding...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 16

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    adeleccaa adeleccaa 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    zoecc11 zoecc11 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I came here to explore bi/lesbian females. Share our experiences and fantasies.
    cutesarah cutesarah 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    It happned again today morning. My Boss was completly out of control shouted like hell with his maximum volume. told me " F u k off". told many things which are not suitable in...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    "It's hard to believe I'm okay After all, it's been awhile Since you walked away I'm way past crying Over you finding someone else You turned my days into nights But now I see the...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    Since i met my boyfriend i feel different. I feel happier and i think i deserve more then first. Because of him i'm learning to love myself! He made me believe in myself, in the...
    lunaeatsyou lunaeatsyou 16-17, F Dec 11

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    I know im young, but I have been through a lot and even though its hard it has made me who I am. I am a better, stronger person because of it.
    BlessedOne88 BlessedOne88 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Tell me when it's time to come back down cause i don't want to ever feel like this again...
    dropitnow52 dropitnow52 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    The key to fulfillment is adversity – MyStory with YourStory Let’s start with a simple exercise. All of you please close your eyes for 15 seconds and think about ONE or two...
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    I ran out of shelf space, so I sometimes trip over them in my room.
    twelves twelves 22-25 1 Response Dec 11

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