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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 134 People

    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 7 Responses May 2, 2011

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 41-45, F Oct 24, 2013

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    I don't just think it,

    I know it. I don't think I ever had a soul in fact. The one I thought I was since I was two turned out to be pure fantasy- what I WISHED I was. Who I actually am I'd: drab, ugly, empty, nothing. A person who just decided not to give up but has nothing whatsoever.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F Sep 18, 2015

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    The feeling's terrible.

    You're completely numb from inside, nothing makes you happy, you can't live in the present no matter how hard you try. But, I'm going to find my soul one day. You wait and watch, you.
    IDontWantNoTrouble IDontWantNoTrouble 26-30, M Dec 20, 2014

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    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    To be honest I feel like I've been betrayed by every person I know. The only person who didn't betray me and was consistent through and through was a weed smoking democrat and he...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't really know if all our experiences make us stronger. I know some do, but some can destroy you. Being hurt so much can change you into someone you never wanted to be. I don...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    When I was little I'd always loved going to my cousins house. No matter how much begging it took from both my brother and I we'd fight onwards with our dad until we won the battle...
    Peanut18 Peanut18 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My emotions confuse me. My mind is a jumbled mess. I can't think. I don't feel sadness anymore, I just feel nothing. Numb. Completely disconnected from the world around me. The...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Letter to myself: You're doing amazing. I'm proud of you. CH was right; you've been doing this. You've got this. There's no where to go but up from here. Everyday you struggle to...
    Negrita13131 Negrita13131 26-30, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    All i did...all i the hard decisions i have taken..it was all to be stronger... I did't want to be that person that needed help..that needed a hand or a shoulder to cry on..i...
    jrcervin jrcervin 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Among all who are confused, who were once born again but fell as a result of carelessness and the deceitfulness of sin and are having a hard time to think they can be accepted back...
    mmutsakama mmutsakama 26-30, M a week ago

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    Soo much heartbreak. Thought id never feel again or wasnt going to. Well fate sees that i suffer again by opening my heart to another just to get rejected with friendship...again.
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Coming back home after being away for 10 months. I am currently faced with the dilemma of finding a job. Although when i was travelling i did couchsurfing, helpx and hitchhiking to...
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have been through so many things over the years. most recently, I have been diagnosed with SLE, Sjogren's syndrome and a blood disorder. there are days I can't get out of bed...
    myjason myjason 41-45, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I told him I was actually 15 and that another person didn't want to rp with me because I was too young, then I told him that I told that person it was a typo. I said I didn't know...
    kkatiestyles123 kkatiestyles123 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    ABSURDITY!!!! About three days ago, I received an UNSOLICITED message from someone claiming to be a male between the ages of 56-60. Their screen name was "Bcups". Again, this is...
    Virgo4Whore Virgo4Whore 46-50, M 4 Responses Feb 5

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    I'll try it for awhile,and if my voices give me grief i'll just keep exercising.I've nothing else to do so I should.I've got weights and stretchy bands.I have machines to help me...
    mirth mirth 46-50, F Feb 5

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    I have always hated myself and for good reason. I.. cut my arms to shreds, and burned myself. was vicious to people who loved me. lied just to hurt people. stabbed my friends in...
    WittyTwit WittyTwit 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 4

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    Imagine yourself walking through a forest. So far, it had been one straight path until unexpectedly, ahead of you, is a crossroad, two paths, left or right. Your not afraid because...
    Trainedheart Trainedheart 31-35, F 10 Responses Feb 2

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    Hi.. In my life I think I been through a lot, for example my parents divorce, leaving me alone to survive for 5 months( you can check out my other post about my family divorce and...
    Rokas2260 Rokas2260 13-15, M 5 Responses Feb 2

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    Oh, how my heart goes out to you. If only I could take away your pain. My heartfelt love and prayers go out to all who are experiencing a loss. Hopefully, I might bring you a...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    My therapist and I discuss this a lot. I've always felt like an outsider - in my home, with my friends, surrounded by strangers. No matter where I am or who I'm with, a part of me...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Just a quick note before bed; I just want to say this is the happiest I've ever felt in a very long time. Maybe even my life. I've always been a very unhappy person inside. On the...
    Negrita13131 Negrita13131 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I was born into a very chaotic family. My dad has an injury to his frontal lobe and my mom has untreated bipolar disorder. They have been arguing almost everyday my entire life. As...
    courtneyyyx331 courtneyyyx331 22-25, F 12 Responses Jan 27

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    Two years ago I took a surgery on fracture ,two days ago I came to hospital to remove the internal fixation plate but three screws were broken and left in my bone ,which the...
    jessicatong jessicatong 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 27

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    I know what this is like. But listen to this. If you still have regret, if there is just a small flicker in you that feels sorrow for your sins, then you can retain salvation...
    theguywiththeredhair theguywiththeredhair 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 26

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    Observations (An Aspergers Poem) The pressure comes from those around The acid note of sour sound When heartless words our love confound Friends, family, all pull us down And with...
    Neoebonite Neoebonite 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 25

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    My father has five children by four different women, that we know of, you would almost think he didn't know what caused that. I've met four of them, but the fifth eludes me.
    QueenVen QueenVen 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I don't wanna make this an apology because I know you won't forgive me. You probably never want to hear from me again. You were hurt. That's what I do to people. I never meant to...
    LonelyMystery LonelyMystery 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    They say the trick is to be yourself. Well let me tell you, I've been myself for 27 years and no guy has ever stayed interested. Perhaps I should try being fake and see what...
    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I have a plain face, so it may look like I'm pissed off when I'm not smiling but I'm actually not angry, I'm just not feeling anything and I don't think I should smile for no...
    Probcreator17 Probcreator17 16-17, M Jan 25

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    I've heard to say your sorry is a sign of weakness. I also heard it takes courage to say you're sorry. So which is it weakness or courage.
    LittleHiei LittleHiei 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    and I will never return. :(
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 22-25 Jan 24

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