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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 6 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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