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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 101 People

    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 6 Responses May 2, 2011

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I just recently experienced the worst heartbreak that i have ever felt. i felt good about myself during the relationship but at the end i felt lost. she broke up with me in the...
    hhhovind hhhovind 16-17, M Jul 30

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    In the last two years I've went in a direction I never thought I'd be going. Trying to mend a broken marriage, climb out of debt, dealing with severe depression, anxiety, and anger...
    BlackSenpai BlackSenpai 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 5

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    yet I keep wondering is there a part of me that I lost if I've never really let myself discover who I am in the first place. Sure I have preferences, tastes, my own ideas, and...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 8

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    It's hard to wake up sometimes... i wake up fearful and stressed about what a new day will bring to me, the not knowing what will happen next is scary. Lots of things have gone...
    TheTurtleDove TheTurtleDove 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    i feel like after so long of being unhappy you loose yourself into the world of unhappiness and its hard to redeem your happiness back no matter how hard you try
    cloudymoons cloudymoons 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    My favorite bffs are my friends I have had since 5th grade Ashley and Jessica.
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    so im 26 and have two children 4 and 7.I do all i can for them i adore them.Right now it is difficult as my financial status isn't great so obviously im going to worry about there...
    cizzyfla cizzyfla 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Been married for 20 years. Have 4 children whom I love. Gave up everything of who I am as a person for my Wife and children just to be ridiculed and betrayed by these people who...
    morph7 morph7 41-45, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Ok so I don't know what to think about this, I hope somebody that knows more about this stuff can help me. Since I was a kid weird stuff has happened, at 18 I got my first sleep...
    Skymoon8 Skymoon8 31-35, F 4 hrs ago

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    My best friend who is the love of my life is my fwb. We had unprotected sex one night, for a number of silly reasons, and I didn't realize he didn't pull out in time. I went...
    highfidelity970 highfidelity970 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I've met him this year, and I know it sounds silly, but I really think he's it. We are alike in almost everything, and differ in things that do no matter. When we talk, we talk for...
    womaninchains womaninchains 22-25, F Aug 7

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    Crist I haven't written a story on ep for so long I almost forgot how! Anyway I've been lost for many years now. Had my moments to find myself, and I guess I choose not to. Been...
    Slashrattlenroll Slashrattlenroll 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I used to be very angry with the universe. I had the "why me's" just like everyone else. I am not angry anymore. I honestly believe that everyone has a path in life. I think...
    Mm8335 Mm8335 31-35, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    First a brief history of me so you can get to know the skeleton of my life, but not necessarily the essence. Life can still be a b-itch, but I love it anyway: it’s my imperfect...
    WisteriaGrace WisteriaGrace 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    (Compelled Part 4) My Dragon.. He's 48 I'm 32, he's the oldest man I've ever dated. He's very intelligent, business savvy and who am I kidding rich... He own 64 acres in Hawaii he...
    Yourdeepwishsir Yourdeepwishsir 31-35, F Aug 16

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    I've been hurt. I've been raped. I've been bashed. I've been depressed. I've been torn. I've been broken. I'm still me. These things don't make up who I am, they simply helped me...
    Pickles0212 Pickles0212 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 1

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    Some days are good. Some aren't, I've always been told life is hard , Get over it. Why should it have to be. I can't do this...
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    When we do the best we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another. I've been blessed to see the miracles my best has done for others and...
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    I've always had a hard life. My mom became depressed when I was 8 and I had to take care of myself for at-least 2months and then my dad died in a wreck right before my birthday,my...
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    I really hate to be cheesy here, but I'd like to share my story. My parents got divorced when I was about four years old. A few years later, I started to pluck out my eyelashes. At...
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    My life has been very tough. N I keep going no matter what I don't give up. I keep doing all the things possible irrespective of I get back anything in return. But lately am tired...
    stuckinlife247 stuckinlife247 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    The same woman has cut my hair for about twenty years. I've secretly wanted her to cut it super short but she's always stopped short of what I've dreamed of; a super short buzz...
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    I've always wanted to have a mistress, is that possible for a lesbian?
    Laysiaxo Laysiaxo 16-17, F Aug 5

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    Through painful experiences, I've learned, and keep on learning, to be gracious and humble, the complete opposite of the person I was, with all the naive brand of pride and...
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    Ever since elementary school. I've always been the odd one out. It was like no one wanted to be my friend and they just wanted me for my smarts. As the years progressed I'd assumed...
    Xoxolife Xoxolife 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I saw the guy who was my first kiss ever at the grocery story the other night. I was with my mom. Keep in mind this first kiss happened last October yeah :$ oh well. He's a senior...
    Gayminniemouse Gayminniemouse 13-15, F Jul 29

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    I've been in this lifestyle since I was very young. This a something not too many people would understand. It is the carnal desires creme de la creme. And can only be described as...
    RainbowLoveFire RainbowLoveFire 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    I've met some really great & wonderful people on here and that are not afraid to be themselves, keep up the good work ep (:,
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    I say what I think more. I can better claim my own desires. I dress more the way I have always wanted to dress (sexier), even though I don't have a 19 year old body any more. I...
    pinkcorsetgirl pinkcorsetgirl 41-45, F 5 Responses Aug 12

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    I've you're ugly so many times that I've become immune to it! The thing that people don't realize is that diamonds always look rough on the outside until they are polished. But...
    BloodyVampire BloodyVampire 41-45, M Aug 18

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    Here's what I've learned. I’ve learned- that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned- that no...
    Jakey942 Jakey942 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    I've been into bdsm for a couple years now, but now that I'm older, I want to explore more of it
    brandijade92 brandijade92 18-21, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    That parts of the experience is what multiplayer games (especially MMO's) so attractive. You can do things that can not in real life. "With your friends In order to keep the...
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    I want a mistress, I'm a bisexual but I love girls way more than I like guys, and I've been interested in bdsm for a while. Now I'm out on a mission to get me a mistress
    Laysiaxo Laysiaxo 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    But most things I've been through is some kinda out of my control... Anway I've been growing up with that, sometime I'll be all under my control
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    One thing I've always wanted but never had is a girl friend , now don't get me wrong I've had lots of girlfriends as a guy , but the girl insde me has never had a girl friend , no...
    toesforme toesforme 36-40, M Aug 16

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    I had suffered relatively little of life's loses. I had thought I was in control of my life until my husband passed away. Then I knew I most certainly was not. I was down on my...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I believe everything happens for a reason; both the good and the bad. I have a pretty simple home life: my parents are still married, everyone in my house has a job, we have all...
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    I'm 15 years old. I've never had a boyfriend and i get made fun of by some people for that. I don't understand why people think that if you don't have a boyfriend you're a total...
    leahxxgabrielle leahxxgabrielle 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    "We make plans, God only laughs." Biggest lesson I've learned from the death of my husband. It has become my mantra from then on. It fits my single-blessedness/widowhood even...
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    I've been dragged through the mud, when I'm not chasing demons, my demons are chasing me. But all this running has made me strong. Now I reach to the things I need and I refuse to...