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I Felt As Though I've Lost My Soul

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 122 People

    How Did It Get To This?

    Lets start with who i am a little more. Im 30 years old and i live in sweden, my interestes are music friends books computer games (to a degree) used to love them, but not so much anymore. how i am as a person is a little bit more complicated, it all depends on what kind of...
    Icarium Icarium 31-35 2 Responses Dec 7, 2010

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    The Tales

    around 18 months ago i discovered the mother of my child and long term partner was having an affair, this resulted in us splitting, then of and on for another 12months, she carried on between me and this other male, as things got very emotional and my life continued to crash into...
    mango325 mango325 22-25 1 Response May 11, 2009

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    The feeling's terrible.

    You're completely numb from inside, nothing makes you happy, you can't live in the present no matter how hard you try. But, I'm going to find my soul one day. You wait and watch, you.
    IDontWantNoTrouble IDontWantNoTrouble 26-30, M Dec 20, 2014

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    My Affair Of The Heart

    "Sometimes we have to wait for the heart to realizewhat the mind already knows"The moment that connection was made and an emotional bond formed was the end of my life off-line.I have been captured in that moment, unknowingly the damage I was causing myself and my real life.Every...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F Oct 24, 2013

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    I Feel Lost

    I am 35 yrs old and have been with my wife for almost 20 yrs. We met when I was 15 and she was 21. We have a 16 yr old daughter witch i love more than life. But i don't think i can be with my wife anymore. I still love her, but I am on such a different level now it drives me...
    sheens2831 sheens2831 31-35 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to...
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M 7 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Can't Feel My Innerself Anymore

    from many years i was trying to keep myself focused on my studies but i never won over my mind its feels like ,my habits control me. but whenever i failed in life i always try make new plans for my future and then again fail in following them. now it feels like if i continue it...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    And I Am Not Sure If I Will Ever Find It.

    i always have had a part of me that feels out of place.that i don`t belong.i try to ignore it,but sometimes it`s just to much.i have a deep seated rage that comes to the surface whan that happens.and when people wroung me,i can feel my skin burn.somewhere i lost part of myself.i...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    THIS time i Won't go through that **** again...no one has a clue what is going on inside me bcs i always Act happy..except my doctor. But I'm focusing on recovery now and that's...
    nsameshit nsameshit 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    i don't feel as though i did anything wrong. i always tell you when i speak to another and what we speak of. i have been honest with all things. why have you blocked me?! i...
    stacyrugg stacyrugg 46-50, F 11 hrs ago

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    Marriage is sacred.Vows must be forever.But there are cheating hearts.Who love to betrayTheir promises go astrayBlinded eyes seek no oneA man suddenly found his womanLong lost...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Taking a little break from EP. Some of the people on here are just a little too much for me so I'm gonna step away for a little. Anyone that I've gotten close with knows how to get...
    HarleyQuinn251 HarleyQuinn251 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I guess in many ways, I am a better person for it. I would never abuse a woman nor would I hurt someone weaker than me, just because I'm stronger. I care for nearly everyone in my...
    GrimMindControl GrimMindControl 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's been 9 months since I've come home from school for medical leave and i would love to say it's been worth it (from a medical view) but it hasn't. It's been worth it at the end...
    gottakeepyourheadup gottakeepyourheadup 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Growing up I witnessed a lot more than I should have and grew up way to fast. My dad sold marijuana and was an alcoholic. He would come home drunk and abuse my mom. I was about 7...
    L48O1516S2342T L48O1516S2342T 18-21, F 11 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm smiling... That's a lie Inside I'm crying but I bear the false I bear everything they throw So? I smile to please them To please me? Not so much The dream that still dares to...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Hello, my name is Laurentiu and I'll be 18 next mounth on the 16 of july. My father abandoned me and my mom since my birth, so I grew up without the leading of a father. Since I...
    b16laurentiu b16laurentiu 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    a song by who that say's it all Love Reign O'er Me Love Reign O'er Me Love I've had enough of living I've had enough of dying I've had enough of smiling I've had enough of...
    eve888 eve888 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I am alone on a rock, spinning around a bright ball of gas in some vast blackness beyond which I cannot perceive or comprehend.
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The ftm transfolk say I'm not masculine enough. The genderqueers say I'm not really genderqueer because I've had surgery and hormones. The professionals collect my symptoms and...
    kasvelrising kasvelrising 22-25, T 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm a very petite woman, 21. 5', 78lbs. My shoe size is still in children's. My back goes to my legs and my cup is a 34a. I can comfortably go in a training bra or completely...
    Awesg Awesg 18-21, F 14 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 28 and feel utterly lost . I feel as everyone else around me is accomplishing things in life
    oscbrn oscbrn 26-30, M Jun 22

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    All the crap I've been through (which is very little compared to other people) has taught me quite a bit.
    Cosmic0Potato Cosmic0Potato 13-15, M Jun 22

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    Sometime you THINK you could do it. Smile, just smile. That's because it haven't reach the explode bottom. But when it does, all the pressure all the emotion, all the words you...
    Quaenie Quaenie 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I've been thinking alot lately about how I got to this point in my life. 2012 was my year to change everything. accepted into uni. moved in to halls. dealing with splitting up with...
    sammyjo963 sammyjo963 22-25, F 9 Responses Jun 20

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    I don't understand how people can just leave without an explanation. After a long time, I trusted someone; after a long time I felt at ease talking to someone I still remember...
    Unknownweirdo Unknownweirdo 13-15, F Jun 20

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    My experiences have made me a person that doesn't trust no one. It has made me second guess my second guess I don't know what sincerity is no more I don't know if people are...
    SineyElle89 SineyElle89 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 19

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    And it hides everything. No one suspects a thing. Just smile and nod and make a joke and no one ever suspects a thing. Not my friends or even my family. I'll never let them know...
    TheOtherOne17 TheOtherOne17 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I do not want to share everything and I have not let people in. For a long time I have struggled with myself and those around me. As a small child I faced abuse in ways no child...
    ReganTheBum ReganTheBum 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 17

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    i really dont know who i am anymore. i cant express emotions anymore. i am starting to get anxieties im starting to be really careless and i feel like a zombie nowadays. i try to...
    theanoymouswreck theanoymouswreck 22-25, M Jun 16

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    My dad died of a heart attack when I was 8 on Father's Day of 2004. I will never forget how empty and emotionless I felt for 3 years after. What I found to fill in that emptiness...
    cawnbread cawnbread 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 16

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    Mostly. Things are getting worse on my end as far as family goes. My mother is most definitely talking to other men and referring to my dad (her husband) as her "ex" in text...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    i had a huge crush on a guy, he flirts with me and calls me beautiful... found out he has a girlfriend which he never told me about
    bellacmxoxo bellacmxoxo 18-21, F Jun 15

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    I am beyond broken beyond lost
    MrNightmare0 MrNightmare0 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    I hate to be depressed,I hate feeling empty :'( I made a wrong choice and it keeps chasing me everywhere :((((i don't want to do anything,I m have never experienced it before,I was...
    Jellybean88 Jellybean88 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 14

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    Yes, that's absolutely right! I have baby-making hips, but I've never been pregnant.I dunt plan on it.
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F Jun 13

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    Today after graduation, I saw a close friend of mine who I haven't seen in over three years (since he left the school), since his dad died. When he called me and I turned Was...
    4everoptie 4everoptie 16-17, F Jun 13

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    But I found it in my beach-bag!! Didn't take any pictures at the beach but I did the morning of as I worked a half a day-- I dressed kinda like a night of dancing at the beach...
    DawnyMarie DawnyMarie 41-45, F 8 Responses Jun 13

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    I miss my internet friend, but I've never met him. We talked for about a year and a half & now he doesn't talk to me & I miss talking to him.
    Sierra55 Sierra55 13-15, F Jun 12

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    There was a time when nobody believed in me. I felt so worthless I even ran away from home. All I thought back then was this isn't going to last. Well..It didn't.It was short.But...
    dreamydoc dreamydoc 22-25, M Jun 12

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    I haven't logged onto EP in almost a year and it's amazing to see how much I've changed based on my posts from so long ago. I love it.
    chloejune chloejune 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    I've finally found my new name. It's simple and sweet and makes me feel happy, which I've never felt with my birth name. My new name just feels like...me. Everyone has adjusted to...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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