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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2011

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    My Mind Wants Me to Work and My Gut Wants to Dance

    Now, I know the chance of getting paid to dance is remote.  Also, today is a nice sunny day, the kind for wandering around outside, having fun yet I have to work to pay the bills, so here I have the problem.  To work or to have fun.  Now, if I could do them both at...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    I always seem to be in a battle with myself over something... I battle an illness that little is known about and nothing can be done about it.. I battle with feeling worthless to...
    off2heavenIgo off2heavenIgo 13-15 1 Response Aug 15

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    Aren't they pretty they poke & probe out of my torso I can feel them all they feel like rocks under my skin. Aren't they pretty the circle that are so red they pop like make up...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F Aug 26

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    Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I ruins my life, it seems like no one understands and no one is able to calm me down. That's not their fault of course, but I just can't help but think what my life would be...
    tianakate tianakate 16-17, F Sep 3

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    I really don't know whats up with me, I think Im fat and ugly but Im sometimes told Im not even close to fat and that I look fine, but I just can't seem to believe all that stuff...
    banecaramel banecaramel 18-21, F Sep 4

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    Although i smile everyday, although i stay productive, although i try to communicate with other people, it will always be the same bullshit...you can ignore the pain for only so...
    staystrongsu staystrongsu 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Am I just exhausted, or am I heading for another crash! I'm so low and I've not spotted it coming at all. I thought. Was getting better, attending the courses, putting the right...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I got some new scare to go with the old ones
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    The hardest thing I did was tell my mum I didn't want to live any more. I took an overdose a few years ago and even wrote a note to my GF at the time. Depression is an illness that...
    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M Aug 19

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    When I was getting trained at work I had an hour long episode. At the end the girl that trained me was like I know you had a ****** day but you haven't been paying attention at all...
    december789 december789 16-17, F Aug 19

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    I find it so sad how many young girls on here are conscious about they're image... Wanting to half their body weights, get thigh gaps? Like WTF!! Why are we as the older...
    AsherMae AsherMae 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Remembering something that you don't want to remember. Augh.
    SmileyFace1014 SmileyFace1014 13-15, F Aug 26

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    2,000 or so calories That's how many I'm required to consume each & every day. But how? Why would I do that? That's so much & it disgusts me to no end. It's like they're asking...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Back to being three days free of self harm again....
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I just really need someone to talk too right now.
    dillonwatson dillonwatson 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 31

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    I've lost about 70 lbs of fat and gained about 15 of muscle. But now i hate how ill because of my extra skin. I feel like people expect me to look like a model, because I'm in the...
    JeanerBeaner JeanerBeaner 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I don't even know what to do right now I want to loose weight but I never do! I gess I'll be dat my whole life
    alonzokim alonzokim 13-15, M Sep 1

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    Wish there was someone who needs a friend, cause I need a friend. I would be there for them not matter what And wish they could do the same Everyone needs a friend I just want a...
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I been trying to stop cutting myself for little over a week now but this morning I cut
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F a week ago

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    I been holding it all in for so long and today now I can't do it I just want to cut again
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have experienced 4 baby loses through miscarraige and a ectopic pregnancy. I also have had abnormal cells for bout 3 years and can't get rid of hpv I'm so scannerd every time it...
    willowknight willowknight 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I Have no peace people have hurts so much and I've been carrying that weight of depression and hurt ever since I was a kid. I'm Just So Tired
    ShesRoyal94 ShesRoyal94 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Does depression tire you so much? So much that you become less capable? That you don't remember smallest things? So much that everything seems to only tire you no matter how much...
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Bipolar, depression, de-personalisation, anxiety, stress; all words used in this modern world to describe unhappiness..what if these weren't psychological conditions but the mind...
    Wildfocus Wildfocus 31-35, M Sep 1

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    I've always convinced myself that it was because I had coursework or needed to prepare for an exam, but the reason for my adderall addiction started before I'd even tried it. When...
    shmannabelle shmannabelle 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I can't believe it's now a full year I haven't seen you. Heard your voice held your hand as we would walk along the Atlantic City boardwalk. Look into your deep brown eyes and see...
    Beanbella Beanbella 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    I have been battling depression for years. I have had some terrible things happen in my life, and some really great things happen too. However today, I realized why I truly have...
    misfitincali misfitincali 31-35, F Sep 5

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    I find it amusing hearing everyone ***** and complain about life on here, I sympathize with them, but I also want to tell them to suck it up and quit their wining. I want to post a...
    colorstone colorstone 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    She watched people around her, the ones who say they are friends. everyone is over for dinner.... Everything comes to a slow motion as she looks at the faces around her this...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 23

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    I've wrote quite a few posts about this but i have battled depression from when i was a very young kid (not sure what exact age but i was under 10), my mums trying to make my life...
    ymasxatl ymasxatl 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    I struggle in the abyss of ocean holding my breath and fighting against my dark side pulling me down so strongly,that, my jugular veins throbs from fattening, threatening to break...
    BridaPaulo BridaPaulo 22-25, F Sep 1

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    Since I'm going back to college after summer break on Sunday I've been feeling very suicidal. I've struggled with feeling suicidal before but times like these it's constant on my...
    fallenstar23 fallenstar23 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    This isn't my story, this is a "rant" you could say. There have been alot of stories about what "real depression" is and what it is not. Teenagers without any "real problems" that...
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 29

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    I feel the worst thing about depression is being depressed and single. At least with those who are married or seriously dating/co-cohabiting you can say "Ok, boo gimme a minute to...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need to get help. I used to get panic attacks to the point I couldn't stand up multiple times a day every day. I had it under control but I just started a new job and it is...
    peggyjolleen peggyjolleen 26-30, F Aug 15

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    Post-Medicated battles with depression. I have totally given up on using pharmaceuticals to fight my recurring depression. I use St John's Wort, Norwegian Salmon Oil and a lot...
    NeedingToVent NeedingToVent 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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