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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

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    Do it. Don't do it. Should I?

    Maybe? No? Yes? If I do it, what's next? I'm always second guessing and fighting some dark thoughts. But I live each day and here I am.
    SurpriseMeToday SurpriseMeToday 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

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    Losing my mom has changed me.

    I'm not the person I once was. When I hear people complaining about little things it makes me so angry. I never say anything but inside I want to slap them. It sucks being this bitter. I don't know what to do to change it. Ugh.
    batcatgirl batcatgirl 22-25, F Dec 21, 2015

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    everyone is fighting.

    then why should count only on self..this whole world is hell, where we fight to survive. nothing new in that.
    ExUser007 ExUser007 18-21, F Nov 8, 2015

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    I know they are there,

    the victim and judge within me. I am fighting them off, but it is taking time (at least I am aware of them). I realize it is hard to understand, but it is true; at least for me.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Where am I It's been

    so long since ive really seen Since i've really looked and since ive took it in Since the fire has been ablaze I've lost my way But I didn't notice until I was too far gone Now im fumbling through the forest Of bare trees Fruitless, with birds screaching all around They soar...
    Rucbrar Rucbrar 13-15, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Two sides......One side.

    ...silent, numb, empty, sleepless, no empathy, mask like face, no emotions, cannot feel.....keep fighting off the wanting to give up...The other side....racy, too many feelings...anger, frustration, rage, hardness, too much empathy, vengeance thoughts, sleeplessness, deep...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 15, 2015

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 1 Response Aug 21, 2014

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    painful clutters of thoughts

    and pain.....and i wonder which of these is more severe the physical pain or the mental one!
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

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    I have such a supportive relationship with my

    boyfriend, I have a great relationship with my mom and brother, I have a ok relationship with my dad and amazing Select few of friends.....and it's still not enough I've been battling depression for almost 2 years and honestly, I hate it so much I try so hard to be happy and...
    BaybeehToess16 BaybeehToess16 18-21, F Dec 8, 2015

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    My mind is a warzone.

    One thought a million bullets aiming to rip me apart from the inside.The torturous memories and the painful words that swirl my thoughts.Regrets live here.I wonder how I could constantly fight myself as I do.I'm a walking contradiction.I think two ways and it's my own hell...
    TacoBellQueen TacoBellQueen 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2015

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    Well I made light of this group name before,

    but now it literally feels like I am fighting one. My mind says "Sleep! You're tired!" But I'm like, "I need to study! I promised myself I'll finish this chapter before I can sleep!" And then my stomach chimes in, "I'm hungry, feed me!" It's practically a boss battle.
    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2015

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    Sometimes I wonder if most of the hurt I felt

    was because of my own head, rather than what others had done or said. Why do I believe so easily that no one would want to bother with me? And why do I find it difficult to believe when someone does care? My mind keeps on making up excuses, scenarios; all designed to tell me...
    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    My mind is both a persecutor

    and a victim feeding off eachother... What a flamin waste of energy
    deej200 deej200 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    If I could kick my minds a*s I would,

    makes me think some really deep sh*t, then I start feeling bad and guilty and I really don't want to feel it anymore. In a way its made me a nasty person
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone 13-15, M 7 hrs ago

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    Even though I am fighting suicidal thoughts, I don't want to commit suicide, I'm way too scared of how people around me will feel like. I don't have any specifically close to me...
    xHeartbeatz xHeartbeatz 16-17, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Hello. I'm new here. I found this great forum while searching for "how to handle a bipolar spouse" I noticed a lot of other people deal with this and could really use the support...
    Tjm1919 Tjm1919 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    I think scars are like battle wounds-- beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I feel depressed again. Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Tis not boasting i swear Of all these luminaries I share For what of I is here Nowhere, far nor near I recall Quentin Tarantino in a bonus feature for Reservoir Dogs. He was...
    Deafning Deafning 36-40, M 6 hrs ago

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    here is my experience: I was in relationship with a person with NPD, fortunately i realized that he was a narcist in an early phase of oir relationship, when I was trying to break...
    nataliawww nataliawww 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    I'm very much overweight and I'm really trying to shift it. Eating less and cycling on the exercise bike every night. It's really a battle and I feel like I'm making little...
    RT19 RT19 26-30, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    My mindthrobs also caution me about the very idea of having mindthrobs. It's dreadfully silly, but I am young at heart and will joyfully enthuse like a little kid all those who...
    Deafning Deafning 36-40, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Part of the reason I have been able to overcome this recent battle with depression is being on here, seeing that I am not alone, resisting the urge to isolate, seeing so many...
    NatalieR13 NatalieR13 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to keep going and fighting, but sometimes I feel like I can't take anymore of the yelling and the fighting and the names. I feel like if one more thing happened this week...
    thatsnotmyname12 thatsnotmyname12 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i empathize with anyone out there dealing with it.
    sunriseinmyeyes sunriseinmyeyes 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    For YEARS I was afraid of confrontations, and especially of getting in a fight - and losing. So I ducked them, and despised myself, and inside thought I was a coward. This went on...
    tjw747 tjw747 46-50, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Instead of emphasizing the negative aspect of admitting to a tough experience, I choose to emphasizing the positive side, that I fight daily - and I rarely give in. Yes, my dark...
    CallMeSal CallMeSal 51-55, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Isn't it interesting how, eventually, a person can fight this battle so long that they can predict every move the enemy will make? More interesting is that even knowing this, I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I battled depression. My best friend, however, battles depression. I'll start at the beginning of the story, when I was 12/13. I met this boy who would turn out to be my best...
    Plouton3600 Plouton3600 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago