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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2011

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    My Mind Wants Me to Work and My Gut Wants to Dance

    Now, I know the chance of getting paid to dance is remote.  Also, today is a nice sunny day, the kind for wandering around outside, having fun yet I have to work to pay the bills, so here I have the problem.  To work or to have fun.  Now, if I could do them both at...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    off2heavenIgo off2heavenIgo 13-15 1 Response Aug 15

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    Everyone is fighting their own battle, to some it may not come close to be considered one but to that person that battle is their world.
    miae13 miae13 22-25, F Aug 11

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    Aren't they pretty they poke & probe out of my torso I can feel them all they feel like rocks under my skin. Aren't they pretty the circle that are so red they pop like make up...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Pots is in complete control of my life and im Not okay with that. Its really upsetting that i cant just go do normal things like the...
    hannah0428 hannah0428 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F Aug 19

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    This has taken my career from me, my social life, friends, and now my significant other of 6 years from me. If one more person who doesn't have dysautonomia tells me "pick yourself...
    dayxo dayxo 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I have lost over 100 lbs in my life time. I keep losing and then gain it back. Part of me wonders if that's why I don't date much. I'm usually confident but this holds me back.
    StillLearning22 StillLearning22 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    I am battlling my insomnia
    jenny180 jenny180 31-35, F Aug 14

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    The hardest thing I did was tell my mum I didn't want to live any more. I took an overdose a few years ago and even wrote a note to my GF at the time. Depression is an illness that...
    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M Aug 19

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    When I was getting trained at work I had an hour long episode. At the end the girl that trained me was like I know you had a ****** day but you haven't been paying attention at all...
    december789 december789 16-17, F Aug 19

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    I find it so sad how many young girls on here are conscious about they're image... Wanting to half their body weights, get thigh gaps? Like WTF!! Why are we as the older...
    AsherMae AsherMae 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Remembering something that you don't want to remember. Augh.
    SmileyFace1014 SmileyFace1014 13-15, F a week ago

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    2,000 or so calories That's how many I'm required to consume each & every day. But how? Why would I do that? That's so much & it disgusts me to no end. It's like they're asking...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I used to make myself throw up. I don't do it as often anymore. I used to have worse body issues before but now I'm just working to have a small tummy
    uncoolmermaid uncoolmermaid 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Back to being three days free of self harm again....
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just really need someone to talk too right now.
    dillonwatson dillonwatson 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I've lost about 70 lbs of fat and gained about 15 of muscle. But now i hate how ill because of my extra skin. I feel like people expect me to look like a model, because I'm in the...
    JeanerBeaner JeanerBeaner 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't even know what to do right now I want to loose weight but I never do! I gess I'll be dat my whole life
    alonzokim alonzokim 13-15, M 23 hrs ago

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    Bipolar, depression, de-personalisation, anxiety, stress; all words used in this modern world to describe unhappiness..what if these weren't psychological conditions but the mind...
    Wildfocus Wildfocus 31-35, M 11 hrs ago

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    Everyone tomorrow is Monday. Did you enjoy your weekend? :):) sometimes we find happiness in this life an sometimes we are in a constant battle with this world. Everyone if anyone...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I've always convinced myself that it was because I had coursework or needed to prepare for an exam, but the reason for my adderall addiction started before I'd even tried it. When...
    shmannabelle shmannabelle 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I can't believe it's now a full year I haven't seen you. Heard your voice held your hand as we would walk along the Atlantic City boardwalk. Look into your deep brown eyes and see...
    Beanbella Beanbella 31-35, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    She watched people around her, the ones who say they are friends. everyone is over for dinner.... Everything comes to a slow motion as she looks at the faces around her this...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 23

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    I struggle in the abyss of ocean holding my breath and fighting against my dark side pulling me down so strongly,that, my jugular veins throbs from fattening, threatening to break...
    BridaPaulo BridaPaulo 22-25, F 22 hrs ago

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    I am starting to give up on life, each day I grow emotionally weaker and weaker. I am always getting heartbroken or friendzoned from girls that I like. Every crush that I have ever...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 2

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    Since I'm going back to college after summer break on Sunday I've been feeling very suicidal. I've struggled with feeling suicidal before but times like these it's constant on my...
    fallenstar23 fallenstar23 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    This isn't my story, this is a "rant" you could say. There have been alot of stories about what "real depression" is and what it is not. Teenagers without any "real problems" that...
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I need to get help. I used to get panic attacks to the point I couldn't stand up multiple times a day every day. I had it under control but I just started a new job and it is...
    peggyjolleen peggyjolleen 26-30, F Aug 15

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    Everyone, how was your day? Did you work hard? Or are you resting today?Whatever it may be, I am so happy you are breathing, and I love you so much!!:D:D I wanna tell you that...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Post-Medicated battles with depression. I have totally given up on using pharmaceuticals to fight my recurring depression. I use St John's Wort, Norwegian Salmon Oil and a lot...
    NeedingToVent NeedingToVent 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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    I been having a constant struggle with my depression. it all started when my mom died in '07. i was 2 weeks away from 19, she was 49. i became extremely depressed, so much that i...
    chillsun chillsun 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I kinda want to die..I have no hope...al I have is this ongoing battle with depression.
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I have been looking for someone that I can share some of the same passions with, such as being a doctor. My career path is what distinguishes me from other people my age. Instead...
    Helloworld234 Helloworld234 18-21, F Aug 4

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    Lesson #1: It is NOT your fault So many posting here with such palpable emotional pain. I can relate to this from painful personal experience over many decades. I've gained...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Personal Lesson #2: "Ultimately, it is up to me to scratch and climb and claw my way out of this hole." (These are lessons I've learned that have helped me through. I'm not a...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I was wrongfully done by my military ex husband in my custody battle with my almost two year old son last year and lost due to lies during court. I need help and support for my son...
    Amurray0390 Amurray0390 22-25, F Aug 2

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