I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    My mind is both a persecutor

    and a victim feeding off eachother... What a flamin waste of energy
    deej200 deej200
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    [WARNING] This is a long one.

    Feel free to scroll past. I don't know who I really am. There's many different personas that take over. Is the one who is always dissapointed in my actions and words the real one? The one that tries to do the right thing but is swallowed by the sad one, or the angry one. This...
    Rucbrar Rucbrar
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 18

    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

    My mind is a warzone.

    One thought a million bullets aiming to rip me apart from the inside.The torturous memories and the painful words that swirl my thoughts.Regrets live here.I wonder how I could constantly fight myself as I do.I'm a walking contradiction.I think two ways and it's my own hell...
    LilBroGotHisWings LilBroGotHisWings
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 9, 2009

    Well I made light of this group name before,

    but now it literally feels like I am fighting one. My mind says "Sleep! You're tired!" But I'm like, "I need to study! I promised myself I'll finish this chapter before I can sleep!" And then my stomach chimes in, "I'm hungry, feed me!" It's practically a boss battle.
    deleted deleted
    Oct 30, 2015

    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    snuffal snuffal
    26-30, F
    Jan 2, 2012

    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72
    36-40, F
    3 Responses May 16, 2011


    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548
    18-21, F
    Mar 24, 2011

    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart
    1 Response Aug 21, 2014

    I know they are there,

    the victim and judge within me. I am fighting them off, but it is taking time (at least I am aware of them). I realize it is hard to understand, but it is true; at least for me.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 22, 2009

    My menta health is **** lately

    and I think I'm going into a depression. And I keep seeing people that aren't there but then they just vanish when I look to see if they're still there. The people don't talk to me or anything they just stand there.
    nickclarke nickclarke
    18-21, M
    Apr 1

    everyone is fighting.

    then why should count only on self..this whole world is hell, where we fight to survive. nothing new in that.
    ExUser007 ExUser007
    18-21, F
    Nov 8, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Oct 21, 2015

    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2011

    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted
    Aug 22, 2011

    I have such a supportive relationship with my

    boyfriend, I have a great relationship with my mom and brother, I have a ok relationship with my dad and amazing Select few of friends.....and it's still not enough I've been battling depression for almost 2 years and honestly, I hate it so much I try so hard to be happy and...
    BaybeehToess16 BaybeehToess16
    18-21, F
    Dec 8, 2015

    painful clutters of thoughts

    and pain.....and i wonder which of these is more severe the physical pain or the mental one!
    snuffal snuffal
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    Losing my mom has changed me.

    I'm not the person I once was. When I hear people complaining about little things it makes me so angry. I never say anything but inside I want to slap them. It sucks being this bitter. I don't know what to do to change it. Ugh.
    batcatgirl batcatgirl
    26-30, F
    Dec 21, 2015

    My mind always says to my friends,

    "Get away from me!" I know banging heads on walls doesn't work, but when I tried it, let's just say I knocked myself out. Mind: "You're dumb for doing that!" "What the **** were you even doing!?" "Get back on the God **** floor!" Me: "Why do I have a life like this?" Anyway...
    Jmc82005 Jmc82005
    1 Response Feb 15
    OddButResilient OddButResilient
    46-50, M
    Feb 10

    Do it. Don't do it. Should I?

    Maybe? No? Yes? If I do it, what's next? I'm always second guessing and fighting some dark thoughts. But I live each day and here I am.
    SurpriseMeToday SurpriseMeToday
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    If I could kick my minds a*s I would,

    makes me think some really deep sh*t, then I start feeling bad and guilty and I really don't want to feel it anymore. In a way its made me a nasty person
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone
    16-17, M
    Feb 9

    Two sides......One side.

    ...silent, numb, empty, sleepless, no empathy, mask like face, no emotions, cannot feel.....keep fighting off the wanting to give up...The other side....racy, too many feelings...anger, frustration, rage, hardness, too much empathy, vengeance thoughts, sleeplessness, deep...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 15, 2015

    Sometimes I wonder if most of the hurt I felt

    was because of my own head, rather than what others had done or said. Why do I believe so easily that no one would want to bother with me? And why do I find it difficult to believe when someone does care? My mind keeps on making up excuses, scenarios; all designed to tell me...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 17

    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2009
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