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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    My Mind Wants Me to Work and My Gut Wants to Dance

    Now, I know the chance of getting paid to dance is remote.  Also, today is a nice sunny day, the kind for wandering around outside, having fun yet I have to work to pay the bills, so here I have the problem.  To work or to have fun.  Now, if I could do them both at...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2011

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    So 9 months ago I had an anxiety attack out of nowhere. I had just finished exercising and was thinking over the many midterm exams I had pending for the following week and...
    acorrales acorrales 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    it's really weird how our thoughts can affect in our life.. my life in the edge ... and I'm gonna fall down ... fighting them needs alot of time, which is not available everytime...
    lilmemeunique lilmemeunique 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I battle depressing feelings and loneliness on a daily basis. I try to pick myself up from it and moving along but some days are so much harder than others to try and win this...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    I was feeling so up for a couple weeks there, but now I've just plummeted right back down. Why is this so difficult? I'm getting so frustrated with myself because I can't even...
    spiffyoctopus spiffyoctopus 18-21, F Nov 20

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    It's hitting me hard tonight. My dads in the hospital with congestive heart failure and I'm hurting deep. I must be strong though for my sisters. Hes not my biological dad but has...
    riddlesmile riddlesmile 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    If you're going through depression please checkout the youtube channel douglas bloch it will save your life man
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Nov 18

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    Please checkout the youtube channel douglas bloch it will save you please
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23

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    so i ate a piece of pizza... i purged. sorry if this triggers...
    LessFoodLessWeight LessFoodLessWeight 13-15, F Nov 23

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    Waivering between self pity and self hate. Feel like I'm back 10 squares.
    Incognit05 Incognit05 22-25, F Nov 25

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    Please check out the youtube channel douglas blotch it will save your life man
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Nov 29

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    Hi bipolar thing Can I I just feel one emotion for one day?! Not be in 8 moods in 7hrs. I don't wanna smile at people then turn around and be the devil I don't want to push away...
    fav777 fav777 18-21 Dec 3

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    Sometimes when my heart palpitates I remember how it would do so when I was being passionate....and I'd give anything to feel that way again... To think of how I'd never give up in...
    acorrales acorrales 26-30, F Dec 4

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    http://youtu.be/4Gp0QIXG4Aw please check this video out if you are suffering
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I really thought that after I had my children that my depression would just vanish but nope it didn't it's getting better but I can still feel it, the numbness the paranoia the...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    Everyday in my mind is an endless battle. think of it as the 300 spartans, they never gave up but in the end they didnt win the battle. I'm slowly losing my battle with depression...
    Palavo88 Palavo88 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    I have good days, but then I'm thrown off by feeling low and extremely depressed. I guess I try to suppress my emotions and it becomes unbearable. I feel constantly down with...
    fragmentsoflife fragmentsoflife 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO STILL TRIES TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS AFTER DEPRESSION HIT THEM HARD. THERE ISNT ENOUGH RECOGNITION FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT THEYRE GOING...
    frabsicoxx frabsicoxx 22-25, M Dec 9

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    I'm at constant war with the demons that reside in my soul .. some days I feel as if I'm on the winning team and I'm conquering the evil within me,, other days I feel the demons...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    December 3. Developing Healthy Tolerance. Many of us are skilled at denying and discounting what hurts us. We may endure a particular situation, telling ourselves repeatedly it's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 3

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    I feel like a lot of people treat depression as some kind of accomplishment, or that it is a competition between everybody else about who is depressed and who's not. We seem to...
    qwernia qwernia 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    Well I ended up telling her and she said we could just be friends and its been a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. Every time I see her I cannot focus on anything else...
    Lynanie Lynanie 16-17, F Nov 23

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    I've battled with depression for a long time. Most of my life honestly and lately here I've been learning a lot of things about myself. The one thing I've learned is to just be...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Another thing I thought of is that he's like jealous and in constant competition with me for my mom's like love and attention. I don't feel this way, in fact I have come to deal...
    dianamarie93 dianamarie93 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've alway had to be a fighter. Growing up with a disability in my school years was hard but when I went to public school after being at a private school for a long time was even...
    Rebelscorpio Rebelscorpio 22-25, F Dec 7

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    Oh god today has been a hard day. I feel so low... I've battled with PTSD, depression and anxiety for the past four years but holy **** today has been bad. Felt as if it's been...
    chipstickz chipstickz 31-35, F Nov 26

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    I found this on a Mindfulness Website today and it really resonated with me. I felt that others might like it too. It's about savouring every moment that we have. It's called...
    staleywise staleywise 56-60, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I recently found 1 wart on my scrotum. I immediately went to the med check and was prescribed colonyx. This cleared the wart after 4 days. The Med Check doc told me it was HPV...
    KeithOwen KeithOwen 41-45, M Nov 21

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    We've been friends for like 6 or so years. He always pulls the "im a bad friend" crap and constantly disappears without leaving brbs behind or anything. Sometimes he just leaves...
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F Dec 7

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    When I've taken those depression screening questionnaires the doctors have given me I always struggle with the questions about feeling hopeless. I don't quite know how to approach...
    transformerman transformerman 22-25 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I hate waking up everyday knowing that I'm going to have to deal with people and listen to yet another fight. When I'm upset I can't even depend on my mother to make sure I'm okay...
    speaklikeachild speaklikeachild 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    It's a constant fight with my emotions. I'm trying to stay positive.. Keep myself busy.. So busy that my mind can't wounded off. But that is impossible. I feel grief take over my...
    Princesjazmine90 Princesjazmine90 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 18

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    I enlisted for the military in early March. I had wanted to join since the 8th grade despite the depression and anxiety I suffered again and again. I worked hard to lose weight and...
    KeiKeiChan KeiKeiChan 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    ATTENTION PLEASE... I WANT YOU TO KNOW BEFORE YOU START READING THIS THAT THERE IS SOME MENTION OF PAST TRAUMA THAT COULD BE A TRIGGER FOR SOME PEOPLE. I DID NOT USE ANY BAD...
    jnjjnj2469 jnjjnj2469 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 26

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    Well ever since i was small Id be awaken to my parents constant arguing and fighting...theydbe on and off...off and on...my whole life. I didn't even wanna come home sometimes...
    wilwuch wilwuch 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago
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