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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    My Mind Wants Me to Work and My Gut Wants to Dance

    Now, I know the chance of getting paid to dance is remote.  Also, today is a nice sunny day, the kind for wandering around outside, having fun yet I have to work to pay the bills, so here I have the problem.  To work or to have fun.  Now, if I could do them both at...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2011

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    I have been invited to a "depression social group" for a craft day. There will be people there that I don't get along because they can't keep the past in the past. I'm thinking of...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    Hi I have recently been diagnosed with POTS and I have hyper-mobility syndrome. I am kinda just trying to come to terms with it at the moment. I have a son with EDS and autism and...
    Naddybelles Naddybelles 26-30, F Oct 14

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    I know I don't deserve to feel this way because there are tons of people out there who struggle to keep their weight at a healthy number, and it's not fair to them that they...
    nicoleblu nicoleblu 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I just can't handle people looking at me and calling me chubby
    KatieP767 KatieP767 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    I feel I'm going round in circles. I have no one to talk to who understands. I wake up, look after kids, go to work, come home, bath kids, feed kids, put kids to bed, study and...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    I just wanna say bye im gonna die and dont be here the next day
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    Its true. It has been a really bad struggle lately. Its like, I feel like im never good enough.
    YouAreNotYourSkin YouAreNotYourSkin 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    i cut today... i had the nerve to tell my friend to resist the urge, and yet i can't resist my own. it just felt right... at the time... now it doesn't feel so right. i feel like I...
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 13

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    I have a friend I have known for 4 years and a friend I met 3 months ago. Friend of 4 years is taking new friend away from me and trying to be better than me. I can't take it. I'm...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F Oct 14

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    A year ago I was 140lbs now I'm 230lbs! I don't want to go out now. I never go anywhere but to work. I don't have money to buy "healthy food" & I'm depressed HELP!
    Rosebox Rosebox 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Ever since, I've always been thin. It runs in our family. But the difference is, my being skinny is bordering unhealthy. And I just started realizing it recently.. I guess because...
    wanderingsilhouette wanderingsilhouette 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Music helps me with my constant battle with depression. I feel like music is my drug. It makes me smile, dance, do crazy things you can't even imagine (when i am alone of course...
    cacophony88 cacophony88 16-17, M Oct 12

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    When ISIS changed its name in June from “the Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant” (ISIL, or the Arabic acronym ISIS) to simply “the Islamic State”, this was a shift of...
    valha11a valha11a 46-50, M Sep 24

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    As I return home, I been pondering... Should I do it this weekend. Just end it all... I still can't find happiness... Human beings need to be happy, need to feel like they have a...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 11

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    TRUST IN YOURSELF I am sitting here most of the time dealing with so much that I am taking some meds. to clam me down and allow me to try and relax, but at the same time they...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T Oct 14

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    I've got PTSD. I proudly served my country for 8 years and deployed a few times to Iraq. Since that time, I have dealt with memories, nightmares, a failed marriage, and other...
    amp6046 amp6046 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    When I’m happy, I really try to embrace it. I embrace the smiles, the laughs, the “I’m okay” feeling. People might think it’s silly that I need to document when I smile...
    covermeup covermeup 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Hi, this is my first time writing anything here. I don't really know why but I think it's because I really don't want people to change the way they see me, like I'm a stranger or...
    latinafromnorway latinafromnorway 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 3

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    Well it will be about a week before I find out if I have cancer or not, in the mean while I will be going in again in the morning to do a Upper Endoscopy to see if I have cancer on...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I have a best friend that is a guy and i have been made fun of by other girls in my school and they have guys friends. so my best friend stuck up for me when i needed him the most...
    aspenw71101 aspenw71101 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I honestly don't know to feel right now. I've battled with depression nearly all my life. Even as a young child I excluded myself from others and kept very quiet. I was always so...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    i can describe depression in one way. its like having a bully inside your head every single day. he puts limits on you and tells you that you can not do this and that because...
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    It's not fair... I realise that my own battle with this monster appeared when I was about 16 years old. I went through so much of a transition in moving from normal life as I...
    Chopinsivories Chopinsivories 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I ran today. I ran until I could not run any longer. I ran longer. I passed a couple sitting in their front lawn. Oh how I wished I was them! I could even settle to be the person...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 13-15, M Oct 9

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    Every day, I wake up in a full body of armor and a broadsword ready for another battle with depression and anxiety.
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    I'm just that girl, I'm the one who was always there for you when you needed a smile. The one who fought you're battles with you. That girl who picked you up when you tried giving...
    XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't even now where to start... I've been fighting depression all my life about various things. I'm 39 years old now, and I'm still fighting. Right now with how things are in...
    ioskeha ioskeha 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 13

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    It's Me And You Against The World. It was a Thursday night that Mama drove me to Micheals to get art supplies for a English project. It was already dark and rainy. Which the rain...
    TheWhimsicalHeart TheWhimsicalHeart 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    Sure, I can fight the day with a smile, post funny posts, and create warmth in others from my smiley, sweet personality. But as soon as that door closes, I'm no longer me. I'm no...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    "You cut me open and I keep bleeding in love." ~ Leona Lewis, Bleeding Love. Even though I keep getting hurt by this girl I can't get over her.. "And it's draining all of me" I am...
    BulletForMyBlackVeil BulletForMyBlackVeil 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    The Tony Stone picture selection provides promotion pictures of creative inventory images and photos from black and white, panoramic, and surreal Office environment scenes.   BBB...
    Anthony825d5cr0 Anthony825d5cr0 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 23

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    This term won't usually show up within our no cost dictionary, but the definition from our quality Unabridged Dictionary is offered listed here on the minimal basis. Take note that...
    Wendolynce106 Wendolynce106 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    Haven't left my apartment in 3 days. Found my neighbor dead about a month ago and think I'm just beginning to process it. Between that and my already unstable mindset, I don't know...
    mi33sardonic mi33sardonic 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    He choose love, I choose freedom. He choose love because he saw beauty and happiness in it. I choose freedom because love was like a prison to me. Now he's living a life full of...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 45 mins ago

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    He is constantly drinking beer, and now that hes back from his deployment of 4 months he gets about a month of vacation. He was not on the field but he is a welder instead. Anyways...
    messedupgirl167 messedupgirl167 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    When it comes to my mental illnesses which are schizophrenia anxiety disorder depression and intrusive disturbed images thoughts and feelings sometimes even random words pop in my...
    Janisoneluv Janisoneluv 26-30, F Oct 5

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