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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21, 2014

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Two sides......One side.

    ...silent, numb, empty, sleepless, no empathy, mask like face, no emotions, cannot feel.....keep fighting off the wanting to give up...The other side....racy, too many feelings...anger, frustration, rage, hardness, too much empathy, vengeance thoughts, sleeplessness, deep...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    rod258 rod258 51-55, M 21 mins ago

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    I know when I'm being open minded and when I'm not. Probably BECAUSE I'm generally open minded, I'll take an opposing, close minded position to generate debate. I enjoy the...
    TampaPete TampaPete 36-40, M 3 hrs ago

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    Every day. Even the smallest things stick with me all day, a thoughtless off the cuff comment made by someone and it goes round and round. I internalise my problems so much that...
    tinyheart8888 tinyheart8888 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Yes i am fight with loneliness.. I dont know about my life worth for living.. I was born without loving family. They just think about money. How i can give them much money. As long...
    myselfhere myselfhere 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    So i am in a relationship for nearly 5 months, i found this beautiful girl on tinder. On the first day i pick her up next to her house, and went to eat out, each one of us start...
    Wolfcorleone Wolfcorleone 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    I. Just woke to a horrible nightmare me and my ex got in an awfull fight and she said horrible hurtfull things to me .... But in reality that would never happen we want to get back...
    justashyguy87 justashyguy87 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    when everyone compare me with another, when no one thinks im worthy, no one wants me, no one see me, when everybody underestimate me, when people thinks i havr autism, when people...
    Imadori Imadori 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    You made me stay, you made me promise the impossible. I no longer have the option so I now have to accept my pain and suffering as something I will always carry with me. Because of...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am going to cover a lot of bases about myself here....I feel as though the last couple weeks I've been losing my mind, and I have to get out who I am in some form or another, and...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Words are useless. They fall on deaf ears and offer empty promises of encouragement. Words are used to mask so much and can be the brutal truth or a concealing lie. There is no way...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everyday I breath is a battle. I am stuck in a world that I am trying to get out. My life has always been a hard one...and lately it has been a hard battle. In a toxic marriage...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am at a constant war with myself. The front on which this war is fought has changed recently. I find myself wanting to get better....for the first time in forever. I want to be...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    13 facts must be known if you love someone who fights depression 1. Depression is not a choice. Depression is one of the most helpless and frustrating experiences a person can...
    Fo2los Fo2los 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't believe in stupidity I feel there are just things people have not yet learned. Rather than labelling them as stupid I feel that a better word is unadventurous. There is...
    Gingurrx15 Gingurrx15 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I promised that if I ever got better I would do something to help others in my situation. That was 34 years ago. I am just so happy to be well again. So much time has past that I...
    quickrush quickrush 51-55, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    No matter where I am what I'm doing anything I see my mind will tell me to use it or do something in someway to kill myself! I was on the bus home earlier today and I had a thought...
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have battles with depression nearly my entire my life!! Some days are worse than others!
    cynthiashortridge cynthiashortridge 31-35, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm a strong girl who is trying to fight my own battles and emotional battles get in the way and trying not to stress with my daughter on the way
    Emotionalgirl1012 Emotionalgirl1012 22-25, F a week ago

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    This is a brief telling of the three years I spent with this teacher all the way until I fell head over heels in love with her. This might bother your eyes with the block wall of...
    AKoolGuy AKoolGuy 18-21, M a week ago

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    Since I was about 10 years old, I have struggled with my weight. I have gone through periods of time when I refused to eat because I hated myself, I have gone through periods of...
    stellar3658 stellar3658 16-17, F a week ago

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    I have battled with depression for many years. With my doctors permission, I slowly weened off a high dose of effexor 225 MG .. I was just wanting to sleep all the time. I recently...
    angelanicole89 angelanicole89 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    Another day, spent here. This place, this job. Life happens, all around me, and i exist as the same mechanical redundant rituals set to repeat. Its no secret anymore, as everyone...
    UndyingWraith UndyingWraith 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    Some people don't like the term "battle" but it is a apt description when dealing with M/D, and you are in it for the long haul. I was diagnosed with it long before " bipolar" was...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M Aug 25

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    every morning my daughter wakes up at 5:00 lack of sleep the night before along with the depression doesn't help I feel like there's a thousand pounds on my body holding me down...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 25

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    Mind if I rattle on for a while? I guess I'm feeling especially sentimental to write this, quite rarely do I make a point to put words to what's eating me up. I guess time to time...
    Azureskye Azureskye 18-21 1 Response Aug 25

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    .. ( whispering to myself... ) .. I think theres something wrong with me..... It shouldnt be so hard to socialize with people.. I shouldnt have to keep fighting moods... I shouldnt...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    Not physical fights mind you, but I love to have a battle of brains. A good debate or argument is far better than bearing the sh*t out of someone, but I could do that too if it...
    Dragonforce7 Dragonforce7 16-17, M Aug 22

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    Dark grayish smoke fills the air, following the acrid stench of rotting flesh and burning wood, places the mood across the the battle field a dreary one. The earth is scarred black...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I guess I'm selfish, and needy, and pitiful. Sorry if I bother you with my "problems" I hate when I'm happy, and suddenly, I remember my flaws, and worries, it just kinda hits...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I just want to share a conversation I had with a coworker earlier today A lot of people a extremely self loathing, myself included, and that leads to constantly holding yourself...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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