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I Fight a Constant Battle With My Mind

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 194 People

    Right Now I Don't Understand

    I feel like I'm getting reckless, careless with ****.  I need to watch out.  Now is NOT the time to **** up.  Stealing, and then on the way home this evening, I ran a red light and a lady in an SUV almost hit me when she was turning on an arrow.  :/  What...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    In A Fight For Peace

    I am in a constant battle within my mind. My husband says he can see it on my face everyday. He thinks I overthink things. But the fact is I am always running through events and scenarios. When something happens I obsess about what I should have said/or not said that would...
    wingsofreedom72 wingsofreedom72 36-40, F 3 Responses May 16, 2011

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    And This Time, I Won =)

    Some of you may have noticed that I've been having a rough time lately. Depression has been bugging me a lot and stuff - not necessarily good stuff - has happened. There has been a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs. I've lacked energy to do....well, ANYTHING. Even going up the...
    peanlo peanlo 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    Ha Ha

    my mind has a goal it's to drive me crazy. Stick around long enough and I'll tell you who wins
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2009

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    A Poem

    Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared. I looked into her eyes I got lost in their...
    Sorangie Sorangie 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Some Problems Are Real

    Thankfully most of mine are all in my head. lol!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2011

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    Light And Dark

    When one says "battle", I picture swords flashing, horses screaming, men dying right and left. Much like the battle scene in The Chronicles of Narnia or Eragon or even Star Wars.  And in a sense, that's how the battles with my mind work.I am constantly at war with myself. People...
    MasterOfStudies MasterOfStudies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2011

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    Conflicted

    My mind is a very confusing place. sometimes it feels like i have two minds or something, i get so conflicted. i over think everything, to the point where it gives me the worst anxiety. then, another part of my mind is all like "chill outttt, why are you so uptight?" but i really...
    r548 r548 18-21, F Mar 24, 2011

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work

    place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small town , small minded , narrow vision of the world. Too many people are willing to tell you that you must be a lying braggart rather than believing...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 Aug 21, 2014

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    Mind Funk

    My mind is always analyzing and always on the go.. I try to calm myself down but unfortunately my mind won't let me sometimes and when my body is completely active and won't stop moving my mind is relaxed and slows down to a crawl..
    dejavudreamer dejavudreamer 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2008

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    I Wish It Stop For A Moment.............!!!!!!

    hurt...................sadness................anger...................sleeplessness................panic...................stress..................and anxiety are just the few among many i am feeling in my mind. it feels like a dustbin which i have forgotten to empty. i wish i...
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F Jan 2, 2012

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    Two sides......One side.

    ...silent, numb, empty, sleepless, no empathy, mask like face, no emotions, cannot feel.....keep fighting off the wanting to give up...The other side....racy, too many feelings...anger, frustration, rage, hardness, too much empathy, vengeance thoughts, sleeplessness, deep...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Related Experiences

    With my mind and my heart..ones always right and always one's wrong I wish they could agree. Im having a hard time letting my emotions get the best of me. I guess that always was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 3

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now. I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F May 3

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    And I won. Oh my god. Those panic attacks and violent thoughts were enough to make me never have another baby! I knew I was at risk because of my history with depression, but...
    rhiajanita rhiajanita 22-25, F Apr 25

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    I am starting therapy again on Thursday. I am really nervous to relive all the bad stuff again. And I am seeing a psychiatrist the same day, I don't know what to expect with that...
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F Apr 27

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    I was 19 when I had my first baby... but my depression started about five months into my pregnancy. I was so young and boyfriend was my age so definitely young as well. when I...
    crazy4love crazy4love 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    Has anyone with pots syndrome ever passed out? I felt dizzy when I got out of bed but that's usually usual... And then I was reaching for a pen for my sister and I don't remember...
    Kru24 Kru24 18-21 1 Response May 7

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    It must have been like three months ago I remember it like it happened just yesterday though You felt lonely, broken, lost but I held you tight and told you together we'd be at the...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F May 9

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    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of...
    openlancelot openlancelot 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    It has been very difficult to realize about ADHD. I don't care too much about Anxiety and Depression. But adult ADD/ADHD is extremely complicated. I completely forget things. A...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    It's been a lifelong torture. I've hated myself for a sling as I can remember. I'm over weight, I'm bad at retaining information, I have severe anxiety. Everyday is a struggle...
    Moses815 Moses815 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey I find no matter what weight I am someone has to give me a hard time about it.. Is this the way for everyone else ?
    llivan llivan 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I wonder when I die will I live that care free soul of life or will I be sent to hell Will I be happy when I'm dead
    TheDominantAsian TheDominantAsian 18-21, M Apr 24

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    I love going to the gym and working out and I love the high i get from the endorphins. ... I just HATE how I look in the mirror...
    SarasXXXsecret SarasXXXsecret 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 29

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    I used to go to the toilet in between classes just to get myself together over and over again everyday by taking deep breaths while holding tightly against the wall. And then I'll...
    CloeSmile CloeSmile 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Everyday I feel Homesick for a Place that doesn't Exist.
    ileneoveru ileneoveru 18-21, F Apr 30

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    Even though it was several years ago, every time I've had a bad day, It reminds me of the time I felt depressed nearly everyday. My energy was always low, always felt tired...
    pappa94 pappa94 18-21, M May 3

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    Ashley Graham! I love her and her hard work in the modeling industry. Every woman is beautiful! Every Body is beautiful!
    SarasXXXsecret SarasXXXsecret 31-35, F 5 Responses May 8

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    i had a perfectly fine birth 2002 then i had a miscarriage in 2006,2007, and 2009. now its 6yrs since the last pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage. now i have not been...
    lonelymom1982 lonelymom1982 31-35, F May 10

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    forbidden67 forbidden67 46-50, F May 12

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    I wish I didn't have this condition. It can ruin your social life. Too bad mine is genetic.
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I've had depression for years, since I was 7. Bullies and family are the cause of it. It's such a horrible thing to experience and I'm here for anyone who is battling depression...
    anonymousgirl1906 anonymousgirl1906 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I couldn't feel sadder because of my weight and look. I feel so miserable realizing that it's almost impossible to get rid of my tire of fat and build up some muscle.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    all I want to do is sleep. I know this vicious cycle too well. but I can't seem to break it. I've packed on 15 pounds. I don't want to DIE I just don't want to do anything. Gawd...
    losee44 losee44 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i feel so insignificant and weak at the moment, nothing i ever do makes a difference. i give her my everything and she takes more, i work unto exhaustion and they dock my pay, i...
    lilhunters lilhunters 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    I suffered depression for about 2 years, which according to my doctor was about normal. I still battle anxiety on the whole but I think it will get easier. My battle with...
    MayaKing MayaKing 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    He is with me every single day. Every morning I wake up and the monster is there. Every evening I go to bed and, still, he is with me. He stays quiet most days, maybe a low...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 7 Responses Apr 23

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    “Depression is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die.”
    kaylaxwonderland kaylaxwonderland 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Due to some problem with my visa, I had to go back to China to live with my parents and find work there after studying in the US for two years. During these two years, I made sure...
    LouraMax LouraMax 22-25, F Apr 30

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    The pain is emotional, not physical--although my chest hurts from the grief. My disabled husband lost his job, I am barely working, and we have constant appointments without the...
    jennytressler jennytressler 41-45 Apr 30

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    I know I'm not alone. Many people I know do too. I have good days but some pretty rotten days where I need to hide from the world. The good days are awesome and I smile as much as...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 4 Responses May 13

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