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I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

do you fight depression? do you fight loneliness? then come and join people who know and understand... 58,240 People

    Depression is such a cruel punishment.

    There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood test to send people scurrying in concern, just the slow erosion of self, as insidious as cancer. And like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience ; a room in hell with only your name on the door. Martha Manning...
    Acid1 Acid1 70+, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I thought I was slipping into depression,

    turns out I was just hungry :]
    bR0k3nWings bR0k3nWings 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    when I'm depressed I eat

    and sleep a lot but I don't gain weight. O and I'm a housekeeper so I always feel unappreciated along with feeling unappreciated in my personal life.
    Introvert01 Introvert01 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyday I plunge deeper into the rabbit hole

    wondering if I'll ever find a way out. The pain and emptiness I feel inside continues to be ever present. Unfortunately, no one can see past the performance I put on everyday hiding my true self behind this mask of guilt, frustration, and self-loathing. For some reason, this...
    Dade34 Dade34 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's hard to continue living your life

    when all you can think about is ending it.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    i give up on life already.

    i cant take anymore. im sick of people hurting me and using me n playing games w my head. im depressed already without them making it worse.
    cooper3366 cooper3366 31-35, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    My boyfriend is upset

    that I can't trust him. This little demon called depression is in my ear telling me lies I can't help but believe.... even when I know they're wrong.
    BriHarper14 BriHarper14 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Aplus82 Aplus82 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't decide if I'm depressed

    or tired or both. I have no motivation to do anything and I feel super weak.
    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    Loneliness causes depression.

    Depression causes loneliness. Welcome to the full circle.
    Thesoutherner Thesoutherner 66-70, M 5 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    Telling someone with depression to "just be

    happy" or "just smile" is like tossing a kid with no arms into a lake and saying "just swim"
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 4

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    For you who don't understand what depression is

    or don't feel it: Depression is the empty feeling in your stomach. It is the feeling of wanting to cry almost every second of everyday. It is feeling lonely even when you're around people, and wanting to be alone and at the same time wanting to feel important. It's the nagging...
    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 10 Responses Jan 19

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    It has been to long. I haven't done it

    since I got 28 stitches in my wrist about six months ago, but I just don't think I can help it tonight ...
    Echo0fSilence Echo0fSilence 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    These nails in my abdomen sing to you the songs

    of freedom. Seeping down to rest upon wooden plastic. Declaring the last song as I make an escape. Glance toward my arm, for its torn and detached. Now that look on your face is the last thing I see; Easing my heart as your discomfort pleases me.
    Moweb95 Moweb95 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I started another addiction today.

    It makes me feel so high, i love it. But its like fire. It's so warm from a far..yet if you touch it, it burns your flesh...Leaving a scar.
    DetachedCinnamon DetachedCinnamon 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    (I just wrote this reply to someone

    who was commenting about feeling better, and what follows is my reply, but because it wasn't particularly appropriate to the thread as a whole I decided to post it here) That's nice, everyone deserves to be happy. However one must be careful not to expect all depressed people...
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I feel so sad and no energy

    or desire to workout or do anything
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am broken. I am sick.

    My soul is torn, shattered, I'm needy. That's ok. Because I was never raised. I was never cultivated. It's ok. I'll be ok. I think.....I just want to be fixed in the ways that I've been so broken. I didn't do this on my own. I know that "my life is in my hands" but if...
    expressivelyMe expressivelyMe 36-40, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    i feel like i hate everyone in my life

    and I want to abandon it and start over somewhere new. im tired of feeling like i cant connect with anyone. im so outgoing but i feel completely alone. im an honest and fun person (i guess only to me). im sick and tired of always being by myself. or feeling like no one gets me...
    alwaysgloomy alwaysgloomy 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Ever have a day where you want to just take the

    day off from life? Curl up into the fetal position and disappear, cry, yell, and get all other emotions out of you, in hopes that you may feel normal for a little while?
    readum16 readum16 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 16

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    Aint That The Truth!!!!!!!

    when i was younger....id put my arms in my shirt and pretend i had no arms. Would restart video games whenever i knew i was going to lose. Slept with all my stuffed animals as a child so none of them got offended.. had that one pen with 4 colours and tried to push all the buttons...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    The sad part about depression,

    is when u burst out crying alone in your room, and u realize that no one truly knows how unhappy u are bcz u don't know how to explain whats going on and no one wants to listen either..
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 11

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    I am writing this. Cause I wanna die.

    no I won't kill myself. life is just too precious. But I'm tired of thinking about dying. I'm tired of being lonely and depressed and I'm just frustrated and sick and angry. I hate controlling my tears. but I hate crying. I just wanna burst out. rip myself apart. That.. right...
    DarkPrincess10 DarkPrincess10 18-21, F 13 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    When I first herd about people

    who cut n burn themselves to make them feel better it really freaked me out. I thought wtf kind of person would inflict pain on to themselves like that to feel better about life. I never grasped it at all. Not untill years later after I picked up the blade for the first time...
    Echo0fSilence Echo0fSilence 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    There comes a time when giving up is the best

    option. Just give in to death. I'm weak, so it will do more good than bad. It's either I die or I make a mistake of hurting someone else. I'm done with conscious thought. I've given enough and I've served whatever purpose. Now all is left is when and how. Disappear.
    Lunakicker Lunakicker 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Trying To Love...

    Falling in love...or being in love when you suffer from depression seems like a monumental task to the person suffering from it... It takes an incredible amount of trust. You have to look at yourself, wade through all the negative self talk that you hear in your head all the...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 11 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    happyattimes happyattimes 36-40, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I finally decided to write my last note.

    ..I know no one will claim me pr miss me...im sorry for the people at my work ..they will never suspected how deep and heavy my depression was...I tried..I gave all I had...I was a fighter.. proud of who I was...but I have to die..for my own safety...
    Sabina76 Sabina76 36-40, F 36 Responses Feb 25

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    hi..this is the first time i ever used a blog.

    .. i was so lonely..that i google what i was feeling and this website blogger appeared..i m single 30 living im pakistan... i lost my father when i was young.. mom few months bk ...i go to work..sits extra hours to be away from myself may be.. am lost broke... i miss her and i...
    thinknew84 thinknew84 26-30, F 6 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    You call me stupid? I fake a smile everyday

    and you believe it. I force a laugh and you think I'm happy. Who's stupid now?
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 6 Responses Mar 18

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    I 2005 I had a daughter in law

    and grand daughter killed by a drunk driver and soon after that I had a heart attack that almost killed me brought on by the accident. Then in 2007 I was diagnosed with prostate cancer which I have so far recovered from. My depression was brought on by the thought of why is God...
    Chuckr6 Chuckr6 66-70, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    And today is no different.

    I am struggling with loneliness but I may have to be alone but I can still be here for others. The only way I can make myself feel like I deserve to live is if I can help people with their struggles. I have lots of compassion and very little outlet for it :( As strange as it...
    steveblue steveblue 51-55, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Just listening to my friends talk about their

    boyfriends disgusts me. While I sit here and think about which bunny cage my bunny would like most. No one realizes that I don't give a flying **** if your boyfriends moms cousins brothers daughter just got a ******* pony. Okay? Okay.
    Breeya Breeya 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My Life

    I'm perceived as the funny guy. The guy that makes jokes. In a way it's a facade. I use it to hide who I am. What's inside of me. I appreciate humor so when I talk to people I use it. I'm very creative. They say a poor life gifts you with arts. In a way I should be thankful... My...
    baconrind baconrind 26-30, M 11 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    I ******* hate my life,

    I hate my family I hate school I just hate everything. I cut most days bow because i deserve the pain, I deserve everything I get. I hope I cut so deep one day I just bleed to much and die. I wish I didn't exist right now but I'm to scared to kill myself. I'm to ugly to get a...
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    helpmeimfukkedup helpmeimfukkedup 13-15, M 29 Responses Jan 10

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    was on 300 mg of seroquel

    for years. worked good was getting on a good track and then became pregnant and had to stop my medication. it's hard enough being abandoned and now have to be a single mom yet again. And been a diffuse pregnancy so far been off work 2 going on 3 month due to hyperemesis...
    inthismoment7106 inthismoment7106 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Feel Sad And Lonely

    I'm 20 years old. I feel like I should be having the best time of my life right now, but I'm not. I feel so lonely and worthless. Nobody wants to hang out with me. I always call people and everyone is "busy". I don't even know why this is happening to me Why me? Weekends are...
    sadgirl20 sadgirl20 22-25, F 95 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    does anyone else play the happy role in front

    of other people and family just so they don't see how much ur hurting and suffering?
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    Hello, I'm feeling very lonely

    and depressed, I was texting a girl I met at the mall the other day. She just randomly said she doesn't wanna see or talk to me again. I don't know what I even did wrong. I'm now really depressed over it, and some other people have blocked me as well on here. I don't know what I...
    LiveYourLife4U LiveYourLife4U 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    A Crap Life

    Everyday i hate waking up i dread it. same old crap going through the motions smiling even if i dont want to i have a family but feel i am taken for granted eveyday i still feel as if i live alone at the moment i am even having trouble feeling happy about anything and considered...
    mamdo2 mamdo2 36-40, F 43 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Let Me Help You With The Fight:

    The number one thing I see on here is depression, what a tough topic to cover… It affects all ages, it affects people to different extents, and each person is unique. I’ll try to cover things that will help EVERYONE who is feeling down and I really hope I make an impact on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 37 Responses Jan 18, 2013

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    And I want to kill myself a lot.

    I hate myself so much. My childhood & blame just eats at me... And destroys everything, including my peace of mind. I just want to rest. You know really rest. I don't want to kill myself. I do but I don't. I just don't see myself ever loving me.. It's such a struggle to breathe...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F 14 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Hope?

    Loneliness is one of the more constricting emotions I experience. It’s the emptiness of being invisible in a room full of people. It’s the desolate feeling of struggling without stirring compassion. I see people move forward with their lives and I see those who are involved...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 5 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I want to drop out of highschool

    because of it. I am sick and tired of going in and out of hospitals for depression. I haven't been in school for a full school year science 7th grade and I haven't been in school for almost a month now. I have aspergers autism, anxiety bi-polar ex. I know it's a bad decision...
    animelover1212 animelover1212 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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