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I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

do you fight depression? do you fight loneliness? then come and join people who know and understand... 52,376 People

    I just have to keep my head up high

    and push for the darkness to achieve victory
    Kevin2017 Kevin2017 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can't get my mind right.

    .. not more than twenty minutes ago I was feeling great like I could take on the whole world... now I'm empty... I hate myself right now.... I wanna feel some kind of feeling from someone else... I Wana fight.. spit blood.. squeeze a trigger. .. till the gun clicks.. I wanna...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    ATTENTION: ALL DEPRESSED,

    LONELY, and ANTISOCIAL PEOPLE!!! Hi.
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 20 Responses Jul 26

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    My Last Letter When I Was 14.

    When I was fourteen I was really depressed so I decided to kill myself. Before I died I wanted to leave a note to my only friend Karla and this is how it went: Stars like diamonds in the sky, They are the things that help me get by. They shine so bright in my eyes, They are the...
    Unabletoconnect Unabletoconnect 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 2, 2013

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    Woke up feeling OK. Logged on Facebook

    and the usual stuff pops on my news feed. Saw pictures of people getting ahead with life. Saw my own pictures having what others call a good time. Saw many event invitations and friend requests I just could not confirm. That's it. I saw too much that I don't feel seeing my own...
    Alyeskaa Alyeskaa 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was winning. My lovely

    and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a 'Demon'. something I could 'kill'. I came to the realization that I obsess heavily over this to the point that I hallucinate...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hope?

    Loneliness is one of the more constricting emotions I experience. It’s the emptiness of being invisible in a room full of people. It’s the desolate feeling of struggling without stirring compassion. I see people move forward with their lives and I see those who are involved...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I want to have someone

    who could love me, I always search for love on internet and that made realised how brocken am I, and I don't think I could have cure. I am desesperate trying to find someone who could fix me instead of fixing myself...
    Rosa2308 Rosa2308 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Hey there. There is no

    such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let your emotion controls you but the other way around. Happiness is not in the circumstances. Its your choice whether you...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    bhavsmart bhavsmart 31-35, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I cry for no reason.

    Sometimes I laugh to hide the demons that haunt my brain every day. Sometimes even if the rare occasion im with a friend at school I just sit in a corner nearly shaking from anxiety. I just want to die. I just wish I could talk all day and not give a crap about what anyone says...
    AwesomeErica AwesomeErica 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Aint That The Truth!!!!!!!

    when i was younger....id put my arms in my shirt and pretend i had no arms. Would restart video games whenever i knew i was going to lose. Slept with all my stuffed animals as a child so none of them got offended.. had that one pen with 4 colours and tried to push all the buttons...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    It's hard to continue living your life

    when all you can think about is ending it.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 30

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    i feel like i hate everyone in my life

    and I want to abandon it and start over somewhere new. im tired of feeling like i cant connect with anyone. im so outgoing but i feel completely alone. im an honest and fun person (i guess only to me). im sick and tired of always being by myself. or feeling like no one gets me...
    alwaysgloomy alwaysgloomy 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 13

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    I often feel depressed mainly by the fact

    that nobody understands me. i have no friends i walk the path of loneliness can anyone else out there relate to this if so i'll listen
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    now..is it fair that am crying alone in my room

    at 2 a.m and don't know why? what to do about it and where to start..am exhausted..
    trytrytry2 trytrytry2 26-30, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am writing this. Cause I wanna die.

    no I won't kill myself. life is just too precious. But I'm tired of thinking about dying. I'm tired of being lonely and depressed and I'm just frustrated and sick and angry. I hate controlling my tears. but I hate crying. I just wanna burst out. rip myself apart. That.. right...
    DarkPrincess10 DarkPrincess10 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 7

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    I don't want to give you my life story here on

    how I am depressed and that's due to the fact everyone here has had their problems here too. This more of an explanation as to what I mean. As most of you know, some people in life find even the smallest things in life a struggle and that's me included. I'm basically writing...
    HelterSkelter1 HelterSkelter1 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    'Dance in the rain, because you can't wait

    for the storm to be over to be productive' Iv heard a million of them, those jingles and cliche mantras that taste sour and slighty cheesy in my mouth. Like they try too hard to compel and motivate. But this one stuck for some reason..this one felt like it understood that I was...
    yourtheocean yourtheocean 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 3

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    (I just wrote this reply to someone

    who was commenting about feeling better, and what follows is my reply, but because it wasn't particularly appropriate to the thread as a whole I decided to post it here) That's nice, everyone deserves to be happy. However one must be careful not to expect all depressed people...
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 4 Responses Aug 28

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    I just feel that my future is going to suck

    so much...i hate myself...i don't want friends but i don't want to be alone ...i just can't stop thinking about death...i can't feel love i just hate to see people kissing,dating things like that...i don't want to talk with girls cuz the way i'am no girl would like me...i just...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you take a look at Kat Williams,

    his persona on stage is totally different then the one you see in interviews. Everyone wants to be around the stage guy. Most comedians are cynical. Marlon Wayans, another comedian once explained that comedy is an art-form that comes from ones struggles and pain. Which makes a...
    TheVisualist TheVisualist 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 12

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    is there any one around the north Alabama

    that would be interested in meeting an talking I'm so lonely
    kev1254 kev1254 26-30, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm so lost...i don't care about anything.

    ..i just want to die...but i'm too scared to do it...so now it's just wait until i'am 30...if nothing shows up to save me i'll be strong enough to kill myself...a weak and lonely suicidal...yea that's me
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I feel Like ending my life every day.

    I cant smile any more unless its fake or i smile and then remember how horrible everything is and the smile turns into a frown fast. My father passed away 4 years ago and life has never been the same. my whole world changed, my mom went from being a great mother who baked...
    sin3133 sin3133 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    On most days I want to be free of the fear

    that I am not good enough, as a daughter, a friend, an employee, everything. Wish there was an easier way to stop being so mediocre.
    Alyeskaa Alyeskaa 26-30, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Today I found out I didn't get the test prep

    instructor position I was applying for and one of the students that I tutor didn't pass their class and I just feel like a total failure. I know it's an overreaction but I feel terrible, I feel like dying. I'm just really really sad at the moment, I've been feeling so isolated...
    beatingdepression beatingdepression 22-25, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I have a girlfriend. But thats the problem.

    This is the first person ive ever been close to and im already almost out of high school. She is my best friend, but im constantly in this state of depression and loneliness because we havnt gotten along for a whole month now after dating for over a year. I need someone to talk...
    Xychorite Xychorite 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    What's to say? Years back I took a hard look at

    myself... Was going to either end up dead or in prison. All my buddies had relationships, budding careers. I drank the coolaid and found a woman I liked... Well enough. Banged out 2 wonderful kids. ******* trapped. She knew I didn't love her. Can't blame her for trying. I...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Throughout the course of my life,

    I have been faced with all sorts of grim situations. However, every time my demons would raise their ugly heads I always found the strength in me to keep going forward, even though at times it really felt as if the world was being thorn asunder beneath my very feet. This time...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It does get better For years

    and years I have suffered from Major Depression, ever since I was a teenager. It really became a problem as a teen, when I went to an all male high school where sport was a religion. Although academically gifted, my physical and athletic prowess was adversely affected by the...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    I'm so sick of letting time pass me by

    and just floating around in it because of the state of mind I'm in. Instead of actually LIVING life and making things happen, I'm too tired, down and anti-social to be even bothered to do anything...and time is slipping through my fingers.
    moongirl03 moongirl03 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 20

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    This my first time posting an experience,

    so here it goes... I decided that I wanted to try dating again. I've been talking to this guy for the past 2 weeks. Everything was cool until some of his remarks about certain things rubbed me the wrong way. He didn't really like the fact that I was mixed (black, Jamaican, and...
    black2987 black2987 26-30, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am broken. I am sick.

    My soul is torn, shattered, I'm needy. That's ok. Because I was never raised. I was never cultivated. It's ok. I'll be ok. I think.....I just want to be fixed in the ways that I've been so broken. I didn't do this on my own. I know that "my life is in my hands" but if...
    expressivelyMe expressivelyMe 36-40, F 8 Responses Aug 5

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    I think that I have beat my depression!

    It's a great feeling to be able to throw a razor away and not give a damn.
    Breeya Breeya 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 4

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    How I Beat Depression

    First off, I want to say that I'm not a doctor, nor would I want to be. More and more, it just seems they are pawns of Big Pharma, handing out prescriptions like candy. This is NOT right! Our bodies, minds, and spirits are nourished by food, exercise, interaction with others, and...
    Cargoyle Cargoyle 36-40, M 7 Responses Feb 7, 2011

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    I'm always depressed cuz i care too much about

    feelings such as being alone or feeling guilty and judged ...the only way for me to not be depressed is ignoring all feelings... better a cold heart then a broken one... that's how i deal with it.
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    At the end of the day no one gives a ****.

    Not friends, not family, everyone is selfish and self-absorbed. They don't really care, the only thing people give a **** about is their own ***. I feel like I have no one. No place to escape, no arms to run into. Nothing.
    moongirl03 moongirl03 18-21, F 14 Responses Dec 1

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    And I want to kill myself a lot.

    I hate myself so much. My childhood & blame just eats at me... And destroys everything, including my peace of mind. I just want to rest. You know really rest. I don't want to kill myself. I do but I don't. I just don't see myself ever loving me.. It's such a struggle to breathe...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F 15 Responses Nov 11

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    I want to die. I can't remember the last time I

    didn't Feel like that. my psychiatrist told me I should make an effort. since I'm still here, isn't that what I've been doing? I wish someone could help me. its the hardest thing for me to ask for but I've been begging them to help me for months and nothings changed. I just want...
    c130patra c130patra 26-30, F 22 Responses Nov 3

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    Sick of it. I'm wishing the Katrina

    that was killed in Lindt cafe in Sydney's Martin Place shooting was me. Funny...I share the sand name! Just wish it was me dead. Help me escape this depressed self, someone.. I need help. :(
    AFriend2All AFriend2All 36-40, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 31 Responses Jul 16

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    My Life

    I'm perceived as the funny guy. The guy that makes jokes. In a way it's a facade. I use it to hide who I am. What's inside of me. I appreciate humor so when I talk to people I use it. I'm very creative. They say a poor life gifts you with arts. In a way I should be thankful... My...
    baconrind baconrind 26-30, M 11 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    Trying To Love...

    Falling in love...or being in love when you suffer from depression seems like a monumental task to the person suffering from it... It takes an incredible amount of trust. You have to look at yourself, wade through all the negative self talk that you hear in your head all the...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 11 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    On some days I lose to it,

    but there are more days where I win over it. My friends are a bunch of people who I could share compatible weirdness with. They help me get through the day. My rescued dogs are the most positive creatures ever. They have so much love to give and they never seem to run out of it...
    Alyeskaa Alyeskaa 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    One more day alone home.

    ..my only friend is my computer...i think that if i were born with a normal body i would be happy,have many friends and a normal family...but in the end i would still be lost cuz i want to know my objective on life but i can't find it and i feel so sad,blind and angry with that...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I just want to get as far away from society

    and the bullshit of everyday life. Maybe go up to Alaska and live off the land
    shyguy247 shyguy247 26-30, M 11 Responses Nov 12

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    I thought I was slipping into depression,

    turns out I was just hungry :]
    bR0k3nWings bR0k3nWings 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 14

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    A Crap Life

    Everyday i hate waking up i dread it. same old crap going through the motions smiling even if i dont want to i have a family but feel i am taken for granted eveyday i still feel as if i live alone at the moment i am even having trouble feeling happy about anything and considered...
    mamdo2 mamdo2 36-40, F 45 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I have a beautiful wife lovely children

    and a great job my wife feel in love with me when I was sleeping in her ex girlfriends closet eating Mac n cheese and top ramen every night for dinner I used to feel on top of the world then something happened every thing started moving ahead I got the job we had a daughter of...
    itsjustme3684 itsjustme3684 26-30, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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